Tobias POV
Why am I ever sitting here? I hate weddings. I was invited by Chris and he insisted I would come. I don't even know his fiancé. I know Chris for about two years now. He regularly visits the city for his work and we met the other day. He's a great guy.
Ever since my Tris died I hated everything that had to do with love. Every time I see a couple I get jealous. It's been 4 years.
'Good to see you here!' He said just minutes ago before he took his place in front of everybody. He looked happy. Just like everyone else, except me. God, it's busy. They invited the whole town. I am the only outsider.
They turn around when the music starts. I hear ohs and ahs. I hear her dress was made by Chris' sister. At first I don't feel like turning around but as I hear someone whisper that Raven looks stunning I decide to take a glimpse of her.
My heart skips a beat. I see Tris, my Tris. But Tris is dead. This can't be happening, this must be a simulation. I blink a few times and I pinch myself in my arm. But she doesn't fade.
Her face is filled with joy. A spark of light I never saw before in her eyes that were always filled with fear and sadness. All she can see is the man waiting for her there. I am still frozen.
She takes a place next to Christopher and they trade smiles.
'Friends, we have joined here today to share with Christopher McGarret and Raven Joy an important moment in their lives. Their time together, they have seen their love and understanding of each other grow and blossom and now they have decided to live out the rest of their lives as one.' The minister speaks.
'Therefore if any man can shew any just cause, why they may not lawfully be joined together, let him now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold his peace.' I do not make a move, I do not say a word. Instead I keep my mouth shut. I am still is disbelief, not able to respond on what my eyes just showed me.
'Will you, Christopher McGarret, take this woman, Raven Joy, to be your wife? To have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do you apart?'
'I do,' he says. I still don't make a move.
'And will you, Raven Joy, take this man, Christopher McGarret, to be your husband? To have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do you apart?'
'I do,' She smiles.
'I now pronounce you wife and husband. . You may now kiss the bride.' And they kiss. Their kiss seems endless. Full of passion and joy. I feel my heart falling apart. I don't even know why I haven't left yet. Maybe it's because this might be the only time I will see Tris. My wish to see her one more time is granted. Maybe it isn't even her but just my imagination making up things.
'I already found you,' Chris says. And I see a tear falling over her Tris' face. I storm outside making people look at me. But I don't care.
So here I am, about a hour later, sitting outside of the building where the party was continuing. I don't feel like playing happy. I am trying to clear my mind.
'Not really a party animal?' Tris, Or Raven, I'm not sure what to call her, sits down next to me on the stairs. She smiles politely.
'Uh.. Not really.' I answer hesitating.
'Haha that's all right. I'm not really one either.' She shrugs. 'I am Raven by the way. You must be Tobias, Chris' friend.' I nod. 'You are from another city right? What is like there?'
'Oh you know, just like every city. Big.' I she playing mind games or something?
'Aha yes exactly.' she gives a sarcastic face. I study her face, her eyes, her nose, her lips. It's really her, no doubts possible.
'What?' I ask annoyed.
'I can't really imagine a big city,' she says. 'I mean I have visited a few but I haven't seen much of them.' I look at her again. I really can't believe I am looking at her. It's unreal.
'Now you are doing it again!' she says.
'What do you mean?' I raise my eyebrows.
'Looking like you've just seen a ghost.'
'In a certain way I just have.'
'What are you like a physic or so?'
'Most likely.'
'Oh great! Say hi to the ghosts who attend our wedding for me.' She says jokily. I quickly change subjects.
'So the thing Chris said, the text on the invitation. What does it mean?'
'I already found you. The lost get found basically,' she say with a weak and emotional smile. 'That's a long story. When I felt alone, when I felt like no one needed me or even cared about me he said that. He said he knew he already found me and that no one else needed to. That was the day he first kissed me, almost 4 years ago.' It's been 4 years ago since Tris died... 'Love is amazing. The ones we love define us, the decisions we make...'
'And the past,' I say finishing her sentence. She nods.
'For most it does. For me the past means nothing, I don't even know who I was then.'
'You lost your memories?' I say shocked. She nods. 'Do you want remember it?' I wait in pain for her answer.
'Not really. I don't think it's a good past.' I try to be selfless but it's hard. She doesn't want to know but I do.
'I know you...' I start softly but I roughly get interrupted by Chris
'There you are!' We turn around. 'You aren't stealing my wife are you?' Chris looks at me. He laughs.
'No of course not.' I say. Tris stands up.
'Let's go then. ' She takes his hands. And then she looks at me. 'You need to come too, Come on, it'll be fun.' I stand up doubting but decide I should walk in with them.
People dance. I hate dancing really. Tris dances with Chris at first but then his sister comes and Chris and Milly dance together. I see Tris standing there all alone looking around and taking some sips of her drink. I decide to step towards her.
'Do you wanna dance?' What the fuck did I just say? I can't even dance.
'Yes, I'd love to.' She puts her little hands in mine and we just dance. I can't even understand but it comes naturally.