My hands are looking for Chris' warmth but then I remember he isn't here. A feeling of sadness flows over me. I miss Chris. Normally when he's out of town for work it isn't that hard. I never missed him like this before. I am not sure why I didn't want him to come with me. Maybe it was just because I needed to do this alone. But honestly I don't want to do this "alone". Fuck, I am contradicting myself so hard here.

I sit up straight and look around in the very unpersonal hotel room. The only thing that belongs to me is my bag surrounded by the clothes I was wearing yesterday. I look at the ugly painting on the wall which is actually just fake, a poster that most likely hangs in other rooms. I sigh and look away from it.

I haven't really come closer to more answers yet. So far all I know is that Tobias knew me and that he is a pretty selfish person. I hate him! Why won't he just help me? Asshole. At the same time I am attracted to him, he's handsome. I am a married woman so I shouldn't be thinking about it but he has got something special. He has this look in his eyes everytime our eyes meet. I am not sexually atracted to him, let's get that straight. My heart belongs to Chris. And I could never love anyone else more than Chris. I love him with my whole heart. He deserves my heart, unlike Tobias he would never be selfish. When I am with Chris I tell him everything, well almost everything. I know I can trust him, and that's what a relationship is build on, right?

I dress up in my running clothes and walk out the room. I feel a bit dizzy so grab a piece of fruit on my way out of the hotel and slowly eat it. I feel a little bit better so I start running. Slowly at first, then when I walk into the park I do a sprint. Immidiatly the dizzy feeling comes backs and spreads over my whole body causing my legs to shake so much that I fall. I stand up and look for a place to sit. But my body wont let me and I know what time it is. I fall asleep just before my head hits the ground.

People are chasing me. Us actually. A woman who looks like an older version of me is trying to escape together with me. Something is wrong, I know she is my mother for some reason. And I also know that this is one of my dreams.

I hear guns and voices. We are still running. Men aim their guns at us and I quickly hide behind a car. But my mother isn't in time, she gets shot. In a split second I run towards her. It's too late and she collaps,

'Mom? Mom stay with me!' I carefully but her head on my lap. 'Mom please! Don't die!' I cry.

I can see she's fighting for me. I can see she doesn't want to but she still fades away very quick.

'Mom please...'

' I love you Beatrice.' She softly says. It's the first time I ever hear my name, I am sure it is my name. But for some reason I couldn't care less.

'I love you too!' I sniff.

'Be brave.' And she closes her eyes. I am not brave, I never have been. I am Raven, the lonely girl that no one was looking for, no one cared.

I scream. Why did she have to die? What's happening! Tears stream down my face. I don't know what just happened but I know that it once happened.

And then I wake up. Tears are streaming down my face. I feel my heavy breathing. 'Mom...' I wispher.

'Are you okay?' I like into a pair of unfamiliar brown eyes. They belong to a girl that is probably of my age.

'I'm fine,' I lie, but it isn't really credible. Even the dumbest person would see I'm lying.

'What did you see?'

'My mother,' I say without even wondering how she figured out it was a flashback of something I can't remember. 'I saw my mother die in my arms.' I start crying even louder.

'It's okay now Tris...' She says and she gently puts her hand on my back.

'You know me right?' She nods.

'We were best friends once.' The girl says.

Christina POV

I have to admit that I followed Tris. Okay, okay... I stalked Tris. I just wanted to see what she was going to do. And then she crashed onto the ground. I once heard that people with Amnesia can get flashbacks when they faint.

It takes about 5 minutes before she wakes up. She sits up straight.

'Mom,' she whispers with a face full of tears. I did my maths, she just had a flashback of the war.

'Are you okay?' I ask, I already know the answer.

'I am fine,' damn she could have been from Candor. She got really bad at lying.

'What did you see?' I ask.

'My mother,' and she starts to cry again. 'I saw my mother die in my arms.'

'It's okay now Tris...' I put my hand on her back.

'You know me right?' She asks. I nod.

' we were best friends once.' I smile a little.

'Come on, lets have a coffee Tris.' I think it might help her. She still seems a little bit weak.

'Allright,' she says. 'Just call me Raven, I don't think I can deal with my real name just yet.' I nod. I can understand. It's just normal for me to call her Tris.

'Okay Raven.' I laugh.

Hey guys, I wrote this on my telephone last night and I am also uploading this from my phone. Sorry for any typos I didn't see and stuff. I just badly wanted to upload something for you.

I forgot to thank YamiBlueberry-chan for the idea of having Tobias show up at the wedding. So thank you! My story changed a lot because of your idea!

Oh and to be honest this flashback is like the scene in the movie. I haven't read the book in a while and I just thought of the movie scene while writing this.