I look up to Christina. We are sitting in a small coffee shop near the place were we "met". Everyone around me seems relaxed and for the first time I feel relaxed too. It's weird how this doesn't seem to frighten me as much as I expected. Ever since Tobias -Or Four as they call him here- said he knows me I am getting more and more used to the situation. It doesn't mean I don't feel bad at all but it keeps getting less every second.

'Do you remember anything at all?' Christina says. I think about the moment when I met Chris for the first time; He asked if I knew anything at all. At that time I didn't know anything, but now I do. All this time my dreams were memories. And yet I can't remember all, neither do I know which one was an actual memory and which were dreams.

'Well I presume that a part of my dreams were memories but I can't really remember all,' Christina nods. Memories feel like dreams, that's why and I forgot some, it is like knowing you've had a dream but not being able to explain it or narrate it.

I jump in my chair as I feel my telephone vibrate and followed by my ringtone. I know it's from Chris because he's the only one that has got that ringtone. It's his special ringtone. I get my telephone out of my pocket. It's a text message.

"Hey Raffey, is everything allright? Do I need to come?"

I answer: "No I am kept hostage, but don't worry I can save myself "

I laugh a little bit too loud. People look up at me. Shit. I seriously should stop laughing about my own jokes. 'What's the matter?' Christina asks.

'My husband. He asked if everything is okay." I let her read my message. She sniffs and tries to keep her laughing in.

'Well you definitely gained some humor Tris, uh Raven.' It's so weird to hear her call me Tris. I know it's my real name but for some reason it doesn't sound right. The girl she told about couldn't be me in any way. I am not a hero. I am not Tris.

'What's your husband like?' I don't need time to think about it.

'He's so selfless, so kind and just perfect.' He's perfect in my eyes. She nods carefully like there is something she knows, something she is hiding. So I ask 'What's the matter?'

'Raven...' She tries to say something but as soon as she speaks her first word she gets interrupted.

'Guess who?' Someone hold his hands before my eyes. I don't even need to guess. I know the answer all too good. I am not sure whether I should be happy or not about.

'Christoper McGarret!' I say without hesitation.

'Well how wonderful Mrs. McGarret. You won.' I turn around.

'How did you find me?' I do not kiss him. Yet. He shows me the screen of his telephone. A small map appears. I look at the two colored dots that are very close to each other; his and mine telephone.

'Well hostage, you didn't turn your location off while chatting with me.' I never do that, why should I? I never had any reason for it. I wanted to do it alone but I am glad that he is here. He's so close to me. So close. I just want to kiss him so I do. I push my lips gently on his, I wrap my arms around his neck and hold on tightly. I get a feeling of euphoria and warmth. I missed him so much.

'I missed you,' I giggle.

'Missed you to Raffey,' I am totally used to him saying that. He uses that name so much that I barely notice it. I feel Christina switch positions, she's uncomfortable.

'Uhh Christina, this is Christopher,'

'Pleasure to meet you Christopher,' she says.

'The same, just call me Chris,'

'So you are her husband?' Christina asks. Chris answers by nodding. Why is it that I can feel so much tension?

Christina POV

I know that somewhere deep in her heart lies Tris, the brave girl I met during Dauntless initiation. But I can't find her. She's so different. Raven is nowhere near Tris. It's been 4 years now and only her looks don't do it, Tris really died. It is hard to see her with Christopher. I know how much she and Four loved each other. Maybe that's why it's so hard for him: Four sees how much Raven loves Christopher.

It isn't that I don't like Raven, she's very sweet. I just don't feel comfortable about it. I am doubting whether I should tell her everything or not. She has the right to know. Maybe it brings Tris back.

'Raven?' I start.

'Yeah?'

'I haven't really told you about what happened yet.' she nods.

'Do I wanna know?'

'I don't think so,' A few days ago she was just living her life and now suddenly everything has changed. She can no longer just be Raven. 'You must have heard of the war in the city,' I pause for a bit. I first look at her and then at Christopher. I don't like him. I don't know why.

And then I tell her everything, or at least the things she would need to know. I don't tell her about her relationship with Four. When the time comes he should tell her that herself. She already knows enough shit. I can see it in her eyes, she's shocked, hurt and on the edge of crying. Raven is in no way that strong as Tris was, not even close to being brave.

'I thought that my first weeks were hard,' she says. Christopher places his hand on her shoulder. 'I never thought about this when I first met Chris,' she looks at him and smiles. He smiles back, but for some reason he seems a bit nervous. 'I was all alone and thought my family didn't want me. No one was looking for me...' We all thought she was dead. I feel so bad for her. 'After a while I managed to forget about it and I started living my life like it is these days. Now I know why no one ever searched for me.' I hate myself for comparing her and the old Tris now, she had her own problems. Completely different problems.

'I'm sorry...' I say. And I mean it.

Hey guys! Can you give me a honest opinion on the character development? I don't want the original Divergent character to acts out of character (Except for Tris...

I also would like to know what you really think of this story: What do you like and what not?

Big thank you to Fernanda for reading this and giving her honest opinion before I uploaded it.