Caleb POV
I feel so much quilt for everything Beatrice and her friends have been through. She doesn't remember anything at all but she still had to suffer for sure. I can't imagine how frustrating it must be to not know anything. One black spot in your mind. I could have just done it and then she wouldn't have lost her memories. I would have been the dead traitor. And then I would have died for a good cause and the city would be saved so my sister and her friends could live a normal life. They deserved that.
Everyone hates me, I deserved to die there instead of her.
But she didn't die, and that is the first step of her normal life. I wonder if there is any way that I could just help her gain her memory back. But then? Would she be able to just pick up her life again and forget about the things that happened in the past four years? Would she just forgive me everything? Would I be her brother again? I don't think she would ever.

The minutes that feel like hours while I sit on the bench give my everlasting feeling of guilt an extra punch. It's late in the night and almost everyone has headed home. Lights of buildings go out and slowly the lamps make place for the stars. The perfect time to rethink your sins.
I don't notice her until she sits down next to me. It's Beatrice. She takes a deep breath like she is trying to relax. Her hotel is just around the corner.
'I thought you said you were going to bed?' I ask. It's almost midnight, she was supposed to be sleeping like 4 hours ago. She's sick.
'I did but I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep,' Logical explanation for showing up here. 'I had a lot on my mind.'
'Yeah I can see that,' I say and I look up. Her eyes don't show anger nor forgiveness. It's a normal expression of curiosity. They don't show who she once was. They show who she is now. And that makes me feel more guilty. I start to cry, something I rarely do, maybe even never.
'I am so sorry Beatrice, it is all my fault!' I say very loud. I hope I didn't wake up anyone else.
'Hey hey hey, don't say that. Nothing is your fault. What's wrong? Why are you saying that?' she show so much compassion.
'If I would have just gone instead of you you wouldn't have been shot and you wouldn't have lost your memories.' It flows out of my mind, I can't control my feelings.
'What are you saying?' she asks surprised. She didn't know what happened between her and me.
'Didn't Christina tell you? You went to David's office instead of me. You sacrificed yourself! I could've just gone but you were just so selfless.'
In the light of the moon and stars I see her eyes tear up.
'I must have really cared about you if I did that.' She almost whispers.
'Even after I betrayed you,' I smile a little.

It stays quiet for a while. She might be thinking about what I just said.
'Is there more I am missing?' She asks.
'You shouldn't call Tobias an asshole. He doesn't deserve that.' Recalling the moment she called him that. I am not surprised, he became one big asshole after Beatrice "died". He just doesn't have the right to treat her like that. She can't help it that she can't remember anything. She need to know the truth about their relationship.
'Why?'
'You need to hear that from himself.' I laugh. 'Just punch him in the face until he gives 's what she would do right? She is Dauntless. Maybe not like she once was but she still is it somewhere in her heart.

'I forgive you,' she say after a moment of silence. 'I forgive you for what happened Caleb. I might not know what really happened but I know that it is only right to forgive you.' I don't think I deserve her forgiveness in any way. I never saw this side of my sister before. All though I am not even sure if she is anything like who she was before I know that this side was just a side she never shown when she was still Beatrice.
I can't forgive myself for what I did easily but now I at least have my sister back. I pull her in a tight hug we never have done before.
I missed her.

Wow that was quicker than expected! I just made this chapter in the middle of the night and finished it now. cheecky-lil-monkey helped me with some suggestions for the story and I believe I have some fresh ideas for when I get back from England. Sorry for the sloppy chapter yesterday... I was really tired haha.