'Chris!' I see Chris talking with a few others and almost run up to him. 'Chris I need to tell you something,' I say when I stand next to him. He turns his face around and kisses me. I normally would have kissed him back but I no longer feel the same kind of love I did. I feel guilty against Tobias. He raised an eyebrow when he looks up.
'Chris, I start to remember things, I finally understand what all the dreams meant and who Tobias was in my life.' I feel warm inside now I finally can see the black spots fade away in my head.
'That is wonderful Raffey,' he smiles uncomfortable. Why? 'How did that happen?'
'I was in his old apartment and I saw the same view as I saw in my first dream.' I keep the kissing for myself. He doesn't need to know that yet. He might think that I don't love him anymore. 'We're going to the bureau. I know who caused the memory loss,' I say. He tenses up. I don't know why he would react like that. Isn't it supposed to be good?
'Are you sure that's a good idea?'' He asks. 'I mean it's not exactly a good idea to go back to a place like that.'
'We have to. It's the only way I can find peace.' It is the only way. I have to go back to the place where I last had been Tris or myself actually. I might not become my old self again but at least I know what happened and those who took part in that will feel pity for their actions.
Tobias takes a place beside me. It feels good to have him close to me. Why could I ever hate him for being so angry while it was completely understandable.
'Just sleep a night over it before you go. It will be dark soon.' I want to go right now and have it all behind me. I don't want to sleep a night over this! My gut tells me now is the time. I look at Tobias.
'He's right Tris,' Tobias says. Chris looks up surprised to Tobias when he says my actual name. I am angry. Why does he agree with Chris? Doesn't he want to have this behind us too?
'What? not quite used to my real name yet?' I laugh a bit but inside I feel it burning, I need to go.
I suddenly feel the urge to go to the bathroom and excuse myself. I fall and try to stand up so I can quickly go to the bathroom but it's too late and I feel it running down my legs. Ashamed as I am I first don't want to look but when the dizziness overcomes me and it feels like there is no end in sight I look down to see blood forming around me. I look at it in horror.
'Someone! Please help me!'I scream hoping someone can hear me. I hear people coming my way but everything turns black before I can recognize them. It's not the kind of fainting I am used to. I am surrounded by darkness. A cold and dreamless sleep.
Yes you may kill me for this bloody short chapter. I am really sorry but there had to be a cliffhanger to keep filling up the story to the end. I think that in the next chapter I will actually start on writing the final happenings. I still have no clue about who Tris is going to end up with so make your suggestions.