Chapter 5
Summer Sunshine in the rain.
The summer air blow softly, slapping Nachi emotionless face. He sit leisurely on the bench at park nearby his apartment. Cigarette he holding seems burning but untouched. He looked up at the sky.
'Tokyo skies isn't same with Osaka skies, could he be starring at this now too ?' - Nachi heart wonder.
Deep down he feel little regret for treating Mao badly the other night. Looking back their 2 years relationship, Mao trusted him with all his heart. But to Nachi now it seems he was getting a bit off track. He couldn't find exact reason as to why it happen, but he certainly aware that his instinct alerting him.
"I should do something for my sorry." - Nachi took out his cellphone from his pocket.
Mao walk slowly along side of the Tokimeki beach. Observing the sea and the skies. He look at his watch. Still an hour more to go before continuing his photo shoot.
"Mao." - A voice from behind. Mao didn't turn around to react, because he already knew who.
"Mao." - Second call. Still, Mao pretend he couldn't hear. A tight grasp at his left hand making Mao stop walking almost suddenly.
"What is it ?" - Mao asked. Turn his poker face to Watanabe Daisuke.
"Mao, what is wrong with you ?" - Watanabe frowned. He shock on how Mao treat him.
"Nothing." - Mao answer, with no feeling added in his tone.
"Mao, is it because..." - Watanabe can't continue his sentence when Mao cellphone ringing. Mao pull his hand little harsh, quickly take out his cellphone from his pocket. When he flip to see who, then he quickly walk away from Watanabe. Hinting Watanabe to not follow him.
Watanabe couldn't sit properly. He was at the lobby hotel, watching Mao through the glass wall who from far showing enough sign that he was so delightful with the phone call he received. Talking while turn his body to left and right, laugh, smile and nodded has making Watanabe heart throbbing fast.
'What could he was talking about ?' - A main core question that was so bold in Watanabe Daisuke head.
But what Watanabe real reaction to his feeling now more to forced himself not to let his jealousy controlling him. He knew he can guess so well that the person Mao was so delightful talking to is no other than Serizawa Nachi, person that Mao claim as to be his lover.
"Watanabe-san, is there something so interesting ?" - Tsukishima, his P.A. Suddenly approach from his back. Standing at his side and looking at what Watanabe seems to be looking at.
"Hamao-san is cute, acting like that, probably talking to his lover." - Tsukishima continue, smile widely and walk away.
"Ne Tsuki-kun, if you had a lover who runs to someone else, what would you do ?" - Watanabe asked. His eyes still fixed to Mao figure. His P.A. Stop walking and look at him with his eyes half wide.
"I'll probably kill her." - Tsukishima reply.
"Hell why ?!." - Watanabe shock.
"Who want to share a lover ? But that third person can't be blame, you take what others offer you." - Tsukishima giggle and walk away.
Watanabe paused. Looking sharply at Mao who still talking on the phone to what it seems endless talk.
Mao walk inside the hotel with happy mood. To him, he was all that happy because of the phone called. Its enough to make him mood bright again.
"Mao, I love you." - Watanabe approach from Mao behind and hugged him when Mao enter their bedroom.
"Not now." - Mao push Watanabe head quiet harsh when Watanabe brush softly his lip along Mao neck. Watanabe shocked. He let loose his hugged and step back few steps.
"Mao, you angry about what I talk last night ? I didn't mean to hurt you...it just that I ..." - Watanabe didn't finish his words when Mao turn to face him and cutting his sentence.
"No I don't." - Short answer. Mao busy changing his clothes for the second session of the photo shoot.
"I don't understand you..you've change since last night." - Watanabe sigh.
"So just that you noticed ? You've change ever since for past 2 years and did I ever bought up the issue ?" - Mao lift his eyebrow.
"Mao.."
"Why only now you want me to choose ? You let me be with him for such this long time and our memory are slowly brushing and replace with my memory with him." - Mao sit on the bed. Facing Watanabe who still standing.
"I don't think its too late now. You know I suffered too." - Watanabe explain. Yes, he suffered for the action he took. He regret caring too much about his image, scaring too much that if public know he and Mao true relationship.
"What actually you want me to do Dai-chan ?" - Mao asked. Looking straight to Watanabe cloudy face.
"Leaved him. Be with me. Be mine, just mine forever." - Watanabe walk close to Mao, pull his hand and body near him. Brushing Mao small cute face softly.
"Be mine forever..." - Their lips touched. Tasting each other slowly. Mao moaned softly whenever Watanabe tongue play widely inside his mouth. His hand grasp and run up and down on Watanabe hair, brushing his back. Suddenly Mao cellphone ringing.
"Please ?" - Watanabe implore. Looking at Mao cellphone that keep ringing. Mao smile and they kiss again. Ignoring the cellphone.
"You know, this was surprise me." - Amu open up the fridge, poking his eyes inside.
"What ? Surprise I'm having a fridge ?" - Nachi giggle. He invited Amu to his apartment, after almost a week didn't tidy the house, well usually it was Mao work. And, Amu been invited to help him out. He need to keep it tidy, because soon Mao will come back.
"You both living like complete couple. Just don't have kids." - Amu commented. Drinking a beer he get from the fridge on sofa while looking at the photo frame lining beautifully on the side table.
Nachi didn't answer, he was about to put pile of folding clothes into the closet, balance it with one hand while the other try to open up the closet door. Suddenly the pile of clothes he balance with his one hand drop on floor.
"Huh..." - Nachi sigh. Looking at the clothes that spread wild on floor. He look at the open closet try to solved the clothes problem, if only he just stuffed all it at once surely it was easy. But it won't be easy to have listen to Mao chattering about how he need to re-tidy everything.
Nachi tidy the closet, try to make space for the clothes, his hand move up and down, pushing the clothes.
"Please make a way...uuh ?" - Nachi stop babbling when he saw a white envelope beneath the folded clothes in the closet. He took the envelope carefully and observed it.
"Its Mao little treasure place ?" - Nachi take a look at it. He open the white square medium size envelope. Inside it was photos. A bunch of photo. Nachi take a look at it slowly one by one.
"You ok ?" - Amu suddenly appear, standing at the bedroom door, looking curious when Nachi didn't return his conversation.
"No." - Nachi short answer. His face turn to cloudy.
The 7th day.
The sunny summer day didn't last. Right after the ended of photo shooting, Tokimeki beach washed by heavy rain. Because of that, the second photo shooting session extended to next day.
Watanabe and Mao choose to just spend their time in their hotel room. Cuddle each other and make love. Spending every precious second they could.
"Texting him ?" - Watanabe asked when he see Mao grabbing his cellphone. Hugging him from behind tightly. Pulling the comforter their share together to cover their naked body.
"Hhmm...telling him I can't come home. Work extended." - Mao reply. After finish texting, he lay his back, back at Watanabe.
"Mao, have you decided ?" - Watanabe asked. The days they spend together here in Osaka seems giving Watanabe second chance to make Mao confident to return to him back and today, the last day he waited to know what Mao decision.
"Hhmm..." - Mao short answer. As to himself, he can't decided which he want to choose. Nachi or Dai-chan. He admit, Dai-chan was his first love, but he been pulled out from the love he had to him, because Dai-chan scare of loosing his fans faith and image he has. Nachi ? Mao love him much too. Nachi is everything now. Nachi washed away the hurt of unreturn love Dai-chan gave at him.
Mao get up. Walking towards balcony of the hotel room, standing facing the see, he closed his eyes.
He closed the front door, lay his back against it. Tears drop down his cheeks like a heavy rain. Slowly he sit down. Put his face on his palm.
"Mao, you must understand, I did love you but you don't understand. You're not Takumi and I'm not Gii.." - That voice play again in his head. The voice of his first love, Watanabe Daisuke.
Mao shook his head several time. No, it wasn't real, what Watanabe spoke was just a dream. Mao try to deny it. He sure Watanabe love him, just like the love of Gii to Takumi.
"Why are you crying ?" - A voice suddenly break over Mao monologue. Mao look up. He can see a calm face with a soft smile in front of him. Offering his hand to Mao. Mao confused. Shall he catch that hand ? He look at that calm face again. Mao sure he must catch and never let go that hand.
"Nachi !" - Mao pull Nachi hand, stand up and hugging him. He burst into tears.
"You won't let me go ? You won't right ? You love me ? You love me like I love you ?" - Mao asked in forced, shaking Nachi body back and forth.
"I never..." - Nachi softly pull back Mao into him.
"Mao...Mao..Mao ?" - Watanabe approach softly at Mao who seems far away from reality.
"Ah..." - Mao seems shock. He smile but the awkward smile. He's back to reality from remembering the day Watanabe push him aside.
"What are you wondering about ?" - Watanabe asked. Hugging Mao softly from the back.
"Dai-chan..." - Mao whisper softly, turn his body to face Watanabe. He look deeply in Watanabe eyes. Watanabe smile.
"I do love you. But..." - Mao stop. Didn't continue his words. Mao heart throbbing fast. Now he's in the middle.
Which who to choose ? Can he just keep them both like this forever ?