Thank you to everyone that favorited/followed this story and to the people who reviewed :) So here's chapter 2.
I don't own BTR but I wish I did.
The only reason Kendall agreed to his job in the tutoring center was because he was one of the few seniors in Duluth High who had more than one free study hall period, and because Kelly, the school's guidance counselor insisted he do some last minute resume packing for his scholarship application, which also required him to complete a total of 30 hours of community service to even be eligible for it. But that was only a small price to pay considering what he had to gain if he actually got the scholarship, given that he'd be awarded a full free ride to any university of his choice.
And Kendall understood what that would mean for him in the long term. Because unlike most kids in his school, he was always thinking ahead and planning for the future. He understood how the world worked and how you couldn't expect anyone to do you any favors. Ten years from now if you wanted to be somebody important, if you had a goal for yourself that you wanted to reach you had to set yourself up for it ahead of time. He knew that everything he did now was gonna affect him in the long run, either in a good way or a bad way.
This was what most of the people at Duluth High didn't realize but fortunately for him this just made his job a whole lot easier. Because if you didn't care about stupid stuff like grades or getting into college then you probably weren't gonna care about tutoring. So Kendall got free community service hours just for sitting in a room doing nothing. Occasionally someone would come in requesting his services, usually just kids who were sent by their teachers. Or freshman girls who didn't really need help but just liked to pretend they did so they could try to flirt with him (which was a lot more annoying than it sounds). Kendall did take his job seriously whenever someone really needed help though, mostly because he could never stand to half ass anything he did. In his mind he had to be the best at everything and he'd never let somebody else's stupidity reflect badly on him.
But lately there was one person in particular who kept showing up over and over. It seemed like no matter how much time Kendall spent going over his homework and quizzes with him, he didn't seem to be getting it because he always came back. It was his friend's younger brother so Kendall didn't really mind at first. Kendall had known Logan for almost as long as he'd known James. Over the years he'd eaten dinner with the Mitchells plenty of times and even gone on vacation with them once or twice. Logan had always been kind of a quiet kid so Kendall never really paid much attention to him though. He'd always sort of just been around whenever he was hanging out with James.
The first time Logan stopped by for tutoring everything seemed normal. Kendall was reading a book he needed to finish before fourth period when he heard a soft knock on the door. He looked up and saw a dark haired boy of medium height enter the room.
"Umm, my teacher Mrs. Hill sent me. I need some help with geometry."
Kendall smiled at the younger boy. "Lucky for you I happen to be really good at geometry. "
Kendall gestured for him to have a seat across from him. He helped him go through his quiz, which he had failed terribly, and then they worked on homework until the end of the period. The whole time Kendall was explaining it to him he seemed to be getting it and he even thanked him afterwards.
Kendall figured that would be the last he'd see of Logan for a while, or at least for a week because people didn't usually come back right after tutoring. But he showed up again the next day and again the next day, and again and again after that. And often times Kendall would end up explaining the same things to him over and over again. Their little meetings were getting to be a bit redundant.
The only reason it was so odd was because Kendall knew how smart Logan was. Often times James wouldn't shut up about what a genius his brother was. And not just that, Kendall could tell by the way he didn't have to dumb things down in order to explain them to him.
The more time Kendall spent with Logan the more he started to notice things about him. Kendall noticed that lately he seemed more nervous around him than usual, like there was something he wanted but he was too afraid to come out and say what it was. Kendall figured that whatever it was, it was the reason why he kept coming back for tutoring when he obviously didn't need it. So all he had to do was find out what it was and get him to admit it.
The next time Logan came by, after twenty minutes they stopped to take a break. Logan left to go to the bathroom and Kendall noticed he had left his notebook open. He began glancing through his notes without giving it a second thought, flipping past pages of equations and math notes. There were a lot of doodles scribbled in the margins and on one page in particular he noticed something. Among his doodles there were words written that appeared to have been scribbled out.
Logan Knight
Logan Phillip Knight
Logan Mitchell-Knight.
Kendall raised an eyebrow as he studied the page. Suddenly things started to make a bit more sense. All those times when Kendall had felt Logan looking at him and he'd turn to face him only to see him blush and turn away. Or how he'd tense up whenever Kendall sat too close to him and sometimes even get so nervous he'd start stuttering. Kendall didn't know why he didn't think of it before. At first he had just chalked it up to normal teenage awkwardness. It never occurred to him that Logan might have a crush on him but now that he thought of it, it made perfect sense.
At least now that he knew what the deal was he knew how to handle it. He would just have to let him down easy, tell him that he was flattered but not interested. It wouldn't be too hard since letting people down easy was one of the many things he happened to be really good at.
When Logan came back from the bathroom Kendall had already turned his notebook back to the way it was and was sitting patiently. "Sorry about that," he said.
"No worries," Kendall said, giving him an easy smile.
"So where were we?"
"Let's take a break," Kendall said.
"But we just took a break?"
Kendall grabbed his backpack and placed it on his desk. He reached inside and pulled out a small handheld camera. "I'm supposed to do these video interviews for my journalism class for the video yearbook. Do you mind? I need someone from each grade."
"You want to interview me?"
"It'll take two minutes."
"Okay I guess," Logan said. As soon as the camera was turned on him he turned away though, and started fidgeting with the hem of his shirt.
"Um you're gonna have to look into the camera Logie," Kendall told him.
"Oh sorry," Logan blushed and looked forward.
"It's okay. Alright, two questions. First state your name and grade."
"Logan Mitchell, grade nine."
"If you could visit anywhere in the world, regardless of cost, where would you want to go and why?"
Logan gave it a moment's worth of thought before he came up with an answer. "Um, the Great Lakes Aquarium."
"Really?" Kendall paused the camera to regard the younger boy. "You can go anywhere in the world and you don't even want to leave the state? You want to go downtown and look at fish?"
Logan shrugged. "I like Minnesota."
Kendall couldn't wrap his head around anyone wanting to stay in Minnesota. Any plans he had for after graduation involved moving as far away as possible. He pressed play on the camera and continued recording. "So the Great Lakes Aquarium. Does it hold sentimental value to you or something?"
"Uh no, I've never been there...I just really want to meet a manatee." When Kendall gave him an odd look he added, "Have you ever seen one up close? They're humongous."
Kendall wasn't sure how to react to that; but he had put it so simply it was almost cute the way he said it. "Okay and last question. Your favorite sports team here at Duluth High."
"Easy. Hockey."
Kendall smiled. "Good answer. Do you play?"
"No. I go to all of your games though," he said. Then added, "You know, because of my brother."
"Cool." Kendall shut off the camera and started putting it back in its case to let him the interview was over. "Thanks."
Pretty soon the bell rang for both of them to get to their next class. Kendall decided to just let it go for now since he had other things he needed to worry about. Not the speech he was supposed to give three months from now at the Scholastic Excellence Awards dinner for his scholarship (no, he'd already written it weeks ago, the day he found out about it.) And he was pretty much caught up on most of his coursework. He found that he had a lot more time on his hands these days since his girlfriend, Jo, decided they needed to take a break from each other at the beginning of the school year. It wasn't because they'd stopped liking each other or because they realized they no longer had time for a relationship. It was because of something Kendall had done, or something she believed that he did, even though Kendall would swear that it never happened.
But he doesn't really remember much about the night in question. Just that it was near the end of the summer, Jo was at cheerleading camp and he was at a party where he was a little bit drunk. And he somehow ended up in a closet with a girl whose name he doesn't even remember. Jo had found out about it pretty quickly because she came back a week later and told Kendall she never wanted to speak to him again. She hadn't even given him a chance to explain himself.
Kendall admits he didn't really take her seriously at the time. He knew she'd be pissed but he didn't think she would actually break up with him over it. But now three months had gone by and she was still playing him hot and cold. One minute they were hanging out again, trying to work things out and the next she "wasn't ready to jump back into a relationship with him yet" because she "couldn't trust him".
He didn't know why he was still so hung up on her after all this time or why he was letting her make him jump through so many hoops to win her back. Maybe it was because he really did love her? For whatever reason, he just wasn't ready to let her go yet. He knew that eventually she'd come back to him and he figured she knew it too and that was why she was doing all of this. But everyone else seemed to think differently. Everyone else thought that he and Jo were over for good and Kendall, for some reason, felt this strange need to prove all of them wrong. To prove that he could win Jo back if he really wanted to, and that was exactly what he was going to do.
They were supposed to meet up at a party later that night. Kendall had a shift at Lucky Mart but he told Jo he would stop by afterwards around 10 p.m. He didn't really like going to parties much anymore. He'd only gone to the one before because it was the end of summer and he didn't have anything better to do. Jo had a lot to do with the reason why he no longer felt the need to hang out at high school parties.
Kendall and Jo had known each other since they were kids but they didn't start going together until their junior year. Kendall remembers how the idea of going after the mayor's daughter had seemed like such a good idea at the time. He liked the fact that her name had a status behind it that made her seem almost unattainable, at least to everyone else. Not to Kendall, who saw something he wanted and immediately went after it.
Jo was a virgin when they first started dating and Kendall had a slew of over twenty of his classmates under his belt, mostly girls and a few guys. It was twenty-two to be exact and it was a number that slightly bothered him. Kendall didn't go to parties to drink like everyone else did. Instead he'd find himself pretending to be interested in someone to get them to sleep with him, knowing he had no intentions of really getting to know them. Sometimes he'd try to see if he could have a relationship with someone beyond sex but it never really worked out that way. Most people he found to be really boring and too much like everyone else. It was easy enough to find someone to sleep with but to love them? Kendall wasn't even sure he believed in love.
At least maybe not until Jo came into the picture. He could tell right away that she wasn't like all the other girls at school. Not only was she smart and beautiful, but she also had standards and morals. He knew she wasn't just going to sleep with him right away and that just made her more attractive to him. She was the girl that everyone wanted but were all afraid to go after because of who her father was. But when he said that every guy wanted her, he meant that literallyevery guy wanted her. Even James had spent the greater part of his adolescence pining over her. Kendall could remember a time where Jo was all he could talk about. It was actually around seventh grade, before the summer where James had hit puberty and morphed into some kind of grecian god. Before that he had been a chubby eleven year old with a painful crush on one of the most popular girls in school. Jo was the first girl James ever liked and she was the first girl to ever turn him down, leaving a permanent scar on his heart that Kendall was pretty sure he still carried around to this day.
Kendall didn't understand why James never tried going after her again, not even after he became popular. He figured part of it had to do with the damage she'd done to his self esteem so long ago. But that had been forever ago and he knew that James still liked her, even though there'd been plenty of other girls since then. Kendall figured that was just the problem with people who didn't know how to go after the things they wanted.
His relationship with Jo did spark a rivalry between the two boys but it was no different than the rivalries they'd had since they were kids. They had an odd friendship in that way. Growing up they were always acting as each other's competitors. They were the only two best friends who always had to be on opposite sides whenever everyone was picking teams to play sports. It wasn't because they didn't like each other, it was just the way their relationship was. They both had a really competitive nature and they both hated losing.
It wasn't exactly coincidence when right around the time Kendall decided to ask out Jo, James decided he wanted to go out for the position of hockey captain, the position that Kendall had worked hard for all of his junior year. They were both viable options and really the position could have gone to either of them, but nobody on the team wanted to deal with the drama and bickering that was sure to come from pitting the two of them against each other.
But in the end Kendall gave up the position and let James have it, even though it was what he really wanted. And he kept dating Jo even though he knew James probably wanted her way more than he cared about being hockey captain. It was weird but that was just the way things turned out.
Jo was good for Kendall and the two of them had been good together. Kendall realized right away how different he was when he was with her. He'd always felt like she made him a better person, like he was smarter and more driven to succeed. They both had plans to apply to Stanford and move to California in the fall, should they get accepted. But now that they were "broken up" Kendall realized it would be awkward going off to college together. But Stanford had been Kendall's first choice school since freshman year, when he first started planning for college, mostly because of its location. He liked the idea of going someplace sunny and beautiful for a change, which was the opposite of Minnesota. He'd gotten bored with Minnesota pretty early on; something about staying in the same place with the same people he'd known since grade school didn't really appeal to him.
So him moving to California in the fall wasn't really dependent on his relationship status with Jo. That had just been an added bonus, that they both shared the same dreams. At the time Kendall had taken it as a sign that he and Jo's relationship was a good thing for him, that it was good how she was able to keep him so motivated. So why did he have to go and ruin it?
It was a mistake, maybe, that he decided to drink at that party. The reason Kendall didn't drink was because he was sort of a lightweight. And he hated the effects of alcohol. He hated feeling like he didn't have control over his body or his mind, or like he couldn't control what was happening around him. He could control the people around him and how they perceived him if he was sober. And when he was sober he knew how to get away with things because he was always careful. But if he was drunk he could do something stupid and not only that but get caught doing it.
But whatever. He could fix this thing with Jo soon enough and get her to stop being mad at him. And everything would go back to normal, the way it was supposed to be. He figured it was only just a matter of time.
So yeah there's some Jendall in the beginning of the story but I promise it's only temporary and it's important to plot. The next chapter should be up soon. And in case you're wondering kogan stuff will probably start happening in like the fourth or fifth chapter.
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