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Chapter 2: I stabbed my own heart.

- Kushina POV again -

This time, he took my hand and held it tightly. Making sure I felt safer than ever when I was being accompanied by him. His eyes piercing like crazy we're looking at me in an intense way I had never seen before, yet I knew it all too well.

After escorting me towards my apartment, he gave me a sweet and gentle smile.

"Did you enjoy yourself?"

I nodded while smiling, then opened my apartment door slowly, "I did, very much too."

"I'm glad. Well, it is getting really late, you should sleep now."

"I guess you're right. Good night then."

"Good Night, Kushina."

I closed the door.
Sat on the floor.
Sighed heavily.

"What a fake." I muttered.

It went all too good, and all too fast in the same time, to think that in the very first day we'd meet he'd go on and be so nice and gentle to me? Come on, it was nice living a fairy tale and having my heart skip a beat numerous times but to exaggerate like that and be all lovey dovey is just way too obvious.

Besides, I know exactly why I'm here.

Perfectly well too.

And even though I know, I still fell for him, -snorts- how much of a masochist am I?

Suddenly, I started laughing, oh, how neat, the past effects of yesterday's dose came back and showed their fruits on me, really convenient.

"Bastard, I hate you. I hate you. I lov... I hate you." I repeated non-stop while laughing hysterically, seriously, how low have I fallen?

I stood up, still laughing like a complete wrench and headed for the sofa, I jumped on it and laid down (still laughing) and held my own shoulders.

This was getting out of hand, and it really disturbed me; to think I'd laugh out loud without reason and just twitch continuously like a mad-woman. I had to shut up, or else my neighbours would hear me and eventually knock on the door to ether complain or hate on me, or even worse.

It was no use trying to be kind to a thing like myself, and I'm pretty sure he knew it too. The reason why he was so kind was probably to just let me calm my tits down, It's only obvious that bitchy snake-like creep of Orochimaru told him about me being mentally unstable and all, and he managed to figure me out quite well. The proof; my fingers are twitching now that I'm not with him anymore, and my fingers twitch whenever I feel that sort of thing running like mad inside my veins, trying to conquer the blood cells. That fucking dose Kabuto gave me, or rather, gave it.

"Damn it Kyuubi, because of you... I..."

By that time I already stopped laughing and began to swing back and forth like an old lady, my eyes looking at the roof. My headache seemed to have come back to torture my mind once more. I held myself for too long when I was with that mischievous blonde.

"can't take any longer, gotta' have some."

I stood up, still unsteady, and went towards my bedroom. Surely, the supplies I was given frequently back at my previous room was given to me somewhere, it had to, since I can't bear live without it. I cautiously started checking the drawers for them, my hand grabbing and throwing useless papers and magazines that were left inside. In the end, they were in the bottommost of the drawer, waiting to be used. I sighed in relief and took the syringe while filling it with Kabuto's latest mixture that would calm me down for a bit. I stung myself on the shoulder while biting my bottom lip. After injecting the whole thing I let out a pleased sigh and jumped on my bed.

"What's the big deal? Didn't you already have enough?"

I held my chest tightly, feeling my heartbeat.

"None of your business, shut up."

"Oh? It is my business, we share the same body now don't we?"

"No we don't, you sick beast."

"You haven't got used to having me around you yet? Even after all these years? You disappoint me..."

"Shut it! Leave me alone! I don't want to hear anything coming from a thing like you! It's because of you that I'm in a mind-fucking state! It's because of you that my life became a living hell!"

"You are basically saying that I'm a hassle."

"That's right, so just shut up and leave me alone."

"I'm afraid not, my dear."

"What?!"

"You'll be using me a lot from now on, so you better get used to me you know?"

"What in the world's name are you saying? I won't use you, even if this means me dying, I don't care, because of you people look at me like I'm some sort of monster. That ugly seal on my abdomen keeps reminding me every day that I'll never be the normal girl my parents wanted to raise. Now, I have to drug myself like a bitch to keep me from going insane!"

"What can I say? Do you think I enjoy myself here? Being chained by your monstrous chakra?"

"Shut up!"

"Even that man... Minato was it?"

"Shut it! Don't talk about him! He's..."

"... Using you just like Orochimaru did previously."

I bit my bottom lip so hard that I injured myself, a slight drop of blood came out from my mouth as my throat began to ache like hell, I knew I was about to throw up some more blood, since I drugged myself too often these days.

"I know that, I know that so just leave me alone..."

There was no escaping to Kyuubi's cruelty, I knew it well, but even when he just spouted the logical, I tried to believe the other way around, even if deep down, I want to believe in that man, I still can't let myself be used to easily. We're at war, and I'm a weapon, obviously I'd be used for the simple purpose of killing. I've lived my whole life believing that the law of the strongest was the right path to take, no matter what situation I'd get myself in, I have to rely only on my strength, and Kyuubi's. I've been treated like luggage forever, but know what? I don't mind, the bruises on my body are the proof that no man will ever want me, such a hideous scarred body with absolutely nothing attractive in particular, and that seal, that terrifying seal... Who would ever want to notice such a thing right beneath them?

And the worst part, when you know that there is a murderous beast behind that seal.

Enough was enough, I have my limits.

Although I can manage this better than back in my teen days, it's still difficult especially when you're a 21 year old lonely woman without a soul to talk to. It's so painful to the point where I'd feel my heart getting stabbed all over again brutally.

But this time, I'm the one who is stabbing my heart, with all these thoughts, all of these mind-blowing hateful thoughts.

I knew that tomorrow, he'd fake a smile again.

He'd pretend to be sweet to me.

And I'd go on and fall head over heels for this man.

It'll be like living a fantasy, a fake fantasy, but who cares? I don't mind.

My hand was resting on my left cheek as I lay down on my bed, looking at the roof. Kyuubi left my thoughts for a moment and I knew he was still there despite his silence, he knew me all too well and so did I. Whenever I'd feel lonely and want to talk to somebody, he'd always be there, but lately he was such a pain. When he was sealed inside of me, everything turned into darkness, yet I still enjoyed his company. I came to a certain point where I'd make him talk to me since I was so pitiful and pathetic, he'd pity me and give me some of his advices and I'd follow them mindlessly. A frantic beast with an honest yet cruel side into him, he's the one who forged my insanity state, whom I despise so much.

"Minato... Minato Namikaze." I whispered, closing my eyes.

"I want you, yet I can't have you. I hate you, yet I love you."

I gripped at the bed sheet.

"I don't understand... It stings... So much that it hurts..."

A tear came out of my left eye.

"It's painful to know that I can't have you..."

-END OF KUSHINA POV.-

-MINATO POV. -

"So how did it go, Minato?"

I nodded slightly while showing my most serious face to my superior;

"It went very well, she enjoyed herself."

"Good, good. But did you manage to..."

I nodded immediately, "Yes, I got some information about her pretty easily."

He narrowed his eyes, I knew he was waiting for a 'status report' of some sort, and I had to blurt it out, since it was what I was previously told to do.

"She is definitely the Jinchuriki, that's for certain. I managed to feel her chakra accurately throughout skin-contact at a certain point; she has a very special and very warm chakra. The only inconvenience is that she seems to have been treated poorly, I noticed she lacked of protein and energy. I also saw her twitching at times, counting also the drowsiness."

He looked at me while nodding his head at slow pace, one could tell how serious he was, especially in these days of war, he was way too serious about everything, he barely even trusted me like before. All the work we had, he did it by himself and gave me none, all he ever asked me to do were very minor and had little effect on the whole situation, even now, he asked me to take a random girl out just to check and see if it's the deal. How useless does he see me?

I decided to keep myself steady and calm, surely one day, he would finally notice my true strength, surely...

My thoughts were interrupted as he stood up slowly and walked towards the window.

"I see, you did well, but not enough."

I narrowed my eyes and started to feel uncomfortable, "Sir?" I called confused. His hands were behind his back as he looked at the dark blue sky.

"What I wanted to know, was if she was capable of being useful, I don't care less if she's the real thing or not, If she is able to murder and kill without problem all nice and neatly, then she's up for the job."

I frowned to that answer.

"Pardon me but I don't really understand where you're getting at, Sir."

"Minato," he sighed as he turned to look at me, "we've been on rough terms these days, and any help would be appreciated, even coming from a human sacrifice. Besides, any kind of Jinchuriki would be at help, even if it's a failed one; we can still extract the real thing out of it, even if it means taking the life of the host."

I cleared my throat, now fully understanding the point.

"Then you mean that even if she was a failure, then you would have still used her?"

He closed his eyes and sighed, "You get the point."

Without realizing it, I was clenching my fist, something like that wasn't right no matter how much I'd think about it.

"I'm sorry for being rude, but I completely disagree with that, Jinchuriki or not, she is still a human being, going and throw a precious life away like that is just..."

"Minato, are you actually developing some feelings for a Jinchuriki?"

"What... No, I just..."

"Then what's wrong with you, Minato?"

And he was right; I just met the woman yesterday and showed her around, 'used her like a puppet then threw her back at her apartment' like I was told to. Giving fake smiles was my speciality especially when it came to women, so why was I feeling so irritated?

"I understand you're guilty about it, you're a kind-hearted man, Minato. However, I forbid you to develop any sort of relationship with her, alright?"

I bowed respectfully, "Yes, sir."

"You may leave now."

"Thank you sir, enjoy your evening."

Then I simply left, because there was nothing more for me to do.

While closing the door, I let out my tongue and grimaced, surely I looked really childish, but I didn't care, because I was really irritated at that moment.

What was wrong with him?! Having all these crazy idea's on his rotting mind, what was he scheming? Forbidding me to 'develop' any 'kind' of relationship with his weapon was probably the most stupid thing he'd ever ask me.

I had no interest in her anyways.

When I first saw her, I instantly pitied her, she had bruises all over her body, scars that didn't want to disappear, and a pale face who showed signs of past abuse.

But it didn't stop her from smiling, smiling so brightly like everything went just fine for her, like the world was at her feet. I liked her smile, it was radiant like the bright red color of her hair which caught my eye since the first time I saw her.

I never once seen a woman like her in our village, she was the rare kind. But I wasn't good with girls to begin with, I've been shy near them all my life, and I'm pretty sure I won't change, when I was asked to get close to a girl for certain purposes, I didn't have any problem due to my determination to satisfy the one whom asked me to do so, I always had the pleasure to be at service of people, because I liked them and I wanted to make them happy.

It's just the way I am, and the way I'll always be.

My friends always tease me because I'm such a coward when it comes to women, they'd invite me to gokuons, introduce me the finest females of Konoha, take me to some new places with new exotic women, yet I still kept my distance.

Hence, I guess I'll just die a virgin.

And I'm not bothered by it at all.

An hour passed since my little conversation with the third, and it was past 2 AM already, I yawned and figured I'd hit the day.

After closing my office door, I went downstairs and walked past all of the apartments, the long hallway was tiring to get past to, a real pain.

As I walked further, a bright shade of color caught my eye, red, precisely; it looked like a trail of blood. I hurriedly went towards it and crouched, it came out from the apartment no.73, the one that was occupied by the Jinchuriki.

I twisted the door knob, only to notice that it was open, I sighed at that woman's carelessness and entered, as soon as I did, I noticed Kushina lying on the ground, still grabbing a bottle of sake.

So the 'trail of blood' was her hair, huh? What happened to her...

I sniffed the air and caught the stench of alcohol, she must've drank a lot to the point of falling on the ground and sleep like a log. I sighed and lifted her up in a noble way then headed towards her bedroom where I laid her down.

"Mhmhmm..."

Looking at her, she seemed to be having a really good dream, that moan itself surprised me, but she was drunk, so it didn't seem to matter much, I was about to take my leave until she called out to me.

"Minato."

I turned, shocked, only but to see her sleep-talking.

"Don't leave me... Stay."

Impossible... Is she really sleeping?

It felt too weird to be real, was it all just a coincidence? Me being here, about to leave, and her dreaming about me and asking me to stay?

It interested the curious little man inside of me, so I headed towards her and sat on the edge of the bed, looking at her intently.

Now that I got a better glimpse of her, she's not all half bad, her face looks smooth, nice and round, while her hair looks silky, her womanly curves we're completely exposed to me as she didn't seem to be wearing any undergarments. I noticed it earlier when the rain exposed her, and quite frankly, I really liked what I saw, but like any gentleman, I had to face the other way.

She was indeed pretty, prettier than most of the women I usually see every day, she wasn't the best looking one, but definitely the most unique. The sad thing was the bruises she had all over her body, and it pained me to see that, not once in my life will I have the courage to hurt a woman heartlessly like this. Especially on such a nice smooth milky skin like hers.

So far she didn't mumble anything since I sat beside her, and I was looking at her in a way I shouldn't, therefore I believed it was about time I'd take my leave since I had nothing else to do here, but as soon as I was about to stand up, she held my hand.

"Don't go."

I frowned, she isn't asleep, that can't be possible.

"Kushina?" I called.

"Don't go, don't go."

"Why won't you let me go?"

As soon as those words came out of my mouth, she licked her lips, which surprised me in many ways.

"If you leave... If you leave..."

"If I leave?"

"If you leave, I'll make you regret..."

I rolled my eyes and smiled to myself, "Regret? Regret what."

"Regret you ever meeting me."

Such an answer, it actually made me chuckle. That little teasing-red haired 'sacrifice' was doing a good job pretending to be asleep, I had no experience with women, so I didn't know what it was about, if I had some sort of experience, I'd say she was flirting with me, but I don't.

Having enough of it, I believed her ridiculous ways of keeping her company we're too pathetic, so I thought it'd be best to leave, but she kept holding my hand. I tried to push her away, but her grip was strong, stronger than I'd ever think it could be.

I didn't want to hurt her, so I gently grabbed her hand and pushed it aside, but she insisted on me staying, and grabbed my other hand. I sighed in annoyance and repeated my act until she came straight up and hugged me tightly. That act made me frown.

"Don't leave me with him, don't, please don't."

Obviously drunk, now is she?

But the thing that crossed my mind... Who was 'him'.?

"I won't leave you alone." I whispered.

"Yes you will."

"No, I promise."

She hugged me tighter than before, making me feel her breasts, I could feel a sudden chill down my spine, my body was getting warm due to our skin-contact, I never felt this way, even when I purposely hugged her back at the Inn only to feel her chakra, however, this time it's all too different.

I could feel my face get redder by the moment, I wasn't used to women, so what can I say?!

"You shouldn't be here, you should go... They are coming."

I frowned.

"Coming? Who are?!"

"You know who."

"No, I don't."

She smiled creepily, and held me a bit tighter.

As soon as she did so, a terrifying yell was heard coming from downstairs, Kushina pushed me away and stood up almost instantly, her eyes completely blank.

"Pieces of shit came to steel my Jinchuriki." She blurted out.

She then ran like hell and opened her door violently, I followed her closely from behind and in the meantime, I wanted to figure out what in the world's name was going on, somehow she let out a really strange aura. Her chakra wasn't as warm as before, even now, when she hugged me it felt like her chakra gave a turn for the worst, I bit my bottom lip.

I don't really get what's going on... But it actually seems like we're being attacked! If I don't hurry then our enemies will deal a serious mass of damage to the village.

While our crazy run, Kushina arrived at the stairs and jumped down without being doubtful, I followed her and jumped at my turn then landed on my two feet.

I then noticed two really weird men wearing all black, one of them was particularly tall, he let out a menacing vibe.

"You bastards, you actually came for her didn't you."

I glanced at Kushina, who seemed to be losing her mind.

The tall guy started laughing, "Well now, seems like you got control over her now, eh?"

"Shut your mouth, show respect."

He didn't say a word, instead he threw a good load of Shuriken at Kushina, who dodged them pretty easily, the other man then cloned himself to confuse her so that he could give her a surprise attack from behind, I knew that trick far too well; but as soon as he did so, Kushina jumped at him and punched him like mad, her aura becoming more and more menacing.

"I'll kill you. I'll kill you. I'll KILL you."

"Shit!"

The tall man cursed under his breath and ran towards her while taking out a Katana, I figured it would be about time to interfere, so I attacked him first.

"What the... Where do you come from?!"

"I should ask you the same question, you trash!"

I kicked him several times and dodged his attacks without a problem, he was a lot slower than any average ninja, my guess was that he was more of a punch-giver than a dodger, he looked pretty well built, I must say, but it wasn't enough, especially for me, the yondaime.

Without any hardship, I managed to hit him numerous times easily, I then took out a shuriken and pointed at his throat.

"Don't move, or else It'll be the end for you."

He chuckled.

"Even if it will be my end soon, there's no way Konoha will ever make it."

I frowned, "Why so?"

"Your Jinchuriki is no match compared to our weapon, no matter how much your kage tries to protect the village, there's no way you'll make it out alive in the war, even now..."

Loud noises we're heard from outside, while Kushina already finished her job of disposing of her foe, many houses outside we're already burning with fire, a troop of men coming from an enemy territory we're here and ready to battle.

"This is bad! We have to inform the third!"

But as soon as I said so, Kushina blocked my way.

"What are you doing?! We got to..."

"Let the old man sleep peacefully, there's nothing interesting for him to do anyways."

"What? Kushina, what are you implying?"

She began to laugh hysterically.

"You're a funny guy! Dattebane! But hey, I don't care anymore, ya know?"

I sighed nervously and tried to push her away, but she insisted then grabbed my shoulder.

"You're not going anywhere."

"What? Why can't I?"

"Cause'."

"What... 'Cause'?! Enough talking! The village is getting destroyed!"

I was about to leave when she suddenly pulled me closer to her and kissed me furiously, I instantly blushed at the sudden and direct contact of her warm and soft lips pressing into mine. Without having a clue about what was happening in the next moment, she pushed me away gently then smiled.

"Didn't you say upstairs that you won't leave me alone?"

My heart nearly skipped a beat, and before I even knew it, she rushed outside at full speed.

The enemy ninjas then stared at her, "What the? Where did this bitch come from?"

"Mhm!" She stretched and smiled creepily, "Looks like that 'dose' and the sake did a pretty good job making me high, guess I'll have my breather now."

"What should we do, sir?"

"Just get rid of her, we have no use of filth."

They came at full speed towards her and we're about to attack, I was about to come out and protect her with all my might until she disappeared out of their sight. They fell on the ground and looked left and right to see where she was, only but to be attacked by behind, in an instant, her hand pierced through his body, grabbing his heart.

The man right next to him gave a shocking and disgusted facial expression then ran away, I was in fact too, shocked by that horrific scene, a smile was still craved in Kushina's face.

She then disposed of his body while looking at the other side, where the rest of the men looked at her, all terrified.

"WHAT THE HELL!"

"N...No panic! That guy was just careless! We can take her on!"

They we're about to attack at their turn, until Kushina crouched and touched the ground with both her hands, I could tell she was murmuring some sort of technique, her chakra was floating all over her, a bright red menacing color that made her red hair float.

In a split second, chains gushed out of the ground, seriously injuring the men, they then grabbed them and pinned them on the ground who cracked open in an instant, making them fall inside a ravine.

The ground then closed by itself as if nothing ever happened.

I stood there, amazed by that battle.

Is this... The true power of a Jinchuriki?

Kushina, despite being covered in blood, looked up at the sky, smiling at the night gently, then turned her gaze towards me, and whispered my name.

"Minato."

I backed away slowly, still unsure of the situation.

She approached me, her smile still on her face.

"Don't worry, Kyuubi's not here anymore, it's me now."

"What do you mean? What's happening?"

She hugged me tightly, then snuggled on my chest.

"You stayed by my side... Like promised..."

I didn't know what to say, words didn't want to come out of my mouth; I had little knowledge of the situation, and didn't know Kushina well either, but I felt like this was the start of a very weird journey of mine.

A few moments later, some ninjas with experience with water techniques managed to let down the fire, there were a few major damages, but everything could be repaired in a week or two, so it was okay. The third woke up and lectured me for my carelessness, but I honestly didn't care. So far I knew that it wasn't right for him to act this way, especially since I'm the hokage of this village too, but even so, my mind was focused on Kushina, who already went to her apartment and was now, surely sleeping.

My thoughts went back to the hugs and the warmth she provided me, that fierce kiss she gave me and that smile she showed, thinking about it again made my cheeks flush red. Something I tried to hide carefully whenever I was embarrassed, but this time it was different.

-End Of Minato POV.-

-Kyuubi's POV.-

It's been years now, years since I've been sealed inside her body.

I've been trapped and chained yet I still can have control over her at times, but not fully. Whenever she gives me that kind of dose, I manage to take over her and give her part of my chakra, but it's still not enough.

I never understood why she openly lets me take over her, yet still disapproves of me lending her power, that child always wishes to do everything by herself, despite being a Jinchuriki, my Jinchuriki, she's still so arrogant.

Even now, people try to take her away, well, more accurately, take me away. But I already know what's waiting for me if it truly did happen. I'd be used, used for their own profit, and sealed once again. Freedom was what I wished for, but it wasn't what I was given.

"Kushina, quit pretending to be asleep and wake up." I say.

"Leave me alone."

"You shouldn't have drank so much alcohol, look at your state now."

"None of your business."

"You're so foolish, you know that?"

"Don't care."

"Why don't you be a good girl and listen to me for once?"

"What you say is nonsense, I don't want to listen to your lectures."

"I'm not going to lecture you, even if that's what I wanted to do from the start, insolent brat."

"Why do you keep annoying me?"

"Because I don't have anything better to do, obviously."

"Because of you, I trapped more people into the abyss."

"It wasn't me, you we're drunk by that time, remember?"

"I don't care, leave me be."

"Why did you have that extra 'dose'? Did something trouble you?"

"Yes."

"What?"

"..."

"Come on, tell me."

"Why should I?!"

"Because your emotional state affect me too, brat."

"I don't want to talk about it, whenever I have a conversation with you, my mind becomes blank and I start having weird thoughts, I lost track of myself, can't you see that?!"

"I'm not the reason why you have multiple personalities."

"You are, dumbass."

"It's the drug you're taking, you wrench."

She remained quiet, her eyes we're getting teary, I could see it, that illusion of her own personality reflecting the awful truth.

"I don't know what to do anymore, I don't... I hate it..."

"Why won't you succumb and finally let me take over you?"

"I can't do that either."

"Why can't you? It would be a lot easier."

"You'd kill."

"Only for those who we're destined to."

"Tell me, Kurama, who am I really?"

"How can I know? You never revealed your true side to anyone."

"Do I even have a true side?"

"Who knows?"

She stopped talking and looked at the sky throughout her window.

"My true side..." She whispered.

"Didn't you already show it?"

"Huh? I don't think I did."

"I'm pretty sure you did,"

"no, since I don't ever recall."

"How about that Minato guy, when he made you visit, you we're at ease weren't you?"

"I... Guess I was, I even lost my bad habit of twitching my hands, and my drowsiness left too, but still... I..."

"You should probably see him more often."

"Should I..."

"Yes."

"Perhaps... You're right... I feel comfortable with him."

"It would be benefit for both of us."

She smiled and closed her eyes, "You're right, Kurama, I guess I should."

"And don't be afraid of showing your true personality to him, you're being a hassle whenever you get nervous."

"But it's going to be hard... To think I even done something as embarrassing as kissing him!"

"Hey, quit getting embarrassed here! And let your chakra calm down, I'm getting tired of being chained so roughly! I have to rest too, brat!"

"Sorry."

She chuckled then rested herself, I could feel she was at ease. I, for a demon, knew her quite well even if I didn't want to show it, we both wanted freedom and it was something in common between us two, lately it was hard for her to be herself especially when she was forced into getting her usual 'dose'. If she'd ever forget to take it, she'd slowly fall into a unrecognizable state, and it would be harder for me to take over.

She needed that dose, to keep calm and to control me better, despite that strength and that chakra of hers, there we're times where she'd have a hard time with controlling me, especially with that fragile mind of hers. I honestly want to finally be free, but I have to be patient first, once she would finally be able to take control over her own self without the use of the drug, I would be finally able to break free.

A failed Jinchuriki, that's what she is.

I was sealed into her, for unknown purposes.

If she can't take control over her own emotions, then there's no hope for her.

Unless someone is there to take care of her.

~Chapter 2 End~

~Chapter 3 Next ~

Okay, this was your average confusing chapter, but hey, I'm here and I'd gladly answer your questions.

So you must think Kushina is INSANE, well, partially... ACTUALLY, NO.
Kurama took over her when she referred herself at third person (it was actually Kurama referring her.) and also, the previous chapter where she was all sweet and such, and now she suddenly goes and calls him a 'fake', well please be patient because no matter how confusing this chapter is, there will be further explications and everything will be clear again. Kushina's true personality will bloom with Minato and I want it to have a very deep meaning for the two, I also want Kurama/Kyuubi to be an ally here, so just sit down and remain calm.

Also, lemon in next chapter.

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