Jade POV

As I walked out the door and toward my car I pulled out my phone and started looking through my music trying to find something to play on the ride home. I opened the door to my car just as I found what I was looking for. I plugged it in and turned the volume all the way up and "Afterlife" by Avenged Sevenfold started to blast out of the speakers.

The blaring metal music was what I needed to calm my nerves. Somehow the screaming and loud instruments calm me in a way that nothing else ever could. I opened the windows so my music could drift out the windows as I sped out of the parking lot.

Being in this state of mind I'm always a little more careless with my life. I got on the parkway to get back to my house and immediately sped up to 100 miles an hour weaving in and out of the other cars on the road subconsciously hoping that I would get myself injured or worse. Today being like any other day I made it home safe.

I got out of my car and entered my house knowing that no one was home I went up to my room and went to bed before I hurt myself more than I already had today. The clock read 10:15 as I closed my eyes and everything went black.

What seemed like only a second later I heard the door slam and seconds later yelling ensued meaning that my parents were home. They were always fighting I didn't even really understand why they were still married. I opened my eyes and looked at the clock, it was only 12:00. Neither of them should even have been home but then again I shouldn't have been either.

"I'M PAYING ALL OF THIS FUCKING MONEY FOR HER TO GO TO THIS GOD DAMN SCHOOL AND SHE ISNT EVEN FUCKING THERE." I could hear my dad yelling from downstairs and I knew this was not going to end well for me.

I tried to hide under my blanket like I did when I was little as my father stormed upstairs and kicked my door down. "You little disappointment, why the fuck aren't you at that 'School that is meant for you'. He said quoting me.

"I never approved of this school and I never loved you. You were a fucking mistake." He screamed. "And fucking look at me when I'm talking to you, you little brat." He said tearing off my blanket.

He reached down and grabbed me by the shoulders and lifted me out of bed. I could see my mother cowering behind the door. When I was high enough up I could smell alcohol on my father's breath. He raised his fist and struck me in the ribs, my mother gasped but I didn't make a sound. I knew it would be over if I didn't react. And I had inflicted greater pain on myself than my father ever could.

By 12:15 the beating was over and I was alone in the house again, sitting in the shower with the water running over me curled in a ball trying to justify my father's actions. I should have just staying in school today he would have been proud of me then. This is all my fault, I deserved this. My tears mixed with the running water I didn't even really notice I was crying at all.

I was in the shower until 2 in the afternoon, I think I fell asleep again but I'm not really sure. I was waiting for the bruises to start to show but my father knew just where to hit so it never showed and no one would ever know.

I didn't want to think about anything more today so I started to drink, taking shot after shot, beer after beer trying to numb the pain of my hand and in my ribs. By 4 I was drunk. By 5 I was crying my eyes out.

By 5:15 I was twirling scissors in my hand as I sat in the corner of my room. I blacked out for a while and came to at 5:55 something was wrong though, I couldn't feel my hands and I felt weaker than usual.

I looked down at my arms and saw blood spurting from two gaping wounds, everything started to fade in and out. What have I done? What the fuck did I do? I thought my mind racing.

As my vision started to turn to black I heard a distinctive sound, the doorbell was ringing. I completely forgot Tori was coming over to study, I tried to cry out to her but the only thing that came out was blood. I let out a chuckle and spit up more blood, a calm realization washed over me. I let out one last cruel smile as blood spilled out of my mouth. I knew this was the end for me. Everything was getting darker, I walked calmly into death's cool embrace, everything went black.