**Bellamy**
This is so screwed up. I hurt Octavia too much and now she ran away with the grounder. She's a traitor. Yet so am I, I shouldn't of said what I said. I ruined everything. Hopefully, she will forgive me. Now Clarke and I are looking for her. We split up a few miles back. Just so we could cover more area. I really hope Octavia is okay, it's my fault if she's not. It's my fault.
I would normally say that I can't be in love or that I've never felt it but I have with Clarke. I really like her, a lot. We have a spark that no one else has, we have got something special. So maybe we don't get along most of the time but deep down inside we still like each other. And I like her so much. Her hair is so beautiful, so perfect. Her smile so welcoming but her frown is so daring. Clarke's personality, is selfless, caring yet she deserves the gold medal for bravery. I don't know what to do. While I'm picturing her in my mind, she is picturing Finn. Just Finn. That's the worst part. I'm guessing it was her first time with Finn, so I guess that makes it even more special to her. Sometimes I wish Finn died on the way down to earth, like the poor other boys that did. But Clarke, she saved him and that's something else I really like about her. I just can't explain it really, when I kissed her it felt incredible, I never felt it with any other girls I kissed before. After that, I kind of backed away from Clarke, I haven't said more then three words to her while looking for Octavia. Why should I? She likes Finn. She's been nursing Finn because he was hurt, while doing that she felt a spark grow again between them. Most people would call, what I feel, jealousy. Pure jealously. But maybe I am jealous, maybe I am. Why does it matter? I like Clarke, she doesn't like me. I play that in my mind again. I like Clarke, she likes Finn, Finn likes Clarke and Raven, yet they call me the bad guy. I guess I am, it's only been a week and I've had a threesome, not my finest choices. I put Wells down to rip off his wristband. All my ideas. I'm the one they all fear because I'm such a crap leader! I shouldn't do this, Clarke and I, we need to run things together. That's everything we've got.
"Octavia!" I scream, letting out all my fury and anger. I was allowed to anyway, so why not.
**Clarke**
I hear Bellamy's booming voice from across the woods. Where was Octavia? Again, I hear his voice, pretty angry. Why would he be angry? I'm so screwed, with everything that's going on. I like Finn so much but Raven needs him and Finn was a total jerk not telling me about her. What she said when Finn was nearly dead, 'He's the only thing I have left.' That's when the dagger pierced my heart. I do like Finn but I think about Bellamy all the time. Everywhere I go, I hear Bellamy's sweet voice, Bellamy's stern voice. Sometimes I think I'm going insane. But luckily, I'm not. Kissing Bellamy, that felt amazing but so wrong at the same time. That's why I backed away. Because once our lips met I realized I'm probably one of the girls he expects to sleep with, after one kiss. One kiss. But no, I didn't want to be that girl, I'm not that type of girl. After I left the room, I saw the hurt in Bellamy's eyes, which made me think differently. That I wasn't just that girl he wanted to sleep with. Slowly, I tried to talk to him but I felt him backing away. That's when I realized, he didn't succeed with me, so he's going to move onto another girl. Bellamy is a womanizer and I don't think he wants me pulling him back from his rightful self. He likes one nighters, not long term relationships. That's when we started drifting, I suggested separating, to find Octavia, as I thought we needed to figure out our feelings. Well I know I did. Holding him back is selfish, I can't do that. I can't push him into something he doesn't want to be in. I really like Bellamy, but on the other hand does he really like me?