**Clarke**
Octavia is having her baby, two months early. Meaning it's not good. She's screaming and screaming and I'm trying to help as much as I can. I don't know what Bellamy will think of me, if Octavia dies. He probably won't even think about me. For a few months since he found out about Octavia, he hasn't been speaking to me. At all. Every time I try to make a conversation, he just walks away from me. Sometimes I feel like I just want to punch him really hard. Because he pisses me off so much.
He's waiting outside the drop ship, I take a break from Octavia and head outside for a quick swig of water. I notice that Bellamy is just staring at me, confused. He's been pacing up and down, not wanting to come into the drop ship but to not be too far away. His eyes don't break from looking at me. Somehow, they look glance at him, and stroll past into the drop ship. But he grabs my wrist and pulls me back.
"Bellamy, let go." I sternly say.
"Clarke, please help her. She can't die, she can't!" He sobs, that's the most he's said to me in months and not even an apology.
But I decide to let it go, well until the pregnancy is over. "I can't promise the baby will survive, it's two months early. Octavia, I'm not sure either but I promise you. I will try my best." He smiles weakly and so do I, before walking back into the drop ship.
"Come on, Octavia. You need to push." I shout. Blood's all over me, I have to bite my lips to stop me from throwing up. She groans and screams, her face turning pale from loss of blood. "Please!"
And Octavia does push, you can see her veins popping. She's pushing as hard as she can. Screams escape her mouth, she gasps, then screams some more. The baby is nearly out, then I can see the head. I smile faintly. as Octavia lets out a huge sigh of relief. The baby is out, I pick the baby up and my smile turns to a frown.
"Aren't babies supposed to cry once they are born?" Octavia asks, not wanting to know the answer to the question.
I don't do anything, I just stare at the babies chest, waiting for it to go up and down. But it doesn't. I accidentally, let out a small cry. Octavia takes her baby, tears dripping from her eyes.
"I'm so sorry." I whisper, I run out of thee drop ship. Past Bellamy and everyone else. I run straight to the woods, not stopping. I don't have the energy to run anymore, but I also don't have the energy to stop. So I just fall, I fall to the ground in tears. It's my fault the baby is dead! My fault! I just think to myself, today I've lost a baby.
I've probably lost a friend.
And I've definitely lost Bellamy.