Watching and Waiting
Chapter Four
Yup, new chapter.
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The Spirit World
The Shadow's POV
I could finally see the entrance to the human world. All of a sudden I grew nervous, causing me to stop in a meadow near the border.
What made me so uncomfortable was a final memory that took place only a few days ago.
I always wondered if she would have forgotten me. Then I would remember the purple hair tie I gave her. She would always wear it.
Or WORE. This is where the memory comes in.
There was a day she took the hair tie off and lost it. What upset me was that she wasn't even bothered about the fact she'd lost it. It was the only thing she had that could prove WE existed. But she completely forgot about it.
I can understand why. She probably thought that everything that happened during the time she was in the spirit world was a dream. Her parents had no memory either due to Yubaba's spell so she could never confirm with them. Plus, regular humans know nothing of the Spirit World meaning it would be only natural to discard everything – including me – as a dream.
That didn't prevent me from being MAD to say the least. I was mad. I was furious. I was… (Calling upon the language of Lin) pissed.
So pissed that I travelled all the way to the human world to recover he hair tie immediately. I dug all around her house, nothing. I tore apart her garden and scoured the stream I made for her… nothing. I searched the houses of her relatives and even some school friends of hers yet still nothing.
I remember strolling (or should I say stomping since one does not simply walk when they are pissed) towards the gateway to the spirit world and spotting a sparkly something at the foot of the statue. It was the hair tie. I stopped, transfixed by the note attached to the tie.
I'm sorry.
What does that mean?! She's sorry?! What for?
Then it hit me.
She's sorry because she thinks it was all a lie. A dream. A thing of deceit and dishonesty. A fabrication created by her mind to escape the reality of moving from one mundane life to another.
She believes I don't exist. She has cast me away as a fraud. She never wants to see me again.
I'd felt like a knife had gone through my chest. I'd felt… cold and empty on the inside. Exactly how I felt before I met her.
I had picked up her hair tie and retreated back into the Spirit World.
The pain still affects me now. Thinking about it sends the exact same pain slicing through me.
Am I making the right decision? Does she really want to see me?
I don't know the answer. I'm not her. I don't know how her mind works and I find that frustrating. Why did she do such a thing?
Seven years… It has been a long time. Only short for spirits as we have indefinite life spans but for humans? Most can't even remember what they had for breakfast the day before.
Do I go… or do I stay…
I don't know.
Mwahahaha I'm so evil. This isn't the last chapter by the way. The next one definitely is for sure as it's done and ready to be uploaded. I'll get it up as soon as I can!
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