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Sebastian'sP.O.V
Ciel has been looking paler as everyday passes, He's gotten alot skinnier and He has distanced himself, This all started when the doctor came. I have been growing more and more worried. He has to go to Lady Elizabeth's estate today and he told me that I cannot come. Looks like today I have to look around Ciel's office and bedroom for any clues as to why he is so pale and pushing everyone away. To say the most It hurts to see him so weak and fragile and I still have no idea why.
"Sebastian I am off make sure not to destroy the manor while i'm gone." He said and Tanaka set off with him in the back of the carriage. I bowed and when he was out of sight I shut the front door and made my way quickly up to Ciel's office. I searched all over the room in less than 5 minutes but I found nothing. even the drawer that he usually had locked was unlocked but nothing was inside.
I huffed in annoyance and I ran to Ciels bedroom. I've only been in here when I was called or he was kidnapped for no reason. But to say the least it always amazes me how beautiful it looks in here. I began to look through his night stand but I found nothing and the same went for everything else. I started to get more frustrated as time passed and I still couldn't find a damn thing.
Then I turned, The only place I didn't think to look is his personal desk. So I did what everyone would do, I looked through his desk. I found nothing so far but then this golden and silver box's glare caught my eyes. I picked the box up and opened the Lid slowly and what was revealed to me shocked me greatly. Letters were stacked on letters. You could easily say that there is more than 100 letters in there. But that is not what surprised me. What surprised me is that they were all addressed to me.
Out of all the letters from the top to the bottom I picked one from the bottom of the stack and It had a number on it 1. it said on the bottom right hand corner. I opened it and I begun to read it, Taking note how neat his hand writing has gotten.
~Dear Sebastian.
This is my first letter to you Sebastian and I feel silly writing it but here goes absolutely nothing. You will never receive this but I feel as if I should do something about all the emotions swirling around in my heart and in my head. I feel as if my heart will burst at times but I will never let that show. I found out that i'm sick, very sick. They said I have only a few years left. You might not get your soul then and I am very sorry for that. Ha, see childish and i'm sixteen years of age. But I treasure everything you have done for me and everything you are still doing. All my memories of you will forever be in my heart even when I 'm on my death bed. But you know it's not like I had a reason to live anyways. i'm done searching for my parent's murderer, I was cured from that god awful demon state. Honestly I have absolutely no idea how you could put up with that hunger for so long. Any ways I seem to be watching you more and more and some times no matter how ironic this is you glow like an angel. But I shouldn't get attached to someone or something so easily, Just like you and your dumb cats.
Sincerely, Ciel A. Phantomhive.
I finished reading the letter and I couldn't believe he hid something like this hidden from me. But I couldn't help but laugh at his reasons and Irony. No matter if he was dying or dead I would follow him into death for he is my master. He is stubborn, annoying at times and cranky in the morning but overall he is calm, collected, sweet *Deep deep deeeeep down* and sure as hell very full of himself but that was all his good points. So it hurt me deeply as to why he wouldn't confide in me. And I couldn't help but think "what is in the next letter?"
Ha ha ha. Sorry these are going to be shorter chapters than THE DIVIDE, HOME, And WAKE UP. because mainly they will have Ciel's letters in them. :P but I hope you guys enjoy my writing and cry with Sebastian and Ciel as they go through the most painful time of their' Well Ciel's life. Hence Sebastian is a demon therefore he is dead. he he he. This chapter is dedicated to my best friend, Editor, and #1 fan Promocat. still my boyfriend and brother are stubborn as hell. *Humphs angrily* They wont let me leave the dang hospital! ~Ano-Chan