Love letters to the unknown

by Haejin96

Ciel has a very fatal and deadly disease, But Sebastian knows nothing about it. Ciel has been distancing himself from his servants so when his time comes they wont grieve, He has been secretly writing letters to Sebastian but has never sent them out. But what happens when Sebastian finds Ciel's stash of letters that were addressed to no one but Sebastian?

4. The Third Letter He Ever Wrote

Sebastian's P.O.V I covered my mouth to keep my sobs silent. The letters all were filled with...with... I can't even explain it. I just know that the more letters I read the more detailed and more sorrow fills my heart.
Ignoring the aching pain within my heart I picked up the third letter. Just like the rest it had a number on it.

~dear Sebastian,
I know how much pain you must be in. How much suffering you have been put through because of me. My damned commands and orders. You have no choice but to obey them and I use that to my advantage. But I am afraid to order you around so much. I am afraid that you will eventually rebel and leave me. I'm afraid that I wont have any one left in the world for me to turn to. Do you remember? a few years ago I was trying to use that ghost camera to get a picture of you and I made excuses. But the real reason why I wanted a picture is because I wanted to know if I was your most precious person. I fell asleep for one reason and That is the nightmares that plague me night and day. So when you took my picture I was afraid that you would see the nightmares in it. But it was just you.
You ARE my most precious person or should I say demon. Except Pluto ruined the picture. My heart aches at the thought of loosing you. The pain I felt when my parents died compares to nothing as the pain I feel now. And I know why that Is. It's because I fell in love with you. I will never try to change that. I will never try to change you or my fate. Because with my time closing in it made me open my eyes. Of who and what I truly am.
You know I love the time I spend with you. You and the servants. My past is no laughing matter yes, But what if I never want to get my revenge? If I do you will take my soul and I would die earlier than I'm supposed to. I don't think I would like that to happen but... Do what you will. My life is yours and your life is mine. Though I never thought my life would end this way. Slowly eating me inside and out. But the one thing I do know, is that I will forever remember you past my time and yours, to heaven and hell and back again. I love you Sebastian Michaelis now and forever. Sincerely, Ciel A. Phantomhive.~

My breath hitched In my throat and I dropped the letter I was holding. "After all this time how did I not notice your feelings for me?" I asked myself and I felt a pain go through my heart at an extremely fast rate I felt like I was collapsing inwards on myself. " now I know where my pain comes from when I catch your scent and how something in my chest feels pain when you get kidnapped." I said to myself and I could barely keep myself standing up straight. " I think I love you to."

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