TITLE: The Upper School

AUTHOR: Danielle

SUMMARY: AU. Buffy's POV throughout middle and high school, dealing with normal teen things… and Angel.

DISCLAIMER: All the characters are Joss Whedon's, the school and teachers own themselves, (will the schools is … but) but all names are changed for privacy.

RATING: PG- 15, depends what you are aloud. This fic is going to be graphic and not only sex wise, but pain wise. Also, as to prove my innocence and no one gets mad at me, if I offend anyone with comments in this fic, I am already sorry, but it's thoughts of Buffy not me, I don't think that way and I add these things for the thoughts of the story and not to offend anyone.

DEDICATION: To my Willow and Xander, and to MY Angel.

FEEDBACK: Would love some!

AN: This is my disclaimer. This is not my life, please do not think that one teenager went through all this. There are some serious issues going to happen in this fic and if you need clearing up on certain things, feel free to email me or IM me at MooShee16.

10th Grade- August, 2000

The fact that I'm late to Drusilla's party isn't lost on me. I know I'm late. I want to be late. Everyone in our grade was invited to the end of summer party and I want my summer to end on a late note. I look at my watch and see that it's eight o'clock. I'm officially an hour late. I touch my hair and smooth it down. It's not as blonde as it was last year. I made it darker, like dirty blonde. We turn into Drusilla's neighborhood and I look out the window. I haven't talked to anyone since I left for England over the summer. Haven't responded to any emails, calls, and letters.

We pull up in front of Drusilla's house and it's huge. We have a pretty big house ourselves, but Drusilla's is ginormous or gigantic, whatever. I smile at my dad and tell him that the party ends at 12:00 but I'll call him 'cause I'll probably leave early. And every time I say that I usually end up staying the whole time, if not later. I look at him for a moment before I reflect on the though that I'm staying at my dad's house tonight. My parents separated over the summer. I don't think I've told them yet how much it broke my heart. Not that I want to. I barely saw it coming either. All I knew was that one-day we're that happy family and the next we weren't. And did I do something? IF I were a better student, would it have helped? The worst part of it all was that I was in England when the whole thing happened. I had to hear it over the phone.

I ring the doorbell and wait as someone comes and answers it. I know almost everyone is there already. People are never late to parties that are thrown, maybe just because we don't have so many, parties. The door opens and I smile at Dru's mother as I walk inside. She tells me to go downstairs and I follow the pathway down where everyone is. When I touch the first step, I already hear the music pounding towards my ears.

Have I mentioned how much I hate rap?

I start going down slowly and when I reach the last step, I take a deep breath. Ready or not, here I come. I laugh to myself and open the tingling things that she put in front of the door. When I get in, there is barely anyone inside, and when I look out the window, I see everyone in the pool.

"Buffy! Hey, wow, you look amazing!" Someone says and I smile nicely at them and say it back but then I start walking towards the pool.

As I walk in the music stops suddenly and someone looks over and points. "Look! Buffy! You're here!"

It was Faith.

I smile at her and I can feel everyone's eyes on me. I hear a lot of "Hi"s and "Buffy!"s. I start taking off my jeans and my shirt. I turn back around to face everyone and they have that look on their faces, like they can't believe it.

I go inside the pool towards were Faith and a few other girls are. Faith hugs me real tight and tells me how much she missed me and I tell her the same, and in this instant I really did. We start splashing around and dunking each other when I feel someone's arms come around me and I look up at Spike and a huge grin forms my face.

"Spike!" But before I could say anything else he pulls me up and throws my in the water. As I am about to go deep inside the water, I see someone looking at me and when I connect my eyes with him, I feel a jolt. "Angel."

But I fall deep inside the water and I come up spitting and cursing Spike's name. "You asshole!" I laugh at him as I start trying to dunk him. But suddenly he stops when Drusilla comes over and makes him come her way. I roll my eyes at the puppy Spike looks like and turn towards Faith who seems to pissed but… omigod!

"Faith…"

"What?"

"Are you okay?" I ask as we move towards a more secure location where no one can hear us.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"

"'Cause Spike is stupid? And Drusilla is dumb?" I say, amusement in my eyes.

"He can do whatever he wants, I'm just his friend."

"His best friend," I correct.

"Buffy, I don't care. Really," she says as she starts to swim away from this conversation and me. She is so stalling. I roll my eyes at her and start to follow her towards the deeper end of the pool but I change my mind and decide to get out of the water. As I get out, I look over to the hot tube and see Angel. He doesn't see me looking at him and that's good thing because now he can't see the hurt I am feeling with the fact that Darla is literally sitting on his lap rubbing herself on him. She is such a fucking piece shit. Stupid slut.

Guess he wanted to make our break or whatever we where on more permanent. I roll my eyes at them as I climbed the stairs to go inside Drusilla's house. I looked over and ignore the stares that Percy and Larry give me and go over to the food table. For the first time this whole night, I noticed how hungry I was. I started snacking on the chips that are sitting there. For a second I wonder where Willow and Xander were and why they didn't come, or if they were just going to be late.

I was just about to go ask if I could borrow someone's cell phone when I felt someone put a towel over my body and hold onto me tightly. I turn around and was about to yell at the person who did this when I stare into his eyes.

"What are you doing!" I snap at him as I started to take it off.

Angel held my arms so I couldn't take it off. "You are walking around with nothing on! Anyone can see you!"

I was so shocked that I really couldn't say anything. For a second. "What right do you have to tell me what to wear!"

"I'm your boyfriend, of course I have a right."

This time I'm speechless. Like really, I swear my mouth has dropped and I cannot think of anything but WHAT! He takes my hand pulls me towards the bathroom and I'm still in shock and all I can think is what. He shuts the door, I'm standing in the middle of the bathroom in a daze, and all Angel is doing is staring at me. Wasn't he going to say something? He still kept staring at me. Why do I have to say something? Why is my boyfriend the one without the brain. (Expect all those As he has, and double honor classes he is in. Still!)

"What the hell is going on, Angel? Last I checked we were on a 'break'." Saying break with a mocking tone.

He starts to move towards me and I panic and start to move backwards until I hit the shower curtain and I almost fall into it the bathtub. "That was the summer. Now summer is over, and all I want is you."

I move away from his gaze and move to the other side of the bathroom and stare at him with confusion. What does he want from me? "Darla was sitting on your lap like two seconds ago and now you want only me? Angel make your decision already! I'm not a maid that you can call whenever you want! I'm a human being for godsake, I have feelings to!"

"I know that. I was just saying hi to Darla. I don't want her and you know that."

"And even if you didn't want her, you had the you the ass you wanted over the summer and now that we are back in school you just want mine back again. Angel sorry to break you bubble but it doesn't work that way. You can't bounce me back and forth like a yo-yo."

He looks at me for a second and he gets this really broody looking thing on his face and he just gets so cute when he has it… but I'm still mad at him. But he is just so cute looking.

"I didn't hook up with anyone at camp."

Wait. What? "What?"

"I didn't hook up with anyone. I almost did but all I could was think about you."

What? Huh? Omigod, this so is not happing. "Are you kidding?"

"No."

My mouth is hanging open and Angel didn't kiss anyone else! Yah! Before I even have another thought in my head I threw myself against him and started kissing him senseless. I feel him wrap his arms tight around me and for the first time I feel how big and muscular his arms got. I melt into his embrace as he probes my mouth and slowly starts exploring my mouth with his tongue.

We must having been making out for a while because the next thing I hear is someone banging on the door. I look up at Angel and we are both panting heavily from the lack of air and our bodies are so wrapped around each other we look like a knot.

"Whatever you guys are doing, open the goddamn door already!" A familiar voice shuts through the door and I giggle. Spike just loves ruining the moment.

I look up at Angel and bit my lip but still smile and he just smiles down at me before standing up, with me in his arms and opens the lock and walks out of the bathroom, ignoring Spike's comments.

He carries me into a empty bedroom and shuts the door. He lay me on the bed, put his head on my chest, and started to stroke my stomach. After a second, he looked up at me and I just fell, fell into his gaze. Melted.

"I'm sorry."

I touched his cheek softly. "For what?"

He kissed my stomach before looking back up at me. "For what I said before camp."

"Oh."

"At camp, all did was think about you. I wrote a million letters, I just never had the guts to send any of them. My friends kept saying how whipped I was, and I just wanted to prove to them that I wasn't. So-"

I put my hand on his lip, he looks up to me, and his eyes are so brown, so gentle. "I don't care."

"Let me- I need to tell you."

I nod my head once and expect the fact that he was about to tell me about how he made out with some random girl at camp. This was going to be so much fun.

"When we were finally alone, me and the girl, and she started to come closer to me, I started to hyperventilate. Like freaking out, I nearly jumped across the room when she touched me."

To say my head snapped up and looked at Angel with shock is a bit of an understatement. My mouth started to blossom into a huge smile and I couldn't help but laugh a little. But the experience really seemed to traumatize him. Still, it was funny to watch.

"It wasn't funny Buffy. Really. She thought I was some weirdo. But all the while all I could think about was you, the way you looked at me before I left and how you laughed and smiled and everything about you. All I could think about was you. And I had to expect the fact which my friends taunted me with for the rest of the summer, that was whipped. You have me wrapped around you finger, Buffy. I would do anything for you just to see you happy. I want to fly all the way to England to see you. But my dad wouldn't let me."

I couldn't help the tears. Stupid tears!

He touched my cheek gently and wiped them away. "I was such a jackass Buffy. I don't know what I would do without you."

So cliché but I gave him a watery smile anyway before I kissed him again. He got his point across. And all the while I was kissing him; feeling his hard, gentle body against mine, the way I felt his heart pound against my chest, all I could think about was how old people said you never find love at such a young age like 15. But this huge feeling that was taking over my heart, all I could do to explain it as love.

TBC