TITLE: The Upper School

AUTHOR: Danielle

SUMMARY: AU. Buffy's POV throughout middle and high school, dealing with normal teen things… and Angel.

DISCLAIMER: All the characters are Joss Whedon's, the school and teachers own themselves, (will the schools is … but) but all names are changed for privacy.

RATING: PG- 15, depends what you are aloud. This fic is going to be graphic and not only sex wise, but pain wise. Also, as to prove my innocence and no one gets mad at me, if I offend anyone with comments in this fic, I am already sorry, but it's thoughts of Buffy not me, I don't think that way and I add these things for the thoughts of the story and not to offend anyone.

DEDICATION: To my Willow and Xander, and to MY Angel.

FEEDBACK: Would love some!

AN: This is my disclaimer. This is not my life, please do not think that one teenager went through all this. There are some serious issues going to happen in this fic and if you need clearing up on certain things, feel free to email me or IM me at MooShee16.

10th Grade- Trimester Two- February, 2001

"Girls should most likely know how to use a condom and carry their own if they plan to have sex."

"Are we going to learn how to put one on?"

"Yes."

Wait. WHAT! Ow. Ow. OW. Shit. SHIT. Way to go Buffy, fall out of your chair, you're super smart.

"Buffy Summers, are you alright?"

Stupid Buffy. Dumb blonde-haired person. "Yeah," I mumble as I get up and sit back in my chair, rubbing my head still cursing myself.

The class is looking at me like I am crazy. Well, maybe I am, a bit, but how is everyone else reacting so well to this? We are going to have to touch a condom, let alone put it on something! And I'm the crazy one, they say? I knock my head against the table and suddenly everyone in class is quiet again.

"Buffy Summers, once again are you alright?" are sex education teacher asks.

I glare at him and sit up straight. I she trying to make me look stupid? Suddenly Mr. Brinns pulls out a red plastic square from a bag. And a cucumber. Oh. My. God. We have to put it on that! On a freakin' vegetable! "What the hell is that!"

"Buffy Summers, watch your tongue, sit down, and be quiet or I will have to send you to the Disciplinary Office."

"Right. Sorry." I look at Willow who is laughing at my behavior and then look at Angel who is just shacking his head. I punch him in his back and he then mock glares at me before taking my hand in his and twining them together.

Mr. Brinns passes a cucumber and a condom to everyone and explains we should practice.

"Right," I say as I stare at my big cucumber and slowly rip the square. "You can do it, Buffy. It's only a condom."

I look over at Angel and he is… "How the hell did you do that so fast?" How, that was like five seconds.

"Buffy, you honestly think I have never put a condom on?"

Angel had sex. When did Angel have sex? Who did Angel have sex with? Where was I? "You uh had sex? With who?" Keep it steady. Maybe he… I can't believe he had sex. I already feel the sob swelling in my throat.

"Buffy, I never have had sex before," Angel said shaking his head.

"Then how the hell can you put on a freaking condom on so fast?"

"I've practiced."

"What with a cucumber?"

"No, on myself."

Oh, right. He does have one of those. Right. "Right. I'm going to go to the bathroom."

I rise quickly from my seat, sign out, and rush down the hall towards the bathroom. I open a stall and knock my head against the wall. This is not happening to me, I mean, me and Angel have gone pretty far but sex?

I sat on the toilet, look at the poster that is on the bathroom door, and crack my knuckles. A few seconds I hear the door open to the bathroom and someone open another stall. I get up, open the door, leave the bathroom, and walk back to class. I pout all the way there. Right, I can do this. I take a deep breath and open the door and see that all the guys have finished already but most of the girls were still having trouble.

I slump into my chair, ignoring the stares Willow and Angel gave me. I puck up the cucumber and then the condom which I left open on the desk and slip the condom on the vegetable. I drop the cucumber quickly and look up at Mr. Brinns. "I'm done! Now what?"

He looks at me a second. "How did you do that so fast?"

Now everyone in the class is staring. "Uh… I just did?" I shrug my shoulders and pick up the "penis" and start spinning it. I feel someone looking at me and look over at Angel. "What?"

"How did you do that so fast?"

"I just did. Why is everyone making such a big deal? Jesus." I roll my eyes at him and wait for everyone else to finish.

Once everyone was done Mr. Brinns starts talking again and of course I start to space out. Maybe I should be tested for ADD or something.

"Has anyone considered sex before?"

What. No. We are in 10th Grade anyw— NO! Omigod, omigod, put your hand down, NOW! I swallow quickly and I feel myself start to hyperventilate. Breathe in out in out.

"Angel would you like to explain this decision?" Yeah, explain this decision.

"I feel like we should be able to show our love towards each other if we feel the need to. Age or no age. It's not a bad thing, and if we use protection then I don't see the problem."

"That's a fair argument, would anyways like to speak against this argument?"

No one raises their hand. So what everyone thinks that they should be able to have sex? What, are they stupid? "Yes, I would." I can't believe Angel just told the whole class he wants to have sex! "Sex is for people who are in love and not for whorny teenagers! Just because we think we are adults and think we "love" each other doesn't mean its real!"

Everyone is staring at me in shock and I quickly look over at Angel who is not meeting my gaze. Shouldn't it be me who is not looking at him? What do I now? The bell rings and I pick my books up and I am about to go over to Angel but he is out of the room before I can say anything.

"What's with Angel?" I say as me and Willow walk to our lockers.

"Buffy, you are stupid."

"What? I mean, what?" What I do? You know those feelings you get when you want to smash your foot to the ground like a kid; I want a moment like that right now.

"Angel said to the whole class he loves you and said you didn't!"

"What? When did this happen, I clearly do not remember a declaration of love! And who said I didn't love Angel?" Is she delusional? Angel does not love me. And why would he say it in front of the whole class. And of course I love Angel. "Anyways, Angel told the whole class he wants to have sex." I grumbled.

"With someone he loves."

"I feel like we should be able to show our love towards each other if we feel the need to."

Oh yeah, he did say that. Oh shit! But still, I don't want to have sex. "It's not like he said it out loud or anything. All he said was that he wanted to have sex with someone he loves."

"Being you?"

Whatever. "If it's true he would have to tell me. What he said is pretty broad anyways."

I slam my locker shut and walk towards French alone. I sit in my desk and wait for Angel to come but when he does and he sits down next to me, he sits as far away, as he can and before I can even say anything the teacher comes in.

Throughout the whole class, I am looking at him and he wouldn't meet my gaze. "Angel," I whisper. He looks at me for a second before putting his hand to his lip, literally telling me not to bother him. Fine, I can be like that too. I cross my arms and ignore him for the rest of class.

2 days later

Two days, and me and Angel have barely spoken. No little, love text messages in the middle of the night, no holding my hand in the hallways. Nothing. And today is Valentine's Day! I sit in my Science class, and listen to my teacher drown on and on about some chemistry thing. I look at the clock when everyone starts getting up. What's going on?

"Hey, where are we going?" I ask Cordelia.

"To the seminar class."

Kay… because suddenly Mrs. Harts decided we are super smart in Science? We walk to the classroom and everyone starts going to their friends. I see Angel talking to Percy and Hogan, who had gone over to him, and ignore me completely. I stand at the front of the room when the Honors kids come in. I move to the back of the room to give them space, and suddenly wish Willow had Seminar science 7th period. Why did their have to be so many kids in our grade who are so smart in Science?

Angel knows I have science this period, and he did see me come in. At least he could do is acknowledge me. It is Valentines Day! My lip comes out and I feel my throat start to tighten. I raise my hand and suddenly I notice that the teachers are talking about something. "Yes, Buffy?"

Everyone turns to me and I try not to let the tears that are threatening to fall out. "Can I uh go to the bathroom?"

"Sure." I quickly leave the room, ignoring the stares. Once I get to the bathroom and I'm safe in the bathroom the tears start to flow quickly. Once I feel like I can control myself, I wipe up and leave the bathroom. I walk into the classroom and I slip into the back and once again ignore the stares.

"Miss Summers are you alright? You look pale." Mrs. Harts stats.

I give a forced smile. "I'm fine, I'm uh tired."

I look down and ignore the stare that Angel gives me. I wait for the teachers to explain everything and the second the bell is done, I grab my books and briskly walk out the class but I felt someone grab my elbow and I turned around and looked into Angel's eyes.

"What?" I really didn't have time for him.

"What's wrong?" he said, as he tried to pull me away out of the entrance of the Science classroom.

"None of you business," I mutter as I try to pull away but he doesn't let me go. "Let me go."

"What do you mean none of my business? I'm your boyfriend!"

"Some boyfriend," I mumble underneath my breath.

"What do you mean some boyfriend and what is going on with you!" Angel yelled at me.

This whole time we are doing whatever we are doing I was looking at the floor but after what he said my head snapped up. "ME! Me! Have you lost your mind! I'm not the one with the whole attitude! I'm not the one ignoring and avoiding their significant other! So yeah, it is none of your business until you tell me what is up your ass. And because you are so stupid and stubborn I won't find for a while. So… go away!"

And with that I march off but once again I get pulled by my elbow by Angel again and this time all my books fell to the floor. "What the he--"

"I'm sorry I get upset when I love you and you don't! So sorry for getting a little upset."

"Maybe if you weren't such an – What? You love me?"

"Yes. I love you," Angel said, but he looked down.

"You love me?"

"Yes!"

"Love," pointing to myself. "Me."

Angel gives me a chuckle before nodding. Oh. Willow was right.

"Me to." I looked up at him and I feel slight tears forming around my eyes but not falling. I feel Angel's hands take mine and twine them slowly.

"You love yourself?" He said with a smirk on his face.

I hit him gently before Angel engulfed me in a hug. I heard the bell ring but I could have cared less. "No, well yeah, but me to. I love you too."

Angel kissed my head gently before tucking me into his neck and we walked slowly towards my locker. I opened my locker and take my books that I need for Study Hall and then once I had done that, Angel had taken them from me held them in one arm, and then them took his other arm and put it around my shoulder.

We walked slowly to class and once we reached the room Angel held onto me and kissed me slowly. When he let go, I felt all the stares from the room but I could care less.

"I love you, Buffy," Angel whispered.

"I love you. But I'm not having sex with you."

Angel laughed at me before turning around and heading towards his locker and his class. I enter the class with my happy daze and everyone is looking at me like I'm crazy but I can't help it. But everyone is still staring.

"What? Is there something on my face?"

TBC

I know the ending sounds confusing but I'm just trying to show how life goes on in a good way.