Old and new life collide chapter four

Dawn light streamed through the window of Wyatt and Trevor's room, as Trevor got up he looked at his still sleeping brother and wondered what it would feel like to be Wyatt, not have to feel guilty about walking out on his family, to not have to lie to everyone he loved, but most of all, he thought taking an inward sigh, he wondered what it would feel like to do those things every day.

Trevor shook himself out of his thoughts grabbed his clothes out of his rucksack and went to have a shower when he was dressed he went to the kitchen to make some breakfast and found his dad sitting at the table steering blankly at what looked like pamphlets Trevor made two coffee's and put one in front of his dad when Leo didn't acknowledge the coffee was there he put his hand on his father's shoulder Leo turned his head at the touch that brought him out of his thoughts

"Chris thanks" he said acknowledging the coffee Trevor had made.

"Are you okay?" Trevor asked his father

"Yeah I'm just trying to pick a coffin out for your mom" Leo explained gesturing to the pamphlets in front of him

"When did you get these?" Trevor asked he knew his father didn't have them yesterday.

"The undertaker gave them to me when he came to pick your mom up I couldn't sleep so I rang him at three thirty this morning and he came at four I've been looking at these ever since" Leo told him.

Trevor took the pamphlets out of his father's hands. "Dad go rest, let me take care of this" Leo nodded, muttered thanks and made his way up the stairs with the coffee.

As Trevor sat down his cell phone rang he looked at his display screen and saw it was his C.O calling "LaBlanc" he answered,

"Where are you LaBlanc?"

"In sanfransico sir, my mother passed away last night so I drove here I'm sorry I didn't ring in sir it won't happen again"

"I hope not LaBlanc, but fortunately for you your wife rang in just after you left last night you have 72 hours bereavement leave then I want you back on post and back training is that clear?"

"Yes thank you sir"

"Trevor" Holden continued

"Sir"

"I'm sorry for your loss"

"Thank you" Trevor said then hung up the phone and dialled his home number, after the first few rings Roxy anserwared the phone,

"LaBlanc residence, Roxy speaking"

"Hey babe, I just got a call from Michel Holden" he told her

"Oh what about?" replied Roxy, Trevor new she was trying to fake innocent.

"My mother's death" he told her "I'm thinking he must be physic because I didn't tell him" he continued knowing Roxy would fold,

"Yeah it was me, I didn't want you getting in trouble so rang clauder joy and told her what happened and she must have told Michel, I'm sorry babe I know you don't like me doing stuff like this but I just fault I had to" she said trying to explain herself. Trevor laughed silently to himself "Babe it's okay, well not really but what's done is done and can't be undone, so please just don't do it again" he half begged half asked of her.

"I won't" she replied

"but thank you babe, I have three days bereavement leave so I'll see you then hugs and kisses to the boys" he told her and was about to hang up when he heard Roxy's voice again, "I will, how's everything going over there?"

"Not too bad, but there's so much to do I had better go, love you babe" he told her

"Love you too" she replied then hung up the phone.

Trevor sat at the table and thought about what he had said to Roxy and remembered the only time those words were said to him: (flashback)

"There has to be some way to go back and save her" Chris yelled at his father

"No there isn't what's done is done and can't be undone, I for one am glad she's dead she was nothing but a waste of space and you're better off without her anyway" Leo had told him that was when Chris had lost it he pushed Leo up against the wall with one hand and punched him as hard as he could with the other

"Bianca-is-not-a-waste-of-space he said and punctuated every word with a punch to his father's face, that was when his mom walked in and broke up the fight, he walked away from his parents up to his room and started packing.

(End flashback)

Trevor pulled himself out of his memorises, downed his coffee, grabbed his jacket and keys and drove to his aunt Phoebe's house turned the car off and knocked on the door after a minute the door opened and in-front of him stood his aunt phoebe still in a dressing gown with her hair down, her face red and puffy from crying,

"Can I help you?" she asked.

"Hey Aunt Phoebe how are you holding up?" Trevor asked

"Chris?" she asked then without waiting for conformation she flung her arms around him and gave him the biggest hug he'd ever had and he returned it.

Phoebe pulled away from him "come on in" she said walking back inside,

Trevor stepped in and closed the door behind him "You want tea I got Carmamal" she told him

"yes thanks" as Phoebe started getting cups out and boiling water he said "Aunt Phoebe I'm sorry for coming round so early I just wanted to apologise for walking out five years ago it was inexcusable and I'll try and never do it again" he knew he couldn't promise it though

"I understand Chris and I forgive you I know what it's like to lose someone you love and not want to be around anyone"

"Thanks Aunt Phoebe" he told her

"Your cousin's may find it harder to forgive you they still don't understand why you left" she warned him

"yeah, I know" he sighd

"Hey Aunt Phoebe do you think there's a spell that can make people forget or forgive sooner rather than later?

"There could be, but you won't get away with using it on you cousin's." Phoebe warned him

"What? no, I don't want to use it on them. I think it's been used on me" he explained

"Huh? Used on you by who?" she asked

"Wyatt? I think; I don't know I mean one minute I was telling him that I would try and forgive him for what happened with Bee and the next we're getting along like proper brothers, it was like nothing had happened five years ago."

"The only time I saw something like that happen was with a genie but I can't imagine why Wyatt would think he needed to use magic to make you forgive him?"

"Maybe because he knew I wouldn't forgive him otherwise" Trevor told her angry that his brother had used magic on him.

Thinking of magic made Trevor think of something that happened three years ago, "Aunt Phoebe do you think it's possible that Bianca could be reincarnated?"

"Well I don't see why not she was on the good side when she died, although it would have meant that she would have had to start a complete new life and she wouldn't be able to remember anything from the past" she told him

"Oh well that's that theory out then" Trevor said to himself out loud.

"Why do you say that" Phoebe asked

"Well this is going to sound crazy but when I first meet Roxy I truly believed I was looking at Bianca everything except her personality was Bianca it wasn't until about two or three weeks after we were married that I saw her for her"

"I don't know what to tell you except that I don't think it was magic or spirits that made that happen I think it was your heart or your mind helping you to move on"

"Yeah maybe, I have to go and see Aunt Paige and beg her to forgive me, thank you for talking to me Aunt Phoebe"

"Any time sweetie" she said giving him a hug good bye "don't be a stranger" she told him as she walked him to the door

"I won't, promise oh and don't worry about doing anything for the funeral me and Wyatt are going to organise it all, I'll see you tomorrow" he told her, then walked to his car and drove to his aunt Paige's glad that everything was okay between them when he left his aunt Paige's all forgiven he got on the phone and ordered the coffin his dad had already picked out and rang the church that his aunt Prue had been cremated at and organised to have the funeral there, then just to keep himself from wanting to kill Wyatt he organised everything from the flowers to the wake which was being held in his mums night club and put a notice in the paper so people could come and pay there respect's.

With the funeral all set to begin at ten A.M the next morning he went to bed and tried not to think about what Wyatt had done as he fell asleep.

At eight A.M the next morning Roxy put hers and her sons suitcases into the back of Pamela's car thankful that she could borrow it for two days she had closed the hump bar so she and the boys could help Trevor with his mother's passing she also hopped the boys could meet another side of their family.

"Give Trevor our love" Pamela told her as Roxy hopped in the driver's seat

"I will, thanks again babe" she then started the car and the four hour drive to sanfransisco she smiled when she remembered that Trevor and Roland had put a gps tracking system in the car and that, that was how she was going to find Trevor.