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Chapter 5: sadness

The morning of his mother's funeral arrived, at six am Trevor woke up and got ready for the emotional day he knew was ahead of him, he showered and got dressed in a suit and tie and left the house before Wyatt woke up.

today was exactly five years to the day of Bianca's passing so he walked to a place he hadn't been to in four years, golden gate park, when he left after she had been murdered he came here, to there spot (he had brought her here on their very first lunch date and then a few times after that, the last time they were here together was when he had asked her to marry him) and had a sort of private memorial for her except there was no picture of her just a small rock that had the name Bianca Halliwell and "Always loved, Forever remembered" he had used a small army knife and it wasn't the best but at the time it was all he could do he had missed her every day since she had passed and when he saw her a few days ago it was like a pleasant torture that made him miss her even more than ever now, he picked some flowers from the garden nearby and laid them down in front of the stone.

"I miss you Bee" he told her "Look after my mother she was the only one that was nice to you when we started dating remember" he said as if she could hear him "love you" he told her then at nine Am he walked to the church that his mother's funeral was being held at and helped set up.

After twenty minutes Trevor heard someone say,

"Been a long time since I've seen you Chris, how have you been?" Trevor looked up and saw it was Father Dan the minister of the church "well, thank you Father" Trevor told him as he shook his hand

"I'm sorry for your loss, I prayed for your mother each night to get stronger and beat the cancer but I guess our lord has other wonderful plans for her"

"Yeah I guess so" Trevor said doubtfully

"So what have you been doing for the past few years?" Father Dan asked him

"I joined the army" Trevor told him

"Wow, been to many places?"

"Afghanistan and Iraq mostly that's where the war is" Trevor answered

The priest said nothing Trevor wasn't surprised, only between military personal was the war easily discussed with a solder.

"Well, er, let me know if there's anything you would like me to do" father Dan told him "yeah, sure thanks" Trevor told him.

Then started putting guides out on all the chairs when it was nine thirty everyone started arriving and at ten the church was near full when the ceremony began, Trevor found that to him most of it was a haze there were songs and then people with memory's about Piper but all Trevor could think about as he looked around the room was how Bianca should have enjoyed having this many people at her funeral or better yet her wedding he walked out then and when his dad tried to stop him he used the excuse of having to set up the food at p3 and his father let him go not wanting to ague.

Trevor walked home and got in the mustang and drove to p3 went in through the back and started moving around tables and chairs and doing anything he could to keep himself from breaking down. At eleven thirty people started arriving at p3 and Trevor had just put up the picture of piper he thought was the best the one where she looked like his mom she had no make-up and was healthy and younger it was a photo taken just a couple of hours after Chris was born.

As people arrived Trevor greeted them by the door and said "thanks for coming it means a lot or I know my mother would have appreciated it" as they said "I'm sorry for your loss or I wish we were here under better circumstances" just after twelve as people were eating and drinking and telling stories about Piper another guest arrived.

Roxy stood at the top of the stairs scanning the room for Trevor she found him behind the bar serving drinks she walked towards him and just as she got near enough to the bar to hear but not be seen by Trevor she heard someone complain about getting the wrong drink "sorry" he said taking the cup and getting a new one just as a tall brunette came over put her hands on his shoulders and told him firmly to "take a break and break-down" because he wasn't going to last much longer' "ok, thanks he told the brunette woman, half smiling as he handed her the towel and went on the opposite side of the room and disappeared as Roxy followed him she saw him go through a door leading to the back it closed as she got near it she put a hand on the door-nob as the lady from the bar called out, "sorry you can't go in there, restricted personal only"

"oh I just need to talk to my husband" she told this bar lady,

"sorry your husband's not in there" the bar-lady told her,

"yes he is I just saw him go in" Roxy told her,

"you can't have the only person in there is Chris Halliwell" the brunette replied,

"I just saw my husband go in" Roxy told her again,

"I don't know who you saw but it wasn't your husband". Just then the door opened and facing both ladies was a puffy eyed Trevor/Chris "Chris, Trevor can you tell this woman who you are?" both lady's said at the same time pointing to each other, Trevor/Chris held the door open for both of them

"Why don't you come inside" he said inviting them in as soon as they stepped passed him he closed the door behind them mentally getting ready to tell his cousin and his wife the absolute truth.

AN: so what do you think let me know. Sorry it's taken so long to update.