Noticing the way she smiles. Remembering the way he laughs. Feeling things like happiness, embarrassment, jealousy, pain. These are all syptoms of a thing we feel in our hearts. What is this thing you ask? Well to put it simply, it's something that makes the world go round. A thing that when returned; you feel like you can do the impossible. This my friends, is what we call love.
-I'm in Love with You-
Rated T for: Contains things I'm pretty sure only teens can handle reading
PREVIOUSLY ON I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU:
"do you possibly... have feelings for Natsu?"
This question. AGAIN?!.
"No..."
"Oh. Is that so?" she started saying happily. "Ah, Thank goodness."
Thank goodness? Why did she answer that way? Even during dinner, she wsn't acting like her happy self, but now it's back. There's something going on.
"Hey, Anna..."
"Lucy! I'm going to leave you behind." Natsu called out to me.
"I'm coming! See you tommorow, okay Anna."
Looks like I'm asking in the morning
Chapter 4: Love and Jealousy
Lucy P.O.V
"Sunny! Get back here and take your bath!"
I'm literally out of breath at this point. I swear this thing is going to kill me.
"Pun, pun!"
"Quit it with the attitude and get over here!" I tried blocking it in corners, and making trap, but they were all futile. Wait, there is still something else.
"Open , Gate of the Canis Major, Nicola!" The cutest white doggy landed on my feet.
"Sunny this is Plue. Say hi Plue."
"Pun."
"...Pun?"
...I hope this works.
"...pun. Pun! PUN!"
Within a minute there are hearts in Sunny's eyes. Yes, The Nicola seduction plan is a success. At least I hope it is. Well, Love is love right?. Now, here's my chance.
"Got ya!"
"Pun!"
"Hmph, now you can't run away."
As I wash Sunny, I can't help but feel proud of myself,...but at the same I can't stop myself from getting a tad bit irritated to the fact that this whole thing could've been easier if Natsu was here to help me. I'm not trying to be lazy, it' just that it's times like these when we work together to fix the problem as partners. But ...
"Hahaha, Natsu stop it, hahaha."
He went to help Anna on her garden. Even though all I've been hearing is laughter and chatter instead of actual work. Well it was on Anna's request; so I guess it couldn't be helped.
*sighs*
I'm tired.
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SOMETIME LATER
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"Hey Anna. I'm done with Sunny. He's sleeping now." I called to her.
"Oh, you are?" she asked.
"Yeah. If you want, I can help you and Natsu out with the garden."
"Um, actually we already finished Lucy."
"Oh. I see.."
"*YAWN* I'm hungry." Natsu says .
Anna looks at her watch. "It's getting to dinner time. I better start cooking something."
"Then I'll help you with that." I volunteered.
"Sorry, I assigned you to something else for me already. Here you go."
She gave me a little piece of paper out of her bag.
"What's this?"
"A shopping list for things I need you to buy."
I opened up the note only to find my eyes literally popping from my head. "You need ALL of these things?"
"Yeah." she answered. "It might seem like a lot though."
A lot was a understatement. Natsu looks over my shoulder to see the list. His eyes did the exact same thing as mine did.
"Wow that's a ton of things you have to get. I should come with you." he offers.
"You will? Thank goodness. Its almost getting late so why don't we go now."
"Wait!"
I turn around to see that it was Anna who stopped us. "What's wrong?"
"Uh..."
...uh? Did she forget or something?
"...I-I need Natsu to help me with cooking Lucy; so..."
"Is the cooking that hard?" I ask.
"Yeah, I need help pulling vegetables from the garden."
Hold up. Didn't she just say that her and Natsu were already finished with the yard work?
"I can't carry all these things back her by myself." I claim.
"Well...can't you just get you celestial spirits to help? You own a lot." Anna replied.
"...I guess so."
"Then it's settled. Natsu come with me. Bye Lucy!"
"Wait a minute Anna!" Natsu tries to say, but she already had closed the door to her house; leaving me standing outside all by myself.
What the heck was that?
I had my suspcions at first but now they're all confirmed. Anna is trying to be alone with Natsu as much as possible and she's trying to make sure I'm not in the way. I mean I guess it makes sense based on what she said this morning but still...
EARLIER THIS MORNING
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"Hey Anna,"
"Hm.?"
"Is it okay if I ask you something?"
"Sure what is it Lucy?"
"Why did you ask me if I liked Natsu? Is there something wrong?"
She paused for a second before answering.
"Well...ok, I know it's only been like a day but..."
"But...?"
"I think I might be in love with Natsu."
...Whaaaaaaat!?
"Yeah I know it's weird. Falling in love in literally 24 hours. ...but... when I'm with Natsu I can't help but smile around him. And he makes my heart feel warm. Nobody has ever done that to me before."
I never expected for Anna to fall in love with Natsu...is that my answer then. I mean if she likes Natsu, then there really isn't a reason to get my feelings for him straight. Anna confirmed her feelings for him first. I was just too late. It's only fair.
"...Lucy, are you okay?..."
"Huh? Oh yeah...I'm fine. Really."
"Lucy... are you sure you don't like Natsu."
"Oh, y-yeah."
"...I knew it."
"Wait, what did you say? I didn't catch that."
"It's nothing. I'm not going to give up though."
"Anna?"
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PRESENT
I don't get it though. It's not like I'm going to get in the way or anything. Besides, that isn't a reason why I should be having more labor to do...you know it, just forget it Lucy. It doesn't matter.
"Open! Gate of the Virgin! Virgo!"
"How may I be of assistant pricess?"
"Can you help me carry these bags? They're too heavy for me."
"Ok, princess."
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"..."
"..."
"...princess. You aren't as talkative as usual."
"..."
"Don't tell me you got dumped by Natsu?"
"...Virgo, I don't really want to talk about him right now."
"Eh, seriously? I was just joking around though."
"It's not like that... whatever. It's nothing."
"...are you sure?"
"Yeah. I'm fine."
"...but prince-"
"VIRGO, PLEASE JUST DON'T TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW!"
"..."
Crap. I didn't mean to shout. The look of shock on her face doesn't surprise me.
"Sorry Virgo. I just want to be left alone right now."
"...I'm sorry princess, but I can't follow your orders."
"Huh? What do you mean? Please listen to me."
"I can't princess."
"Why not?"
"It's because... you're crying."
"...huh?"
And sure enough, I feel tears running down my cheeks.
"I deeply apologize princess, but even if it means disobeying you I don't want to see you in pain."
"..."
"You can punish me later if you want."
"...natsu..."
"What was that princess?"
"...natsu he's..."
"Princess?"
"Natsu is going to taken from me."
In that moment, I think of all the times Anna and Natsu laughed together. Smiled together. It makes my heart hurt. Is this what jealousy feels like? If it is then it's a terrible feeling. I can't imagine that people go on like this everyday. I want to get him back so badly, but... it's too late.
...I can't do anything about it.
"Hey Virgo..."
"Yes princess?"
"Can I borrow your shoulder one for a while?"
"Of course."
As I lay my head on Virgo, I let my heart release the emotions its been holding on to this whole time. And I let my tears pour out as if I haven't cried in years.
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Anna P.O.V
You can do this Anna. When it comes to things like this, there isn't time to get nervous. Besides he's going to leave soon; so I guess now is never. Ok, here goes nothing
"Hey, Natsu can I tell you something? It's kind of important."
"Um, I guess so. I mean, we were practically talking this whole time; so the fact you want permission to say something is kind of..."
"...I see what your saying, it's just that the thing I want to say is kind of making me nervous."
"Really? hahaha."
I've heard him laugh really loudly, but when he's laughing softly it sounds really gentle. He looks really cute. Oh no, I'm going to start blushing. At least the mood is good.
"What's so funny?" I ask.
"You are."
"What do you mean?"
"It's just that you're really weir-...oh wait I can't use that."
...can't use what? "Natsu, what were you going to say?"
"Huh, oh well I was going to say you were weird."
"oh."
"But then I realized that's something I can only call Lucy. We're partners after all. hehe"
"...Is that so?"
And there he goes again. We may have good conversations, but they somehow always refer back to Lucy. I even made sure to get him and me alone as much as possible.
"So Anna, what did you want to tell me?"
"Oh...right."
Even if Natsu and Lucy have a good relationship, I still can't give up.
"The thing Natsu is that...well...I...l-...like...I like y-"
"AHH! Hold that thought Anna. Lucy is back. I can smell it."
Seriously?!
What bad timing. I don't think I'm going to muster the courage to do this later.
"She had a lot of stuff to carry so I better go-...Lucy?"
"...what's wrong?"
LUCY P.O.V
Finally! I'm back. That took way to long. I wonder if dinner's ready yet.
"LUCY!" I see Natsu yell to me as he's running out the door.
"Hey Natsu, can you help me bring all these stuff insi-" I was interrupted when he placed his hands on my shoulders and pulled me more closer to him.
"...ha...ha..." He breathed harshly.
"Natsu?... is there a problem?" I couldn't help but creep a light blush on my cheeks as he was holding me.
"You...were..."
"Hm?"
"Why... why were you crying?"
"What?"
"You heard me. I'm asking why were you crying."
How did he...that was like 30 minutes ago. This guy surprises me everyday, I swear. Anyway, I can't tell him why I was crying. It's too embarrassing.
"I wasn't cryi-"
"Don't give me that crap!" He shouted.
Whoa. I never heard Natsu yell this loudly to me before.
"Why are you so mad?" I asked.
"I'm not mad." he said as he finally released his hands from my shoulders. "I am getting a little bit irritated though. One of my best friends is trying to lie to me when I'm worrying about her."
"Look Natsu, I just don't want to talk about it right now."
"Why not?!"
"That's just how it is."
"Lucy, no matter how many times you tell me, I'm not going to ignore you when your hurt."
"And I'm telling you that for just this once that you should."
"Didn't I just say I wasn't doing that!"
"See, you are mad!"
"For crying out loud Lucy, I'm not MAD!"
"If you aren't then why are you yelling at me, and who gave you the right to pester me about every little thing that goes on in my life!"
"We're partners!"
"Yeah partners. That's all we'll ever be; so guess what. If there's something ever going on with me then I have the right to keep it to myself. Quit acting like we're lovers or something and get over it!"
"..."
I said too much again.
"...fine." He finally said giving up. "If that's what you want. Anna, let's go back inside.
"Um...ok." she replied
As they left, tears in my eyes threatened to return, but I knew this wasn't a good time to be crying again.
I guess...this might be a sign to the length my relationship with Natsu can ever go.
Lisanna, my answer to you might be already decided.
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It's finally dinner time!
YES!
Well that's what I want to say at least, but sitting with Natsu and Anna while eating is very awkward especially sense I had that whole blowout with him, and she was there to watch the scene.
"Um, Anna?" Natsu says.
"Yes?"
"Well...Lucy and I are probably going to leave after this; so if you don't mind gathering out the reward for the job..."
"Oh yeah, I forgot about that. Let me go get it real quick."
"Thanks."
"No problem...well actually...Natsu...you know that thing I was about to tell you earlier."
"Hmmmm..oh yeah that. You never actually got to finish right? Well, I'm all ear now."
"Ok... well the thing is..."
Even I'm interested in what she has to say.
"The thing is...that...Natsu, I'm in love with you!"
Wow, so this is it huh? Now that I think about it. I was never really a reliable partner to Natsu. I would always make him do all the work. I would always complain to him when I had a problem. I would always put the pressure on him when I couldn't take it. Even Happy has done more efficient stuff for the team than me.
In the end...
What have I done for him?
Natsu go ahead and accept her confession. You don't need someone like me, anymore.
"...Anna, I appreciate your confession." I hear Natsu start saying.
"but..."
...but?
"I can't accept it. I'm sorry."
Did...did Natsu just reject her?
I turned to look at Anna to see her bangs covering her eyes in disbelief.
"Is it because you like someone else?" she asks.
"...not exactly..." he answers
"What do you mean?" Anna implies.
"Well, you see right now I'm focused on this one girl. She's like one of my best friends. Plus she's smart, kind, pretty, and goofy at times...but she can make up for that with the smile she can put on my face just by being...well, herself."
"...You seem to be very interested in this girl Natsu."
"...yeah, but the thing is that I don't really know if I love her, or even like her in that way yet; so until I figure this out. I can't accept any confessions right now."
Wow, I thought Natsu didn't even know what love was, but he had his eye on a girl this whole time.
I looked at Anna to find myself surprised. Even though it was forced, she was still smiling.
"Natsu..." she started. "Thank you for taking my confession seriously. Even though it didn't work out for me in the end, I'll find some way to get over it. Um, so sese that's all and done with, I'll just go ahead an get your things before you go."
As Anna left, me and Natsu were all alone. I shifted my eyes to look at him; he in turn moved his eyes to look at me. We ended staring at each other for a few minutes before we looked away.
I don't know what I'm supposed to say in these types of situations. Should I even say anything at all?
"You know..."Natsu starts. "Anna she's an amazing girl."
"...how so?..." I manage to reply to him.
"She's in her room crying by herself...it must have been hard trying to muster up a smile for us."
...Anna...she did that just for us. I'm pathetic, I don't even have words to say. I mean if that ever happened to me, what would I do?
"Hey Lucy...look..I'm sorry ok."
Wait, did Natsu just apologize? I was the one at fault.
"Wait, Natsu-"
"Just hear me out." he interrupted.
"Ok..." I reply.
"Like I said before, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting too much into your business. I'm sorry I tried to pester you about something you didn't want to talk about. And I'm especially sorry for yelling at my partner."
"Natsu..."
"I know it's important for people to keep space from each other...ugh, how do I put this? Well, the point is that I see you as more than just a partner, your my friend. My best friend. We're connected, so when I see that your keeping something from me, it's like, you might slowly fade away and eventually ...disappear."
"..."
"It's kind of weird to get I guess huh?"
"No Natsu...I think I understand. I'm sorry for making you think like that, and for that whole blowout earlier, but you know. Just fyi, even if I keep something from you; it's not going to ruin our friendship. I would never let that happen on my watch."
"Well.. you never know..."
"Natsu, I'm telling you it won't."
"Then promise me."
"? promise you what?"
"Promise me that you won't leave me. You have to be my partner forever."
When those words of his left Natsu's mouth. I couldn't help the smile that popped up in my face.
"Sure Natsu," I reply, as I link my pinky around his. "It's a promise."
When I unrwrap my finger, I hear Anna coming back. Sure enough, her eyes had a faint color of red to them.
"Here's your reward guys." she says handing us a bag.
"Thanks Anna, our train is going to get here soon so we should probably leave now." Natsu said to her.
"Oh...ok. Is it fine if I talk to Lucy before you two go."
"...I don't see why not..."
"Great, Lucy can I talk to you please.?"
"ok."
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I follow Anna to her backyard. I'm guessing she's aware of Natsu's hearing.
"It looks like...this was my lost Lucy." Anna said with defeat.
I could see her tears welling up in her eyes. This must have had a bigger impact on her than I thought it did.
"You know.." she started again. "I really did love him. Natsu that is. He's kind and smiles to people he's only just met. I can't help but feel happy when he's by my side, but I guess it wasn't the same on his side."
"THAT'S NOT TRUE!" I quickly yelled back.
"Eh?"
"It may not be the type of love you were hoping for, but he told me that you were an amazing person."
"Did...Natsu really say that about me?" she asked with a shocked expression.
"Yes. That has to prove that your somebody that he likes at least."
"..."
Although she was speechless, I could tell that she was starting to feel better.
"hahahaha..."
Oh, maybe too better. Why is she laughing?
"Lucy, you must really love him huh?"
"..."
She placed my hand on mine and continued, "Can you promise me to look after him?"
"...yes. Yes, of course Anna."
"Thank goodness. I hope to see you two again."
"Me too, I want see you again Anna"
"So...what were you and Anna talking about?" Natsu asks
" That's a secret." I replied
"Ehhhh?! No fair."
"Hahaha...hey Natsu?"
"Yeah?"
"I think being in love with somebody with somebody is a great thing."
"...how so..."
"Well even though there are bad things that come with it like feeling jealous, or getting thoughts of being rejected."
"..."
"I feel like a person gets to be most happy when they get to spend some time with the person they like."
"Is that so?"
"Yeah, It's a wonderful feeling."
"It's like your in love with somebody."
"..."
"Wait am I right?"
"Well..."
"No way, you like somebody? Who is it?"
"It's not like that! ...ok, maybe it is. But..."
"But?"
"I'm too afraid to admit it."
"...what do you mean?"
"I mean that the person I may or may not like, is a really good friend of mine. He means a lot to me just as a friend alone. I can't help but get a bad feeling of my love for him getting in the way of our friendship. Let's say if we do become a couple somehow, everything about us could be affected. And it's not guaranteed to be in a good way. Although, I still don't want to be rejected if there were a time I wanted to confess to him someday. I guess I'm really weird."
"Well, I knew you were a weird girl ever sense we met."
"Thanks for making me feel better."
"Hey is that guy you were talking about me?"
"Hm?"
"I'm asking if you like me."
"What are you talking about?"
"Lucy, will you please answer me. Are you in love with me.?"
Is he being serious right now? "Natsu, I have no time for your jokes ok."
"I'm not joking around!" he shouted.
"...your not?"
"no."
Wait,
... so that means he actually wants to know...
"Natsu..."
"I'll ask one more time. Lucy Heartfillia, are you in love with me?"
-To Be Continued-
A.N: I'm so proud because this is my longest chapter ever. T-T I apologize for the wait. Anyway bye.
Sincerely,
chocolatehater123
P.S: I will have the next chapter up a lot sooner.
COPYRIGHT DISCLAIMER: EVERYTHING BESIDES THE FANFICTIONESS BELONGS TO THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF FAIRY TAIL, HIRO MASHIMA