Chp 12
EPOV
Elena woke with a scream on her lips, she searched frantically for Damon but he wasn't there."Damon" she whispered knowing that if he was anywhere in the house he'd hear her.
In a flash he was beside her, he sat on the bed and took her in his arms and the silent tears became heartrending sobs.
"It's OK baby, I'm here" He whispered stroking her hair.
"Oh god Damon, I can't take it anymore, I can't have that dream again" She sobbed.
"What was it about" He asked
"You, you were dying, you died god Damon and everytime I die a little, Don't ever leave me" She whispered.
"Shh baby it's only a dream, I promise to never willingly leave you"He promised.
He laid down pulling her with him settling on the bed, he kissed the top of her head and whispered loving words until she finally drifted off into a dreamless sleep.
CPOV
It'd been three weeks since Stefan had come back asking for help. three weeks of hell for her, for the life of her she doesn't understand what's come over her. She couldn't say when it started but everytime she gets anywhere near him she wants to rip his clothes off and have her wicked way with him. He walks into a room and she can't take her eyes off him, she tingles everytime they accidentally touch and his smile just does wicked things to her insides.
"Ugh this can't be happening" She muttered to herself.
"What can't" Stefan asked walking into the room.
"Great him of all people had to hear her muttering to herself" She thought.
"Nothing" She snapped.
"Wow someones cranky" He said.
"Oh shut up" She snapped tossing the book she was holding onto the table.
"What's wrong Caroline? You can talk to me" He told her.
"Ugh, your the last person I can talk to about this" She muttered.
"Ouch, I'm hurt" He responded.
"Fine she snapped you want to know what my problem is. You! Your my problem."
"What have I done?" He asked bewilded.
The thin self control she was holding onto snapped and she started raving like a lunatic.
"Oh my god, what have you done, you, you come back here with your smouldering good looks and your sexy bedroom eyes and temp me beyond reason, you flash your sexy killer smile and melt my insides and turn my brain to mush, you make me want to rip your clothes off whenever I get near you" She yelled.
Caroline was horrified with what she'd said, she couldn't believe she'd actually told him that.
"Oh my god" She whispered and in a flash she was gone.
SPOV
He stood there stunned after Caroline shot out of there like the devil was after her. He was shocked to know that she was feeling the same way he was. He's not sure when he started looking at her like that, But he'd had a hell of a time keeping his hands to himself. He was confused he loved Elena, but here he was lusting after someone else. But, if he was to be honest with himself, He'd never had this overwhelming need for Elena the way he did for Caroline.
Then the other day he saw her with Tyler and he had to control himself not to rip his head off "Maybe just maybe he should look at why he was feeling like this?" He thought. He sat on the couch thinking about what he should do when Elena walked in and stopped dead on seeing him. He couldn't help but notice the frightened look on her face, At least he didn't terrify he anymore.
"Elena, I'm not going to hurt you" He told her.
"I know" She whispered.
"You do?" He asked.
"Yes, Damon wouldn't let you" She told him sounding like the old Elena.
"I'm glad to hear you have such faith in me love" Damon said coming up behind her and wrapping his arms around her.
Stefan felt an odd feeling seeing his brother holding Elena, but he knew without a doubt that it wasn't jealously.
"I'm not in love with her, oh I still love her but more like a sister or a good friend"He thought.
"Why are you in here brooding?" Damon asked moving to the table to pour himself a drink.
"I'm not brooding, I'm thinking" He said standing and walking over to Elena.
He could see both Damon and Elena tense up, but he ignored his brother and took Elena's hand.
"Elena, I am sincerely sorry about what happened and I hope one day you can forgive me. And I hope that you and Damon can be happy and I wish you both the very best" He said kissing her cheek and leaving the room.
DPOV
Stefan never ceased to amaze him, he actually sounded sincere about what he said. He could see that Elena was lost for words, and See that wanted to believe what he'd said.
"Do you think he meant what he said?" She asked him.
"I think maybe he did" He told her amazed.
He walked over and put his arms around her, she raised her face to his and all he saw in her eyes was love, he lowered his head and captured her lips with his.
EPOV
Pain exploded in her head, she saw an imagine flash before her eyes. She gasped and jumped away from him.
"What's wrong?"He asked her worriedly.
"I just had a flash of memory I think, but it can't be right" She said biting her bottom lip.
"Tell me what you saw?" He demanded.
"You, she stopped and looked at him you killed Jeremy" She whispered.
She saw the guilt in his eyes and knew it was true.
"Yes" He answered.
"Why?" She whispered.
"It was just after I'd confronted Kathrine, she'd just told me she loved Stefan and it'd always been him. I was upset and angry I came to see you, I had all these conflicting feelings. I tried to kiss you and you said almost the same thing she said. And I don't know I lost it, Luckily he was wearing his ring, I don't know what I would have done if he hadn't" He told her.
"I'm sorry" She whispered.
He couldn't believe she was apologising to him.
'Why are you sorry? I'm the one who should be apologising to you" He said.
"I'm sorry she caused you so much pain, when you loved her so much" She told him.
"Elena, I can honestly say the pain I felt with Kathrine was nothing compaired to the pain I felt when I thought I'd lost you" He told her honestly.
She reached up and stroked his cheek, she saw the truth in his eyes and she realised that she couldn't imagine not loving him. He made her life complete.
"I love you" She whispered wrapping her arms around him.
"I love you to baby" He replied.
SPOV
He was wondering where Caroline was, he hadn't seen her in a couple of days and he found he missed her. He figured that she was slighty embarrassed about what she'd told him, He heard voices in the hall and his undead heart skipped a beat when he realised that it was Elena and Caroline.
CPOV
When she walked into the room and saw Stefan she knew that if she had of been human, her face would have been bright red.
"I'll just run upstairs and get that book" Elena said leaving the room.
"Great, thanks" Caroline answered.
"I um look, I shouldn't have said what I did the other day, I don't know what came over me" She babbled.
"It's fine"Stefan replied.
"Ok, good, fine, lets just pretend it didn't happen" She stammered.
And before she could even blink Stefan blured over to her and had her pinned against the wall.
"No he whispered you might be able to pretend it didn't happen but I can't" he then took her lips in a ravishing kiss.
And Caroline couldn't do anything but return the kiss, cause it seemed like she'd been waiting all her life for this. They were so involved in each other they didn't hear Elena come back into the room.
"Oh my" Elena said softly.
It was enough to have them spring apart.
"I um, that is" Caroline stammered not quite knowing what to say.
She hadn't spoken to Elena about her attraction to Stefan, she know she loves Damon but she did love Stefan once even if she couldn't remembr it. And she was worried that everything would change once she got her memory back. Stefan made some excuse about letting the girls talk and left the room.
"You and Stefan huh? Elena asked.
"Um i'm not sure, I mean I like him a lot but i'm worried" She said.
"Worried about what? Elena asked.
"You,Elena I know you love Damon, but the fact is you loved Stefan once and i'm afraid that when you get your memory back things will change" She said with honestly.
"Caroline, I can't ever see myself not loving Damon" Elena told her.
"I know, and it seems that way now, but what happens when you do get your memories back and you remember how you felt about Stefan" She asked.
"I don't know, and if we're being honest here then I have to say, I have been asking myself the same question" She told Caroline honestly.
She sat down on the couch and continued.
"I love Damon more than I ever thought it possible to love someone, but i'm scared that when I get my memory back that I might hurt him. And thats the last thing I want to do, he's been hurt enough" She said sadly.
"He loves you, it's the happiest i've ever seen him" Caroline said with a smile.
"I know, and it scares me that when I get my memories back, that I might be the one to cause him more pain than anyone" Elena said as a tear slipped down her cheek.
"For what it's worth, I don't think you will. Bonnie and I both agree that before you lost your memory you loved Damon. But you wouldn't look closely at what you were feeling because you thought you were in love with Stefan" Caroline told her.
"Do you really think so? Elena asked.
"Yes" Caroline said hugging her.
A few days later...
CPOV
She didn't know what was happening between her and Stefan, reguardless of what she told Elena she was still worried that she'd be on the losing end when Elena got her memory back. She didn't want to start something with him only to get her heart broken. So she was thinking that maybe she'd give it a shot with Tyler, the other day he kissed her they were friends and she was so occupied with thoughts of Stefan that she didn't even see it coming. She knew she didn't love Tyler like that, but maybe she could learn too. She was so deep in thought, that she didn't hear Stefan enter the room. She was startled out of her thoughts when he sat down next to her.
"Hey" She murmered.
"Hey" Stefan said.
"Listen, about the other day" Caroline started only to stop when he looked at her. His eyes were cold and distant.
"What about it" He snapped.
Caroline was hurt, she thought it meant something to him as it did to her. But he was looking at her like he hated her.
"It's fine, lets just put it down to a moment of madness, All this stuff with Elena has me on edge, but I can't substitute Elena" He said coldly.
Caroline felt the cracks begin in her heart, he was only using her as a substitute for Elena. The fact that she hadn't realised before that she was in love with him, just made it hurt more.
"You don't mean that" She whispered hopeing that he might take it back.
SPOV
He looked at her and saw the tears forming in her eyes and he stealed himself against them wanting to hurt her the way she'd hurt him. He thought they'd had something or well at least the start of something. Then he saw her kissing Tyler Lockwood. He wanted to kill him then and there, for touching what was his. He wasn't sure when she'd become his, Yes he was, the moment he kissed her she became his. The feelings she invoked in him he had to admit were ten times more powerfull than any feeling he'd had for Elena. Then instead of being angry at Tyler he was angry at her. How could she kiss him like she did then go and kiss Tyler, how dare she make him feel like this then go and tear him down.
"It's the truth, I don't know why I thought I could replace her. And with you of all people" He told her coldly.
He watches as the tears oeverflow and roll down her cheeks, and it took all his strenght not to take her in his arms and tell her he lied. And then she was gone. He sat there his world fallen apart again for the third time, first with Kathrine, then with Elena and now the hardest of them all with Caroline. It was over before it even started and he was honest enough with himself to admit that he felt more pain now than he ever felt with either Kathrine or Elena.
(If only he'd waited a few moments more, he would have seen Caroline tell Tyler that she only saw him as a friend. And that she liked someone else.)
CPOV
She couldn't believe she'd fallen for a complete jerk. Wait! Yes she can, her track record with guys wasn't all that great. She always seemed to pick losers that treated her badly. But she never thought Stefan could be so cruel, he had always been kind and considerate . She now knows that even considering a realationship with Tyler was out of the question. She was in love with Stefan, and if she was going to be honest with herself she admits that she's always been in love with him. But because he was Elena's boyfriend she'd buried her feelings so far down so she wouldn't feel them. After all Elena was one of her best friends, and she couldn't be lusting after her best friends boyfriend.
EPOV
She was hopping mad, Caroline had called her saying that if she wanted to see her that she had to come to the grill or her house, anywhere but the boarding house because she was never setting foot in there again.
Elena had to practically beg her to tell her what was wrong. How dare he treat her friend this way. She was so mad she forgot to be afraid.
"Stefan!" She yelled at the top of her voice marching into the room.
"You, you ass. How dare you treat Caroline like that!" She yelled at him.
"It's none of your business" He told her.
"You made it my business when you told her that you were using her as substitute for me"She yelled stabbing him with her finger everytime she spoke.
"Will you stop that" He snapped.
Then suddenly he grabbed her and kissed her, she didn't put up any resistance but she didn't kiss him back either.
"I didn't feel anything" He stated.
"What? She snapped.
"When I kissed you" He said.
"You did what?" Snarled Damon entering the room.
"Damon calm down, it's not what you think" Stefan said.
"Damon" She whispered taking his hand, she didn't want him doing something he'd regret later. She could feel the tension leave him as soon as she touched him.
"What is it then" He snapped.
"I was proving something to myself" Stefan said with a slight smile.
"What that you can kiss my girlfriend" He scowled.
"No, that I didn't feel anything" Stefan told him.
"Meaning?" He snapped.
"Meaning that I didn't feel anything other than the normal pleasure of kissing a girl" Stefan said.
Elena sighed she could feel him getting agitated again. He wasn't normally this slow on the up take she guessed his anger was getting in the way of his ability to think.
"Damon, if you get over your anger, you'd realise he's trying to tell you that he doesn't love me" She told him quitely.
"Oh, I love you Elena, i'm just not in love with you" Stefan said.
Damon took a step forward and she said "I'd quit while I was ahead"
"No, what I mean is i'll always love you, but it's more like a sister or a good freind" Stefan told them.
She could feel Damon relax and he intertwined his fingers with hers lightly rubbing her knuckles.
"What made you discover this? Damon asked.
"Caroline" Stefan whispered.
"Barbie? Whats she got to do with this?" He asked.
"Then why did you tell her you were using her as a substitute for me?" Elena asked ignoring Damon's question.
" Oh harsh brother" Damon said.
"I know, but one day she's kissing me then the next she's kissing Lockwood" Stefan snapped.
"Your a moron" Elena told him, she could see Damon raise an eyebrow at that.
"What?" Stefan snapped raising his voice.
"Don't, I won't tolerate anyone yelling at Elena" Damon said softly.
"Sorry, but I saw her" Stefan said.
"Did you ask her about it? Or did you just go off the deep end?" She asked.
"Yea well" He stammered.
"Oh you idiot, she told me what happened with Tyler. But i'm not telling you, if you want to know you have to ask her yourself" She huffed.
DPOV
He could have been prouder of her, she looked like a lioness defending one of her cubs. And he noticed she didn't seem to be afraid of Stefan. When he'd walked in and heard Stefan say he'd kissed her. He was afraid more than anything else afraid that it might have triggered some feelings inside her she might have for Stefan. Yes as selfish as it sounds but he loves her and it does worry him that when she gets her memory back and remembers what she felt for Stefan he might lose her.