LILY'S POINT OF VIEW
For the past couple weeks, the only thing on my mind has been James Potter.
After our talk in the Hospital Wing, I began to think of him as more than a friend and dare I say it catch feelings for him. I think I had known for awhile that these feelings were there it was just difficult to admit at first. It was impossible to deny how good looking James had become this year and how I found myself enjoying spending time with him and looking forward to the good-humored banter we always had. I just didn't know if he felt the same way about me, plus I don't want to risk our new friendship or our ability to play Quidditch together.
But hey, he said he liked me right? That must be a good sign. Unless he meant he liked me as a friend or teammate and nothing more? When I come to think about it that's probably what he meant, I mean he has hated and insulted me since first year why would he suddenly like me?
And if he does like me why has he been avoiding me since the incident? Seriously, during classes he makes sure to stay far away from me and during practice he refuses to talk to me or even make eye contact. So you can see how confused I am and how my mind is most definitely not on the championship Quidditch game that we have coming up.
And Mason can sense how distant James and I have become and is starting to worry that it will affect our play and our chances at winning. And frankly, so am I.
Eventually I couldn't take the stress and found myself explaining the whole situation to Alice. She was very empathetic and declared that she always knew James liked me.
"Have you seen the way he looks at you? When you walked down the stairs after the match wearing that outfit, his eyes nearly popped out of his head!" Alice rambled, "And just yesterday in the hallway when you were talking to that boy, Henry, from Ravenclaw, he looked about ready to rip his head off!"
I just rolled my eyes at her tale. "I just don't understand why he's avoiding me, if he 'likes' me so much as you claim."
"Boys are idiots." Alice replied and I couldn't agree more.
JAMES'S POINT OF VIEW
"I'm such an idiot."
"Tell us something we don't know." Replied my supposedly best friend Sirius.
I was yet again discussing where I went wrong with Lily trying to get the help from my three best mates: Sirius, Remus, and Peter. I knew I was being stupid for avoiding her but I was just so embarrassed with how emotional I was in the Hospital Wing. I basically told her I liked her and all she could do was look like someone had hit her over the head. It was not the kind of response I was looking for.
I basically have been in love with Lily since first year when she hexed Sirius and I for hiding Severus's luggage on the train. Looking back, it was not a very nice thing to do but I had never expected such a big reaction from her. She was feisty and hot headed and that's exactly what I liked about her (and still do). Even in first year, I thought she was the most gorgeous girl I had ever seen. Now, I know she is. Lily has the most beautiful and genuine smile, I get the best feeling when she smiles at me. (Which isn't very often these days). She may think she is too short but I think she is the perfect height with a perfect strong and athletic body. She has the cutest freckles dotting her face and emerald eyes that are hard to look away from. Not gonna lie practice this year has been much more distracting now that Lily is on the team, it takes a lot of effort to concentrate instead of just staring at her all of practice.
Each of my mates had a different idea of how I should handle Lily. Sirius thinks I should just stop being such a pansy and go snog her senseless, which I must add is quite tempting but would probably end with me having a broken nose, knowing Lily's temper. Peter's idea was to write her a love letter but considering all I wanted at this point was to be friends with her again I figured a letter professing my love was not the best way to go. Remus had the most practical idea saying that I should just bloody go and talk to her and see if she feels the same way as I do.
This whole situation was really starting to affect my academic life as well as my Quidditch and we had our final game for the House Cup against Hufflepuff this weekend. Mason noticed how bad I was playing and after practice called me into the Capitan's office and declared (very loudly) that I needed to fix whatever was causing me to suck so bad or forget about it.
So that's what I've decided to do. Forget about it.
LILY'S POINT OF VIEW
After month's of training and a lot of criticism, the day was finally here, the day of the Quidditch house cup. We were in the locker room for a pre-match speech and pep talk from Mason. I couldn't really focus on anything he was saying since I was so nervous for the game. Hufflepuff had a surprisingly strong team this year and they would give us a run for our money. Not to mention my whole situation with James hadn't changed, we still hadn't talked to each other in weeks and I had no idea what to think about him.
Speaking of which, I just caught James looking at me from the other side or the huddle. He quickly looked away and wait...was he blushing? James Potter blushing? Well this was new considering he usually wore a cocky grin and always looked so sure of himself. I must admit he looked rather cute when he was embarrassed.
Okay focus Lily. Mason just called every one into the middle for a cheer. As the team huddled close together, James some how wound up right behind me. I could feel his breathe on my neck and smell his distinctive aftershave and something that smelled just James. There was no way to describe it but it was delicious. Okay Mason needed to cheer quick because this smell was threatening to make me go crazy.
Finally, we were ready to take the field! I felt a hand on my arm and turned to find James again looking very nervous.
"I just wanted to say good luck, Lily. I know you we be amazing and I'm lucky to have you as a teammate." James said quietly.
"Thanks, you too James." I replied. Mason quickly ushered us on to the field saying there was no time to lose. I was confused at the fact that James chose then to finally speak to me again but I had no time to dwell on it considering the game had started. And we were off!
It was a total blur. I remember getting the quaffle and scoring a couple times. I also remember them scoring on us. It was such a tight game as we were constantly neck in neck. We were both playing to the best of our abilities and it really was going to come down to who caught the snitch first. After what seemed like forever, the seekers zoomed across the pitch and went into a dive. The snitch had been spotted!
"C'mon James" I thought. The entire stadium and other players had their eyes on the two seekers. They were both racing for it arms outstretched. The Hufflepuff seeker made a move to slam into James in order to make him lose his balance. Luckily, James recognized this and pulled up at the last second so the other seeker missed his target and was thrown off course. With a skillful dive and roll, James was able to capture the snitch. Gryffindor had WON!
The entire stadium erupted and many student began to storm the pitch. Tears were streaming down my face as I couldn't be any happier. I flew down to the field to where my entire team was. Everyone was screaming and hugging, and I think I saw some tears in Mason's eyes. I was just about to go congratulate James on his amazing play, when I saw something that made my heart stop. He was there snogging some older Gryffindor slag in the middle of the pitch. My mouth opened in shock and I could feel my eyes welling up with stinging tears. So much for thinking he ever liked me!
I ran as fast as I could from the pitch, there was no way I was going to talk to him. Going back to the common room was out of the question considering there would be a huge celebratory party and all I wanted was to be alone. I wandered the halls until I found a good and secluded spot to sit down and cry.
I just felt to stupid! I actually thought he liked me and I had finally just admitted to myself that I liked him. Who was I kidding he could get ay girl in the school, of course he would go for someone who is older and completely gorgeous.
I lost track of how long I sat there feeling miserable for myself. Eventually, I heard footsteps coming my way and heard a voice calling out my name.
"Lily?" Oh no. It was James. How did he find me?
"Leave me alone Potter your the last person I want to see right now." I tried to say coldly but it came off as more pathetic considering I had just been crying. I stood up and began to walk away from him but he blocked my path.
"What's wrong Lil? We just won shouldn't you be happy? The whole team was worried when you didn't show up after the game. I was worried." He said.
Suddenly my sadness was replaced with anger, how dare he lead me on and treat me like this!
"You were worried about ME?" I said in a slightly hysterical voice. "It seems all you do these days is destroy my feelings!" My voice was rising and I slowly advanced towards him with a fire in my eyes.
"FIRST YOU ACT LIKE A COMPLETE JERK TO ME, THEN WE BECOME "FRIENDS", THEN YOU MESS WITH MY FEELINGS EVEN MORE WHEN YOU SAY ALL THAT SHIT IN THE HOSPITAL WING, THEN YOU AVOID ME FOREVER, AND THEN YOU SNOG SOME OTHER GIRL AFTER THE GAME! I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT YOU ARE DOING, BUT I AM DONE."
At first James looked terrified at my yelling but soon there was a fire in his eyes as well and he was screaming right back into my face.
"FIRST OF ALL THAT STUFF I SAID IN THE HOSPITAL WING WAS NOT SHIT, IT WAS ALL TRUE. SECOND, I DIDN'T WANT TO SNOG THAT GIRL YOU IDIOT! SHE JUST KISSED ME FOR NO REASON AND IF YOU HAD STAYED AROUND TO WATCH YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN HOW I PUSHED HER OFF! AND FINALLY, I WAS SO FREAKING WORRIED ABOUT YOU TONIGHT AND IM SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A Jerk and I just didn't know how to act around you." He said ending very quietly.
We were now nearly nose to nose and staring into each others eyes. My cheeks were flushed from screaming and my breathe uneven. I was trying to comprehend everything he had just said when all of the sudden I was pushed up against the wall my hands pinned above my head and James's lips crashed down onto mine.
After the initial shock, I realized James Potter was kissing me and it felt bloody good. I returned his kisses with my own passion. His body was pressing me against the wall of the corridor and I angled my head upward to give him better access. I opened my mouth and allowed his tongue to sweep into my mouth. His hands came down from above my head and grabbed at my hips and waist pulling my body closer towards him. My hands wound into his hair tugging and twisting. Man this felt good.
I pulled my head away for a second and he continued to trail hot kisses down my neck and chest hitting all the right points. I felt my body shudder. Trying to gather my thoughts, I said in a very breathy voice "I like you too James." He came up and looked into my eyes with happiest and most devilish grin on his face. "You have no idea how long I've ben waiting to hear that." He whispered in my ear again causing me to shudder and push my body closer to his.
His lips found mine again and I moaned into his mouth. Something about that caused him to pause for a second. And suddenly he lifted me up and my legs were wrapped around his waist as he continued to deepen the kiss, his body still flush against mine. His hand found my bum and squeezed. His other hand was tangled in my hair pulling my head down to meet his wonderful lips. I ground my hips against his causing some much needed friction. And it was his turn to groan. He huskily whispered " Lily Evans, you will be the death of me." I grinned and pulled him back for more.