A/N I have gotten asked 'why did Alice move out from living with Bella and is now living with Jasper if this is Bella/Alice?' Good question! To answer that as the writer, I didn't want to just jump into them being in a relationship without a bit of realistic complications. To answer that within the story, Alice and Bella aren't attracted to other women they will just realize that they have loved each other all along. That's what I'm going for anyway.

BPOV

Edward's wedding constantly lingers in the back of my mind and has for almost a month, ever since I found out. Alice and I never really talked about it again after she initially told me. Charlie called to see how I was taking it. Of course he found out being the police chief of the small town of Forks. He calls every other day now even though we've never had a whole lot to talk about. I know he's doing it just to make sure I'm still going and taking care of me and Carlie. He wants to make sure that this isn't like last time. I've tried to tell him that I have Carlie this time and that I'm fine and that seem to calm his worry a little bit. It is touching how much he cares though.

The doorbell chimes. I walk to the door expecting Alice as she's pretty well our only visitor. I am shocked as it turns out to be the last person I thought I would see on my door step.

"Edward, what on Earth are you doing here," I all but spit at him. He has the nerve to look a tad disappointed. Did he really think he had a right to waltz back into our lives years later and expect a warm welcoming? "Why I came for my daughter, of course." With an evil glint in his eye and that cocky smirk of his he stepped closer. Carlie hid behind my legs and clung to them for dear life.

"You're scaring her. She doesn't even know who you are. How do you even know where we live?" I picked Carlie up and she buried her face in my neck. I rub her back in an attempt to sooth her.

"I have a right to see my child."

"Oh now she's your child? That's not what you told your family. Only Alice believed I wasn't the cheating whore you made me out to be. She stayed and still helps me anyway she knows how. What's the real reason you're back?"

"I have parental rights. I could force you to give her to me."

"She's a human being Edward! You can't have her at your convenience."

"Sweetheart, don't you want to be in daddy's wedding and wear a pretty princess dress?" Carlie doesn't respond, much to his dislike.

After he tries reasoning with me (as he calls it) he shouts more threats and I promptly show him the door. Once I see his car leave I grab Carly's bag and head to Alice and Jasper's house, needing to get out of the house.

I come rushing up their steps and start pounding on their front door incessantly until Alice finally answers.

"Hey Bella… What's wrong?"

Walking past her I set Carlie down in her living room with her toys. Jasper, who was watching tv, turns to me and then Carlie. I turn back to Alice who has followed me and shakily tell her about Edward's unannounced visit.

"He thinks that he can just get whatever he wants when he wants it. Carlie isn't a possession like his precious piano. He hasn't provided a thing for her and now he wants to be the good parent thinking about what is best for her. He thinks that with his money and Tanya Carlie can have a complete family with everything she can need and want. I'm not perfect but I've been doing the best I can."

I stop my pacing which I only now realized I had been doing only to plop down on the floor at the foot of her bed. With both hands pull my hair at my scalp and cry.

"Am I really just being selfish and vindictive in keeping Carlie away him and the rest of the family? Should I give her this chance to get to know them? Will she resent me? What if she meets them all and wants to stay with them? What should I do?"

"The decision is ultimately up to you but no matter what you decide do not let my idiot brother make you think that you're not doing the absolute best you can for your daughter and she is happy and healthy. Take it from me; money can't buy the love and happiness Carlie has with you."

I just don't know what to do. It's not like my parental situation was the best so I don't really have any good examples or of what the ideal parents are like. My mom let me stay summers with Charlie ever since they split and I lived with Renee and Phil but this isn't the same. My mom was basically a child and Charlie wasn't a lying, self-centered, pretty boy. I would love for Carlie to know Emmett. He was like the big brother bear that I never had. If people didn't know better they would have sworn we were siblings. Edward didn't like how close we were and how 'immature' we acted together. It must have hurt him to leave. I can't imagine him wanting to leave me and Alice. I like to think he fought to stay with us. This thought made me look to Alice who looked like she was in the middle of her own internal debate.

"What about you?"

This startles her some and shakes her from her thoughts. "What about me?"

"Have you decided if you are going?"

"I have and I am. I'm not sure how welcome I will be but I just feel a need to see them again, especially Emmett. I thought that I could cut them out of my life like they had so easily wrote us off but I can't. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret for a second choosing to stay here. I just wish I could have both. I don't like knowing that I'm the relative no one talks about at family gatherings. Maybe enough time has passed and they've come to their senses. If nothing else I just want Emmett back." She looked at me as if trying to discern my reaction and when seeming to come up with nothing she changed to a look of pleading.

"Alice, You have every right to want your family back in your life. You go, and tell Emmy bear that his Belly bean says hi." I manage a sincere smile and give her hug. This makes her smile.

"You could always be my plus one," she says lightheartedly. I laugh elbow her lightly in the side.

Jasper comes in and tells us that he's put Carlie to bed in the guest room and that he's going out with some friends. I think that is his way of saying I'm leaving you two to your girl time. We watch movies and do all the things we use to do when we had sleepovers in high school but with a little wine. I finally fall into a restful asleep cuddled with Alice on the pull out in the living room.

AN: I know I haven't updated in over a year and I'm sorry. I try but as I've said before, I have no set direction for this yet so I have to wait until something comes to me. Reviews are greatly appreciated! Thanks for reading:)