Chapter Eight: Coming Home
Buffy woke up later that morning completely refreshed. She'd decided the night before to put William behind her. She knew she was being a little immature, but her babies were coming home today. She couldn't be mopey and bitchy. She had to be a grown up about this. She had to be a mother, not a lost girlfriend. Buffy walked over to her cd player and hit play as she moved to the closet to get dressed.
I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay but you argued
More than this I wish you could've seen my face
In the back seat staring out the window
I'll do anything for your
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you
Buffy moved to the bed as she let the words wrap around and surround her. She felt the tears threaten to spill, but she ignored them and continued to listen.
The morning will come in the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath until you decide to wake up
I earned through hope and faith
The curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either of us
Then this I pray to you whenever
I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
Cause I'd do anything you want me to…for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
Cause I will be coming back
In phrase to cut these lips
I loved you
The morning will come
In the place of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath until you decide to wake up
The morning will come
In the place of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking break until you decide to wake up
Buffy sighed as the song finished and she reaBuffyed that the song had described some of her life. "Buffy!" Willow yelled from the living room, "Are you home?"
Buffy wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and shut off the stereo before the next song could start. "I'm coming Willow." Buffy smiled as she walked out to see the kids.
"Mommy," Rory and Hayden smiled as they went to give her a hug.
"Oh my little ones, mommy missed you so much." Buffy said as she wrapped her arms around them.
"We missed you too mommy." Hayden said.
"Did you have fun? Were you two on your best behavior?"
"Yes," They yelled.
"Good, now go put your stuff in your room. You dad left you some presents on your beds and he said he'll call you guys later."
Rory and Hayden nodded as they took their stuff to their room.
"He left them gifts?" Willow said as she walked over to Buffy, "How long was he here for? I thought he wasn't leaving till tomorrow?"
"Uh he was here for a few days. He hung out with me a little, but he had to leave this morning." Buffy said as she walked towards her bedroom.
"Okay so you two just hung out…well care to explain this?" Willow said as she followed Buffy, but stopped in front of the stereo.
Is there a word or right to say?
Even in this old fashioned way
Go make your move, girl
I'm not coming home
Would things have changed if I would have stayed?
Would you have loved me either way?
Dressed to the blues, day to day will my collar up
Decision sits so make it quick
A breath inhaled from an air so sick
I cursed the day I had learned
Of the web you spun
You had your hold till bleeding
Hey hey
If it was up to me
I would've figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh I hope you're waiting
Hey hey
If it was up to me
I would've never walked out
So until the sun burns out
Oh, I hope you're waiting
Would we have lived as a child would care?
With this vile to drink I dare
Only to cry all alone with your taste on tongue
Oh where have you been if it hurts to be forgiving?
Bye
Should we try this again with hope?
Or is it lost, give up the ghost
And should I die all alone as I knew I would
Then burn in hell young sinner
If it was up to me
I would have figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh I hope you're waiting
Oh I hope you're waiting
Now listen well…will your marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) the most gracious of hosts
You may be invited girl, but you're not coming in
Now listen well…will you marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in
If it was up to me
I would have figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh I hope you're waiting
If it was up to me
I would have never walked out
So until the sun burns out
Oh I hope you're waiting
Now listen well…will you marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) the most gracious of hosts
You may be invited girl, but you're not coming in
Now listen well…will you marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in
Now listen well…will you marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) The most gracious of hosts
You may be invited girl, but you're not coming in
Now listen well…will you marry me?
(Not now boy)
Are you well in the suffering?
(You've been) the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in
And you're not coming anyway
Willow hit the stop button once the song was over. "Coheed, Sweetie, that's your 'I'm lonely and depressed so hug me now' music. What's up?"
"Oh Willow," Buffy said as she began to cry.
"I'm sorry Buffy. I wish I could have been here for you babe." Willow said as she handed Buffy a Kleenex. For the last 15 minutes Buffy had been telling Willow about what had happened. "So he really just left and he regretted the whole thing?"
"Yep, god how could I have been so stupid as to let him back into my life. I mean the kids lives sure, but mine no way. William and I closed that chapter of our lives. We even removed the book mark from the book."
"Buffy, if he's in
the kids lives then he's in yours as well. I mean you are their
mother."
"No Willow from now on I'm done. He wants to see
them you take them. I won't do it. I know it's childish and
petty, but I'm…it's gonna take a while for me to feel less
broken."
"Okay Buffy, I'll do it…for a while. But eventually you're going to have to let him back in."
"Whatever, lets go out and take the twins to dinner. It is their birthday after all."
"Okay fine Buffy, let's go."
William sighed as he got out of his car and looked at the apartment building. He was seriously torn. He thought that spending the night with Buffy would have killed the feelings he had for her. He had hopped for closure that wouldn't come. Now he was back at square one and he had a big decision to make. He had to choose between Cordelia, whom he was engaged to and had planned a future with, and Buffy, who was so sweet and so beautiful and so completely unpredictable. Even with kids she was still so unpredictable. William sighed as he took his bags out of the trunk and walked up to the front door.
-Beep-
"Yeah," a female voice said out of the speaker.
"Hey it's me can you buzz me in?"
There was a pause then William heard the click of the door. William hauled all of his bags to the elevator then out of the elevator again and up to the door.
-Knock-
The door opened and William was pulled into a bruising hug. "Oh god baby I thought I'd lost you." Cordelia said as she looked at him.
William set his bags down and cupped Cordelia's face in his hands. "No baby, I'm not going to leave you…ever." William smiled then leaned forward and kissed her.
"So you guys…" Willow said as they watched the twins play in the indoor playroom and arcade.
"Yes…and when I woke up he was gone."
"God that's…I thought when you said he had left that you meant he left after you two talked or something. I didn't know it was after…that. That's so William like though."
"I know…it was just like in high school. He had an itch and I scratched it. God I'm so gullible. I thought he wanted more, the kids…and me."
"Uh Buffy,"
"What?"
"It wasn't just like last time was it?"
"What? No…no way…we used protection."
"Really? Because I didn't see any in your trash."
"Well maybe you didn't look good enough."
"Maybe,"
"I'll show you the wrapper when we get home."
"Okay…so how was it?"
Buffy smacked Willow's arm. "Will…god you're a horn dog!"
"Oh come on…I need some details…you never have anything to talk about in the guy department so."
"Thanks…thanks a lot Will. Fine I'll tell you."
"Cool,"
Buffy smiled as she told Willow everything.