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HungerGamesOwl

Day 4

Blood. Camille. No.

Everywhere is blood, Camille is looking at me with big eyes while a sword is rammed into her body, I hear Onyx laughing madly.

Camille looks at me and says, "This is all your fault. I died because of you".

"No, I´m sorry, I didn´t want this to happen. Please forgive me, please!", I whimper slightly but she just looks coldly at me. "No. Please!"

"Finnick!", I hear my name called, "Finnick, come on, wake up!"

Startled and sweaty I wake up and notice Robert who´s eyeing me up worried.

"Everything alright?", he asks me.

"Yes", I reply, "it was just a nightmare"

He doesn´t look very convinced but he lets it go.

"Well, it´s your turn", he says and I nod.

Only now I notice how tired he seems to be and reply "Yeah, go to bed"

Then he does just that while I´m alone in the dark with very much time to think. Yeah, not so good right now, I can´t stop thinking about Camille and now as well about Julia who I killed. I´m really disgusted with me and depressed, so I take a bit rope and just do some knotting, which always calms me down. But it reminds me as well of home

What will my family and friends think about me now? I´m a murderer. Will mom, dad and my siblings still love me? And what about Sean and David? And Mags?

Mags will probably understand me, but the others? I sigh slightly.

A few hours later the sun is coming out and I wake up Robert to eat. He doesn´t look very good, very tired and depressed, just like I feel.

Due to this there´s a tension between us and we don´t talk much, both of us thinking about yesterday and home.

"So", Robert starts, "Do you think the last few days were enough action for the Gamemakers? Do you think they´ll leave us alone a bit?"

"I hope so, I mean it´s just the fourth day and we´re already in the final eight. It goes pretty fast, might as well be a record so far", I response.

"Yeah, I hope you´re right.", he comments, "What should we do now? Should we move on and go to another island or she we stay here for a wile?"

"I think we should stay. Your island is devasted and at least we have explored this island, so that we have an advantage if someone decides to come and kill us. And with this someone I mean Leanne, I bet she´s very angry at us right now as we killed all of her allies and she´s all alone now. Although you could say that we helped her in a way, as there`s now less competition. But as she always seems to blame me for everything, I think we should be careful", I answer.

He nods and then changes the topic. "How´s your arm?"

"Surprisingly good", I reply, "It doesn´t hurt anymore. That must have been very good medicine." I look up to the sky, smile and say "Thank you for this".

I can imagine Mags smiling at me right know and saying, "Remember what you´re fighting for".

That thought lights my mood up a bit and I begin to chat with Robert about our lifes in the districts. But while we´re talking we´re careful to only mention funny and great things and don´t talk about how a lot of people are starving and that we´re having very hard to work to survive.

"And then Leslie appeared again from under the water and what was on her head? Seaweed! All of us were laughing because she looked so cute and funny", I tell Robert who sits next to me making another bottle of water while I am knotting and we laugh together.

Then there is a voice. "Attention tributes. I am honoured to announce that there will be a feast. Tommorow at sunset at the Cornucopia. Make sure to be there or else there will be consequences. May the odds be ever in your favour"

Robert and I look at each other.

"He can´t be serious!", Robert exclaims, "There was so much action the last days, I mean, it´s just day number 4"

I nod in agreement and open my mouth but he interrupts me. "We aren´t going, are we?"

"Do you want to face these consequences he´s talking about?", I ask Robert, "I say we go, we don´t have to participate, we just have to be at the Cornucopia and watch the others killing each other" Although I feel like vomiting just thinking about that.

Robert looks at me and says, "We have to go, don´t we?"

"Yes, I think so. But maybe this is an opportunity for us to get rid of Leanne and 6", I response.

"What are you thinking about?", Robert asks me.

"We could set traps all around the Cornucopia, so that the others will step in them when they arrive. We just have to move to the Cornucopia today. Probably we´ll be the first ones there and have enough time to prepare", I share my ideas with him.

"That´s a good plan, we have to be there anyway and it´s better when we´re prepared then just going there without any clue what will happen", Robert replies.

"Ok, then help me pack our things and we´ll go", I say.

When we arrive at the edge of the island I have to help Robert again to cross the sea until we go on land of the main island. We walk around and after some time Robert finds a good hiding place for us where we can settle down for the night.

"Now we should start preparing"; Robert says after a while and I nod.

"Sure I´ll show you how to make the traps so that you can help me", I reply and then take some rope to show him the basics of a very simple trap as I know that he won´t be able to learn how to make more complex ones in this short amount of times.

After he gets the hang of it, we decide to head towards the Cornucopia and look if Leanne is still there and what would be the best places to set the traps. Luckily Leanne is gone but with her as well all the supplies.

We go around and memorize the best places as we have to set the traps there tomorrow and as well we don´t want to step in one of them ourselves. When we´re finished the sun begins to set and we return to our new hiding place where we eat.

"I´ll take the first shift, so that I´m able to do a couple of nets for some of the traps", I announce and Robert just nods.

"Good night, then", he replies.

"Yeah, sleep well", I response smiling a him.

After he vanishes I drop the smile. I´m nervous about tommorow, regardless of what I told Robert, there are many things that could go wrong. One of us could get killed.

And as well there´s another problem: I don´t want to have another nightmare. I didn´t only dream of Camille today. Before that I dreamt of me stabbing Julia, but it wasn´t Julia I killed, it was Leslie. Sweet, innocent Leslie. I´m a monster.

So of course I´m afraid to sleep.

No, afraid isn´t the right word. I´m terrified.