*whispers* I can't believe I'm actually uploading this...Im so nervous! You have no idea...
Hello readers! Today I present 'A Roller Coaster Of Emotions' as suggested by ClemmyclueIsMynumberoneBOO!
Im so sorry! I haven't been updating, I've been trying to write as much as I can between my rehearses for the school musical! I have rehearsals every fricken day for the past 2 weeks, and the following one (excluding Saturdays ...Sorry.) and i'm so gosh dang tired! But I tried, so heres the next chapter!
(Special thanks to Bubbles A.k.A meg, ML_2_Ghost (you made me explode with happiness), Molly, Emily and so many others!) TO ALL OF THE AMAZING REVIEWERS YOU ALL DESRVE GOSH DANG SHOUT OUTS IM SO SORRY!: I- I can't! You guys are so amazing! YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO HAPPY-SAD! A terrible, yet wonderfully amazing feeling. I Love you guys so much! All seriousness though, you guys are 90% of the reason I get up in the morning...The other 10% is because I'm hungry and I need to pee... ^.^
BIG FAT WARNING: Boys...You probably (defiantly) won't be able to relate to this chapter. SO LEAVE NOW! Or awkwardly read on while questing the meaning of your life. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Again, this chapter is kinda off putting for this whole one-shot series...But enough on the boring AN! Lets get a bloody move on! Please enjoy, and if worthy, review maybe? 0-o
Ergh, ^^ Thats so long sorry... Meh no one really reads it anyway xD I don't think...
The shuddering glass of the the unstable cabin windows woke me up, like they did most mornings. I slowly peeked out of my eyelids and looked around the gloomy room, it was almost pitch black and I could feel the cold through the blanket me and Sarah tug of wars with last night. Slowly, I tested the muscles in my hands, they were still a little sore from the carpet burn she had giving me last night. She should've just let me have it, she was the one complaining about my chattering teeth and loud shaking breaths.
I glared at Sarahs figure next to me, before slowly hooking my fingers onto the rim of the blanket. I smiled an evil smile and pulled the blanket off her, she didn't seem to notice, so without a care I wrapped it around myself and shuffed as far away from her as I could without falling out of the bed. Good luck getting this back Sarah, I deserve it anyway. I thought in annoyance, slowly losing interest with the topic I looked up to the window above the foot end of the bed. I started to imagine fog being pushed through the glass, the cloudy mess filling the room, I reached my hand above the bed and pretend to swirl my fingers through the strangely interesting imagination fog.
A few minutes later, my hand started to feel heavier as I slowly struggled to keep it up, why am I so weak? I thought to myself tensing the muscles in my arm, I pulled my cold fingers close to me and looked to Sarah again, her silent snores filled the room, That was until my stomach started rumbling. I looked to the blanket where my stomach was hidden under, "a little hungry are we?" I whispered quietly, my eyebrows furrowed as as a strange pain filled the area, it felt as if someone had grabbed my skin and started pulling and squeezing it….Cramps? Why do I have cramps? I thought over everything I had recently eaten, but it was nothing other than oatmeal and a few granola bars. I can't be that hungry am I? The rumbling got louder, so I decided to get out before I woke Sarah up, no way in hell did I want to read another one of her books. She doesn't get that I don't like them, and it makes me want to rip my hair out.
Slowly I closed the wooden door shut behind me, and peered down the dark hallway, looks like Pete isn't up yet otherwise the candles would be lit, why am I up so early? I wondered, feeling the cool wind nip at my skin. I tiptoed into the bathroom, my feet ice cold and numb, and went over to the sink which was already filled with water. I sipped my hands into the cool liquid and rubbed what I had scooped up over my face. I wonder how many times the others have used this water, it's really gross actually. They should change it before it goes brown.
I dried my face on the bottom of my shirt and left the room again, that's when pain punched me in the stomach for the second time, I crouched over and grasped my stomach, groaning painfully, "What did I eat?" I mumbled, closing my eyes tightly. Slowly as the pain numbed I straightened myself up, only to feel and awkward wetness between my legs. (Here we go, so not excited to write these next parts WARNING….Things get kinda weird...) I looked to my jeans curiously, did I just wet myself? My eyebrows furrowed, as I stood in the darkness of the lonely hallway, I didn't even need to use the bathroom…
I turned around and awkwardly penguin shuffled back into the bathroom, which may I mention was the coldest room in the house. I made a leap of faith to the toilet and scrunched my face up when the wetness grew heavier and my legs clamped together. (Ergh gross, im so sorry guys!) Why am I still peeing!? Do I have a bladder problem or something!? Slowly I pulled my pants down and started at the mess (OH GOD SHIELD YOUR EYES!) my eyes grew wider, and a noise of distress escaped my throat, it wasn't a scream, it was a croak. A silent croak only I could hear. My heart started to pump faster as a wave of anxiety flowed down my body. I was lost for words, my eyes started to sing from tears which were forming. I had no idea what was going on, what was going to happen. Am I sick?! Am I going to die?! Whats going on with my insides?! Is something eating me?
Another rumble erupted and without a second thought I plumped my behind onto the toilet seat, I couldn't feel anything leaving me...Maybe it stopped? I stood up again but immediately sat back down. This is bad. (I. Am. So .Sorry!)
"Whats going on?" I spoke in falsetto, no one could hear me, I felt more tears forming. I didnt want to die, not yet anyway. Slowly I grabbed some nearby toilet paper (because they have that..) folded it up, and….(Yeah you know what she did...)
I washed my hands and quickly but as silently as a mouse ran down the hallway, straight into Nick's room. I don't know why I chose Nick, his door was the closest I guess. I closed the entrance behind me to make sure none else could hear if they walked past. "Nick..?" I whimpered in a silent scream from across his bed. "Nick please. I think something's wrong." I heard a soft groan escaped him as my cool fingers shook his bare shoulder. "Merh, what is it Sarah?" His hoarse voice asked, tears started to fill my eyes again, "Nick, I think something's wrong with me." Nick's eyes snapped open and he turned to look at my distressed face, I wiped my eyes and looked down at his comforting blue eyes. "What is it Clem?" He asked, fright building onto his features. "I dont know! I-I just woke up and I started to get cramps, really bad ones and I was bleeding!" I squeaked, trying to keep my voice as low as possible. The room was silent, a pin dropping would be visible to the ear, I waited for an answer, I waited to hear the bad news, or the comforting words, something! Anything! "Wait…..What?" Nick asked, his face had been drained of colour and his voice was expressionless, I shifted my weight as I could feel the wetness again. "I said, I-I woke up, with cramps and I started bleeding. Nick I dont know whats going on. I think i'm dying!" My voice cracked and I broke down into sobs, I tried to stop but I couldn't, what if something is eating me from the inside. "No Clem, you're not.. dying...Your childhood is just being washed away." Nick's face turned scarlet...You're 11 right?" He asked, reaching up to place a hand on my shoulder, I removed my hands from my tear filled eyes and nodded at him.
He swallowed and squeezed my shoulder, "where- um..Where are you bleeding?" My lip quivered as my cheeks became a light pink, "d-down..there…" I stuttard, sniffling softly. Nick leaned up on his elbows and pulled me into an awkward hug, "Clementine it's okay, stop crying, you're not dying." I held in my sobs and listened on, "have you ever been taught about...Becoming a woman?" I shook my head into Nick's neck, "don't I just get taller and stuff?" Nick nervously rubbed circles on my back, "no- Well yes, you become taller but you also...You also have whats called a...Period." I stopped sniffling and stepped away from Nick "a period of what?" Nick grew silent again and I could almost feel the rays of heat emanating from his face. "Nick?" I asked again, my stomach rumbling. Why is he taking so long to answer? He must have bad news! I knew it im dying! "Clem, just uh, go into Luke's room, you know where that is right?" I nodded my head "Y-yes." Nick nodded his head as well, "Okay good, go in there and tell Luke, what you told me about the cramps, and you think it might be a period." I bit my lip, and drew a shaky breath "c-can't you just help me?" I asked, Nick shook his head and placed his hands on my shoulders, spinning me towards the door, "No, Luke had a better education on this stuff. Go ask him. Bye." Without a second of hesitation, Nick pulled the blanket over his head and turned away from me.
Thanks for being there for me...Butt hole. I thought to myself as I closed his door, I blinked the remaining tears away and scurried into Luke's room. "Luke! Please help." Luke rolled over, already wide awake and looked at my puffy eyes, "are you okay Clementine?" I debated my answer, Nick said I wasn't dying, but he did punch my tooth out...So, I shrugged my shoulders, Luke raised an eyebrow, "have you been crying?" I narrowed my eyes and put on an angry face. "NO! I just woke up!" I hissed, turning away from him, he smiled, "well what's the problem?" I uncrossed my arms and turned to look at him, biting my lip to stop it from quivering it again. "Nick said I am having a period?" Luke's smile disappeared, "he what?" I furrowed my eyebrows and stomped my foot lightly. "He said you have to tell me what a period is!" I hissed getting frustrated. Luke swallowed his cheeks gradually growing pink, "oh…You should go ask Rebecca." He started, rubbing the back of his neck, I crossed my arms, "She's asleep! You know how mad she will get if I wake her up! Plus...I want you to tell me.." I mumbled the last part but Luke caught it anyway. With a sigh he opened his mouth "Okay well you really want to know?" Luke asked, I nodded my head, "I do, yeah." Luke exhaled, and sat on the edge of his bed, he patted a spot next to him, hesitantly I sat next to him and started at my knees. "Okay Clem, a period is all part of flowering into woman hood…"
15 painful minutes later…
"I lay eggs?" Clementine asked innocently, Luke stuttered and nodded his head. "Um yeah, so you see it's all normal?" Clementine nodded her head and pushed her face into the side of his shirt were a bloody mark still remained from when she lost her tooth. "Luke I thought I was going to die! Thank you, you always make everything better!" Luke chuckled and rubbed circles on her back, "aw, thanks kiddo…" He said flattered. "We're family now, like brother and sister! Just tell me if you ever need to lay an egg to!" Luke opened his mouth to say something, but just left the topic as it was.
The two left the room only to make their way down the stairs and into the kitchen, it seemed to be the place where everyone always gathered in this cabin. "Finally! Clementine I need to read my new favourite part in this book."Sarah immediately got all up in my face, I remembered what I had been thinking before and balled my hands into fists, A wave of hot fiery anger brushing over me suddenly. "No." I walked past Sarah to the sink and got a glass of water, everyone was surprised and a little taken back by my answer. "What, why?" I put the glass down and swallowed the remaining water in her mouth, Luke and Nick both knew where this was going…
"Because! I dont want to read." I glared at Sarah from across the room, Carlos pursed his lips and looked between the two girls. "But ill read it to you, its just a paragra-" I clenched my teeth, "I said no! N.O! NO!" I exhaled sharply, my breath turning into puffs of anger. Sarah looked hurt, and she looked to the table guiltily and traced her fingers over the wooden surface. "Its okay sweetheart.." Carlos instantly went to her aid. Clementine sighed and rolled her eyes.
Everyone was confused, what happened to there sweet little angle Clementine?
"Whats the matter Clementine?" Pete asked, I looked to him with eyes narrowed. "Sarah always gets what she wants! What she needs! Everyone is always there for her!" Sarah looked to her friend, shocked, my eyes started to get puffy again as I knew what I was about to say would break me down.
"Where was my comfort when I needed it?! Where was my father? Where was Lee!?" I covered my mouth, my eyes trailed down to the floor..It's all my fault..It always is! My legs gave out beneath me, everyone was lost for words, unsure of what to do.. Some even thought she faking all this.
"Where are they?" I whined, I was compelled forwards as sobs started to escape me, "I miss them so much.." I burst into sobs again, "I want my REAL family back!" I buried my face into my little hands. I knew I couldn't ever have them back, I knew that! But for the first time in forever I wasn't able to control what was happening to my body, my mind or my speech. "Clementine, baby girl-" I looked to Rebecca who was extending a hand to help me. "No! I don't want your pity! You have Alvin! You have your baby! Pete has Nick! They have each other! Carlos has Sarah, I'm alone! Everyone I love has left me! Everyone except you!" I didn't point to anyone, just looked at the floor I was sitting on. I was very confused, so many emotions had rushed through me like a speeding train on a railroad today, Anger, fright, worry, desperation, relief, comfort, sadness, depression! What is this? Everything I had kept in a box in the back of my mind had been kicked over, and everything had tumbled into my mouth, and into everyone else's ears.
Luke's P.O.V
Watching the girl collapse on the floor almost did it in for me, I wanted to reach out. I knew what she was feeling, loss, we all knew except for her it must have been 10 times worse. Losing her parents at such a young age, then this mysterious Lee person. She must be heartbroken. With a heavy heart, I made my way over to Rebecca and leaned towards her ear, "she came in my room this morning, she's on her first period...I guess this is the hormones reacting?" I stated depressingly.
Rebecca looked at me with sad eyes and nodded her head, "She must be so confused about everything. Poor girl. Im going to talk to her." Without hesitation Rebecca went over to her for the second time, and managed to pull her off the ground and lead her out of the room.
Clementines P.O.V
"We all know its been super hard for you sweetie, it has been for everyone here. But that's why we mend those wounds with new love, im sorry Clementine, but we are your new family. I wish I could change that, but I can't go back in time. We would all change our pasts if we could, but we cant. So knowing everything I have spoken to you about; your memories, fears and worries. Do you think, maybe, just maybe you could accept us as a family? I would be honoured." Clementine looked to Rebecca, her tears dried, and her smile vanished. She nodded her head and allowed Rebecca to pull her into a hug. "We're all family now. For ever, and ever." If only….
:O What the heck? I swear this wasn't meant to end on a depressing note! Its my stupid playlist of music! It starts out with something enjoyable, and ends with something depressing! Im sah sorry! But, periods guys. ^^
Were there grammatical errors? There were huh...Dx Im sorry!
Anyway! If you left a suggestion, ill try and write it as fast as I can & get it up for you amazing mates! Cause struth, I mean there's so many great suggestions. ;-; I will get to them! don cri
Riddler and her pet Koala exiting the building! ✌