Author's Notes: I am glad that you have made it this way to the tenth chapter! Usually… chapters 10's are very boring and that's when people stop reading… Well… I'm not like that! I'm just saying it… (Bangs head on the keyboard and start's typing the story)

Oh yeah… chapter ten has two versions! Just read and you'll understand…

-Ahem… I have a surprise for Chinese Dragon Keeper… I hope you like it… it's a sneak peek of Chapter 12: Master and Student…-

"To bear LOVE with its boundaries"

Chapter 10 version 1: The First Resistance!

(CHAPTER 10 VERSION 2: MEMORIES OF GOJYO)

When the sun had risen that was the signal that today was the first day of Sanzo's resistance of Gojyo. Sanzo felt like shit, he hadn't had any sleep last night. He was dreaming of Gojyo and somehow it turns out to be a nightmare where Hakkai fucks him good. Sanzo just tried to keep himself awake, whenever he dozes off he hears Gojyo's voice screaming Hakkai's name, then Sanzo wakes up feeling sweaty and shakened. Sanzo was deadly jealous towards the man who has his dear Gojyo. If only Hakkai wasn't a part of the group Sanzo would kill him and claim Gojyo his own. On the other side of the room, Gojyo had a great dream where he had love, the one main thing he had been seeking for since childhood. Gojyo slept well but when he woke up he started to feel his heart drop and break into a million pieces. When Hakkai greeted him good morning and kissed him tenderly like a lover, Gojyo's heart melted into a one golden piece and then flew back to his chest. Gojyo felt loved and hurt in the same time.

"This is bullshit!" Sanzo was cursing in the lonely room; he rubbed his eyes roughly, trying to scrub the sleep away from his lovely unrested eyes.

"Gojyo! C'mon! Let's hurry!" Hakkai's voice could be heard outside Sanzo's room.

"I'm coming! Wait for a moment!" Gojyo answered back, his footsteps were heavy. The two men were going downstairs. Sanzo was totally pissed, all night and now morning, Hakkai's voice echoed around him.

"Damn it! Why can't I have a peaceful moment where everybody shuts up!" Sanzo stood up immediately and went to his bathroom. He took off his clothes and stepped into the shower. The water was set to a good temperature; Sanzo sighed and closed his eyes.

"Gojyo…" Sanzo bent his head; the water splashed on his blond head, all he could hear was Gojyo's voice now. He was focused on him; he could remember Gojyo's moans and the way he called his name.

"Sanzo!" someone was calling for him from a distant, a loud knock came from the door of his room.

"Sanzo!" Sanzo was caught up in his memories.

"Sanzo!" Sanzo opened his eyes and turned the shower off. He quickly went to the front door and slammed it open. Hakkai stood there, he was smiling brightly.

"Breakfast is ready so you better hurry!" Hakkai announced, Sanzo snickered at his face and slammed the door close.

"Grr… Why can't I ever stop getting annoyed with him!" Sanzo scratched his head in irritation and went back to showering. Again he closed his eyes and started to recall his dear Gojyo.

(Memories… a long time ago…)

"Sanzo…" Gojyo was sleek and wet under the beautiful blond man. Sanzo's tongue slithered in Gojyo's sweet and succulent mouth, he could taste the sweet saltiness of Gojyo which was a great delight to Sanzo.

"Hold on to me…" Sanzo whispered to him, Gojyo wrapped his legs around him. Gojyo grabbed unto Sanzo's shoulders, he was ready for him. Sanzo could feel Gojyo's manhood touching his abs. Sanzo groaned, he wanted Gojyo quick and fast. But first he had to give Gojyo pleasure before himself. Sanzo did that through masturbation, Gojyo was climaxing and his secretion was all over Sanzo's hand and on the bed.

"Sanzo… I l-love you…" Gojyo breathed hard, Sanzo felt overwhelmed by his words; he didn't know what to say to that. As usual Sanzo made the wrong move and said something he shouldn't have said.

"Gojyo… there is no such thing as love… for me the only thing that brought us together here, like this, it's because of our sexual addiction…" Sanzo said it slowly, Gojyo's red eyes looked cold blooded, Sanzo sat back when Gojyo pushed him away.

"I guess I should go… the sun is going to rise anytime now…" Gojyo didn't wait for Sanzo to answer him. He just left Sanzo in the bed and he left the room. Sanzo stared at him, it was like he was a jerk and he never understood what went wrong. He was a wimp, he didn't run to Gojyo and apologize, he didn't do anything to make the situation any better.

"Damn it…" Sanzo cursed under his breath, he punched his pillow. He was ready to fuck Gojyo but then he sent his lover back to his own room by being an asshole.

(Back to the shower…)

"God damn it!" Sanzo slammed his wet fist on the wall. He was mad at himself and to Gojyo. Sanzo desired for his Gojyo, his manhood stood straight erected. Sanzo had to do something about this, yes he had to. If he was going to feed his lust towards his beloved redhead he should pleasure himself alone. Sanzo grabbed his dick with his one hand and then he started to masturbate. He closed his eyes once again and pictured his beautiful Gojyo. Sanzo was breathing hard, Gojyo was smiling slyly at him and he was playing with his own dick. Sanzo tried to keep that vision but then it disappeared; Sanzo slammed the wall with his free hand and tried to picture Gojyo again. When he had a vision of Gojyo, something went wrong, Hakkai was there and he was sucking Gojyo's dick.

"Ahg! Fuck it! Damn it!" Sanzo stopped masturbating and slammed both of his hands on the wall. Sanzo sat on the floor of the shower; his legs bent to his chest and he hid his face with his arms crossed on top of his knees.

"Gojyo… I can't stand this…" a few tears slid down on Sanzo's face. Sanzo used his aching hand in wiping it away.

"What's this?" Sanzo tasted it and it was salty. Sanzo smiled painfully and felt the loss he had never felt before.

"Is this how it feels? Is this how Gojyo feels?" Sanzo started to stand up, he felt like a hard cold shit. He dressed himself up and went downstairs, he wanted to see Gojyo and he wanted to fill his stomach.

"Good morning!" Goku greeted him; Sanzo sat beside Goku and stared at the two lovers. Hakkai was feeding Gojyo; the redhead was in non-total resistance about it. Gojyo was eating delightedly and Hakkai was laughing joyously. Sanzo felt annoyed again but he had to restrain himself from cursing because Gojyo sat right in front of him.

"Oh, Sanzo… here's you're newspaper!" Hakkai handed the newspaper over to Gojyo. Sanzo made eye contact with the redhead, when Sanzo grabbed the newspaper, his hand made contact with Gojyo's. It didn't affect the redhead at all; it was like nothing could get to him. Sanzo envied the beautiful redhead, it was like he had a ready-made steel wall and nothing could get through it.

"There… now you could read…" Gojyo smiled at Sanzo, he could see the two dark rings under Sanzo's beautiful lavender eyes. Sanzo looked away; he placed his newspaper down and poured himself a cup of coffee. Sanzo took one sip and his coffee was all gone, he poured himself another cup and tried to fill his empty plate with food.

"Sanzo are you alright?" Hakkai asked the blond monk who was hostile towards him. Sanzo looked at him for a moment then his attention went to the food on his plate, Sanzo ate slowly. The three men were watching Sanzo like some kind of a science experiment.

"What are you looking at?" Sanzo's voice was harsh, his eyes were deadly. Hakkai just smiled and Goku looked away. Gojyo was the only one who had the guts to talk to him.

"Well… we're just concerned about you… that's all" Gojyo smiled at Sanzo, his red eyes were full of joy. Sanzo saw how much Gojyo loves Hakkai, Sanzo now envies the man who gave his Gojyo such joy. Whenever Sanzo was with Gojyo, his red eyes were full of mischief and an unknown expression that Sanzo hadn't examined clearly.

"Just step off… I don't need anyone's concern right now…" Sanzo finished eating and sat back. He lit a cig and started to read his newspaper. Gojyo stopped smiling and sat back in his seat, he didn't look at Sanzo anymore. Hakkai placed his hand on top of Gojyo's; Sanzo took a peak and saw it. Goku who was watching everything felt a little awkward and frightened for Hakkai's sake. Gojyo looked into Hakkai's green eyes; Hakkai smiled at him and leaned his head over to give Gojyo a kiss. Sanzo slammed his newspaper on the table and stood up.

"Let's go now… I don't feel comfortable in this town…" Sanzo looked at Hakkai coldly, he didn't want to see the real thing, and he didn't want to see Gojyo being loved by another man.

"Okay…" Hakkai smiled at him and stood up. Gojyo followed, he stood up and held hands with Hakkai.

"Well… we'll be waiting outside so prepare what you have in you're room and we'll start up where we left off…" Hakkai proceeded to walk to the entrance with Gojyo. Sanzo stared at Gojyo who was walking by Hakkai's side. Goku just sat there, Sanzo turned his gaze towards Goku.

"Well… I'm ready!" Goku stood up cheerfully and started to run after the two men. Sanzo watched the little boy run and something got to him. He was alone and no one was there to wait for him. No one was there to talk to; no one was there to fill his body with such intense feelings. All he had now was anger and he wanted to kill Hakkai. Goku for him was very annoying even though the boy didn't do anything. But Gojyo, the situation was worse he lusted for him now and then. Forever he shall be damned, he shall be damned from Gojyo and he shall be damned by his love.

"C'mon!" Goku called out to Sanzo, the car was ready. Everyone was waiting for the one person they should escort and protect until they reach the west. The one thing that bothered Sanzo is… what will happen when they reach the west and finish their mission? Will Gojyo live happily ever after with Hakkai? Will Sanzo be watching over the annoying kid and get undeserved pain from his own master's anger? Sanzo should do something about his lustful urges towards Gojyo… but how should he do it? Should he ask someone to help him? What will happen to Goku if he tries to help his own master? Can Gojyo let Sanzo accept the fact that Hakkai is the only one for him? Wait till the next chapter…

SNEAK PEEK!

Chapter 12: Master and Student

"Goku… just hold still…" Sanzo pinned Goku down on the bed. Goku was helpless; Sanzo bent down and kissed the little boy.

"S-Sanzo… stop…" Goku used his free hands to push his master away from him. Sanzo forced his tongue inside Goku's mouth. The boy stopped moving under him, he couldn't do anything. He could feel Sanzo's hand caressing his bare thigh. Goku started to moan as the feeling crept up on him.

"That's a good boy…" Sanzo smiled in his face; slowly his other hand slithered to Goku's chest. Sanzo grabbed Goku's nipple with his teeth, he bit it, licked it and kissed it. Goku groaned in pain, it was his first time to deal with pain through pleasure.

"No, Sanzo…" Goku squirmed again, Sanzo pinned him harder so that he couldn't move.

"Now hush… I need this… you said that you wanted to help me right? Then this is what I want you to do… this is how you'll help me…" Sanzo looked into those golden eyes and he saw how much the boy wanted to put a stop to this.

"Yes, I wanted to help you… but not like this… please Sanzo… let me go…" Goku begged he didn't want to do this, he doesn't want to betray Gojyo and he doesn't want to see Hakkai disgusted with him or Sanzo.

"No… I want you and I need this right now…" Sanzo once again bent down to kiss Goku but then the door of his room slams open.

"Sanzo!" Gojyo shouted out loud. Sanzo let go of the boy and stood up from bed, his eyes full of surprise. Gojyo looked mad and hurt.

"How dare you use Goku!" Gojyo banged the wall with his open palm. Goku ran to Gojyo, the poor boy was crying.

"I'm sorry Gojyo!" Goku held his clothes within his arms. Gojyo smiled down at the boy and gave him a hug.

"It's alright Goku… change into you're clothes and sleep with Hakkai… I'll take good care of this…" Gojyo smiled at the crying boy and let him go.

"But… you're sleeping here?" Goku asked with a gulp. He was getting worried for Gojyo. The redhead nodded at the blond man and looked into the boy's face.

"Listen to me… Tell Hakkai that I have to spend the night with Sanzo… he'll still understand even without any further explanation…" Gojyo pushed the boy out of the room and shut the door close behind him.

"Gojyo…" Sanzo's voice was possessive, he wanted him and he has desired for him. Gojyo locked the door and walked towards the blond man, who stood naked before him.

Author: Oops! I guess this is all for now! I musn't ruin the whole thing! Thank you again for the readers and thank you Chinese Dragon Keeper for keeping my spirit up! I hope that this sneak peek is alright to give you as a thank you…

(Must continue writing! Desperate for ideas! - cough! cough! - Agh… I'm getting sick because of my lack of sleep!)