Author's Notes: Ah… I'm flattered… hehehe… thank you! Sorry to all of you that it took long for me to update… my internet is soo…. BUSTED! But I promise to try my hardest to finish this story! What do you think? Should I finish this hard-ending story? It's kinda' getting complicated… WAAHH! Tell me! What should I do!
"To bear LOVE with its boundaries"
Chapter 15: Hakkai- Do you like Sanzo?
The group went camping again; the moon was covered by black clouds. The group sat around the fire. They were all so silent, Hakkai laid his head on Gojyo's shoulder, the brunette and the redhead we're staring into the fire. Sanzo on the other hand stared at the two couple in submissive anger. Goku the boy who fell inconveniently silent just stared at the fire, he minded his own business, besides he didn't want to get in Sanzo's way. They were cooking some food, so they all waited.
"Ah… I guess the food is cooked…" Hakkai grabbed the pan; he smiled at his successful cooking. Hakkai was always proud of the things he had done, and he was proud that he made Gojyo happy as his lover.
"Yahoo!" Goku cheered, he was so hungry, and waiting for the food to be cooked made him die in impatient agony. The little boy would usually complain about his stomach, but things are difficult to complain about nowadays.
"Hmm… Goku… you seem so silent lately… you don't complain about you're stomach anymore…" Gojyo rubbed his chin and observed the little boy like he was some kind of experimental specimen. Goku just kept quiet, he didn't answer Gojyo. He didn't want to be a problem for the group, especially to Sanzo, Goku respects his master.
"Yeah… I noticed that about Goku…" Hakkai chimed in; he was worried for Goku's sake. Gojyo nodded his head at Hakkai then looked at Goku once more. Goku just shook his head and smiled at the two men who are worried over him.
"Che… just leave the boy alone…" Sanzo started to defend Goku. The little boy stared at his master in awe. He never knew that Sanzo would care for him, well, yeah he's the master and all. But sometimes Sanzo would be unfeeling and no one could read his emotions. Sanzo was secretive and sacred; this monk was like a saint for Goku.
"Well… I think we should start eating now… I bet everyone's really hungry!" Hakkai smiled softly at Sanzo. The monk just grunts when Hakkai served them.
(Inside Sanzo's head…)
"Who does this guy think he is!" Sanzo just eats quietly.
"I really hate him!" he glares at the brunette and Hakkai doesn't see it.
"How dare he question Goku!" Sanzo snickered.
"I hope that Gojyo would soon make up his mind!" the monk spit out something that couldn't be chewed.
"Ah… Hakkai… you're cooking is so delicious!" Gojyo praised the handsome brunette, Sanzo snickered at his appraisal.
"Thank you Gojyo…" Hakkai gave Gojyo one of his warming smiles. Goku enjoyed the great sight before him; the two men were truly a couple.
After their meal the group all had to sleep in sleeping bags. Goku was fast asleep in his own sleeping bag and surprisingly the monk too had fallen asleep in his. Hakkai didn't sleep, he was thinking about Gojyo. He stared at the sleeping redhead's back. Somehow he wanted to learn his relationship with the grumpy monk. He wanted to know how deep it was. After a few minutes, Hakkai's eyes were growing heavy with sleep, but then he woke up when Gojyo sat up. The redhead wasn't sleeping well, Hakkai noticed that Gojyo was sweating hard and breathing hard. Gojyo got up from his sleeping bag and started to walk off somewhere. Hakkai also came out from his sleeping bag and followed the redhead in silence.
"I wonder what's wrong…" Hakkai whispered to himself as he followed Gojyo deep into the darkness. When Hakkai followed the redhead, he stepped on a twig causing it to break, the sound of the breaking twig made Gojyo stop in his tracks.
"Hakkai…" Gojyo muttered his name without looking at him.
"Gojyo… I… uh…" he didn't know what to say, Hakkai just wanted to know what Gojyo was doing or going.
"What are you doing up?" Gojyo turned around to see Hakkai, he was smiling at the brunette, Gojyo wasn't angry at all.
"I was just concerned… uh…" Hakkai looked down to his feet, he felt a little bit guilty, he was caught like a thief. When the brunette looked up again, Gojyo's face was close to his, Hakkai could see closely the handsome features of the redhead.
"Ah… okay…" Gojyo smiled and slowly he bent down his head, he kissed Hakkai softly on the lips. Hakkai blushed, he loved the soft kiss, and he loved every feeling that always erupts inside him.
"Gojyo…" he whispered his name; he brought down Gojyo's head to get another kiss. The redhead didn't hesitate; again he gave Hakkai another blissful kiss. When Gojyo backed up after the kiss, he looked into Hakkai's loving face. The brunette felt a bit restless, his knees buckled, Gojyo held on to Hakkai.
"You seem tired… I think you should rest…" Gojyo smiled and gave Hakkai a soft kiss on the forehead. He then carried Hakkai in a bridal style; Gojyo was about to walk back to camp but Hakkai stopped him.
"Gojyo… I have something to ask of you… please listen…" Hakkai placed his hand on Gojyo's cheek and caressed it lightly. Gojyo stopped walking, he looked into Hakkai's eyes, and he nodded his head obeying the brunette's plead. Hakkai took in a deep breath, what he was going to say will take a lot of courage.
"I'm listening Hakkai…" Gojyo told him, he was reassuring the brunette that he was giving him his attention. Hakkai patted Gojyo's muscled shoulder twice, he wanted to stand on his feet, Gojyo gently let down the brunette. They were both facing each other; Hakkai had a serious look on his face.
"Gojyo… tell me the truth… do you…" Hakkai paused for a moment and took his time to think of the words to his question.
"Do I what?" Gojyo asked with a nervous smile.
"Gojyo… do you like Sanzo?" Hakkai clenched his hands into fists. Gojyo was silent for a moment, the redhead looked away and then looked back at the brunette, Gojyo didn't know what to say.
"Do you love Sanzo?" Hakkai asked more sternly and bold. Gojyo looked at Hakkai with wide eyes; it was like tonight was the night where he had to make the hardest choice in his life.
"Gojyo… do you even love me?" Hakkai asked in a torturing tone. The brunette's body started to shake; Gojyo went forward and wrapped his arms around his lover.
"No! Answer me!" Hakkai pushed Gojyo away. He wanted to learn the truth. He wanted to know if this man does love him.
"I love you Hakkai…" Gojyo said silently, his head bent down. Hakkai let out a calm breath but then Gojyo said something that made him go wild.
"I love Sanzo too…" Gojyo let out everything, he couldn't choose between the two. Hakkai burst into tears, his fists pounding on Gojyo's chest, the redhead took everything in he accepted all the pain and hatred.
"NO! You can only love one! Do you love me!" Hakkai was mad, he wanted to rip Gojyo apart but it wasn't the redhead's fault. Hakkai stopped hitting Gojyo and stayed calm. The redhead enclosed the bewildered Hakkai with his warm hug. Hakkai rested his head on Gojyo's chest and sighed.
"I love you Hakkai… and I'm sorry… are you mad at me?" Gojyo looked down at the pale face. His tanned hands wiped away the tears that stained on Hakkai's pale face.
"I… I love you Gojyo… I can't blame you for anything…" Hakkai hugged Gojyo back. He held unto the redhead tightly, he didn't want to let go of Gojyo. He loves Gojyo too much to even surrender him to Sanzo.
"Hakkai… I love you too…" Gojyo kissed the brunette again, but it was long and lingering. Hakkai licked his lips, memorizing the taste of Gojyo which was sweet and succulent.
"Gojyo…" Hakkai knelt down, his knees were weak. Gojyo was about to kneel down but then Hakkai stopped him. Gojyo looked down at Hakkai; the brunette's hands were working on Gojyo's pants. The redhead gulped as he could feel himself getting hard on the light caress of Hakkai's hands.
"Hakkai… I…" Gojyo was going to stop him but Hakkai hushed him and continued on. His hands slowly undone Gojyo's pants and slowly went down the tanned knees. Hakkai stared longingly at the beautiful sight before him; Gojyo was a man and indeed a gifted one at most! Hakkai was bold, he touched Gojyo's hard manhood, his light caresses made Gojyo start to erect slowly. The agony of being touched like that! The agony of making Hakkai suffer oh so painfully! The agony of choosing between two lovers! Gojyo wanted to cry out loud but he had to control himself.
"Gojyo… I love you so much… I just can't stop loving you anymore…" Hakkai had tears in his eyes, Gojyo wanted to hug him but Hakkai stopped his actions. The brunette wanted to continue pleasuring Gojyo. Slowly Hakkai licked the skin under his testicles making Gojyo moan softly, Hakkai's hand stroke the head of his penis while doing that.
"Hakkai…" Gojyo called out his name softly; the silence heard Gojyo's cries, the wind blissfully and swiftly took the cries in a dying sigh. Hakkai licked the side of Gojyo's penis, making it wet and slippery, Hakkai's hands stroke his testicles with a light caress of a hand. Gojyo placed his hands on Hakkai's shoulders, he grabbed on it tightly. The pleasure swept through Gojyo's whole body, he wanted to give Hakkai his first taste of sensual pleasure.
"Gojyo… lie down on the ground please…" Hakkai was in charge now. He was going to do Gojyo and he was going to do him good. Gojyo lay down on the ground; his eyes were focused on Hakkai's gentle face. Hakkai was still kneeling, slowly he took off his pants and then he settled on top of Gojyo. He let Gojyo slip his hard and erect manhood inside of him.
"Uh… Don't move Gojyo…" Hakkai took in a mouthful of air, and then he started to move. His body went up then down, he was making Gojyo enjoy this; he wanted Gojyo to know that he was a capable lover.
"H-Hakkai… uhg… uhrm…" Gojyo's hand stroke the head of Hakkai's penis. It made the brunette groan in the mad and desiring pleasure. Hakkai's movements grew fast by the pleasurable moments. The two men were breathing hard and sweating hard.
"G-Gojyo!" Hakkai was coming and suddenly he felt afraid of it. His body started to shake but then Gojyo wound his hands on Hakkai's back and then he roughly pulled down the brunette to give him a wild kiss. With one last second, the two men came together.
"Aah!" Hakkai's sat up, his head bent back to face the dark night sky. Gojyo muffled his shout by covering it with his own tanned hand. The brunette collapsed on top of the redhead. Gojyo smirked at Hakkai, the man felt good for him and his lover, Hakkai kissed Gojyo and then totally fell unconscious in his arms.
That night Hakkai had experienced his first immense pleasure with Gojyo. No one heard their cries of pleasure that night also. Gojyo slipped Hakkai in his sleeping bag silently and he too returned to his own. No one suspected them of anything the next morning. Hakkai felt good like a man, Gojyo just felt the same way for Hakkai.
What's going to happen next? What about Sanzo and Goku! It seems that Hakkai doesn't approve of Gojyo's decision and he doesn't approve of Sanzo most of all! Hope to see you on chapter 16!