Chapter 6: I'll Wait for you
"See you" He smiled as she closed the door and drove off. Hinata felt a little happiness just of the thought that she would be seeing him again tomorrow. She went up the stairs and her eyes grew wide.
"S-Sakura…" Hinata looked at the girl standing in front of her door. "What are you doing here?"
"Hinata, we need to talk…"
Hinata stared at Sakura, for a very long time. This was the girl who had taken Naruto's heart away. The girl who was in Naruto's arms. The girl that hurt Naruto the most. As much as she wished to be rude, as much as she wanted to be cruel, she wasn't. Hinata walked to her door. "Want to come in?" Sakura agreed with a nod as they walked into the apartment.
"Would you like some tea?" Hinata asked, she would take any opportunity to make this situation less tense.
"Sure, it is pretty cold out" Sakura smiled and laughed. Hinata smiled a little as well. She went into the kitchen to make tea for Sakura and herself. She looked at the ground, she just had so many questions in her head, she wanted to know what really happened between the two, and she wanted to know why she agreed to be with him. She had questions that she was afraid to know the answers to.
Once the tea was ready she stepped out to the living room where Sakura was sitting. "Here the tea is ready."
"Thank you" Sakura took the tea and took a sip. They stood in complete silence; all that was heard was breathing and their fingers hitting the cups. Hinata couldn't take it anymore.
"Sakura why are you here?" they put their cups down.
Sakura looked up at her, she felt her heart race. "I felt like I was obligated to….to give you a proper apology." Hinata looked at her with surprise.
"But why-"
"I took away someone you loved, and went off on a pity emotion. Hinata, I knew you loved him, I knew that he loved you too.." Sakura tried to hold back her tears. She felt like a complete scum. "But when Sasuke left me, I knew Naruto had feelings for me before, so I tried to re awaken those feelings for my own selfish needs. I was lonely, and Naruto was the only person I knew who would stay with me.." Hinata listened to her as she talked. She never thought, a girl who she thought was a best friend, would do something like this to her.
"Hinata, I-"
"So you did this because, you were lonely and…and you needed someone…" Sakura just nodded. "Didn't you think about how I felt?" Hinata was out raged. Tears fell from her eyes, Sakura expected this, but she needed to get it off her chest.
"Hinata I just felt lonely and-"
"How do you think I felt!? I was lonely and depressed once Naruto left me! But I didn't go and steal anyone! I was with myself only until Sasuke came and just tried to comfort me!"
"H-How did he-"
"He would watch Tv with me and talk! He never slept with me, kissed me or anything! I know the difference between friend and lover!" She yelled. Hinata noticed what she said. "S-Sakura I'm-"
"No its okay…I deserve this.."
"Sakura I-"
"Hinata I am completely scum for what I did. Just know, Naruto and I…we never felt that way…I never loved him…He never loved me…it was a petty crush. I understand if you don't want to be my friend or have anything to do with me." Sakura got up and began to walk to the door. Hinata grabbed her wrist.
"I have more questions" Hinata was looking at the ground. "I don't know if I'll like the answers but, I need to know" Sakura looked at her, she had already hurt her enough, she didn't want to have to crush her friend anymore.
"Okay..I'll tell you everything you want to know, it's the least I can do" They went back to the couch.
"Please, answer me truthfully" Hinata pleaded to her.
"I Will…" She looked at Hinata in the eyes.
"How did you feel, when Naruto had kissed you that day?" Hinata was fidgeting with her fingers.
"To be honest, I was shocked, but then I thought to myself, I won't be lonely no more, so why the hell not..So I went through with it" Sakura looked at Hinata and knew she wanted more. "I mistook the feeling of comfort and happiness as love. As I kissed him, I thought of Sasuke..thats who I really wanted. But I thought why not have Naruto as someone to lean on, since I thought he was never coming back."
Hinata took a deep breath; she didn't want to lose her cool again. "So you never really loved him?"
"No, I just mistook all my emotions, and so did he. He always had this petty crush on me, and so he acted on it, throughout our relationship something felt wrong, he even told me he had days when he didn't know what to do. There were days he wouldn't stop talking about you, and I would be talking about Sasuke. When he asked me to marry him, I asked him why." Hinata looked at Sakura with anticipation. "He told me because he knew I won't hurt him, that if he went back to you, you would deny him. He knew how bad he messed up."
"Didn't you think how Sasuke might feel if he came back?"
"That's the thing I thought he was never coming back. So I started to revolve my life around Naruto; though my heart was always with Sasuke."
"Didn't you feel terrible knowing that you was going to spend your life with someone you didn't love"
"Of course I did! But we both thought we would never get the person we wanted the most, so we decided to settle."
"Just…just one more question.." Hinata didn't want to ask this, she didn't want to know, she was screaming in her head. Sakura knew based on her actions the question that was about to arise.
"Hinata please…don't.." She said silently.
"Did you and Naruto….sleep together…" Hinata's heart was crumbling as she asked the question. She didn't want to know the answer, but she just had to. If Naruto and she were going to get anywhere, she wanted to know the truth, even if it hurt her.
"Hinata I don't think I should-"
"Sakura please, just tell me" She looked at her with pleading eyes.
"Y-yes…we did…" Sakura didn't want to look at Hinata's eyes. She knew the hurt that must have flooded her heart at that moment.
"S-Sakura, I-I think you should go.." Sakura didn't even say a word. She grabbed her jacket and headed for the door. Hinata opened the door for her.
"Bye…" Were the only words spoken. Hinata didn't even say anything, she just closed the door. As soon as let the door close, she fell to the ground and began to cry her eyes out. She felt like her world was crumbling around her. She was on her floor, in complete darkness. She felt so alone, more alone then she ever did.
"I did everything for him!" She yelled at the top of her lungs. Her phone vibrated, she looked at it and saw it was Naruto. She didn't bother to read it; she threw it across the room and continued to cry.
Sakura was walking to the elevator of the building. Her eyes looking at the ground, she felt terrible for what she did. Once she reached the elevator, she saw Sasuke. "S-Sasuke"
"I'm guessing you told her..everything" They heard her cries from down the hall. It pained them both.
"Yea I did…" Sakura was looking at the ground as tears formed in her eyes. "I don't understand.."
The elevator came and they both walked in. "What is it?" The door closed and the elevator began to go down.
"I don't understand why you are talking to me, why you don't hate me" Sakura said while looking down.
"Sakura I'm gonna be honest with you, I am mad you slept with my best friend, but it's not like I didn't sleep around either." He watched as Sakura flinched at his words. He sighed. "Instead of drugs and alcohol, sex was something to take my mind off of life, but each time I did do it, I ended up thinking of you"
Sakura looked up at him. "I honestly don't know how to take that statement" She said with a slight giggle. Sasuke wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Just take it as; I never stopped thinking about you…" She looked up at him and smiled, "and I sometimes slipped and would say your name, some girls really didn't appreciate that" He laughed and placed his hand behind him head.
Sakura couldn't hold back her laughter. "o-oh my! So I guess I'm going to have some girls after me aren't I?"
"Hehe you can say that, just watch for a certain red head."
"I'll keep an eye out" She giggled as she looked at him. "Sasuke I-" Sasuke grabbed her shoulders. She gasped as she looked up at him.
"Enough apologizing…" She looked down as her hair covered her eyes.
"But Sasuke I-"
"We hurt each other, we were stupid." He brushed his hand over her eyes to move the hair. "Please Sakura, I want to make this work, I want us to work…" Her eyes shot open.
"Sasuke I don't think-"
"We still love each other, despite the idiotic things we did…" She had no words for him; he saw her eyes begin to water. He wrapped his arms around her and let her cry on him. He couldn't cry in front of her; he had to hold back the tears and be strong for her sake.
"I'll take you home.." Sakura nodded at his gesture.
"Sasuke.."
"Yea?"
"I don't want to be left alone tonight…stay with me?"
He blushed slightly. "Sure, I'll take you out to eat first okay?"
"Sure, I am pretty hungry.."
He smiled as they made their way out the building. He looked up at Hinata's apartment window. It was pitch black. He couldn't shake this feeling off of him. 'I hope she will be okay' He thought to himself.
With Hinata
She was sitting on the floor in disbelief. She felt like her whole world was crumbling down before her. The phone began to vibrate once more from across the room. She knew who it was; she didn't want to bother with him right now. She didn't know how she was going to face him after hearing this information. How could she believe that he loved her as much as he said he did? All these questions were invading her mind. She didn't know how to deal with this. The phone continued to go off, she couldn't stand hearing the vibrations repeat. She sighed and walked over to her phone. She looked down and picked it up, she saw the number and sighed as she answered it.
"Hello…"
"Hey Hinata-chan I been trying to reach you"
"O-oh, sorry I was um t-taking a shower…whats up"
"I wanted to know if you wanted to go to the park after we grab a bite to eat tomorrow.."
She stood quiet at first, hearing the happiness in his voice only killed her more. She wanted to be happy, it's not like other people didn't sleep around before. Why was it hurting her so bad, it's not like they were together at the time or anything. "I'm actually not feeling well so-"
"You're not?! Well I'll bring over some soup and I'll take care of you tomorrow okay!"
"N-No you don't have to-"
"I want to, I want to prove to you how much I care for you hehe well I'll see you tomorrow! Get a good night's rest! Bye Hinata-chan!"
"B-bye…"
She hanged up the phone and made her way to the bathroom. She put on the water and let the water run as she looked at herself in the mirror. She began to remove her clothes; she looked at her self and grunted.
"Why would her ever want me again…I'm pale, and larger than Sakura" She put her hands on each of her breast and dragged her nails from one end to the other. She cried "…Guys usually like small girls right…" She touched her waist and scratched herself all over. She looked at her face. "God I look horrible.." She sighed and lay in the bathtub filled with water. The hot water burned. She looked down and saw the water turn a color of red. She realized she had scratched herself a little too deep. She ignored it as she closed her eyes. Her eyes had burned from all the tears she had cried. The bathroom began to fog up, she began to fell dizzy. She had the hot water running, resulting in steam to fill the closed bathroom. All that was open was a small crack in the window, she slowly drifted into a deep sleep and with no realization she was sinking into the water.
With Sasuke
"So I'll see you tomorrow okay Sakura?"
"You sure you have to go?"
"Yea I just want to make sure Hinata is alright, I know she is having a hard time" He said with a concerned tone.
"A-All right, so I guess I'll be seeing you tomorrow" She said with a little sadness.
"Okay see you…" he smiled and kissed Sakura's forehead. As he made it to his car he tried to call Hinata, but there was no answer. He tried multiple times and the same result came up. That was proof enough that something was wrong. He went into his car and drove straight to Hinata's house. It was already 11:36 P.M. He went as fast as he could. He thanked god there was a random parking spot, he ran up the stairs.
"Hinata…Hinata…" He saw water seep from under the door. "HINATA! ANSWER THE DOOR! HINATA!" He was getting furious. He took the key from under the mat and unlocked the door. The apartment was filled with water, 'Hinata where are you!" He looked around and saw the water leaking from the bathroom. He tried opening the door but saw it was locked.
"Damn it" He was furious; he started kicking the door until he got it off the hinges. He looked in the bathtub and saw Hinata under the water with red liquid coming to the surface of the water. He picked her up instantly and saw random cut marks all over her chest and stomach. He grabbed a towel and wrapped her body up. He called her name a couple of times.
She wasn't responding, he put his head against her chest and heard a very faint heartbeat. "No…" He made sure the towel was wrapped around her tightly. He ran to the hospital that was right down the block. He began to go through the house as he made his way down the stairs and outside. He didn't care what people would think of him at this moment. All he was concerned about was Hinata. He ran into the emergency room holding her.
"Help, she isn't breathing someone please help me!" He yelled in the middle of the emergency room.
A doctor came through the doors "What seems to be the emergency"
"I found her" Sasuke said between breaths "In her bathtub at home, under the water, with cuts all over her and" he took a deep breath "and steam, everywhere"
The doctor lifted the towel and saw the cuts on her body"Can I get her to the ER!" Men came and took Hinata from Sasuke's arms. He watched as they took her away, he collapsed on the ground.
The time was 8 a.m. Sasuke had been waiting out in the hall way all night. Doctor Shizune tapped him on the shoulder.
"She is ready to see you now.." Sasuke nodded in response. He got up and followed the Doctor to Hinata's room. The doctor knocked on the door, there was a faint come in. The doctor opened the door and let Sasuke go in. He sat down beside her and folded his hands in his lap. There was a dead silence in the room.
"Sasuke I-"
"Hinata what were you thinking…" He said as he looked down at his hands. She stood quiet. "I know you talked to Sakura that night and I understand how you must of felt." She was just silent. "How did you get those cuts all over you?"
"I…I was scaratching and-"
"Why did you scratch your self so hard?"
"I didn't mean it-"
"Hinata answer my question.."
"I…I feel un perfect..and…I just wanted to take a hot bath to numb my pain.."
"Didn't you notice the blood!"
"I did…"
"And why didn't you try to stop it…" He asked her. She was silent. He put his hands over hers.
"I…I didn't care what happened to me.."
"Hinata, you have people who care for you, why would you be so foolish.
"No one cares…" She whispered.
"If I didn't care I wouldn't have spent the whole night out side in the hall way"
"W-What Sasuke-kun I'm so sorry I-" She was cut off by Sasuke's phone ringing. He looked at the caller ID and huffed. He went outside Hinata's room and answered the phone.
"Where the hell are you!" Sasuke screamed into the phone
"I-I'm home I just"
"You Idiot why aren't you at the fucking hospital!" Sasuke was more than mad.
"Sasuke I just found out this morning how was I supposed to know!"
"Naruto for once will you think with your head! Did you call her last night?"
"Yea what does this-"
"How did she sound on the phone!?"
"She sounded sick but-"
"Didn't you think that was kind of odd! Wasn't she fine when you saw her earlier!" he yelled, before Naruto could talk he began to speak again. If you care as much as you say you do, why not start showing it! She is in room 13D!" And with that Sasuke hanged up the phone. He was disgusted at his friend's behavior. He walked back into the room to see Hinata staring her hands.
He sat down next to her bed side. "Sasuke, you didn't have to yell at him"
"Hinata do you really think I'm going to be nice to that idiot! Look at what he has done to you!" She winced at his words. She knew he just wanted the better for her, and she knew Naruto was messing up but something inside of her was telling her, don't give up, and believe in him.
"I know Sasuke, but he will come around, he has just always been hard to understand…" She knew Naruto better than anyone. He would never wish to hurt anyone. She saw the anger in his face. "Sasuke please, believe me…" Without another word he turned away and began to walk to the door. He slide the door open and saw Naruto with a dozen roses and a sad look on his face.
"Hey Sasu-" Sasuke pushed Naruto out of the room and closed the door behind him. He pushed Naruto against a wall resulting in Naruto yelling in anger. "What the hell was that for?"
"Where have you been?"
"What do you mean where have I been why are you so mad at me!"
"I have been here all damn night! You know you keep saying how you care but all I been hearing is talk! You have no actions to support your argument" Sasuke hissed at him. Naruto looked down. "He grabbed Naruto by the collar. "Now if you want to get her love back, you damn well be treating her like a queen." He threw him towards her door. "Now go and be the man she needs" With that he walked away. Naruto couldn't help but feel like everything Sasuke said was true. He held his breath and walked into Hinata's hospital room.
He looked at her, he noticed her eyes were red and puffy from crying and her skin was paler than usual, and she had bandages on her neck leading god knows where else. He took a deep breath and sat next to her bed.
"Hey…how are you feeling.."
Hinata was about to say something but then she remembered what Sakura told her last night. In a second her happiness faded to sadness. She looked down at her folded hands in her lap.
"Hinata I…" Naruto didn't know what to tell her. Due to his stupidity she was in the hospital.
"Naruto.." She said in a calm voice. He looked up at her, curious yet scared to know what she had to say. "why…" She whispered. "Why did you hurt me so bad…"
"Hinata.."
"I gave you everything, my love, my home, and my body. I never trusted anyone as much as I trusted you!" The tears were falling down her face. Naruto had no right to justify what he done to her. " I tried to believe…for a long time that you would come back, and realize that you wanted me…And once you came back, I wanted to believe that I was still the only girl you made love with…" Once she said that Naruto's heart sank.
"How do you-"
"Sakura came to my place last night and told me about your relationship with her…." She was shaking.
"Hinata I am sorry I"
"You what Naruto! You slept with her! You are still the only man I ever let in..Naruto, why, why wasn't I good enough for you?"
"Hinata you always were…"
"Then why did you hurt me so bad, I knew that I shouldn't have let you go but can you think for a second how it felt to see you look at another girl with such compassion when we were together. Can you understand how bad you made me feel? I wanted to trust that I was the only girl you loved but I wasn't stupid Naruto. I knew exactly how you felt just by your actions."
Naruto just looked down, everything she was saying was true. "Hinata, I can n ever take back what I done to you, and I am deeply sorry. I didn't know what to do once I got with a girl like you I-"
"I've already heard enough… If you love me as much as you say you do, then I want you to show it"
"Hinata how can I prove it, I tried and I just seem to mess things up" He pleaded; he wanted to do anything to prove his love for her.
"I want you to wait for me, like I did for you. I want you to make me trust you again, and make me fall in love again..because honestly I…I am so vulnerable right now.."Naruto placed his hand over hers.
"I'll wait for you.."
A/N …Please don't hate me..It has been months since I updated and honestly this has been sitting in my computer all this time I just needed to finish it! I am so sorry and I am going to get back into my fan fiction! I love you guys! Btw her hurting her self will come up again!