A/N: This is more playing catch up...kind of right after Jason's "death" and some even in the five months I skipped to make Alexis six months pregnant. Anyway, I hope you like! For everyone who reviews...you all are so awesome!

She didn't want to get up...but she knew she had to...knew there were two little girl's and one on the way that needed her to be strong, but she was tired of being strong. She wondered when it would stop...when people would stop being ripped away from her. When she closed her eyes she still saw his blue eyes staring back at her. Knowing the girls were away for the afternoon she let herself get lost in the thought until she heard the knocking on the door.

As she put on her robe she she looked at his blue shirt hanging on the back of the door...she fingered the material until she heard the knocking get louder. As she opened the door the blond walked in.

"Have you eaten today...you look thin" Carly said putting her hand on Alexis head.

Alexis backed up and gave her a foul look, "How does someone look think at 8 months pregnant, and while were at it...what do you need Carly" she asked annoyed.

Carly narrowed her eyes at her, "I came to check how you were doing, okay...no need to get snippy...do you even have food in the house?" she asked heading towards the kitchen.

"Well we both couldn't cook it; so does it matter anyway?" Alexis said her feet hurting already as she plopped down in the oversize chair.

Carly came out, "I can make a pretty mean microwave pizza" she said with a ladle in her hand.

Alexis looked at her and wondered how they came to this point...and she thought back to the days following Jason's death.

Flashback...

They had waited...none of them wanting to believe he was really gone. So many times he had cheated death, but planning his memorial service they finally had to accept the inevitable. Alexis remembered sitting in Sonny's living room when the final sweep from the bay came...Sonny had his men comb the area for a week after...but still nothing.

She had lost it when she saw the lone tear fall from his eye...lost it right there in front of Sonny, Max, Milo, Jax an Carly. She crumpled to the floor one hand gripping her stomach where their child grew ..the child who would never know his father. She didn't remember much after except Sonny came near her only to be pushed out of the way by a tall blond...and to her surprise it wasn't Jax.

Carly let her arms come around Alexis as she too cried her own tears for the man they had both loved. And Carly knew this time; she would do right by him.

"Alexis...shh, this isn't good for the baby okay...Jase...Jase would want you to take care of you and the baby" she said barely being able to choke his name out.

Alexis felt the sobs subside as she just fell limp into Carly's arms...

End of flashback

"So remind me again what you are doing here again" Alexis asked closing her eyes.

Carly came out with a glass of milk, "you have a Dr's appointment...Jax said he would go with you, but he had a meeting; so I came instead" she said smiling.

Alexis didn't argue she just took the glass of milk and closed her eyes for a second...she had forgotten all about the appointment...

Carly hated Alexis...it was common knowledge amongst the citizens of Port Charles...but right now when she looked at her she couldn't help but feel her pain too. It was funny how fate is; them loving so many of the same men. Sonny, Jax, Jason...and now the most important person in Carly's life besides her boys was gone. And the only piece of him she had left was Alexis' child. She remembered the day that it came out that Alexis was pregnant; she almost wished it wasn't true...but after Jason died she thanked God for allowing a piece of him to be left with them...she remembered the day she found out about Jason's son.

Flashback

It was the morning of the memorial service...and she didn't know why she was there but she was knocking on the door of the lake house.

Alexis came and answered the black wrap dress hugged tightly against the swell of her belly.

"Carly" she said her face not masking the pain.

Carly fought back the tears, "I came to pick you up for the service"

Alexis didn't even argue she just nodded her head and turned around letting the woman follow her, "let me just get my purse"

When she didn't come out Carly went looking for her...she found her sitting on her bed a paper in her hands sobbing. That was when Carly brought her arms around her and cried with her.

After Alexis composed herself she straightened up and handed the picture to Carly, "I found out yesterday it's a boy"

Carly smiled through the tears looking at the ultrasound picture...Jason's son.

End of Flashback

As they climbed in the car Alexis sat silent staring out the window. It was all the better since Carly really didn't feel like talking either. The truth was she didn't know what she really expected out of this. Jax didn't really have a meeting, but she wanted to come instead...for Jason.

When they walked into the hospital Elizabeth greeted them with a smile...Alexis noticed that lately everyone seemed to treat her with kid gloves. And some days she didn't know if she hated it...or needed it. Luckily Epiphany was there to balance out any saccharine.

"Well look if it isn't Miss Davis...who hopefully has that high blood pressure down"

Alexis rolled her eyes but smirked at the lady, "oh Epiphany what would I do without you hounding me about my blood pressure?" she asked.

Epiphany smiled at her...knowing how much she had lost this year, "I know this place would run a muck without me, I will page Dr. Lee for you" she said before walking towards the phone.

"Thanks" she said before taking a seat.

Carly sat there uncomfortably until Alexis asked her about the boys and it seemed to ease the tension. And then out of the elevator came Monica Quartermaine.

"Alexis" she said looking over at the couches.

Alexis smiled at the woman...her child's grandmother, "Monica" she said nodding.

"Carly" Monica said nodding to the blond woman.

"Hey Monica" Carly said flippantly picking up a magazine.

Just then Epiphany came back, "Alexis, Dr. Lee will see you now"

She nodded and then turned back to Monica, "I will see you later" she said as Carly followed her down the hall.

Monica looked on...she thought of the day that Jason showed her the ultrasound at the hospital...he was so happy. She thought with him they had lost any hope of knowing their grandson, but Alexis had let them know that wasn't the case.

Flashback

It was the Sunday after the memorial service and the family sat together in the den. Even Tracy had nothing to say as they mourned the loss of Jason. Monica felt broken inside...AJ was gone, and now Jason. He wasn't biologically hers...but from that day in the carriage house with his fever...he was hers from there on. Alice announced company and she was about excuse herself until Alexis walked in.

She could tell by the look on her face that they were feeling the same way.

"You guys are probably wondering why I am here" she said her hand stroking her belly like second nature.

Emily had already started to tear up as Alexis finished, "Jason and I...we were going to have this baby...and now that he is gone...I guess the gist of what I am saying is that I want you all to have a relationship with this baby"

This seemed to get Edward's attention, "what dear" he asked.

"I know Jason Morgan...but I never knew Jason Quartermaine...and this baby...he or she deserves to know their daddy; so I want to give it a chance to know their whole family" she said the tears falling down her face.

Edward looked like he was going to kiss her as he stood up and took her in his arms, "this child is family...you know you could move into the mansion if you want"

Alexis just shook her head to that, "thank you that is generous, but we are very comfortable at the lakehouse"

Alan spoke next, "thank you Alexis...I am glad Jason found you" he said.

End of Flasback

She left after that but ever since she had been giving them updates on the baby.

When they came to the room Carly went to take a seat outside but Alexis turned to her.

"Today is the 3-D ultrasound...do you wanna see" she asked.

Carly stayed silent but nodded and followed her in.

Dr. Lee talked for awhile, but then on the screen they saw the baby come into view...it was amazing, and Carly instinctively grabbed Alexis' hand just as Dr. Lee spoke.

"And look there are your son's perfectly formed ten toes."

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His head felt cloudy and then he heard the voice. It sounded vaguely familiar, but from another lifetime.

"Alexis" he managed to cough out again.

"Not quite my dear" she said again her face coming into view.

When Jason finally saw her...he knew that it was worse than he thought.

And he mustered up everything in him to growl back at her, "Helena"