Lexa silently entered her tent and began dropping her weapons on the ground and pulling off her gloves. She had just arrived to Polis and was extremely tired from the long walk from TonDC. Her home was just a few miles away, but she wanted to stay in the outskirts of Polis until the early morning so the people of the city would not flood into the streets at night to celebrate the arrival of the Commander.

She sighed and sat down to close her eyes. Lexa had ordered Indra, who had agreed to stay with her for a few days, to stay outside. She just wanted to be alone for a minute. It felt like she was never alone, like she never had a second to herself. She always had to put on the 'commander mask'; be a true warrior, have no emotion, and put your people first. No matter what.

Memories of the last few weeks finally entered her mind- the memories that Lexa was purposefully avoiding. She had lost so many people. Anya, Gustus, Clarke…

Lexa's eyes opened at the thought of their names. She grabbed her knife and began sharpening it at a small wooden table. It was already as sharp as it could get, but Lexa needed to do something to get her mind off of the losses. Clarke is dead. She began sharpening harder. You betrayed her and now she's dead. You could have protected her. Just like you could have protected C-

She heard a deep voice speaking outside her tent.

"Has Heda arrived to Polis yet?"

"What are you doing here, Pat?" Indra muttered.

"I need to speak with Heda."

"The commander is busy."

"It is urgent."

Indra didn't have time for arguments. She simply sighed, "Wait here."

She turned and pulled up a curtain.

"A hunter wishes to speak with you, Heda," Indra's monotone voice sounded slightly angry, "Something… important."

"Let him in," Lexa said. Time to put on the "commander mask". Lexa could hear Indra quietly growl. She knew Indra did not want a random hunter speaking to the commander this late. She pulled the curtain back more, so that Pat could enter the tent.

Pat slowly walked in. This was more than likely the first and only time he would be speaking privately with the commander. She was still in her war makeup and armor, making her look 100 times more intimidating. Pat stood for a few seconds, waiting for the commander to speak… but she didn't. The commander didn't even look up.

"Good evening, Heda-"

"You wish to tell me something," Pat sighed in relief, the commander was speaking to him.

"Yes… while I was out hunting today… I saw someone," Pat waited for Lexa to react, but she continued sharpening her knife, "…wanheda."

Lexa stopped sharpening her knife, she did not move. It couldn't be…

She knew the trikru had given the girl the nickname.

"Or at least I believe it was wanheda. Bright hair. She said her name was Clarke-"

The commander's head snapped up and stared at Pat, dropping her knife on the wooden table in front of her. Her heart stopped. Clarke? She's alive?

She stood up and quickly walked over to the hunter, never losing eye contact. Lexa stood right in front of Pat, so close that their noses almost touched. She stared into his eyes, as if looking into them would tell her if he was lying to her or not.

Just above a whisper, Lexa said through her gritted teeth, "Where. Is. She."

"I…" Pat was at a loss for words, "I don't know, Heda… I almost killed her, but I let her go-"

Lexa's face twisted with anxiety. Out of anger she huffed and walked back to her knife.

"Commander," Pat became nervous, "She won't make it another few days in those woods. She can't hunt, and there are more of us out there who kill any trespassers-"

"I DON'T WANT HER DEAD!" Lexa gripped her knife and slowly lifted it off the table. Pat automatically took a step back. Lexa walked back over to Pat, "Where did you last see her?"

"In the east, where my group usually hunts. She was very close to Polis…"

Lexa's knife went straight into the sheath on her side. She slid past Pat to get outside the tent, where of course, Indra was standing. She was obviously listening to their conversation.

"Heda," Indra grabbed her arm, "What are you doing?"

"I'm going into the woods," She adjusted the sword on her back, "for a walk."

"Do not waste your time looking for one person," Indra's look of disapproval almost annoyed Lexa, "You're the commander. You cannot let your feelings or your personal life get in the way of protecting your people."

Lexa sighed and avoided eye contact with Indra. Because she was right.

"Who said this was personal? There's a trespasser in our woods-"

"And you have warriors that do that for you. Listen to me, Heda. It is dark, it isn't safe."

Lexa sighed again, "Okay," She went back in the tent where Pat was still awkwardly standing, "Bring this message to the rest of your men. If you see anyone who doesn't belong here in our territory, you bring them here. The sky people helped us. We got our people back because of them. They are not the enemy."

"Yes, Heda," Pat replied.

Lexa nodded, "You are dismissed."

Pat turned around to leave, then stopped when he remembered, "Um, one more thing commander…Clarke did not want me to tell you she was here. She looks like she hasn't eaten in a week. She seemed desperate, and… sad. I think her people banished her."

The wheels in Lexa's head were turning. She silently nodded at him and Pat walked away. There was no way Clarke was banished…

Lexa had to get her mind back on track. She still had so many things to worry about. There were still some of her people who were suffering from withdrawals of whatever the mountain people gave them that made them reapers. She didn't know anything about it, though. She only knew about what Clarke and Abby had told her… and she was still lost. The sky people's medical knowledge was far more advanced than the tree people. They needed the sky people.

Lexa hated herself for betraying them. Clarke probably hated Lexa, too; But Lexa had no choice, she needed to put her people first and keep them safe. But now all she wanted was to keep Clarke safe.

Even if that meant Clarke would still hate her in the process.

Ahh! I have three plots going on at once! Don't worry, they'll come together ;) I promise actual Clexa soon

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