Hello everone I know it's been a long wait for my stories but believe me none of the m have lost my mind..im just so busy with my sports and now i have drivers training..thats been for the last 2 weeks one to go and then i can write some more. I DONT GET HOME UNTIL 10:00 EVERY NIGHT SO YEAH and then somethimes i have to do homework so yeah anyways..i will get all of them posted really soon!

please read and review this chapter its ok i guess but it could be better! hope you like it! Thanks to all of you who read and review! Lots of Naley drama! plus to those of you who are upset because I had Lucas die don't worry! Lucas is my #1 character and I LOVE HIM so expect him to return one way or another!

Nathan walked through the crowded doors of Tree Hill High for the 1st time since the accident. He just couldn't push away the feeling guilt knowing that he was able to go on with his own life without his brother. Things just didn't feel the same.

With each step down the hall he heard whispers and chuckles from his classmates. These were people who before he would have cared what they thought of him but now it didn't even bother his lifeless shell of a body. He passed everyone up and almost made it to his locker until a goddess of all woman crossed his path, Haley. Given to others she was but mere average but to him she was nothing less than perfect. She just had an act for breaking his heart. Now he was face to face with his solemate, the controller of what was left of the lifeless thing beating inside his chest.

"Hey Nate," Haley said in almost a whisper.

"Hales," he retorted.

"How are you doing?" she worried. "I haven't seen you since the funeral."

"I've been busy," lied Nathan as he forged on toward his locker. Haley followed him close behind though.

"That's nice, you should keep busy given the circumstances," insured Haley.

"Given what circumstances?" screamed Nathan letting his bottled up emotion take control. "The fact that I had to watch my brother die for me or the fact that you cant seem to keep to one guy?"

"Nathan that's not fair, I already told you Chris kissed me," defended Haley.

Little did anyone know that Nathan and Lucas were both heartbroken that night when Chris had stole their woman.

"I don't need excuses." he insured. "I need a wife who is there for me."

"Nathan I'm sorry, but I can't control what Chris does," apologized Haley.

"Yeah but you can control what you do," Nathan said turning and opening the combination on his locker.

"That day was a disaster for everyone," cried Haley. "I lost my best friend that day, please don't make that the day I lost you too."

Nathan turned and searched her eyes, yet anger raged in his own as he thought back to the morning he saw her kiss the devil. The morning that later that day lead to the demise of his older brother.

Flashback

Nathan planned a big breakfast to surprise Haley, it was Christmas eve and considering their financial status he had to make the best of what he had. He couldn't buy her much but he did intend on making this day special to her in any way he could muster up. They had just begun being a couple again since she had returned from tour and he was loving it.

Nathan placed the homemade waffles and pancakes on the table next to the already cooked bacon, eggs, and sausage . He searched his watch as he sat down and waited. It was 8:30am, a half an hour later then the time Haley said she'd be home.

Nate walked up to the window as he heard sounds of laughing from outside. His assumptions were right as he saw Haley walking up the driveway next to Chris.

"Yay, my cd is being published," Haley said joyously.

Nathan couldn't hear their entire conversation from inside the house but he caught what he could by reading their lips through the window.

"You would have even more if you stayed on tour," snapped Chris.

"Well I got Nathan back so that's all that really matters," argued Haley.

"He's holding you back Haley," argued Chris.

"I love Nathan so I don't care," spoke Haley firmly.

Nathan watched the scene fold out in front of the window. He was tempted to go outside but he wasn't completely sure if they were arguing or just talking.

"Haley you can do so much better than him," urged Chris. He grinned to himself spotting Nathan at the window watching them.

"If you insult my husband one more time I'm going to kick you so hard that you wont ever be able to reproduce any little Chris's some day," demanded Haley.

Without letting Haley get in one more word Chris lifted her tightly in his arms and smashed his lips against hers. She tried struggling and breaking free but her held her too tight. Nathan bust a few blood vessels as he watched the scene play out in front of him. Chris secretly knowing what he was doing.

Nathan jolted his head around and whipped the plate of waffles off the table. the glass plate shattered on the floor sending the homemade waffles in every direction. A small tear slid down his cheek as he realized thing would never be the same for him and Haley no matter how hard they tried.

Outside the window Haley slapped Chris across the face and went running inside. Chris stood there rubbing his cheek and feeling like he did something wort wild for the day!

Haley slowly opened the front door and entered the kitchen hoping Nathan didn't see anything."Nathan I'm home," she yelled.

Nathan stood there fuming in the kitchen.

Haley walked into the kitchen and by the look on his face she knew he saw Chris kiss her. "Nathan it's not what you think."

"What did it mean then?" asked Nathan trying not to jump to conclusions and trust her.

"Nothing, I promise he pushed me into it," told Haley. She looked at the bundles of food spread across the table. "Is this for me?" asked Haley.

"It was," answered Nathan still really angry.

Haley walked up to Nathan calmly and wrapped her arms around his waist trying to ensure him she still wanted him. "Nathan don't you believe me?"

"Fine, his ass is mine though," promised Nathan."Sit down, the food is getting cold, if it's too cold I could warm it for you."

"I'm sorry Nathan Chris kinda took me out for a celebration breakfast this morning," Haley said feeling horrible for having had him go through all this trouble. "I'm stuffed."

Nathan wanted to storm out the apartment but he cared too much about her. "It's fine I guess."

"Oh I'm sorry baby," promised Haley. "I'll make it up to you."

"Really?" he asked sexier. "Why don't we start now then?" He picked her up in his arms and swung her on his back. "You in?" He didn't want to start a fight over something as stupid as Chris on Christmas eve.

Haley felt a huge swarm of guilt wash over her. "I can't right now Nate."

Nathan's smile turned into a saddened expression. He lowered her off his back and faced her. "Why?"

Haley hesitated knowing what she had to say wasn't going to make him happy.

"Why?" he asked again hoping she would actually stay with him on Christmas eve.

"Well I have to meet Chris in a half and hour to work on this bonus track we adding to the album," Answered Haley sadly. She felt really horrible at that moment after all he went through. She didn't want to leave him but they only had a week to get the song into the album .

"YOU'RE GOING BACK TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM?" screamed Nathan letting his anger out finally.

"We can do anything you want later," promised Haley. "I just have to get this song in."

"I just wanted to spend Christmas eve with my wife but apparently that's asking for too much so whatever," screamed Nathan. "Have a good time with Chris." Nathan stormed out the front door.

End of flashback

"You sent me away that day," screamed Nathan. The crowded hallway slowly got quiet.

"I'm sorry," apologized Haley. "I didn't wake up trying to hurt you that day."

"I'm sorry isn't going to bring him back," yelled Nathan. "If you didn't go off with Chris that morning I wouldn't have stormed off. Lucas died!"

"I know he died," Haley broke out into tears. "It's killing me just as much as you Nathan. I grew up with him since I was a kid so don't act like he didn't mean anything to me,"

"Lucas died saving me, he died saving me from all the hurt you caused me over the last year," screamed Nathan.

By now the entire hallway was listening in on their conversation. Brooke was standing near her locker listening to the fight break out and Peyton was near the drinking fountain listening too.

"He's not coming back Nathan, as much as we want him to he's not," she cried. "Lucas isn't coming back."

Brooke took off the lock on her locker and slowly opened the door to be reminded of Lucas. Pictures of him and her together filled her locker, a memory of what they had. She slammed the locker tight and took deep breaths. She forgot about that. She found herself crying again, something she had promised herself to try and stop. Lately that just seemed impossible though. She ran off to the bathroom with tears streaming down her cheeks.

Peyton watched as her former best friend ran off into the bathroom. She couldn't help but feel bad for her. She wanted to comfort Brooke but that would mean getting close to her and maybe the loss of another person she loved down the line. She decided to just listen to the fight breaking out between Nathan and Haley in the hallway.

"It's you're fault he's gone," blamed Nathan.

"You don't mean that," cried Haley.

"Yes I do, he's dead because of you." Nathan continued blaming. "I will never forgive you for that."

Haley couldn't believe he was blaming her for Lucas being dead. She ran off down the hallway too and stormed into the bathroom heartbroken.

Peyton exchanged glances with Nathan as he walked off towards the exit at school. He barged through the entrance doors in which he came through no less than a half hour ago. The day definitely didn't start off good. Peyton grabbed her bag too and stormed out the school following Nathan, she didn't feel like living through another gossip filled day at Tree Hill high!

Haley jammed herself in the bathroom stall and cried like a little girl. Brooke was right in the stall beside her doing the same.

"Tutor girl is that you?" cried Brooke.

"Brooke," Haley said in between tears. "What are you doing in here?"

"For the same reason you are," Brooke whispered in between her own muffled cries.

"The Scott brothers?" asked Haley.

"One of them," cried Brooke.

Things stayed silent for a few. Other than a few girls in and out of the bathroom no sounds really came from Brooke and Haley. They both knew eachother were crying in the opposite stall though. After letting out their cries for about an hour or so Brooke stood up on the toilet and looked into Haley's stall.

"Can I help you Brooke?" laughed Haley a little. She looked up at Brooke for the toilet she was sitting on.

"You still mad at me?" asked Brooke.

"About what?" Haley asked confused.

"Because I said I had to go to cheer practice and I couldn't make it to Luke's grave with you and Karen." answered Brooke.

"No, I just was a little upset because I thought Lucas meant more than cheer practice," stated Haley.

Brooke jumped off the toilet and unlocked her bathroom stall. She walked to Haley's door."Open up."

Haley unlatched her own door and let Brooke in. Brooke sat on the dirty floor and puled Haley down too.

"Did you have to pull me down so hard?" joked Haley.

"Lucas does mean more to me," Brooke said avoiding her last comment.

"Why wont you come to his grave with me then?" asked Haley confused.

"I can't bring myself to his grave when I cant even bear to hear the sound of his name," Brooke said starting to cry again. She ran her fingers across the tiles on the floor."I opened my locker and all the decorations he put in there when we were non-exclusive were in there. Brooke was panting now that she had starting crying again. I broke down when I saw that Hales. I can't stop crying because I miss him so much. I miss my Broody so much that I don't know how to keep going. She broke down with those words. Tears streamed down her cheeks again and she cried into Haley. I just miss him Haley, I want him back."

"Shhh," Haley tried comforting Brooke but it didn't help much because she found herself crying too. "I wasn't him back too."

"He hated me so much that night Haley, we had that big fight, he died thinking I wasn't there for him," Brooke cried even harder. "I never got the chance to make up with him, he hated me!"

"Lucas didn't hate you Brooke," cried Haley. "Lucas loved you with all his heart."

"Just like Nathan loves you," added Brooke trying to make Haley feel better too,

"No Nathan thinks this is all my fault and I'm the cause for Lucas dieing," cried Haley. "He never want's to talk to me again either."

"He'll come around he's just upset right now," assured Brooke.

"I think I really lost him this time Brooke, you should have seen the look Nathan gave me," continued Haley. He looked at me with disgust in his eyes."

"Why do guys always leave?" cried Brooke.

"Because we push the m away," cried Haley.

"Well I didn't mean to push Lucas away," said Brooke.

"Me either," agreed Haley. "The worst part is is that the same time last year when I'd be crying on the bathroom floor he's be the one next to me making me feel better."

"I want him back," ordered Brooke.

"Me too," said Haley.

Can Nathan move on or will his bottled up guilt drive the ones he loves away and himself off the deep end? Will Peyton open herself up to anyone? Does Karen find comfort with something? or shall I say someone? Can the dead really come back?