A/N: This chapter starts at the premiere of Season 11.

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Love Is Your Color

Chapter 6: Regrets

Roxie finished her make-up in the bathroom mirror. It has been a difficult few days since everything that happened. On top of Nick having been shot then Ray had been stabbed by Nate Haskell. Nick hadn't been back to work and neither had Roxie who spent her time making him comfortable. She was exhausted though. She'd spent most of the last two nights awake as Nick was having some pretty intense nightmares. Roxie walked into the bedroom yawning in the same black lace dress she'd worn on her first date with Nick. It was her only nice black dress. Her hair was pulled into a bun where most of the green hair was tucked away and not showing. She found him sitting on the bed in his pants and shirt, his tie and jacket lie on the bed next to him. He looked very somber. Roxie could understand, they were getting ready to head to the funeral of Officer Clark. Roxie walked to the bed and sat next to him.

"Feeling okay?" she asked placing a hand on his leg. He placed his hand on top her hers and just rubbed her hand in silence. They both sat there in silence.

"I feel like it is my fault." Nick said finally speaking. Roxie turned to him, but didn't say anything. For the last couple days Nick had been beating himself up over Officer Clark's death. He replayed it over and over in his mind. He should have never sent him back. Things could have been different. An innocent man shouldn't have had to die. "I should have never…" he couldn't finish his sentence. He was now choking back tears.

"Shh…no…it's not your fault." Roxie said as she wrapped her arms around him. She knew that there was nothing he could have changed. "There is no use in having regrets now."

"I know…" Nick said. "I just feel terrible."

"I understand." She whispered. He turned his head to face her. She placed a small gentle kiss on his lips. He gave her a weak smile. He knew that he couldn't get through any of this without Roxie. She seemed to never have left his side in the past couple days.

"We better get ready to go then." Nick said looking at the time.

"Let me fix your tie. It can't be easy for you since you can't use your arm much." Roxie said as she grabbed his tie from the bed. They both stood and Roxie put his tie around his neck and started the complicated process of tying a man's tie. When she finished she made sure the knot was tight. Nick used his good arm and pulled her close to him.

"You know I wouldn't be able to get through this without you." He said looking into Roxie's eyes.

"You could have. You're strong. I don't mind being here for you. It's all because I love you." Roxie said giving him a smile.

"I love you too more than you know." Nick said before pressing his lips to hers. Roxie felt her stomach do flips. He made her feel so special. She'd never had anyone take the time to make her feel that way.

"Let's get your jacket on." Roxie said as she picked up his jacket from the bed. She put it on is good arm first before turning to the bad arm and helping his arm inside. He groaned as she moved his arm. "Almost on." Roxie said reassuring him. She then helped him into his sling.

"I guess I'm ready." Nick said with a sigh. Roxie took him by his good hand and gave him a smile.

When they arrived at the cemetery Roxie found both of them a seat in the last row. It was very quiet and very somber. Roxie sat patiently. She saw a few people she knew from growing up and gave them small waves. Everyone was taking their seats and she looked around for Nick. She then saw him talking to Brass. She could tell from the look on Nick's face that it wasn't good. He then started walking towards his car. She wanted to go after him, but suddenly the service started. She sat in her seat, but her eyes stayed on Nick. She saw him get in his truck. She bit her lip nervously just wondering what was going on. Roxie sat patiently and looked towards the podium.

The service was beautiful and Roxie could only imagine that this was similar to how her mother's service would be when the time came. Abruptly there was an explosion and pieces were flying everywhere. Everyone was running. Roxie had tripped and was on the ground. She felt pain shooting through her leg. She looked down to see what looked like a nail in her leg. Before she could react there was another explosion. Her heart was beating quickly. When she looked up she saw Nick running in the direction of the crowd. He suddenly pulled his gun and shot the ground.

"There's another bomb!" she heard him yell before suddenly there was another much larger explosion.

The ringing was loud and made her head pound. Roxie moaned out loud feeling the pain in her leg. Her eyes opened. The smell in the air was that of burning. Roxie looked at the scene around her. There were plenty of wounded on the ground. She then spotted Nick. She went to move her leg, but hit hurt too bad. She saw Nick get to his feet. She realized that he has seen her and he comes to her.

"Rainbow." He said as he reached her. Roxie could see that his wounds on his chest and shoulder were bleeding.

"My leg." Roxie said trying to not pay attention to the pain that was shooting through her leg. Though she could tell he couldn't quite hear her. He was much closer to the blast than she was. She felt Nick touch her leg. His eyes widened when he saw the nail in her leg.

"It's going to be ok!" he yelled. Roxie just nodded trying to not pay attention to the pain.

Sitting in a hospital bed Roxie ate the lunch the hospital provided. They were able to remove the screw from her leg. She had to get a tetanus shot and was on a drip of antibiotics just to make sure. Nick had stayed with her until the paramedics took her away. She begged for him to get checked out, but he wouldn't until he knew she was taken to the hospital. There was a knock at the door. Roxie looked to see Catherine walk in the room.

"How are you feeling?" Catherine asked.

"Alright. I'd be better without this terrible food." Roxie said with a laugh looking down at the disgusting lunch the hospital had provided.

"Yeah hospital food isn't the best." Catherine said.

"How's Nick?" Roxie then asked. She was concerned about him.

"Well despite how many times I begged for him to go to the hospital he continues to work." Catherine said. Roxie just shook her head.

"I'm worried about him." Roxie then said. "These last couple days. He has been on edge and having nightmares. I hate seeing him like that. Maybe… I don't know… maybe you can talk to him. You're like a sister to him. Maybe he will listen to you and will see somebody."

"I'll try, but you've obviously got to know him. He is…" Catherine started.

"Hard-headed." Roxie said.

"Beyond." Catherine said. "But I'll try for you."

"I love him too much to watch him suffer." Roxie said truthfully.

"You really do love him?" questioned Catherine.

"More than anyone could know. I don't know. Something just clicked one day with him. I couldn't help, but falling in love with him." Roxie said smiling. She could only think about how happy he made her.

"I'm happy for the two of you." Catherine said.

"Thanks." Roxie said.

"Well I need to get back to the lab, but I will make sure you get a ride home. Nick's truck is toast." Catherine said. Roxie nodded. Catherine simply waved and left.

Roxie was so happy to be home. She limped into her bedroom and found a pair of pajamas. Getting dressed she found herself on her couch looking at her cell phone. She only wished that Nick would finally call her. She just wanted to know how he was. She knew he was working, but she wanted to know if he was really ok and wanted to know what happened at the funeral, why had he just left. There was then a knock on her door. She lifted herself form the couch and limped to her door. Opening the door she saw Nick there. She instantly smiled at him so happy to see his face.

"Hey Country Boy!" she said happily as he walked into her place.

"How's my Rainbow?" he asked.

"I could be better. Looks like we both have stitches now." Roxie said as she lifted her pajama pants leg and showed off the spot where the nail had been sticking from her leg. "The doctor told me to try and not put too much weight on it for the next week or so."

"Well here let's get you sitting." Nick said as he took her by the arm to help her to the couch. They both sat on the couch in silence. Roxie was just so happy to have him near. She placed her head in his lap and looked up at him. "Today was…rough." Nick then said.

"Tell me." Roxie said looking him in his eyes. She wanted him to be able to talk to her. Nick was so grateful that he had her. He knew he had the team at the lab he could always talk to, but things were different with Roxie. She had this special something about her spirit that made him want to open up to her. She could sit and listen all day and he loved that she didn't even mind listening to him.

"Well Clark's family didn't want me there. I know they blame me for what happened." He started thinking about that morning and how it felt to be turned away from wanting to pay his respects.

"That's why you left." Roxie said.

"Yeah then I was getting ready to leave when I noticed cockroaches around the van of the floral shop. I heard this strange clicking coming from the van and looked to see it filled with explosives. As soon as I realized it there were already bombs going off and I just did what I could to keep anyone else from getting hurt too bad." He explained.

"Yeah I saw you shoot your gun." Roxie said.

"Well then you know what happened after that. We eventually found this group of crazies and turns out one of them along with his brother seemed to be trying to hurt police purposely…We caught the guy… well more… shot the guy…I umm…it was…difficult." Roxie could tell he was having a difficult time. She sat up and looked at him. She could see the tears forming in his eyes. She didn't know what to say. She wanted to take all his pain away. "Well that's done I suppose." Nick then said dismissing everything.

"Babe…" Roxie started. She knew that it was more than that. She knew he was in pain and having a difficult time. She held his hand. He was shaking. "It's ok. You're ok. Everyone is ok. You do your best. You do your job. It is all any of us can do." Nick looked at her. He simply didn't know how she always knew what to say. She was seriously an angel sent to him. Sent to be his strength when he needed it the most. He took a few deep breaths.

"I made an appointment… to talk to the department shrink." Nick said.

"That's great sweetie." Roxie said as she placed a hand on his cheek.

"I have to go two times. It's required so I figured I might as well get it done with." Nick then said shrugging. Roxie hated that he just dismissed things the way he did, but he was so similar to her. She did the same thing frequently and lately had been doing it a lot when it came to her mom.

"Well I'm glad you're going to get it done with. You'll feel better." Roxie said happily. She then moved towards him and placed a kiss on his lips. She felt him pull her closer and strengthen the kiss. Roxie was just happy that it was over. Things were going to get better and they had each other. She loved him too much.

A/N: Sorry it's a shorter chapter, but the last one was pretty long so it kind of makes up for it… right?