Update! Yay!
Meilin felt lonely. In fact, she was lonely. There were no jokes in Greenhaven. No Rollan. How could she have done that? How could she have, let's just say, 'scared' Rollan? Rollan couldn't be scared, right? She suspected that ever since she met him. It was impossible to scare Rollan in any situation. He was way too stubborn.
Every night, Meilin could feel her heart shatter into a million pieces. She could feel it fall down. She could feel herself being not hers. It was like the bile took control over her again. But yesterday was even worse. She could feel, that, somehow, Rollan got taken away. He was physically there, but still, it was like he didn't even know Meilin anymore.
So, she just stood there, like some idiotic person trying to move things with their eyes. But she was mentally sick, maybe even dying.
Normally, she would have just ignored it. Normally, but that's not how all things went. Jhi was in her dream. Jhi was, in fact, always in her dreams, lately. Jhi was telling her that Rollan would do something terrible, a fatal error, which would cause him to see the world at a different angle. A bad angle. It would be like he was blind whenever he saw.
Yesterday, her heart shattered like glass. Rollan turning away. Jhi telling that she had done wrong. And worst of all, regret. Meilin doesn't regret. It was a well-known fact. Meilin doesn't do regret. She thinks of regret as a waste of time. But when people regret her, it was almost like her life was in danger.
Yet, regret was exactly what happened.
She never wanted to say it, but, she was regretting.
'Hope you're happy, now, Rollan.'
That was something she had dreamed of. She was the one that said that. The voices encouraged her, but Jhi was saying something else.
'No, no, no!'
That was exactly what Jhi said.
No was a word of regret.
But she was regretting.
And there was no regretting that.
Got it. It was really short. Past my bedtime. That was an excuse. Sorry…
~Alicio