AN: Warning M rating. Avoid Elena's POV if you are of a delicate disposition.

"Christian, Ana has a point but then so do you."

"You are not helping."

"You can't let one mistake, admittedly a rather bad one dictate the rest of your relationship. Yes, let it be a warning or a cautionary tale. But you also have to remember that she was willing to lose her virginity to you. From what you told me before you, she hadn't paid attention to anybody. Meaning there was something about you, she liked in the first place. Christian no one is asking you to forget what happened. Just don't let it rule your life. You of all people know what happens when we let negative incidents rule our lives."

Flynn quietly waits for me to start talking I asked for a two-hour session, yet I don't know where to start. When Taylor told me Sawyer had taken Ana back to her apartment, myself loathing reared its ugly head.

"I know it's too soon to ask Ana to move in, the couple of weeks we spent together had me hoping it would happen without me having to ask. But this evening she went back to her place and I find myself feeling very angry."

"What exactly are you angry at?"

"Me." He waits for me to elaborate.

"Ana is it for me, I've known that for some time now. As stupid as I was about wanting her to be a Sub. I soon came to realize that I needed her in my life. I need her in my life. I don't have nightmares when she spends the night with me, my whole outlook on life is much brighter with her around." Flynn's tries to maintain an impassive expression, but the slight raise of his eyebrows gives him away.

"Christian her staying in her apartment doesn't change the fact that she's in your life."

"If I hadn't screwed things up in the beginning we'd be living together, probably more."

"More?"

"Engaged." Impassive has left the building.

"You want to get married."

"Since Ana, yes."

"Christian this can't just be about Ana going back to her apartment."

"My brother came to see me just before I left the office." I pause. "He's going to ask Kate to marry him."

"How does that make you feel." Just once I would like to get through a session without that goddamn question.

"Angry."

"We've already established that, what else?"

"Jealous, he met Kate around the same time I met Ana."

"Christian are you sure this isn't just about your brother's plan to get engaged. What I mean is…"

"I know what you mean. My thoughts about where Ana and I will be in our relationship didn't come up because of Elliot's plans, it's been there for some time."

"Christian 'what ifs' isn't healthy, you and Ana are together now, if you want to get married to Ana it will happen. Christian don't push this. These things take time."

"Well, patience isn't my stro…."

"It's going to have to be, couples spend weeks with each other, it doesn't necessarily mean you live together. Clearly it's what you want so you are going to have to ask but after a reasonable time together."

"Why not, there isn't any valid reason why we shouldn't be living together."

"Have you taken her on a date."

"No."

"That's one of the things being a boyfriend entails."

"I've never had a girlfriend. I wouldn't know what being a boyfriend entails."

"Don't you think you should have some idea of what is expected of you before you jump into cohabitation. The same goes for Ana, you are her first boyfriend I gather from what you've told me, I think she might want some time to figure a few things out as well."

"Kate will soon be permanently living with Elliot I don't like the idea of Ana alone in that apartment."

"That is not a reason to ask her to move in with you. Not very romantic." Another thing I know nothing about. Fuck.

"Just out of curiosity why haven't you asked her already if that's how you feel. I'm guessing Kate has been living with Elliot for some time." I nod.

"She will say no. I know the rejection is something I won't handle well. It doesn't matter what I tell myself, in the end it will amount to nothing if I end up doing or saying something stupid because she said no."

"So when you said you know it's too soon to ask. What you meant was."

"Ana will say it's too soon."

"Christian I moved across the ocean to be with the woman I loved. But I had some idea of how relationships worked. My advice to you not just as your psychiatrist but as a friend is to wait."

Jealousy isn't new, growing up I always felt that way when it came to my parents' relationship with my siblings. As hard as I tried nothing changed. The constant fighting at school continued, the drinking continued.

Every time my parents argued it was about me, the fear I felt about destroying their relationship was a major factor in me trying to improve my behavior.

So when Elena came along I jumped at the chance. I improved, my parents stopped arguing. Looking back nothing improved, I just became distant. She didn't help me, she simply isolated me from everybody that loved me.

Ana has brought me close to my family. Her not talking to me made me realize how my family have felt all these years when they kept trying and I kept pushing them away.

For years Flynn kept telling me what she did was wrong. I did not see I was being used. I need some air, I need to clear my head. I spent years defending the actions of a pedophile.

I've had a key for this place, but she was always at the door before you got to it. It appears tonight is no different. "Christian."

"Hey, mom."

"Is everything okay?"

"Yeah."

"You don't look it, come in."

We walk to the kitchen and she makes me a cup of coffee. "Christian what's wrong?" The last thing I want is for her to start feeling any form of guilt. But I need to talk to someone….I need a sounding board.

"How did I not see that she was just using me. I mean I'm a clever guy or I like to think I am."

"Christian I did not see it either….this family was just a means to get what she wanted. What she did to you…"

"That's what pedophiles do, son it's called grooming she had you brainwashed to the point where it didn't matter what anybody said to you, you weren't going to hear it." My dad says. "Same reason she isolated you from us. We should have forced the issue, but you'd stopped drinking and fighting, you were making good grades. Giving you a little space just didn't seem like such a bad thing."

"Oh dad, mom you are not to blame, don't…"

"Son it doesn't matter what you say we will blame ourselves. It is something you will understand when you have kids of your own. We love you and when you love someone protecting them…" He gets a little choked up.

"I'm so sorry for all the fights, drinking, keeping you at arm's length. I love you, I love you all so much. Thank you for not giving up on me."

"Oh Christian giving up on you was never an option."

I sit in my parents driveway I can't help but think of all the things I missed out on. The ups and downs of dating. The awkward first kiss. The taking shitty advice about how long you wait before calling a girl again. Prom that was another thing I didn't go all because of that bitch.

It over, it's done I need to concentrate on my relationship with Ana. I drive back to Escala and take my weary butt upstairs, at least I can now call it a home.

I feel her presence the moment I step off the elevator, I walk into the kitchen and there she is cutting a huge slice of chocolate cake.

"Want one?"

"Yes please," I say trying not to let the ball of emotion in my throat choke me up.

"Now would you like me to film you eating that huge piece and sent it to Elliot." The smile on my face says it all. Ana takes out her phone and films me enjoying my cake with the message payback is a bitch.

"Are you okay?"

"You are here, that's all I need."

"Your mom called, told me you could do with some company and cheering up."

"Thank you."

"You know something Mr. Grey I've heard action speaks louder than words."

I carry her to my bedroom and drop her on the bed, she was laughing and squealing the whole time. She looked at me and smiled. "What are you going to do me?"

"Why Miss Steele I'm going to ravish you," I say kissing her.

I slowly pulled her shirt off, took off her bra revealing her beautiful breast, her nipples were already hard I gently sucked on them causing her to moan a little.

She laid back as I pulled down her jeans and panties. "Always so ready."

I quickly got rid of my own clothes, I could see Ana's eyes taking me in, she unconsciously licked her lips.

I crawled on top of her and slowly kissed her, working my way down her neck dipping my tongue in the hollow of her neck. I sucked and massaged her breast. I could feel her squirming under me.

I kissed her across her pelvic bone avoiding the one place she wanted me the most. I kissed her inner thigh and I feel her shudder. I can't hold back anymore, I breathe her in. I notice just how wet she is, I run the flat of my tongue against the bottom of her slit and slowly lick it up to her clit barely brushing against it. I suck on her swollen clit causing her to shout. "Oh my God."

I continue to suck and nibble on her clit. I switch it up and stick my tongue deep in her pussy fucking her with my tongue before using my finger. I feel her body tense up and I know she's close, I suck hard on her clit while stimulating her g spot, I keep at it hard. She explodes off the bed.

"Christian… fuck, fuck, fuck…don't stop.. Please don't stop." She says breathlessly.

I spread her legs and run my rock hard dick up and down her pussy causing her to moan before guiding my dick into her, she whimpers as I slowly work myself in and out.

I rub her clit while my dick massages her g spot, she is whimpering and moaning, I pick up the pace a little and I feel her tighten around me. I stop the stimulation of her clit as I don't want her to come too soon, I want her to enjoy this.

I lean down kissing her and roll onto my back taking Ana with me. She puts her hands on my chest and starts bouncing on my dick, she's not going to last long, I grip her hips and help her into a study rhythm.

"Oh Chris…tian, oh God.. shit… Christian." She drops down hard on my dick as she orgasms, she clenches her walls so tight around my dick it forces the cum out of me, she rolls and grinds on me prolonging our orgasms.

"Three voicemails, two emails and three text messages that makes it eight misdemeanors."

"Meaning," I ask.

"Meaning I get eight…." She dragging this out. "Things I get to do with no argument from you."

"What sort of things."

"Whatever I want."

"Okay except where your safety will be compromised."

"Agreed." Why do I have the feeling I'm going to regret this.

"We should come up with a word."

"For what?"

"For you to know when not to argue something I want."

"Okay a word, I like that because after eight I know we are down." The smirk on her face tells me I'm going to regret this.

"Take the day off tomorrow."

"Why?

"I want to take you out."

"Christian I can't just take the day off."

"Why not?"

"Because I have a boss and he's not going to be happy with if I don't turn up for work."

"I am your boss and I will be very happy for you to take the day off."

"Christian.."

"Ana please." I give her the most innocent puppy dog eye look I can muster.

"Ooh okay, I'm off tomorrow."

"Excellent, now let's get some sleep."

"I don't want to sleep. I want to watch a movie and we still need to come up with a word."

We go through my hard drive and I'm pleasantly surprised when she choices a classic On the Waterfront with Marlon Brando. I find out it's one of Ray's favorite films, that and The Ghost and Mrs. Muir.

After watching the movie Ana and I are making out in the media room, I love the fact that she can't get enough of me.

"What are we doing tomorrow?"

"It's a surprise."

"Can you give me a hint."

"I will give you a hint if you take my misdemeanors down to seven."

"We are not negotiating your misdemeanors."

"Then you are just going to have to wait till tomorrow." She's about to say something when her phone rings.

"Hannah, is everything alright."

"Today."

"New York." Listening to a one-sided phone call is frustrating.

"Email him and tell him to meet me on Wednesday first thing in the morning and make sure here's a copy of his contract on my desk.

"Yeah I had the same feeling."

"Thanks, Hannah." She hangs up. "Son of a bitch."

"Who is a son of Elena?" That gets her smiling.

"Martin Gordon had a meeting with a publishing house in New York."

"The fucker."

"Yeah, it just so happens that the editor was a boyfriend of Hannah's sister and after the meeting called her."

"I bet you anything this is because he's realized you won't ever go out with him." Ana looks at me wide-eyed.

"That's what Hannah said, apparently he told the editor he let his dick make the decision. The ass wipe has forgotten I found his manuscript in the rejected pile and even after a year he still hadn't managed to find any house to buy his book. I was the only decision he had to make and his book is what it is because of me. Asshole." Wow, angry Ana is a very sexy Ana. "On Wednesday I'm going to remind him of the stipulations in his contract, he wants to leave he can but without the book. We've already paid for the book, he wanted the money so he sold the rights to the book."

"Come on baby, let's get to bed we have a long day tomorrow."

"Just a little hint."

"Nope."

ELENA

It's being just over a week, I'm not sure how much more of this I can take. And as he said we are just getting started. I can't sit everything hurts, lying down is extremely uncomfortable. I cried, no crying doesn't cover it, I wept and begged and pleaded for mercy, it all fallen on deaf ears, there was no pretense in not hearing me, he couldn't hear me. The music in the dungeon is so loud, I'm surprised my eardrums haven't already busted. I hate that room with its black walls and I hate him.

After leaving GP, he dropped me off at the apartment, locked the door behind him and left. I breathed a sigh of relief. I foolishly taught I'd at least get the day to myself. The apartment was beautiful, but the first thing you notice is that it's fully monitored. But it was beautiful. My appreciation of the apartment was cut short, as he came back in, without a word he dragged me by those goddamn chains to his dungeon, this was truly a dungeon reminded me of my own.

It was beautifully crafted, the bed, as expected, came with its usual restraints, the cross appeared to be solid oak, the little-crafted designs weren't embellishment they were designed to make you extremely uncomfortable, anyone strapped to that cross will find the wooden spikes digging into them, they weren't sharp but it would get the job done if you were strapped to it long enough.

There was a large variety of canes, paddles, riding crops, belts, and whips. He had an entire wall covered in whips. He had the usual spreader bars and an assortment of restraints, the mental cuffs were just that mental with no protection for the skin, these were designed to cut into the skin.

But there was one thing missing, a chest of drawers, meaning there were no vibrators, plugs, in fact, there wasn't any kind of sex toy to be seen anyway.

For the first time since entering into this apartment I shuddered there was no pleasure to be found in this room.

He dragged me to the table, both legs and arms were restrained to the table, he pulled the zipper on the back on the down and ripped the rest, my thong was harshly ripped biting into my skin.

For the first time he spoke. "Two years that's how long you denied me, all because you had Grey at your side. Even after he practically sold you to me, you still at the first chance you got tried to get his attention."

No Christian wouldn't, he didn't. I wondered why we went to GP to apologize, this was Christians doing. They made this arrangement. It hadn't occurred to me, yet it should have. Eric knew exactly what I owed. Christian did this. He was not coming for me, there was no saving me from this, this was my life for the next three years.

"As a former Domme you should know I cannot let this complete disregard for my feeling and lack of respect stand. You have to be thought a lesson. You need to be reminded who is truly your Master."

He pulled by head back and rammed his cock into my mouth, he held my head as he viciously fucked my mouth. Telling me that doing a good job was in my best interest as it was the only form of lubrication I was going to get. I tried my best, cock sucking wasn't something I liked. The last cock I sucked was the man who put me in this position.

My jaw hurt, the corners of my lips felt raw and painful, I was sure I had split them. When he had enough of my mouth, he walked to the wall and took something off the wall.

Without warning he pulled my ass cheek opened and slammed into me. He laughed when he realized I was virgin, for the first I wished I had indulged Christian when he asked for anal. As a Domme letting your Sub anally fuck you just didn't sit well with me.

He showed no mercy after discovering that anally I was a virgin if anything he took great delight in fucking my ass. The pain was excruciating as he rammed harder and harder not once giving me a chance to get comfortable. After what seemed like an eternity he came. Barely taking a breather he walked in front of me and rammed his cock back into my mouth, it was foul I gagged several times, he paid no attention.

I heard it as it sliced through the air but before I could comprehend what it was it landed on my right ass cheek and left and right all the while fucking my mouth. I could feel the burning sensation. I knew it was in my best interest to keep quiet but at this point I couldn't and I cried, the more I cried the harder the cane came down, his cock was still being rammed down my throat. Then I remembered I could safe word and all this would stop, the moment his cock was out of my mouth I screamed.

"RED, RED, RED." He laughed as he brought his face to mine.

"Remind me at what point did I ask you what your safe words were?" He hadn't. I always gave my Subs safe words even though I ignored them, they at least had the illusion of having safe words. Despite my complete disregard for safe words, I wasn't going to stand for this. I found my voice. "Untie me."

"I will the moment I'm done."

"No, you are done now untie me." He untied me. I gingerly got off the table. He walked to the door and opens it for me. I picked up what was left of my dress.

"Put that down, if you want to leave you are free to but that is mine and you leave without it."

"You can't be serious, you expect me to walk out of here naked."

Eric Purcell was a beast of a man. He put Christian's shadow Taylor to shame and he was also just as dangerous. The look on his face told me I was going to walk out of here naked.

"I don't expect anything of you except respect and you've clearly proven you can't give me that. So yeah you can leave. Oh, by the way, the Spa will now be sending the bill to you. I gave them your address as the rat infested motel I found you in."

I stood there frozen to the spot I couldn't go back to that motel, hell I couldn't afford it and walking out of here naked would get me arrested, my humiliation in Seattle would be complete, with Eric my humiliation was behind closed doors. I bowed my head and walked back to the table. He said nothing, turned on the music system, the music blared through the room, whatever it was, it was in German.

He couldn't hear me as I begged and pleaded. He had gone back to anally fucking me. I lost count of the number of times he came before he walked out of the apartment. He hadn't bothered with putting me back in restraints.

I soon knew what the pattern was fucking my mouth several times, anally fucking me several times. Caning, belting, whipping me was his clear favorite. He only fucked my pussy if he wanted a good excuse to whip me till I bled since I came without permission ever time he fucked my pussy. It was impossible not to come when your pussy was fucked that well. There was no joy in getting an orgasm, I cried every time he went for my pussy knowing only excruciating pain would follow.

Eric left for New York this morning, it's where he's primarily based. The relief I felt when he left was indescribable. That's how I find myself standing here staring out the window as I can't sit. I hear the door unlock must be the maid with my weekly shopping.

"My flight has been delayed till tonight. We can have a little fun till then." NO, NO, NO God please no. "Don't keep me waiting, you really don't want to do that." I weep as I walk to into hell.