I'm going on a road trip but I'll try to update pretty soon.

- Chapter 12 -

Ginoza

"Come stand here…" Kou says as he drags me to the center of his room before positioning himself behind me.

"If someone grabs you from behind, remember to use your elbow to hit him in the ribs like this." He explains as he guides my elbow behind towards his ribs, where it would have hit if I had actually tried to hit him.

Then he quickly moves around to stand in front of me before continuing his explanation. "And if someone lounges at you, use his momentum to give him a knee in the guts. Most of the time the best blows is not with your fists…"

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… It was just a dream, how ironic that I can't even use what Kougami have thought me over and over again. I can't even use it to save myself how pathetic…

Kougami thought me how to fight but I was always terrible at it, I don't know I guess in the back of my mind I don't want to hurt the other person. Fighting was never something that interested me to begin with, not like using violence will ever stop other violence anyway but just amplify it…

But… It always solved all of Kou's problems, no matter what obstacle he came upon he could beat it… But, he's not like most people anyway so I guess I really shouldn't compare myself with him…

I wasn't wrong before that he'd come back, that he'd do it again… Every time he leaves, every time he arrives he forces himself on me and no matter how much I fight, I just can't win and it's to a point that I'm even wondering what's the point of even trying anymore.

When he came to take me the second time, I did everything I could think of to free myself. I pushed, clawed and tried to hit him but to no avail. The last thing that crossed my mind had been to bite him and that resulted in getting slapped in the face. The impact left me a bit groggy and he took advantage of that to disrobe me and violated me over and over until he became tired and retired to his own bed until he woke up a few hours later and then he came for more.

This morning what woke me up was pain…

He's got me so drained and tired that I didn't even hear him open the cell door. What woke me was the pain of his heavy thrusting and like before he didn't care if I was in pain or not. He kept going, kept on thrusting into me. Completely ignoring my pleas for him to stop and he continued for I don't know how long it lasted but he didn't stopped until he was fully satisfied and had his fill before he got off me, got dressed and left to who knows where.

My whole body is aching, there isn't an inch where it doesn't hurt and my neck is so sore from all the times he's bitten me, by now it must look pretty damn awful. It doesn't matter where I look on my body all I see are dark bruises on my skin. Even when I was getting beaten up back in school, I never looked this bad or felt so shitty…

What would Kougami do in my position…? Easy, he'd beat the shit out of this creep with no problem, he'd do whatever it takes to kick the living hell out of anyone who'd want to fight him but it works for him. When it comes to brute strength, Kougami has always been better than me but there has to be something I can come up with to help me escape…

I don't want to be here when he gets back. I don't want to hear his disgusting moans, his panting, and his breath on my skin or feel his hands on me again but this silence and this constant anxiety is really starting to drive me crazy or maybe I already am.

How can I remain calm in this kind of situation when I know what will come eventually? I can't think properly with this exhaustion and this pain that fills my body. I'm tired and hungry; he only gives me the strict necessity so I don't die. He's doing on purpose to keep me as weak as possible.

He doesn't want me to put up a fight, even if I wanted to I don't have the strength to fight and the more I think about it maybe I really should give up…

The sound of the door opening takes me out of my thoughts and there he is as he opens the door widely before turning away and coming back a few seconds later with a few things that I really do not want near me.

I don't move from the corner I've confined myself in, my knees tightly pressed against my chest and my arms clutching around my legs for dear life as I watch him lay down what he brought with him on his bed, lining them up all neatly before taking a syringe sticking it inside a bottle to suck up a clear liquid.

He pulls the needle out of the bottle, holding the syringe with the needle facing upwards flicking the needle as a bit of liquid comes out before setting it back on the bed. Turning his attention to pick up something else with a bottle of water before making his way to the cell, opening the cell door that I see exactly what he's holding. Three pills individually wrapped within thin aluminium.

I'm starting to have trouble breathing from the ever growing anxiety as I hold on to my legs even tighter closer to my chest as my eyes follow his every movements.

I want to run but this damn chain won't let me and I can't fight him. If I try I'll just end up getting more pain inflicted upon me by him.

"Be a good boy Nobuchika and take these." He tells me as he takes out the pills from the aluminium casing, holding out his hand for me to take them.

"No…" I muttered the single word, almost barely understandable.

I don't want it, whatever it is I don't want it and from the sudden change in his expression I know I'm going to pay for not doing was I was told as he quickly grabs my jaw roughly. Forcing my mouth to open just enough to shove the pills inside my mouth and then presses the bottle of water to my lips as the water goes into my mouth and he forces me to swallow but he doesn't let go as he forces me to look up to meet his gaze.

"Nobuchika, you must behave and be a good boy for me. Don't you agree?" He says in a calm tone and yet there's malice in it and all I can do is to try and swallow the lump in my throat before he presses his lips onto mine.

He releases his hold of my jaw and then turns his attention onto my arms, forcing them away from my legs and I can't hold back the tears knowing too well what is coming up.

"No, that's not behaving accordingly." He tells me as he pulls me away from the wall, forcing me onto my knees before wiping away the tears from my cheeks.

"You will behave." He adds before shifting his hands from my face to my shoulders and then to my chest as he starts unbuttoning the robe and I can't help it as the tears keep coming down and I hear his breathing change in slight frustration to my lack of obedience, knowing full well that I'll pay for it later.

He moves back his hands to my shoulders once he's done unbuttoning my robe, guiding the fabric down my arms; wasting little time discarding the robe aside before returning his hands back to my bare shoulders as he starts sucking on my neck while his hands shift to my chest and then all the way down to my stomach and my reflex was to cover my part with my hand.

"No…" He says as he pulls my hands away before taking my member into his hand and starts stroking slowly and without thinking I reach for his hand, to get him to let go when I hear him chuckle at my gesture as he stops and pushes me down onto the mattress, his breath onto my neck as he whispered into my ear. "Aren't we a naughty boy and naughty boys must be punished"

Panic is slowly starting to consume my mind as I hear him undoing his belt and I just want to scream but I can't find my voice when I feel that sharp pain again, that sensation as if my whole body is being ripped in two as he starts moaning and panting into my ear with each thrust.

His hard thrusts sends waves of pain throughout my body and each one just continues to be stronger and stronger and yet my body feels strange as I feel it becoming hotter and I can't help but cry out much to his enjoyment when he decides to slow down his pace for a few seconds and then picks back his speed up until I feel him come inside me.

He then forces me to turn my head in his direction to kiss me again as he pulls out but not before placing a kiss on my nape and I drop onto the mattress.

I hear him fumble with his pants, pulling them back up and adjusting his belt before walking away like everything he had just done was perfectly normal, that he hadn't done anything wrong.

He takes the syringe in his fingers, quickly inspects it as if to make sure it was right before coming back to me and I quickly turn to my side trying to back away rather pathetically from him.

"Now be a good boy and give me your hand." He demands with that same wicked smile on his face but all I can do is look at him and then at the syringe much to his annoyance as he adds. "You don't want to be punished again do you Nobuchika?"

I swallow the heavy lump in my throat as I hesitantly lifted my right hand which he takes, pulling me closer to him. Carefully feeling for a vein before sticking the needle into my arm, slowly injecting the unknown substance into my body and once the syringe in empty he takes it out of my arm, presses his lips against mine and walks away back to his side of the room.

It doesn't take long for my senses to start becoming a bit hazy, whatever he gave me is starting to take its effect bit by bit and yet even though I should be afraid and worried about what he just injected into me I just no longer care. Whatever he has in store for me, I won't be enjoying it but he will and all I can do is beg and pray for death.

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