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So here's the warnings/notes for this chapter:
*Gabriel comes in so YAAY!
*There is, in fact, Sabriel
*This is mostly just a chapter to build up later chapters, so sorry if it's a tad uninteresting.
*Also, Cas has this weird thing for being held and cuddling. I plan on explaining it later, but for now just enjoy cute, snuggly Cas.
So with that, I hope you enjoy and RxR!
Chapter 5. I keep needing you
"Thought about you all night and day, I've been wanting to kiss the hell out of those lips, Cas."
Castiel couldn't get Dean Winchester out of his mind. All through his classes, he kept replaying last nights make-out session. The way Dean's fingers felt as he ran them gently across his body, or the way his lips warmed his skin just by the slightest contact.
Castiel shivered as he remembered Dean's warm, strong body pinning him down as he attacked his neck.
...He definitely needed to stop. He sighed and checked the time on his phone. His brother would be arriving any minute now. He was more than happy to be seeing his brother again, but he knew him to be a troublemaker. Castiel didn't know what sort of shenanigans he'd gotten himself into for their parents to make him want to leave home.
That was when Castiel noticed what he was doing. He had curled up into a ball on the far end of the couch, his arms wrapped tightly around a pillow. He frowned and tossed the pillow aside. He was a grown man, even he knew it didn't look right when one was cuddling up with a pillow.
He knew why though. He wanted Dean more and more, but they had promised to take things slow. Castiel would honestly be happy with Dean just sleeping with him in his bed for one night. Maybe that would satisfy his need to be held by Dean...
He was brought out of his thoughts when there was a knock on the door. Castiel unfurled himself from his position on the couch and answered it.
"CASSIEEEEE!" Gabriel bellowed, throwing his arms around Castiel.
"Hello, Gabe..." He mumbled against the taller mans shoulder.
They separated, and Gabriel looked around the room, stepping inside. "It was smart of you to go to college. I should've went too, but I don't even know what to be. Dad says I should get into law, but fuck that." He rambled, setting his bags down beside the couch and plopping down. "You're lucky to be away from them, Cas."
Castiel nodded, knowing all too well what kind of people their parents were. "Um...Gabe?" He started hesitantly.
Gabriel looked at him, he looked tired. "Hm?"
"A friend of mine is coming over this evening to cook and have dinner with us. Him and his brother. I hope you don't mind..." Castiel mumbled, sitting beside his brother on the couch.
Gabriel laughed. "Of course not, Cas. If they're a friend of yours, then they're probably pretty chill."
Castiel nodded, smiling. "They should be here around five."
"Alright. Gives me enough time to take a nap." Gabriel yawned.
"I got the extra bedroom ready for you. Just ignore all of the paintings." Castiel said
"Oh yeah, are you still painting?"
"..."
"Cas?"
"...Not recently, no."
Gabriel frowned, standing up with a stretch, before patting Castiel on the shoulder. "You can't just let dad rule your life. Do what you want to do, and work hard to achieve it. I know you can." With that, he walked to the second bedroom and closed the door.
Castiel knew he was right. His dad didn't approve of him wanting to become a architect. He checked at the time on his phone once more. Castiel was becoming impatient.
~oO0Oo~
He woke up to the sound of Dean's ringtone going off. He didn't even realize he had fallen asleep. He fumbled around himself in search of his cellphone. Once he found it, he answered, rubbing his eyes of sleep.
"Hey babe." Dean greeted from the other line cheerfully.
Castiel couldn't help but smile. "Hello, Dean." He greeted back.
"Your flirting could use a little more finesse." Dean said, though a smile was evident in his voice. "Anyway, I got the food and drinks, Sammy and I are heading over there now. You're brother's there, right?" Dean asked.
"Yes, he is. He might still be napping, so I'll wake him up now. I'll see you when you get here, my love." Castiel teased. His heart warmed at the name-calling, and he ended the call in case he and Dean shot flirtations back and forth at each other non-stop.
"Gabriel?" He called out, standing up and stretching. The couch wasn't all too comfortable...
"Been up for about half an hour now. So...my love, huh?" Gabriel said from the kitchen, a cup of water in his hand.
Castiel jumped in surprise, turning to his brother and blushing. "You heard all of that?"
Gabriel grinned and nodded. "Now I'm definitely interested in seeing who your 'friend' is! I can't believe you lied to me, Cassie. Y'know I have no problem about you swinging that way."
Castiel rolled his eyes. "I didn't want to tell you I was in a relationship right away...and you're only okay with it because you swing that way yourself." Castiel said matter-of-fact.
"Boo...you're such a killjoy." Gabriel pouted, nevertheless walking to Castiel and patting his back. "But seriously, I'm happy for you, Cas."
Castiel nodded, and almost as if on cue, he heard the blaring music coming from down the street, getting closer.
"That's him." Castiel told his brother, walking into the bathroom to fix his messy hair.
"Oh, classic rock kinda guy." Gabriel said, peering out the window. "Black car?" He asked Castiel.
"Yeah. '67 Chevy Impala." Castiel answered from the bathroom.
Gabriel grinned and walked away from the window, poking his head into the bathroom. "What awesome knowledge on cars." He said.
Castiel rolled his eyes and nodded, deeming himself presentable and went to answer the door.
"Hey sweet-cheeks." Dean immediately greeted Castiel, leaning down to kiss him quickly on the lips. "I didn't know what kind of soda you like, so I just bought root beer, that all right? If not, I got beer, but I was thinking it best to wait on that stuff." He continued talking avidly as Castiel let him and Sam in.
Sam was carrying grocery bags too, looking around and taking in Castiel's apartment. "Nice place, Cas." He commented.
"Thank you, Sam." Castiel said, closing the door behind them.
"You must be Cas' brother?" Dean spotted Gabriel leaning against the wall of the hallway, grinning from ear-to-ear.
"Yup! And you must be Cas' 'love'." He said cheerfully, shaking Dean's hand. "Man, Cassie, what a hunk." He said teasingly to his younger brother.
Dean just laughed, but Castiel couldn't help but blush.
"This is my little brother, Sam." Dean said, glancing at Sam as Gabriel's grin seemed to grow.
"Well, hello there." Gabriel said, outstretching his hand to Sam. Sam smiled and shook hands with him. Castiel eyed Gabriel suspiciously. There was something flirtatious about that greeting...
"Hello." Sam said easily,
"Well, now that we got that outta the way, I'm gonna grill up some burgers." Dean said, turning to Castiel. "Mind showing me where it is?"
Castiel nodded, motioning for Dean to follow him as led him to the shared courtyard in the center of the apartment complexes. It looked like more of a park, really. Castiel's apartment had a small patio with a back sliding door, which he and Dean walked through and stepped outside into the chilly evening air.
The grill was situated a few feet from his sliding door, but before Castiel could even point this out, Dean had him pinned against the wall, kissing him feverishly. "Thought about you all night and day, I've been wanting to kiss the hell out of those lips, Cas." Dean murmured between kisses.
Castiel eagerly returned the kisses, thankful that it was growing darker so maybe less and less people would be able to see them.
Dean only pulled away when Castiel tugged on his shirt's sleeve. "I missed you, Dean. But our brothers are inside." He breathed out, wiping the trail of saliva running down the side of his mouth.
Dean made a small, disappointed noise in the back of his throat, leaning his forehead on Castiel's shoulder. "I know, I just can't help myself around you." He murmured stiffly.
Castiel brought his arms around Dean's waist, closing his eyes and breathing in Dean's smell. He liked the way he smelled, and soon found himself asking Dean a strange question. "...Hold me, Dean." He more whispered than said.
Dean pulled away to give him a questioning look, but Castiel pulled his waist towards himself. "Please, Dean. Just for a moment..."
With no questions asked, Dean wrapped his arms around Castiel, holding him gently, but firmly. Castiel sighed happily, nuzzling into Dean's neck and burying himself further into the embrace.
"...Didn't take you for a cuddler, Cas." Dean quipped, smiling.
Castiel said nothing, and choose to enjoy the sensation of being held for as long as possible. He let his eyes flutter shut and placed a gentle kiss on Dean's neck.
The moment was interrupted when Sam came to check on them, rolling his eyes when he came upon the scene. "Oh, c'mon guys...I'm hungry, and I'm pretty sure there's an old lady watching you from the window over there."
Dean laughed, pulling away and walking to the grill to examine it. He nodded his approval and started rifling through the plastic bags.
Castiel was feeling disappointed. He wanted more. He was just itching to hug Dean again. When Dean bent down and tried to get a flame going, Castiel saw a glimpse of his tattoo on Dean's arm.
"Cas? Do you um...want a root beer?" Sam asked Castiel, who's eyes were focused on Dean.
"Huh? Um...Y-yeah..." Castiel stammered, glancing at Dean once more before walking inside with Sam.
They walked into the kitchen, where Gabriel was sitting on a countertop and grinning, eyes following Sam as he reached into the fridge and pulled out a can of root beer for Castiel. "We also got beer, but Dean said we should wait until after the burger are cooked...something about how it tastes better that way..."
Castiel nodded, opening the can and taking a sip. That's when he noticed the atmosphere. Sam was stiff, leaning uncomfortably against the counter while Gabriel smirked at him from across the room.
Castiel coughed and began walking out of the room. "Um...I'll go see if Dean needs any help.." He murmured, turning his back and walking away.
That was strange. He wondered if Gabriel was teasing Sam...he hoped not. Last thing he wanted was for Sam and Gabriel to not get along...
He came back outside and was hit by the delicious smell of Dean's cooking. "Smells delicious." He commented, sitting on the bench on the patio.
Dean glanced at Castiel, grinning. "You look delicious." He shot back.
Castiel smiled and the two stayed in silence. Both enjoying each other's presence. Castiel's heart fluttered once Dean began humming AC/DC.
"...I think you should pursue a degree in art." Dean murmured suddenly.
Castiel's smile faded slightly, but he cleared his throat to respond. "My parent's would cut me off. I'd be on the street before I even registered for the classes."
At that, Dean grunted, turning to Castiel. "...Sam and I wouldn't mind if you moved in with us..."
Castiel was just taking a drink of his soda when Dean said that. He began sputtering and coughing and Dean was at his side in a second. "I'm serious, Cas. I'm worried about you, but I would also like to spend every moment I can with you."
Castiel felt the blush run up to his ears and he avoided Dean's gaze. "...I know, that just surprised me..." He trailed off.
"You don't have to answer me right away, of course. I just wanted to put it out there." Dean hurriedly said.
Castiel nodded, smiling gratefully at Dean.
~oO0Oo~
Dean finished the burgers, and all four of them sat in Castiel's living room. They brought out the alcohol and it wasn't long before they were all laughing and joking with each other like longtime friends.
"...Yeah? Well, this one time our dad actually forbid Dean to even touch the Impala for an entire month. It was hilarious!" Sam laughed, "He was basically going through withdrawal!"
Castiel laughed while Dean rolled his eyes, a smile on his face. Gabriel laughed too, and Castiel couldn't help but notice how close the two were sitting.
He, however, was sitting on the couch with Dean. They were sitting unnecessarily close too, with Dean's arm draped over Castiel's shoulders.
"That ride is my baby, Sam. You don't understand!" Dean accused, trying to keep a serious face.
The two brothers stared at each other for only moments, before they broke out in renewed laughter.
"What about you guys? I'm sure you have some hilarious stories to tell!" Sam said, turning to Gabriel.
Gabriel nodded, taking another gulp of beer. "Well, as you may know, Castiel here is one of the most adorable people you will ever meet..." He motioned to Castiel, who slumped down in his seat. "Aw, c'mon Cassie, you know you're an adorable little shit. Anyway, Cas and I used to sneak out at night. One of these nights we decided to steal my dad's car and drive about six blocks to the local strip club. It was hilarious, because Castiel had no idea how to react or what to do. He was so stiff and shy, it drove the ladies crazy!" Gabriel laughed and scooted more towards Sam subtly.
"You went to a strip club and didn't know what you had gotten yourself into?" Sam asked, an amused grin on his face.
Castiel rolled his eyes. "Gabe didn't say where we were going that night, only that he wanted to check it out and see if it was fun, and it was most certainly not fun." Castiel shook his head, embarrassed.
"Especially when the lady tried to give you a lap dance-"
"Gabriel!" Castiel snapped, though there was no real venom in his words. Dean chuckled beside him and Sam threw his head back, laughing.
Overall it was a great night. Castiel especially liked the shared glances he and Dean exchanged. It was when Castiel yawned that Dean took that as his cue to end this so Castiel could get some shut-eye.
"Well, I think Sam and I better head back." Dean announced, removing his arm from Castiel's shoulders. Sam and Gabriel were in deep conversation, and both made a disappointed groan when Dean stood up. "What? Cas needs his sleep!" Dean motioned to Castiel.
"Cassie always had difficulty sleeping by himself...did your insomnia come back?" Gabriel asked Castiel with a concerned look.
Castiel shook his head, trying not to look too upset that Dean had removed himself from their positions on the couch. "I still sleep okay."
Gabriel slowly nodded. "Just thought I'd ask...since you were asleep earlier..."
Dean glanced at Castiel. "If you're tired, just go lay down and rest, Cas. I'll come see you again tomorrow." He smiled softly, taking Castiel's hand in his.
Castiel blushed and wanted to say "But I want you to stay here with me." Or "I want you to hold me more." But he knew that would be ridiculous so he just nodded. "Okay...Thank you for dinner, Dean. It was a delightful evening."
Dean beamed, leaning down to give Castiel a loving kiss, to which Gabriel made snarky comments about and Sam said "Get a room, you two."
The two Winchester's helped clean up some of the mess and then bade their goodnights. Dean's gaze lingered on Castiel, before winking at him and climbing into his car. Castiel watched as Dean pulled out of the driveway, music blasting as he and Sam drove out of sight.
"Nice boys, those two." Gabriel murmured from beside Castiel.
"Yes, they are." Castiel agreed.
"And damn, have you even looked at Sam? What a hottie." Gabriel sighed happily, patting Castiel on the back before going back inside.
Castiel wondered if Sam swung that way. Obviously Dean told him about their relationship, and he seemed to be more than okay with it. Gabriel has always been the type to fall in love easily, so Castiel was a little concerned.
A freezing breeze hit his skin and he shivered, hurrying to close the door. It looked like it was going to snow, and Castiel couldn't help but hope he and Dean could spend the holidays together.
As he was closing the door, he got a text. He pulled out his phone and smiled when he saw that it was from Dean.
D: "I'm glad you had a good time. Make sure you get some sleep and I'm coming to pick you up tomorrow morning since it looks like it might snow. I love you, Cas."
He typed back quickly, feeling giddy and unbelievably happy.
C: "Yes, it was very enjoyable. Thank you Dean. I love you too."
It wasn't even seconds later that he got another text.
D: "Ugh. Why are you so goddamn cute? It's unfair!;P I seriously didn't get enough of you tonight, so you, me, tomorrow night at my place? Sam's staying with a friend."
Castiel could feel his heart pounding in his chest. He shakily typed his response.
C: "I would love to. Sounds like a date, my love."
It took longer for Dean to reply this time, and Castiel wondered if their conversation was over. He went to his bedroom and had just closed the door when Dean replied.
D: "Well, hot damn. You certainly know how to woo a guy, Cas. ;)"
Castiel smiled, pulling off his clothes and changing into something more comfortable. He climbed into bed and closed his eyes, Dean remaining in his thoughts as he drifted to sleep.
He once again had his arms wrapped around a pillow.