I had a hard time sleeping all night because all I could think of was Alex and Nathan kissing. The memory wouldn't leave me at all and it was hurting me even more on the inside. I really wanted to ask Nathan about it, but I was afraid of what he'll say. What if he admits that he likes Alex and would rather be with him? Or what if he admits that him and Alex had a thing going on that he just can't forget? I don't think I'll be able to handle the outcome of the question if I ask so it'll be best if I just keep my mouth shut and act like I didn't see anything.

I got up that morning right after Nathan and decided to go down to the creek to splash cold water on my face. Today was a new day and I was gonna try to forget about that memory from last night. Maybe I just imagined it. Maybe it wasn't real. I really hope that I was just having a nightmare last night or something.

When I got to the creek, I got down on my knees and rolled my sleeves up then I cupped the cold water in my hands and splashed it on my face, trying to wake myself up. Unfortunately, I was joined by Alex who wanted to do the same thing.

"Sleep okay?" He asked.

I stayed quiet.

"You know, now that I've met you and all, there's something I have to tell you about what happened last year on the camping trip."

I immediately stopped in my tracks and slowly turned my head to look at Alex. He now had my full undivided attention.

"What happened?" I softly asked, feeling my heart pounding in my chest from the anticipation.

"Me and Nathan had a thing last year." He said, watching me, waiting for my reaction.

I slowly stood up and stared at him, straight in the eyes.

"Wh-what do you mean you two had a 'thing' last year?"

Alex shrugged as he shoved his hands into his pants pockets.

"We...had a thing for each other. I liked him. He liked me. One night, I joined him in his tent. One thing led to another and-"

"Wait, so...are you saying that you two...hooked up?" I asked, feeling my voice shaking.

They couldn't have. When me and Nathan had sex after meeting each other, he told me that he was a virgin when we met so he couldn't have hooked up with Alex last year. Right? Unless...Nathan lied so he could get into my pants, but then that means our whole relationship is a lie.

"I'm sorry you had to find out this way..." Alex said, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"I felt like I should tell you. So you would know what you're getting yourself into with Nathan. If you don't believe me, ask him. I'm sure Nathan will confirm what I said is the truth."

I quickly walked away, wanting to confront Nathan and confirm if what Alex said was true. I looked around the camp until I saw him walking towards me so I quickly walked up to him.

"Hey, are you hungry-"

"Is it true?" I asked, cutting him off.

Nathan stared at me, a little taken back.

"Is...what true?"

"What happened with you and Alex last year on the camping trip. Is it true..?"

"Oh..." Nathan looked away and rubbed the back of his neck.

"Did...Did you two hook up?"

"Uh...well, to be exact..."

"Yes or no. Were you a virgin when you met me?" I started feeling myself shaking from anger.

Nathan sighed. "Can we sit down and talk about this-" He said, reaching out to touch me, but I quickly stepped away from him.

"Answer me now!" I shouted.

"Yes! I was a virgin when we met!" He shouted back.

"Then why did Alex tell me you two hooked up?"

"We didn't hookup persay..."

"What does that mean?" I asked, glaring at him.

Nathan sighed and licked his lips.

"We...we did kiss a little and...gave each other blowjobs."

Suddenly, I felt dizzy and sick. The thought of Alex sucking Nathan and Nathan sucking him back started making me feel queasy.

"I...Just...don't talk to me anymore..." I said softly and started walking away from the camp, heading up the walking trail.

"Simon!" Nathan shouted at me, but I didn't turn around. I couldn't look at him right now.

I stopped halfway into the woods and pressed my hand on a tree, feeling my eyes well up with tears. I sniffed and quickly brushed the tears away with my free hand. Our whole relationship was a lie. I know that Nathan is into sex and blowjobs and all that, but for him to go that far with someone who is practically close to him. Someone who is practically a family friend to him.

I sat down on the ground and pressed my back against the tree trunk, wanting this nightmare to be over. I started wishing that I never met Nathan. I started wishing that I was never born. I pulled my legs up to my chest and buried my face into my knees.

...

I stayed in the woods until it was practically nighttime. I was a little surprised that nobody came looking for me, but then I figured that maybe Nathan told everybody to not go looking for me. Though, I can't stay out here forever so I eventually got up and headed back to the camp. Once I made it back to camp, I saw that everybody was sitting around the campfire, talking. I didn't want to be part of their group so I crawled into the tent and climbed into my sleeping bag. I closed my eyes and fell right asleep.

"Simon."

I heard a familiar voice calling out my name.

"Simon, wake up."

"Leave me alone..." I grumbled in my sleep.

I heard the person sigh and place their hand over my forehead.

"You're burning up." The person said then they wrapped a blanket around me and held my head up.

"Here, drink this so you don't get dehydrated."

I tried wrestling away, but the person wouldn't let me go so I slowly opened up my mouth and took in the water. I started coughing a little bit so I pulled away and laid back down. The person then held my head up and rested my head on their lap. I slowly opened up my eyes to see that it was Nathan.

"Nath-"

"Shh. Just go back to sleep." He said, softly.

I did as he told and went back to sleep, but I couldn't help, but wonder why Nathan would help me and I was mad at him. Maybe he does care about me? Or maybe he's just pitying me. Either way, I was a little happy to have him here with me.