Chapter 4:
Her Life
Her alarm clock went off and slowly she sat up. She noticed that her little ones were huddled up together at the foot of her bed. She smiled.
'Damn kids… just like their father.' She thought she shook her head and hopped out of bed. She didn't want to think about last night. She slowly walked down the stairs trying not to let-
"Billie?" 'To late' Billie thought as she skipped the rest of the way into the kitchen.
"Yes..?" she sang as she sat down at the bar.
"Where those brats of yours? They should be up to." Martha asked.
"Martha, Martha, Martha... My brats are sound asleep in my bed." Billie smiled. She loved Martha she had been like a mother to her. When Billie ran away she ended up in this little town of Checotah Oklahoma and Martha was then only one to let Billie in. she took her in with no questions and Billie was grateful.
"Well then I guess you get your skinny little British talkin' ass up there and give 'em a bath now shouldn't ya." Martha said never once looking over at Billie she just kept right on cooking.
"Okay… jeez." Billie skipped back out of the room and went to her bedroom. She stood in the doorway for a while just looking at them. They were angles, they were perfect, they were almost everything she wanted… but God decided that she couldn't have them and him. She just wished she would have told him about them sooner.
"B.J. … Pst… Billie… B.J. is that you?" He asked, he looked around the shelf but no one was there. Slowly he sat back down.
Slowly she stumbled through the many shelves of the Hogwarts library drying her eyes and trying to control herself. When she could see him lounging in his chair at their table she started to cry again.
"Hey it took you long enough…" He started as he stood up to see her. "What- what's wrong." He asked pulling her toward the table.
"Nothing… nothing I'm just being silly." She said leaning into him.
"No, being silly about what?" he asked wrapping his arms tightly around her.
"I just… I don't know… about the war I guess." She said walking away from him she had no idea how she was going to tell him that she was carrying his baby. And she sat down in the chair opposite him.
"The war… you guess?" He asked turning around to look at her.
"Yeah Draco the war." She snapped rubbing her forehead.
"Don't bullshit me Billie… Tell me what's wrong." He snapped back.
"Nothing oaky… can we just do this so we can go to bed please." She asked slumping back into the chair.
"No… not until you tell me what's wrong." He demanded. she just sat there studying her hands. He walked over to her turned her chair away from the table and toward him. Then he bent down so he was face to face with her. "What's Wrong B.J.?" he asked quietly.
"I'm scared." She whispered looking up at him. She gave him a look that told him she was scared but it wasn't the war. She started to cry again only this time harder. He didn't press her for answers instead he pulled her from the chair and gathered her in his arms and let her cry. After her tears subsided, she leaned up to look at him. "I have something that I want to tell you but I'm afraid of what will happen." She finished.
"You can tell me anything B.J. no matter what…. But you don't have to tell me right now." She smiled up at him and he kissed her. "I missed you today."
"Oh yeah how were classes? Did I miss anything special?" She asked leaning her head back on his chest.
"Mum what you doing?" Joey asked startling Billie out of her memory.
"Getting you into the bath tub," She said picking her up and she rubbed the sleepies out of her eyes. "Brian get up babe… you need to take a bath."
"Uh… go away… mum stop." Brian whined as his mother shook him awake.
"No go get in your bath I already have the water in it." She said walking out of the room flicking her wand toward her son's bathtub and watching it fill with water. She walked back the other way passed her door again to go to Joey's bath. "If you're not in that bath by the time I get back here and I will lock you in the closet… you hear me Brian Draco.?" She yelled over her shoulder.
"You hear me Brian Draco." He mimicked as he crawled out of the blankets, and standing in front of him what none other than a smiling Martha. He looked up at her and smiled too.
"I have taught you well munchkin." Martha said as she picked him up.
"Thank you, thank you." Brian said as he bowed in her arms. Billie put Joey in her bath then went to Brian's.
"You know I don't like the way you're raising my children."Billie said as she watched Martha wash Brian's hair.
"Well then maybe you should do it yourself." Martha said back.
"Naw… I'll just get a new nanny." Billie said walking back to Joey's bath.
"You keep talking Honey." Martha said with a smile on her face.
"You tell her nana." Brian said as he laughed and splashed at the water. Billie laughed to herself as she finished her journey to Joey.
"Girl… you done yet?" she asked as she rounded the corner, but the room was empty. "Joey if you are in that bed I will lock you in the closet for a week." She yelled as she stomped back to her room. When she entered she stopped in her tracks. Joey was sitting on the ground with pictures all around her. Joey was rocking back and forth with a towel wrapped around her clutching a picture. It was a picture of him.
"He called me mum." Joey said never taking her eyes away from the picture.
"What?" Billie whispered as tears gathered in her eyes.
"He's really strong… and he's- he's coming closer." Joey explained closing her eyes.
"Stop it Joey… just stop… give me the picture." She was almost screaming. She walked over and grabbed the picture.
"No mum no… there's more he wants me to know more." Joey was screaming trying to reach for the picture. Billie kneeled down and grabbed Joey by the shoulders.
"No Joey he's dead… he's not calling you he can't call you he can't." Billie forcefully picked her up and took her to her room.
"No he has more to say I want to know what he has to tell me." Joey said flinging herself on to her bed as she cried. Billie couldn't do anything she needed to think…. Then the tears started to run freely down her face.
"Get dressed Joey." Was all she said then walked out of the room.
Slowly she walked back to her room she sat down on the edge of the bed looking into space. They had found out that Joey and Brian had special powers those beyond that of a normal wizard. Billie had them as well as Draco only they never embraced or acknowledged them. Billie was like Joey she could feel and understand people through their pictures, but if they were dead then no feeling or talking was done. Brian like Draco could almost see through pictures. If he had a picture taken of him it was like he put himself back into the picture and he could see people looking at the picture but they were more like auras. The specialist said that the more Brian practiced and the older he got he would understand the peoples auras better.
Billie reached up and wiped a tear from her eye when she noticed that she was still holding his picture. She unwrinkled it and looked down at him and her standing side by side smiling at each other it was taken the day after they outted themselves.
"Billie… Billie where is she? Damn it someone in this fucking common room tell me where she is?" he screamed as he walked into the room. Then without warning a fist collided with his face.
"Fuck you Malfoy." She screamed.
"Billie?" Hermione exclaimed.
"Shut up Hermione…" Billie yelled. "What do you want Malfoy?" Billie finished. He looked at her as if she was crazy, then he slumped his shoulders in defeat.
"You." He whispered. "All I want is you… I don't want to hide anymore… I want everyone to know that your mine and I'm yours." He said as he looked around the common room. "No more Games B.J." he finished staring at her making her forget about everyone in the room but him. She smiled and walked up to him and kissed him.
"Sorry about hitting you? Are you okay?" she asked holding him close to her.
"I'll live." He whispered into her hair.
"Wait… you're just going to believe all his bullshit?" Lavender asked. They looked over at her then back at each other.
"Yeah I am." She said never taking her eyes off him.
"Why?" Susan asked sitting next to Lavender.
"Because if he didn't mean it he wouldn't have said it in front of Pansy," At that moment Billie looked at Pansy from over Draco's shoulder. Draco turned around and looked at Pansy. She was staring at him with a glare that would put Mrs. Weasley to shame. She leaned against the wall and crossed her arms over her chest and smirked.
"So you actually think you can be with her?" Pansy asked.
"I am with her Pansy and there's nothing you can do about it." He said wrapping his arm protectively around B.J.'s shoulders.
"Oh but there is Drakie… does daddy know about your little whore?"
"Fuck you… at least I don't sleep with everything that has two legs and dick." Billie spat.
"Well you should if you're fucking Draco… I bet you have to get yourself off afterwards eh? I don't get how he could please any girl. He sure as hell didn't please me." she smiled.
"You bitch." Billie said walking toward her she was intent on killing the nasty ass whore. But Draco grabbed her by the arm.
"Billie stop… let's just go." Draco said pulling her toward his room.
"Don't think this is over Draco. It's just begun." Pansy said as she turned and walked out of the portrait.
"Billiehoney what happened?" Martha asked sitting next to her. Billie looked up at her with tears streaming down her face.
"She said he was talking to her. He can't, he can't talk to her he's dead he can't." she started to cry again and buried her head in Martha's shoulder. Brian came walking into the room at this moment and went straight to his mum.
"Mummy what's wrong mummy please don't cry." He said crawling up on her lap. She grabbed him and hugged him.
"Mummy's fine come on lets go get your sister or were going to be late." Martha said picking him up. He didn't fuss but just stared at Billie. Martha went and got him dressed and went to Joey. Billie went to the shower and stood there she figured it had been about an hour later when really she was in there for 20 minutes she got out and got dressed. She didn't even know where she was or what she was doing it was all mechanical. All she could think about was Draco.
An hour and a half later she went down stairs when she saw her babies she shoved everything she was thinking about in the back of her mind. She smiled sat down and took a bite of toast.
"You okay now mum?" Brian asked. Joey didn't look up she was still mad at her and wanted to know what else the picture had to say.
"Yeah baby I'm fine now." She said she looked over at Joey. "Joey are you okay?" Joey didn't look at her she just nodded her head. 'Damn she's a stubborn little shit. Ha just like her dad damn him.'
"Will you look at me? Damn it Draco what is your problem?" She screamed down the corridor.
"You are my fucking problem Billie. Damn." He screamed turning to face her.
"Now I'm a problem. When the fuck did your suppose to be girlfriend become a problem?"
"When my father found out," He screamed getting in her face. She pushed him away."You're going to give up what you believe in, on me, on us. Because daddy found out little Draco is fucking a mudblood. Fuck, grow up Draco. I'm the best fucking thing that ever happened to you. And you know it. Why are you running? Why are you giving up?" She said getting close to him she put her hand to his face and he closed his eyes and leaned into her touch.
"I have to Billie. I can't be with you if I'm with you he'll kill you. I can't let him kill you. I can't live without knowing you will be alright." He said pulling her close by the hips. People started to fill the hallway.
"We can go into secret again. Draco I need to be with you. I can't stand not being with you." She said putting her forehead against his putting her hands on either side of his face. "Don't say no Draco please don't say no." she pleaded.
"Billie…" he trailed off.
"Please Draco." She cut in. "Please." She started to cry.
"Okay okay… but there's people around we have to make a scene. Then meet me in the room of requirement. Can you make a scene." She smiled at him through her tears. And he smiled back. Then kissed her hard, she tried to push him off when all she really wanted was to pull him close and never let go.
"Get off me Malfoy." She said finally pushing him away. "Remember your running back to daddy. You're pathetic." She said staring at just him.
"Whatever get over yourself Billie." He said then walked away.
"That's right Malfoy keep running… that's what your good at run back to daddy and all his money." She screamed. He just kept walking, he held his head high and walked away from her. As soon as he was out of sight Billie started to cry and ran off in the other direction.
"Mum…" Brian asked. "MUMMY!" He screamed.
"What what?" she asked coming out of her memory.
"We're leaving now." He said hopping off the stool laughing at her. She smiled 'little shit' she said to herself.
They all grabbed their coats and headed out the door. About an hour later they were dropped off in front of a very tall building.
"Ronnie, Ronnie tell us when your letting the new CD out? Are you still making it? Why are you waiting?" tons of reporters yelled at them as they walked in to the building. Brian was standing next to his mum, holding on to her hand guiding her through the blood sucking reporters. They finally got inside.
"Hello Mrs. Johnson." The receptionist said. "Mr. Weaver is waiting for you."
"Good tell him I want my cookies up there too." Billie said, walking behind Brian as he lead her to the elevator.
"Mum?" Joey asked from in her arms.
"Hmm?" Billie answered leaning her cheek on the top of her head.
"How long are you going to use your fake name?" she asked leaning up to look at her.
"Until I don't want to sing anymore. Why?"
"Because I don't think Daddy would like it." Joey stated then laid her head back against Billie's shoulder. Billie stared out in front of her as tears filled her eyes.
"I don't think he would either." She whispered. The elevator opened and they walked into Mr. Weaver's office.
"Ronnie." He said as he walked up and hugged her.
"Dave." She said as she hugged him back.
"Okay Ronnie… we need to get this CD out." He said as he walked over to his desk.
"Oh Dave always straight to business eh?" she laughed as she put Joey down then her and Brian ran to the playroom.
"Ronnie you know we're on a schedule." He said as he looked up at her. "Billie are you okay?" he asked. He usually never called her Billie unless he knew something was wrong he was the only other person in the world that knew who she was and where she came from.
"I'm fine Dave it's just-" she stopped, and looked at her babies.
"It's just in 3 days it will be five years since you ran away from the only life you knew." He filled in.
"Thanks for lightening the blow." She stated as she looked back over at him. "I wonder if they just gave up looking for me." She thought out loud.
"Billie… they are your best friends even if the 'search' is over they will always be looking for you." He stopped and studied her. "Even if they didn't why would you care I thought you ran out here because you didn't want them to find you?" he asked as he sat back in his chair.
"I was never running from them." She stated as she looked down at her hands.
"What are you running from Billie?"
"My past," She whispered as tears slowly rolled down her cheeks.
"Billie if he's gone why are you still holding on?" He asked leaning up in his chair and resting his elbows on the desk staring at her.
"I don't know… I just something is different this year." She whispered wiping the tears away looking up at him.
"Like what?"
"Well this morning Joey had one of his pictures and said that he was really strong and that he was coming closer." She said looking over at her baby.
"Have you tried reading the picture?"
"No," she whispered.
"Why don't you try?"
"Because I'm afraid that she's right." She said as tears ran down her cheeks again.
"What would you do if she's right? What would happen?"
"Nothing, nothing can happen because he's dead." She stood up and started to cry. "I watched him die he was laying in my arms and his body went limp and cold and lifeless in my arms I felt it I watched it… I lived it. He's gone" She said her voice getting louder with each word. "He's gone." she whispered.
"Okay Billie let' get this thing over with." He looked at all the paper work on his desk and Billie sat back down. "Okay what order do you want the songs in I know you want the title to be 'One Last Time' so you want that to be number one?" he asked. She scooted her chair closer to look at the papers too.
"No number 4 like always." She said pulling a paper toward her. They sat there and did paper work for 2 and half hours running through bills fix songs listening to demos. Billie was grateful for all the work it took her mind off all the things that had happened that morning. Billie was singing a song that they were trying to find a place for on the CD when Joey came walking up to her.
"Mummy we're hungry." She said as she tugged on Billie's skirt.
"Uh oh okay hold on." She said looking back up at Dave. "Number 7 that is defiantly a number 7 song." She said smiling. He smiled up at her too. He didn't understand how she did it but whenever she picked out the numbers of the songs they always sold more. She stood up and picked up Joey. "Okay then we can talk about dates when I get back." He nodded then watched as the remarkable young lady that he was just talking to walked out of the office with her beautiful children. And he was impressed.
"Okay what do we want to eat?" she asked as they stepped out on to the street. The reporters had all gone by then so they were standing there looking out at the small little town that they now called home.
"McDonalds." Brian yelled as he jumped off the curb although he was still holding on to Billie's hand.
"No we go there all the time." Joey whined with her head resting on her mum shoulder.
"Okay how about I choose?" she asked. They both looked at her then nodded. They turned the corner then walked into a small but cozy shop and went to the back door and opened it. They came to a wall similar to the one at the leaky cauldron. She taped then wall twice with her wand and it slid open to reveal a world she use to be a part of. Then they walked down to the little pub on the corner of the street.
"Mummy how come we don't live like this or around here?" Joey asked as she got comfortable next to her.
"Because I just want to be able to get away from this life for a while." She said taking off her jacket.
"We are going to go to school in this world right?" Brian asked. Billie actually never thought about them going to school. She had always wanted her kids to attend Hogwarts just as she had. Well that was out of the picture now.
"Yes you are going to go to school in this world." She said then they ordered and ate laughing and talking. She loved them so much. They were her whole world; they finished eating the walked out of the pub. Billie looked up to the sky and took a breath. God she missed this being able to do magic, being able to be with people just like her. Joey and Brian grabbed her hands and drug her over to the Quidditch shop. When Billie saw a picture on the wall next to the window, it was her. She was standing side by side with none other than Draco. The sign said that there was a 500 million galleon reward to anyone who has any information on her. She looked at it she only knew one person that had enough money to offer that kind of reward. But he was dead. She looked around franticly they needed to get out of there. She grabbed Joey and picked her up then grabbed Brian by the hand and ran. She ran all the way back to Dave's office. "They have a reward for me." She breathed.
"They what? Who?" he asked as she came stumbling into the room her children looking bewildered.
"They have a reward for anyone that has any idea where I am or who I Am." She tried again.
"Wait here? Over here in America? How much money?" he asked standing up.
"Yes here and more money than anyone I know. Except…" she trailed off as she thought about who it could be.
"Except Draco." He answered.
"Yeah he's the only person that would reward that much money for me and it's not even for me it for information about me. God he must really love me." She thought smiling.
"Billie he's dead remember." Dave said walking over to her.
"I know Dave I know I was just caught up in the moment. I don't know anyone who has that much money and would be looking for me this long. "
"He said he loved you." Draco told her as they lay in bed she had her back against his chest he was playing with her hand.
"He said that?" she asked looking at him over her shoulder.
"Yeah he looked pretty serious too."
"Like how serious?" she asked rolling over in his arms.
"So serious that he said if he can't have you no one will. And he had that look in his eye that he had when he attacked Pansy." He said looking away from her.
"Well nothing bad can happen to me." She said grabbing his face smiling.
"Why not?" he asked smiling just the same.
"Because I have you to protect me." She said then kissed him and laughed. He rolled her over him and kissed her again laughing too.
"Blaise." She whispered.
"Mummy who's Blaise?" Brian asked.
"Umm… no one go to the play room both of you." She said.
"So who's Blaise?" Dave asked. She looked up at him.
"He was Draco's best friend in school. Him and Draco got into a fight about me and Blaise had told him that he love me and that if he couldn't have me then no one could." She said recalling what Draco had told her.
"So you think this guy has that much money?" He asked sitting her down in the chair.
"No well he has money, but only Draco's family has that kind of money." She said thinking about who in the world would put that much money out. "Well it has been five years. Blaise could have made a fortune by now." She said. "No, no he wasn't smart enough for that. I think he died in the war anyways."
"Okay lets drop it. We need to finish this CD. Please Billie." He said sitting back behind his desk. She looked up at him and slowly nodded her head.
Billie and the twins left the office at 4:30 that night. They had finished everything even the date that the CD would come out. June 5th, three days from now, the same day she ran away from her life. They walked into the house to see Martha in the kitchen cooking dinner. They ate then retired to the family room to watch T.V. and laugh at the twins as they ran around. Finally 9:00 rolled around and she picked up her babies and hulled them up to their rooms. She kissed each of them then said goodnight to Martha and crept into her own room. She changed and crawled into bed. Fixed her alarm clock, rolled over stared out the window and started to cry. Just like yesterday and the day before. This was her life, it was how she was every day. And it wasn't going to change anytime soon.