A/N: Wow I have so much going on right now. I am updating just like I said I would. I'm going to try to post for this story once a week. I have two other stories I'm working on as well Edward's Temptation and Twilight Wishes. Enjoy the chapter! Jaymelynn

Broken Hearts

(BPOV)

The only reason he bumped into my cart was because he was lip locking Jessica Stanley.

"Excuse me," I say my voice dull and full of anger.

"Bella is that you," he asks as he pulls himself away from Jessica.

"Carlie, Emmalin let's go," is all I say as I push my cart down the aisle away from him. I didn't even look at him as I jerk and walked on to continue my shopping. The girls were quiet as we continued shopping not bumping into Edward again.

Once everything was bagged up and I paid for it all, we made our way out the door only to run into Alice. Great my day just got better.

"Bella," she said as she tried to approach me.

"Don't," was all I could manage to say.

"You're going to have to tell him," she replies stepping closer to me.

"I did tell him, he told me to get rid of it. So don't make me out to be the bad guy. He means nothing to me, coming home was a mistake I never belonged here," I angrily spat out to her. I see Edward standing just behind me. I knew he heard everything I said. I didn't even care anymore it was time he learned he screwed up, what he did to me. I reached for my girls hands and began walking off when I felt a hand reach out and touch my arm.

"Bella," Edward started but I cut him off.

"Don't you ever come near me or my daughters again," I spat out as I jerk my arm away from him and continue walking away. The twins skipped ahead of me back to the motel while I walked slowly dreading going back to it. I noticed a police cruiser sitting in front of the motel office with Emmett sitting inside of it. When he saw me he jumped out.

"Charlie wants to know why you're not at the house," he asked.

"I don't belong there," I muttered. He started to come closer but I put my arm up to stop him.

"Bella, come on. It's been five years, I missed you," he replies as I move past him to join my girls.

"Emmett, tell your family I don't want any of you near me. You all forfeited that right. If you guys come near e or try to approach me again I will disappear from here forever. I'm here for my dad and only him," I sneered as him as I walked into our room and slammed the door shut. The girls just sat down on the bed as I walked around putting the food away. What was I going to do? Everything was all messed up.

Okay I think I'll be writing this from Bella's and Edward's point of view. Mostly in Edward's in a couple, but both for the time being. I know you all would also like to know what he's thinking.

(EPOV)

To say my life is alright is an understatement because it isn't. I miss my first love deeply, but also know she's not coming home. It's been a little over a week since Charlie was in his car accident and she hasn't called or showed up. Sure he says it doesn't bother him because he knows she's busy and all, but truth be told it does bother him. Bella's his only child, his flesh and blood.

The last few days my family has been acting strangely. It's almost as if they're hiding something big from me. Emmett seems to be the only one out of the loop but with Rosalie I find it hard he doesn't know the truth. I picked up my girlfriend Jessica; we have been dating for about three months. I tried for so long not to date, but my family told me it was time I moved on because Bella probably did. Only thing Jess and I ever did was make out, for some reason I don't find it necessary to do anything else like sleep with her though I'm sure she wants me to.

Uh my mom just texted me to say she needed pasta sauce from the store and for me to bring it. I pulled into the grocery store parking lot and got out. Jess grabbed the cart and I followed in behind her. As we started down the pasta aisle I pulled her into me to kiss her and we were lip locked as our cart crashed into someone elses cart. I tore my lips away from Jess's to see the last person I would ever think I would see again. Bella, my sweet Bella was staring at us with tears in her eyes as she said, "Excuse me."

"Bella is that you," I say but before I could do anything else she quickly disappears down the aisle. Jessica grabs my arm when I try to walk off after her.

"Honey let her be," she whispers as she tries to cuddle with me again, but my mood is shot to hell. All I wanted was to chase Bella to find out what went on. As we rounded the corner to the last aisle I see her at the checkout finishing up bagging her groceries, oddly though I see two little girls standing beside her.

Jessica grabs my arm as I try to move up the aisle toward the door.

"Babe, let her go," she spats as I move past her. I see Alice had stopped Bella right outside the door, so I quickly move to stand behind her. I notice the two little girls waiting just ahead of Bella.

"Bell," Alice calls as she tries to approach her.

"Don't," was the only thing Bella muttered.

"You're going to have to tell him," Alice replies as she moves closer to her.

"I did tell him, he told me to get rid of it. So don't make me out to be the bad guy. He means nothing to me, coming back here was a mistake. I never did belong here," Bella yells at Alice who looks so lost. I tried to stop her by placing my hand on her arm.

"Bella," I say.

"Don't you ever come near me or my girls again," she spats out at me as she jerks her arm away and walks off while the little girls skip ahead of her. My mind was reeling from that explosion.

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Bella and I had just come home to an empty house a little drunk from one hell of a party at Mike Newton's house. He had thrown a huge Valentine's party. Bella and I had known each other for almost two years. We were both seniors at Forks High along with my siblings. Neither one of us were really in the right state of mind, but we got a little too friendly and ended up having sex. We were madly in love and would have given into the temptation sooner or later.

It was the first time for both of us and it brought us closer than one could ever imagine. We were inseparable from that moment until the night she disappeared. Alice had decided to throw a Spring Break party and invite all of our friends. I had noticed that even though I was drinking Bella wasn't. She was very calm about the whole drinking situation. I decided that it was time for us to be alone so I took her up to my room. Once we were safely alone with the door locked I pulled her close to me on the bed.

"Edward, we need to talk," she whispers softly.

"Fine after you kiss me," I mutter drunkenly.

"No," she says as she pushes me off of her to sit up on the side of the bed.

"Why not?" I spat at her as I grab her forcefully.

"Because I don't want to …. I can't," she whispers while I hold her down.

"Why can't we?" I question angrily with my face just inches from hers.

"I'm pregnant," she mutters to the side of me as she struggles to get out from under me. I said the first thing that popped into my drunken head.

"Get rid of it, it's not even mine. Who knows who else you slept with – it could be Mike Newton's for all I know," I spat down at her.

"Are you crazy?" she questions me. I was pissed and decided to take action I grabbed her hard and pushed her down deeper into my bed. She was struggling with me and crying at the same time. It was making me crazy wanting to taste her, need her more than I ever thought I would. Since she was wearing a skirt I pulled it up and ripped off her silk panties. She was begging me to stop, telling me I was hurting but all she did was push me further. I proceeded to take her in all her glory, while she begged and whimpered my name. I must have passed out because I remember waking up the next morning with no knowledge of the night's events, but a horrible headache.

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The memory hurt my head as I saw in detail what I did to my sweet innocent Bella. I must have forgotten it. Yet I didn't know how I could forget something so huge as forcing myself onto my girlfriend. I hurt the one person I cared for. No wonder Bella ran- I hurt her in so many ways; mentally and physically.

"Babe is everything alright," Jess asks as she comes out of the store.

"Jess I want to break up," I mutter.

"What? Just because that slut is back. She doesn't deserve you. I mean God she left you. Have you forgotten that," she yells into my face.

"It's over," I say as I walk off toward the motel, but stop in my tracks when I see Bella and Emmett. She was yelling at him and then walks into a room slamming the door behind her leaving Emmett crushed. He leaves and I go into the motel office.

"Sir, do you have some paper and a pen," I ask.

"Here," he replies as he hands me the items. I sit down at the little table and begin to write….

Dearest Bella,

I can't imagine what the last five years has been like for you. I guess it didn't help to have me yell and hurt you the way I did. Yeah I guess I was too drunk to remember the events of that night. I just remember waking up the next morning and you had disappeared.

I am so sorry for all the pain I caused you and even my family. I spent a year searching for you to no avail. I thought you just ran away, but I caused it by my actions. I'm also very sorry for telling you to 'get rid of it' when you told me you were pregnant. I wasn't thinking very clearly.

I want you to know I'm proud of you for the job you have done with the girls. They are very lucky to have you as their mom. I just wish I had done things differently. Please forgive me for hurting you in so many ways. I know just because I was drunk doesn't mean anything- my actions spoke very loud that night. I just want you to know how horrible I feel about it all.

Please don't take it out on my family they haven't done anything wrong to you. They lost a daughter and sister all those years ago so try to cut them slack. They also do deserve to be apart of your daughters life they are their family after all. If you want to blame some one place it where it belongs on me.

I have never stopped loving you or thought about what I would do if I ever saw you again. You stole my heart all those years ago and I want you to know it belongs only to you it will always. I'm going away for awhile to work out my new revelations. I broke up with Jessica because I really didn't love her. I was only dating her because my family was tried of seeing me mope round the house.

I hope one day you'll be able to forgive me – then maybe I can forgive myself for the hurt I have caused for you. I also pray to be allowed in my daughters' life one day to know them and make them proud to call me father. I love you always Bella.

Always

Edward Cullen

I folded up the letter and placed it on the counter.

"I'd like to leave this for Ms. Swan," I say as I walk out of the motel office headed back to the grocery store to get my car. I get in and drive home. Esme was waiting for me when I walked in.

"Edward, didn't you get my text" she asks as I walk past her. I go into my room and slam the door shut quickly packing up a small bag. Then I open my safe and take some cash out. I was ready to leave now. I opened my door to see Sarah waiting for me. She always waited for me to come home to play the piano with her. I put my head down in shame as I walk out of the house and climb into my Volvo to disappear into the night.

(BPOV)

The girls and I got ready to go see my dad. As I was passing by the motel office the old man steps out.

"Ms. Swan, a gentleman left you this note," he says as he hands the note to me. I could tell from the handwriting it was from Edward. I just fold it up and put it into my purse to read another time. Charlie wasn't alone as we approached his room Alice and Jasper were in it.

"Mr. Jasper,' Emmalin calls out as she runs over to him. Carlie just smiles as she walks in.

"Jasper, Alice," I say as I walk by them to give Charlie a hug and kiss.

"Isn't it nice they came by to see me," Charlie squeaks out as I glare toward him. I had to admit it was nice of them do stop by. Alice's phone rings and she answers it.

"Hello," she whispers. She didn't look to happy.

"Mom, what do you mean?" she snaps.

"Sweetie," Jasper says really softly. Alice just slowly slides down the wall as her phone drops from her hand. He picks it up.

"Esme, what's going on?" he questions.

"Jasper," I say.

"No! I understand. We'll be home shortly after we're down visiting with Charlie. Bella and the girls are here right now. Yeah I'll make sure she is okay. Okay I know. Keep us posted," he states before hanging up the phone.

"Jazz, I can't believe he did it," Alice whispers into his shoulder. I was nervous as hell. What was going on? Before I could ask anything Carlisle picks this moment to stop by.

"Jazz take Alice home. Esme wants her close by," he says calmly.

"Dad," Jasper starts but is interrupted by Carlisle.

"Wait for a moment just outside the door," he says as Jazz leads Alice out the door.

"Bella, it's good to see you. Wow your girls are beautiful. Charlie you seem to be well," he says as he pauses for a minute.

"Carlisle, what's going one?" I question him panicked.

"I'll tell you if you allow you're girls to go home with Alice and Jasper. They'll be safe," he says as he pulls me close to him. When he lets me go I reach for Emmalin and Carlie.

"Sweeties! I want you to go with Mr. Jasper and Ms. Alice. I need to stay here with Grandpa and his Doctor. Be good and I'll meet you guys later at their house," I say as I hug them both tightly and kiss their foreheads.

Jasper comes over and gently takes their hands from me and pulls them to him. Before he leaves he kisses my forehead goodbye and whispers, 'I'll protect them'. I just stood there and watched him leave.

"Bella, Esme called me just as she watched Edward leave," he whispers quietly. I grab Charlie's hand in mine.

"What do you mean?" Charlie questions as he squeezes my hand tightly.

"I got a call from Dr. Martin who told me Edward called into him to take time off. At first he said it was going to be a sabbatical, but then wasn't sure. When Dr. Martin asked if he would be returning Edward said he wasn't sure if he had anything left returning to," he stopped to pause.

"He left. It's my entire fault," I say as I collapse onto the floor crying. My heart felt like it did five years ago when he took me against my will during his drunken rage. He bends down and helps me up to sit in a chair.

"I've got to finish my rounds. I'll take you home when I am done in an hour stay here," he says as he walks out the door leaving me broken. My heart was falling apart, he ran from me, I just get back and now he is gone. My life couldn't get any worse, could it.