Where My Heart Lies
Chapter 11: Grave Thoughts
Edward
I missed my life so much. I wish I had went after Bella now. Jessica is driving me crazy with her insistence with me being hers, but she didn't so this alone. I know she isn't that smart. I mean the fact that she tried to kill three innocent people just shows how crazy she really was.
"Edward, darling," Jessica calls out as she enters the small bedroom. There wasn't much to the room, but the bed I was on and a chair in the corner. She had covered the windows with blackout foil and curtains. I couldn't even tell if it was night or day.
I couldn't even answer her because she had duck-taped my mouth to keep from yelling out for help. She entered the room wearing her nurses' outfit. She comes up to me and gets into the bed. I lay perfectly still as she climbs onto me straddling my waist.
"Have you thought about why your here!" She asks as I try to stay calm. She moves her hand closer to my face and runs my cheek as she rips the tape off of my mouth. I wanted to scream out, but I kept the pain in my mind. I went to my happy place Bella and our daughters.
"What do you want me to say?" I snap as she slaps my cheek hard.
"I want you to love me, like I love you. God Edward do you even know how much I love you. It hurt me to have to keep you locked up like this, but I can't let you go back to that horrid bitch," she says as I try to keep my mind off of her roaming hands. Luckily she hadn't done anything that was sexual except for grinding into me.
"Jessica I want to go home," I say softly as just shakes her head laughing.
"You know what your family is doing today," she snaps as she grabs Mugabe roughly.
"No," I snap back because I seriously had no clue.
"You've been dead for almost two weeks, they are going to be reading your will today," she smirks as she slaps my cheek hard. "I should be there hearing what you had, but no I am here because the bitch and her bastard children are there," she yells as she slaps me once again.
"Jessica they are my children," I say as I wiggle trying to get out of my binds.
"Oh baby, you're not going to be going anywhere anytime soon," she laughs as she gets off of me, and walks out of the room slamming the door closed.
"Jessica you can't do this to me," I yell as I struggle with the binds as I feel them tearing into my skin. I needed to find a way out of this house Jessica was out of her mind. If she could set that fire that almost killed Bella before I am worried about what she might do now.
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Bella
I was currently dressed in a simple black wrap dress seated in my car with the two headed to the Cullen house. I hated having to go there right now after the way they have been treating me, but Charlie says that there isn't anything I can do but show up.
"Are we going to see grandma and grandpa?" Emmalin asks as I turn onto the gravel road leading up to their house.
"We are coming here to listen to your daddy's will. It is going to tell everyone what they get since he is no longer with us," I say softly as Carlie laughs.
"Why are they doing that when he isn't dead?" she questions me. I hated thinking about all of this because I was feeling weak about how I ended things with Edward.
"They think he is dead though. The police and everyone think they found your daddy's body in that car," I say softly once again as I pull up beside of Emmett's police Cruiser. I could see Alice and Rosalie walking up to the porch. I almost honked the horn, but decided not to.
"Mommy, do you think they will be nice to us," Emmalin asks as I unbuckle her and then Carlie.
"I hope so," I say as I hold each of their hands walking up to the porch. I felt like I was walking to the firing squad instead of a family that I once loved so much. The twins let go of my hands and walked ahead of me and waited for me at the door. I was about to knock on the door when it opened.
"Ms. Swan," Emmett snaps as he moves to the side allowing us to walk into the house.
"Bella, honey how are you?" Esme asks with a small smile.
"I am fine. Can we just get this over with so I can go home and not feel the hatred seething off of you guys," I say as I sit down on the sofa across from Carlisle.
"Of course, we are waiting for the attorney and he should be here any minute," she says as she sits down beside of her husband. I pull Carlie into my lap as Emmalin sits next to me.
"They sure are growing up," Carlisle finally says breaking the silence that seemed to have been hours long.
"Yes, well.." I started but the doorbell ended my words. The attorney came in and greeted everyone. He went over the will in detail with what was to be done. Edward had shocked everyone by changing his will just days before his death. He had left everything to the girls and me. I was shell shocked to hear how much money he left to us. He left the house he owned to the girls and even set up quite a large trust for both girls to be given when they turned 18. He then left the bulk of his remaining estate to me.
"Are you alright?" Esme asks me with a concerned voice. I look to her and just want to run into her arms, but I couldn't. Edward had done something I wasn't worthy of and now I was ashamed of the way things were happening.
"No," I whisper as she goes to move closer to me, but I hold my hand up stopping her. "This doesn't make things right, your family made it very clear where we stood," I say harsher than I meant.
"Bella," Carlisle says as he stands up.
"Don't Bella me. I could have used your support, but you r family was running a smear campaign against me. I really don't care what you think of me, but it wasn't only me. Carlie and Emmalin have been hurt as well. Edward wouldn't have wanted that," I snap as I stand up quickly feeling dizzy in the process. I lean over slightly trying to gain my support.
"Bella," Esme says soflty reaching out for my arm.
"Don't touch me," I say as I grab my purse off of the chair and move toward the door. Emmett stands in my way blocking me from leaving. "Get out of my way," I sneer as I hold tightly to my babies hands. He looks toward his dad as I follow his head.
"She's right, let her go," he says softly as Esme cries into his shoulder as I walk out of the front door. I get the girls into the car, and drive to my dad's house. I left them with him going to the one place I knew wouldn't help me, but I needed to go there.
I walked to his grave and sat down tracing his name. I felt so hollow right now because I was ready to throw in the towel. Everyone thought he was already gone, but I felt that he was still here. It was hard believing that he was still alive after this afternoon. I don't know how long I was there, but the soft embrace I was pulled into made me cry even harder.
"Bella it's going to get better," Carlisle says softly as I shake my head.
"He's not dead. I know it!" I sob into his shoulder as he holds me tighter.
"I know it's hard to think he is gone, but Bella the DNA matched his," he whispers.
"I don't know how to challenge that, but the feeling in my gut isn't changing. I just can't give up hope," I rasp out finally as I let him hold me a little longer.
"Hope is a good thing Bella, but sometimes facts are stronger than hope," he says as I pull away from him. I look into his face and see the stark change in him. He looks haggard and worn out. This wasn't the man I remember. I really didn't get a good look at him at the house. The man before me was just as broken as I was.
"It hurts," I say.
"I know it does. I can't speak for the rest of the family, but Esme is worried about you and the girls," he says as he sits down next to me.
"Why did you turn away from us?" I say as I go back to tracing Edward's name.
"It was hard to see you here, and know that you left to get away. Yet, you moved back and Edward wasn't here anymore," he says as I look back to him.
"The girls talked with Edward every day during that month. I hate to admit this, but I was on the verge of giving my notice to move here before you and Emmett showed up," I admit softly.
"You were," he asks sheepishly.
"I listened to the girls with him, and it tore at me knowing I was keeping them apart for no reason. I had decided to give it a few days and I was going to call him to work some things out, but it was too late," I say as I move to stand up. I needed to move.
"Will you give us another chance?" he questions as he walks me to my car.
"I will have to think about that. I would love nothing more than to move past this, but it will take time," I say smiling as he opens my door for me. I get in and start the car leaving him behind. As I turn onto the path to the exit I see Jessica making her way toward Edward's grave. I couldn't imagine why, but she looked like she had a smirk on her face.
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