Dear Tyler,
It's me, Evan. I'm not dead. I know I've been gone for a long time and I don't really know why but I hope that I can go home soon. All I know for certain is that New Towners took me and now I'm part of this thing called the 'Vanoss Project.' Tyler, I don't know what to do anymore. Help me please! I can't fight this on my own!
-Evan
Dear Tyler,
They keep talking about this 'Vanoss project' and that I am a part of it but I can't help but wonder if this is punishment for killing that police machine. Spending time in jail would be preferable to this, Tyler. I feel like they know everything that is going on inside my head. It scares me. Help me.
- Evan
Dear Tyler,
One of the others was sent home today. At least, that is what they told me what happened to them. I'll probably never be able to send these letters to you before they send me home but writing to you makes it feel better. I don't feel so alone. It's like...you could be right here with me.
You probably would have escaped by now if you were here. I wish I could be as brave as you, Tyler. Though...sometimes I don't think it's bravey. I think it's recklessness and a lack of caring. Please care about yourself, Tyler. We all care about you.
- Evan
Dear Tyler,
I'm scared. I'm so scared. I'm scared of what they might do to me. What if they aren't going to send me home? What if they kill me instead? I heard one of the others screaming at the doctors that they killed those who had been sent home. He said that we are all going to die. I know I shouldn't listen to the screaming...They are all as delirious as I am but I can't help it. I'm terrified. I'm kept awake because I'm gonna have nightmares of doctors, white lights and blood. Help me, Tyler. Please God, help me.
- Evan
Dear Tyler,
Am I even writing to you anymore or am I just writing for myself? What's the point? You'll never know whatis happening to me. You'll never see these letters. To you, I'm already dead. I hope you miss me because I miss you.
- Evan.
Dear Tyler,
I know you hate New Town but from where I am right now...lookin out my window, I can see why it's easy to love it too. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, Tyler. I've never seen so many lights in so many different colours before. It's as if they took the stars out of the sky to decorate their buildings with. And there isn't any smoke in there air so you can see every real star. If I had a telescope, I could see planets, it's so clear. It's so perfect. I wish you could see it. I wish you could see the lights, the airships and the beautiful clothes the people I've seen wear and the towers so high, they might reach space if they were any higher.
I don't want to destroy New Town. I want to destroy what it stands for.
- Evan.
Dear Tyler,
I heard a voice that was so full of life that for a moment, I thought it was one of you. I thought that you had come to save me. But it wasn't you. It was a New Towner. I didn't know that it was possible, to hear something that should be like a machine, sound so human. It sounded so beautiful, I only wish I could have seen who said those words. It was so simple but at the same time, I can't get them out of my head.
I'm starting to forget your voice, Tyler. I'm sorry if this new voice replaces yours.
- Evan
Dear Tyler,
This isn't going to end, is it? That was all I could think about when they kept me in solitary and it's all I can think about now. I can't sleep well anymore. I wish I had my toy soldiers with me. Writing words just isn't enough, I need something to hold. I'm so scared of being alone.
- Evan.
Dear Tyler,
Why didn't I run that night when I had a chance? You would have run.
- Evan.
Dear Tyler,
I never knew how to tell you that I am alive but I do know how to tell you that I am dead. They are going to kill me very shortly, Tyler. I know you would be scared and angry, yelling at me to fight. You wouldn't let me give up. I wouldn't say that I am giving up but I'm so tired. I don't want to fight anymore for I know that it will only prolong the inevitable.
I should have known from the start that this was how it would end. I should have known from simply being born in Old Town that my life was destined to end early and that I wouldn't be prepared for it. Maybe, since I know I am going to die within the hour, I am prepared at least. More than I will ever be. No one is ever really prepared to die, are they?
I don't want you to be sad. There is nothing that would hurt me more now than that. My life extends beyond the limits of my body and my own consciousness. You carry me with you as well as everyone else that we have lost. When you remember me and smile, it's as if I'm still alive with you. I will never leave you as long as you remember me.
I have seen beautiful things from my prison window. I have seen the lights and I have seen freedom. It is out there, please don't give up on it. With every fight, I'll be there with you. This isn't the end. I think of this an open door. A door that leads to a free, peaceful, world where there is no wall that separates new from old. I'm just on the other side of the door and that is where I'll wait for you.
- Evan.