Finally I made it. Again I need to thank all the people who have favorited and followed my story^^. Sorry that it took so long to upload this chapter, but I will try my best to make faster updates. So hopefully you'll like this chaper, and please leave some reviews if possible
So the day ended with Karma and Nagisa going to eat, which was Karma's 'treat' (paid with Koro-Sensei's last amount of money, without shame) and an angry Koro-Sensei who gave them a lot of home work. As we already know his lack of tolerance, he gave Nagisa the double amount while Karma had to do triple of that.
Even though all of that was Karma's fault in the first place, he still got upset and his will to kill his teacher was even bigger, when looking at his homework, late in the evening.
Shouldn't he show more tolerance? We're soon to graduate after all and save his damn life. Complained the redhead while furiously writing down. He wanted to be finished as soon as possible so that he could go to sleep.
He didn't show it to anyone, but throughout the whole day there was this slightly dizzy feeling and now he had a huge headache. All he wanted was going to sleep since last night he couldn't get much of it. Because of the dream he had. Yeah that dream, of his classmates, of Nagisa being distant to him. Koro-Sensei fading away.
Over the day he had forgotten about this, now that it's bed time (in his case meaning almost midnight) he remembered that one dream again. He shook his head in an attempt to get the memories out as soon as he could, after all it was just a simple dream, nightmares are things people have. With these thoughts he finished the last bit of his work and went immediately to bed.
Meanwhile Nagisa was already finished with his homework long time ago. He was laying in his bed. Staring at the ceiling. He thought about his conversation with Rin. She was listening to what he had to say and gave him an answer what she only can see in it.
"What do you think of him?" asked the black haired girl. Her face serious. She wasn't in the mood of joking anymore. Since their last visit at Karma's mansion she realized that the two of them behaved strange towards each other and now finally she decided to go straight to the point. Trying to come up with different plans started to get annoying, since that way didn't really work.
Nagisa stared at the ground searching for courage to speak up. He didn't know his feelings himself. What was he going to answer? He always thought that these feelings were just platonic. Nothing more. Wasn't it normal to admire your friends? Maybe it was strange to get flustered in his proximity and staring at Karma the whole time. But that's the way people do behave towards their idol. Yeah Karma has always been his idol.
"You know, there's been this strange feeling" Nagisa began when his train of thoughts stopped. In fact he stopped thinking at all and just started to talk. "I found myself staring at Karma for long terms. I want to be with him. I do admire him after all. Yet I was so scared that we might get separated again."
He fell silent for a while. Searching for more words. He took a deep breath in hope of calming his pounding heart down. "It's funny, isn't it? Just now as our friendship got better I have these problems. I don't understand it myself… The day I saw Karma again, after his expulsion I was so… so very happy. I was happy to see him."
He looked up, smiling brightly as he remembered that day, the moment when Karma stood before him. The moment when Karma greeted him and smiled so warmly at him "I know ending up in the E Class was bad and the way Karma did end up here was horrible for him, but… but I was happy to hear that we were in the same class again."
Then suddenly he turned around taking a few steps away and looking into the distant sky. His bright smile was replaced with a rather hurtful expression. Wind blowing and playing with his hair "But then he was only interested in Koro-Sensei. I thought this was our chance to make up and be friends, as we were before, but all he had in mind was killing our teacher. We spent a lot of time together, planned assassination together, but in the end he never really seemed to want to do the same as me. He seemed to be fine with us just as classmates."
He turned around once more giving Rin a small sad smile. "After all Karma never wanted to have to do something with me. I accepted it and pushed all my thoughts about our relationship away. I thought that things would be fine, one day I would forget my feelings, but it didn't work" He fell silent, waiting for an answer.
"I figured the way I was affected by Karma, by spending time with him, being the only one close to him, did change my way of seeing him. It is the first time something like this happened to me, so I thought these feelings were normal. I could hide them nearly as good as my pain from my mother"
"Since when did you feel this way?" Asked Rin. She studied the smaller one and came to the conclusion that he indeed was struggling to understand his own situation. Even if Rin wasn't familiar with love or any kind of relationships, she wanted to help, seeing a person's feelings how they differ from person to person was something she found interesting.
Nagisa thought for a moment. Since when huh? When did he started thinking so much about Karma?
"I don't know… Maybe always."
"Nagisa, I don't think this are platonic feelings" said the black haired girl. Instead of being surprised he threw her a suspicious sight. He knew her intentions of getting him in a relationship with Karma very well and not to forget her intentions to get blackmailing material.
"And I am not saying this, because of me wanting you two to be together." She added silencing any accusation that could have come.
"Listen Nagisa" she said after taking a deep breath. Air filled with serious tension. "I am not an expert at these things. Hell, I am not even an expert at normal friendships, but these aren't feelings you have for 'just a' friend" she made quotation marks at the just a.
Nagisa didn't reply. He was deep in thoughts. Not ready to believe what he heard.
"Your fear is to be left behind again. You don't want Karma to leave you. You want to be with him. Then do it. Be with him."
The blue head stood still in his place like being frozen, letting her words go through his mind.
"Nagisa, the sooner you realize what your feelings are, the better. You shouldn't wait until it's too late!"
He turned again now leaving for his home.
"As far as I can see this, you have fallen for that stupid Akabane!"
Was it true? Has Nagisa really fallen in love with Karma? No that cannot be! He thought. They were both boys, that's ridicules! He can't be in love with one of his closes friends. Now that they were finally friends again, yeah that must be it. He has no romantic feelings, that's just his joy to be close to Karma again. He turned on his stomach burying his face into the pillow. He told himself the same sentences over and over again. Like a mantra in hopes of getting over this confusion.
Yet even though he thought to have told himself the truth, all of his words felt like a lie. A lie, leaving a disgusting taste in his mouth. All of this was too much. Too much for Nagisa to bare. Was Rin right? But she was trying to get them together even before her last conversation. She just wanted to mess around.
Why would she even care? After all Rin wasn't close to anyone in the class, let alone even hang up with any. She isn't the type to be all nice without any intention behind. It was a lie. She didn't want to help him. Yet her words sounded so honest. He didn't want to believe her, but still. A part of his body did so. Nagisa took a deep breath before getting up and sitting straight on his bed. From there he had a good look on his own reflection in the mirror on the opposite side.
He looked himself deep in the eyes. Deep in those blueish crystals. He had heard once about something that might help him. An advice Koro-Sensei gave his students after he watched a cheesy romantic film. Koro-Sensei was still desperately trying to get his students into relationships and searched for help through movies.
He said, if you don't know your feelings for someone then close your eyes. The first person to come in front of you, won't just be someone. The fist picture to come to your mind will answer your question for this is the person you feel more for than you think.
It was strange, but Nagisa thought in that moment that his teacher's stupid affection for gossip and the usual student romance stuff can come in handy now. Slowly he closed his eyes. Inhaling and exhaling steadily to calm down the fast pace of his heart. Now calm he waited.
What he saw, indeed surprised him, yet shocked him much more. So that's how it is. He thought with a sad smile on his face. So that's how it is huh? Finally the bluenette found his inner peace and laid down falling asleep. Then I have to accept it, huh?
Next day:
After his long train of thoughts in the night Nagisa could rather sleep peacefully. Right now he was one of the first in his class. He looked refreshed, smiling brightly, as if he had never had any confusion. Kayano, who just arrived and sat next to him noticed his happy expression. Not that it was strange, it was actually Nagisa's usual attitude. What was bothering her was the interaction with Rin and Koro-Sensei.
They were talking about Koro-Sensei having found a new couple that was clear, but what made Rin so curious in it. She wasn't a girl to be into gossip or anything like this. She even commented their teacher's wish to have some student romance was the most stupid thing he did.
Of course everyone knew how much she was commenting on Karma and Nagisa looking quite like a couple and even trying to get them somehow together, but that was all in order to tease them. She hated Karma endlessly and with him being in a relationship, that even with a boy, she had perfect opportunities to mock him.
"You seem to be in a good mood, Nagisa" she said, after staring for a long while at him.
He turned towards her, smiling. "Well I just feel good is all."
"Let's say, I had a very good sleep last night."
"Ah, I see."
Watching from behind, Rin also noticed Nagisa's change in behavior. Just yesterday the boy was totally lost in his confusion and now pretends like nothing has happened. He was pretty good at it too, to hide his emotions, Rin had to admit this. That's why Nagisa is the hardest to read. One would think he was easy to understand, but you can never say when he was hiding something behind his smile.
He proved this fact with his bloodlust. What is he going to do? Rin decided to stand up and get to talk to Nagisa. By that time most of class 3 E's students had arrived and gathered. They were still planning a surprise for Karma.
"Hey, Nagisa. Would you come here please?" called Isogai, who was right now the center of their discussion. As the class rep he had taken on the responsibility for the arrangements, together with Maehara and Kataoka.
"We need your help" he added. Nagisa, as the nice boy he was, stood up from his seat and went over to them. There were questions like what Karma would like the best or what things would fit into a party for him.
"Hm, that's hard to say" said Nagisa thinking about his time with Karma, "well Karma isn't really that type of person to celebrate his birthday. Not the way people normally do. I think a simple arrangement could do it, not much decoration, he's not that type. I think we should focus more on what events we're planning."
Isogai noted all of this, reading once more through and taking other notes too. "Is that so huh?" he exchanged questioning looks with Maehara who shrugged as response. "Well, Karma is after all a complicated person."
"You sure know a lot, Nagisa" commented Maehara. Rin studied his expression exactly. She had expected that Nagisa would flush and turn red at this comment, but instead the boy kept smiling and nodded. It was a different reaction as the one he showed in the past days. What's wrong with him?
Nagisa felt eyes peering him from behind and he was sure Rin was watching him, but he ignored it. She wanted to talk to him, ask him questions and he knew it, but didn't want it though. He wanted to avoid the girl and kept close to the conversation before him.
"Then we just have to ask Koro-Sensei to get some stuff. He surely can get things, maybe games not available in Japan" said Isogai still looking at his small notebook. "Then the rest will…"
His sentence was left unfinished when the door opened and Karma entered. Taking by surprise the whole class stared at the redhead. Holding a juice packet in one hand and the other hidden his pocket he walked to his desk. In his usual attitude, seemingly not being able to notice the staring students. Or maybe he ignored them.
Despite his usual cool nature, the boy was pretty pale, paler than usual. Nagisa noticed sweat building up on his forehead and if it wasn't just his imagination Karma struggled to stay on his feet. Nagisa became concerned as he realized these facts, but before he could go over to him and ask what's wrong, Koro-Sensei came in, with his Mach 20 speed and announced the lesson to start. Any further planning had to be delayed, until after school.
It was a shame, to be honest. Since Karma was in class yesterday and the day before, without skipping, everyone thought that he might skip this one day. But he didn't. It was rather unusual for the redhead to show up full day. Not even ditching one lesson. Well later on there was still PE. Even if Karma actually liked the PE lessons (they indeed were very funny,) he was mostly too lazy to attend each.
After they changed to their normal PE clothes, since Karasuma told them that until the winter holidays their practice with knives should be picked up again and some simple hand-to-hand combat. That was due to their decision to save Koro-Sensei.
Meanwhile they weren't only thinking about a surprise for Karma's birthday, but also about a method to save their teacher. The most important thing was to know what exactly was going to cause his explosion and do something. The task itself was quite tricky, so they needed some time to figure anything out.
Koro-Sensei was the one to tell them to delay these plans for time being. After all it wasn't only Karma's birthday coming, but also Christmas. Their very first Christmas with Koro-Sensei and as class 3E students. Making everyone hyped up for the upcoming events. Nagisa thought that this was perfect opportunity to celebrate that everyone got in the top fifty in the midterms with Karma on the first place (even if it's a little late for that) and their finally true friendship. Hopefully there will be a lot of time for them to spend together.
During the lesson they were told to split up into pairs of two and do the hand-to-hand combat. Nagisa paired up with Karma. They really didn't do much though just throwing a few punches and blocking them, Karma didn't seem to be in the mood of doing anything further and Nagisa didn't want to push him either.
"Is there something wrong Karma?" asked the blue head a little concerned. Karma was focusing on his knife and taken aback by the question. He stared for a short while until he finally registered what his friend asked.
"No" he answered simply, "why asking?"
"No reason, just a little concerned is all." He smiled and waved off any other confusion and Karma didn't really bother to ask further. He didn't feel like it, just wanted to get through day. He didn't really remember what last night happened, but in the morning he heard again a voice asking him questions, and he didn't answer them.
This time he couldn't remember anything strange other than this voice, like last time, but he was still confused because of it. Why did he even see such a dream and now Nagisa was standing in front of him, which made him a little uneasy.
While being deep in his thought he didn't really realize how intense he was staring at the shorter one, who made himself busy with his knife training. Karma was pulled out of his thoughts by a knife that flew in his direction, which he could barely dodge. He glared at the black haired girl smirking at him.
"What's wrong, usually you're not that off guard, Bakabane" commented Rin. She was training with Yada and got the idea to mess around with the redhead. After all everyone knew these two won't get off once, without fighting.
She looked at Nagisa, whose attention went to them. "Well, but I can understand your distraction"
He ignored her suggestive look at the blue head. "What's that, coming up with new insults, heh?"
"I am trying my best to be creative" Her tone was as cheeky as ever, challenging the other. And Karma would have greatly accepted it, if it wasn't for Karasuma to interrupt them. "No fight among each other you two."
Both students pouted at the interruption, but nevertheless they did what their teacher said, going back to their partners. "You shouldn't always pick a fight with him, Rin" said Yada as the girl stood before her. She was smiling nicely. "Tch, life is full of challenge after all" replied Rin, "and I just can't stand that idiot."
Hidden in the trees, their octopus teacher was observing his students. Not to forget that he was looking at his notes and taking new ones. From his last visit at Karma's he has found a twist in his students' relationships, which he thought to be extremely interesting. Finally there would be an interesting story for his future novel, an original too, even if he had to help a little bit.
The other students were doing their best in preparation for Christmas and he wanted to help. Just before the PE lesson started Isogai and Kataoka told him about their current planning and what he could do for them and now he's waiting for his lesson to start, so he could make the announcement he was asked to do.
"I hope Christmas will be very interesting. Nyurrfuffuuufu" Just as he finished the bell rang indicating for him to get back to class. He got back and waited for the students to come in. The last lesson for the day was math, but there wasn't any rush on teaching, since the next exams will be high school entrance exams and until that day, there was plenty of time.
As usual there were shot guns, Okajima tried to distract him with his porn magazines, which worked he was distracted, but not hit by anything. Among the assassination attempts Rin came the closest, she hid anti-sensei BBs in and under his teacher's desk and he barely dodged them. When did she even prepare that? Koro-Sensei is always amazed at her, she really gets the moment in which one would be most off guard and strike.
The only one not doing anything at all was Karma. He was actually sitting there and just waiting for the lesson to end, which made Koro-Sensei wonder why he even came to class. Whatever, the lesson soon came to an end, and he needed to make the announcement.
"So students, please listen for a moment" he said and waited for the assassination attempts to stop. He then continued. "I would like the whole class to come tomorrow in the evening here. There is a special I have for you." The class started to 'wonder' what their teacher was talking about.
Koro-Sensei's attention went to the redhead. "And Karma-Kun please don't skip otherwise our efforts will be for…" He stops midsentence, frozen in his position, and so does the whole class. While Karma threw a questioning sight at his teacher others were looking at him, not believing how stupid the octopus can be. Until everyone started sweat dropping.
What an idiot!
"What do you mean by that?" asked Karma, carefully observing his teacher's expression and for once the whole class was glad that the redhead was sitting in the back of their class, not being able to see their faces. Rin shook her head. Oh Koro-Sensei.
"What do I mean?" repeated Koro-Sensei in a seemingly angry voice, obviously not real anger, "You're after all the one to skip all the things. If you don't appear the whole class won't be gathered and my efforts will be for nothing!" He was too flushed to get his answer convincing and for a moment everyone wondered if Karma actually believed it.
However the redhead just shrugged it off, not bothering anymore, "is that all you wanted?" and then he grabbed his back ready to leave, "can we go now?" Thankfully the bell rang. Class 3E was literally racing out of the room, especially Nagisa ran away to be able to escape Rin. She wanted to talk to him so badly, but the boy was avoiding her. So she set up her next target to interrogate. Akabane Karma alias Bakabane
After all she is just too curious in others' way of reacting to different kind of things. Let's see what I can get out of him.
Besides I really like the name Bakabane wanted to add it early though I wasn't sure if it was a good idea or not, but I will go with it. (Hopefully people'll understand were the idea came from) But if there's already a fic with Karma being called Bakabane please let me know. I don't want anyone to get mad and think I stole their idea or something.
