I'm sorry that this chapter is shorter and not as good as usual. Since I'm going off to college tomorrow, and will be updating less frequently, I decided to give you two chapters in one day to try and make up for it.
Disclaimer: I still don't own Divergent *sad face*.
The next day, we all take a trip to the Fence. I'm still fuming over what Matt said. I can't believe that he would even suggest something like that.
When we arrive, Four leads us up the stairs of the Fence until we are a few stories up. I'm now feeling extremely grateful for initiation because, without it, I would probably feel very winded by now. As we're going up, we walk past many Dauntless guards. I notice that one of them stares at me as I pass by. Since I already have enough on my mind, I decide to just ignore him and keep walking.
Once Four finally decides that we've gone high enough, we stop and look out at the Amity farms. As I look at them, I realize that part of me misses Amity. The calmness, the way that nothing was stressful or complicated, pretty much the complete opposite of Dauntless. I unconsciously begin to search for my mother among the fields. For a moment, I think that I see her, but I quickly put the thought out of my mind. Faction before blood. This becomes my mantra that I begin to focus on.
"What do you think is out there?" Tris asks.
"Monsters," Christina says.
"Amity farms," I say, like it's obvious, because it really is.
"No, I know. I mean, beyond that."
"Places that never recovered from the war," Will says.
Tris then looks to Four. "Do you know?" she asks him.
"Let's just say they built the Fence for a reason." This makes me feel uneasy. I've never really been curious about what's beyond the fields but, now I am. And, if it's something that makes Four look uneasy, it can't be good. Four then turns to look and address the rest of us.
"If you don't rank in the top five at the end of initiation, this is where you will probably end up. Once you are a fence guard, there isn't much room for advancement, but it's possible. For the most part, those that guard the fence when they are young continue to guard the fence. If it comforts you, some of them insist that it isn't as bad as it seems."
"What rank were you?" Peter asks him.
I don't really expect Four to answer but, surprisingly, he does. "I was first." Wow. I figured that he had a high rank, but I didn't expect him to be first.
"And you chose to do this? Why didn't you get a government job?"
"I didn't want one," he says flatly. I think back to the day I arrived in Dauntless, when he told us that he normally works in intelligence. I can't imagine him sitting in a chair, surrounded by computers. I think that he belongs in the training room.
When we get back down to the ground level, I see Tris having a short conversation with someone from Amity. I vaguely remember him from the Choosing Ceremony. I think that he is a transfer from Abnegation. He must have been a friend of hers. As I watch them, I feel someone tap on my shoulder. When I turn around, I see Matt. I let out a sigh of annoyance. I was really trying to avoid this conversation.
"Look Matt, I really don't want to talk to you right now."
"I know but, listen. I wanted to apologize."
"I'm sorry, what?"
"You were right. You are perfectly capable of taking care of yourself. I just thought that if I showed you that I cared about you, then you would want to go out with me." What? He wants me to go out with him? Oh no.
"Listen Matt, thank you. That's really nice of you but, I'm not interested in going out with anyone right now."
"That's okay. Maybe we can go out after initiation is over." God, why is he not getting it? My inner-Amity really doesn't want to hurt his feelings but, it looks like I have no choice.
"Matt, I'm sorry, I'm not being very clear. I'm not interested in going out with you. Ever." The look that flashes across his face is painful to see. First, he looks incredibly hurt, then angry.
"Right. I get it. I'll see you later. Or not." He then storms away from me and heads for the tracks to wait for the train back to Dauntless. I let out a huge sigh and bang my head against my hand. Things are about to get very complicated.