In the next couple of weeks I tried to avoid Bucks as much as possible and I found myself growing to be best of friends with Steve and maybe developing feelings that shouldn't be there. I knew I probably shouldn't have fallen in love with Steve and I tried telling myself that it was just a stupid crush but nope, I was still khaki wacky about Steve. I was talking with Steve out on the balcony of the house until he brought up Bucks.
"You know you should probably talk to Bucks, Izzy." Steve had started calling me Izzy and I didn't complain about it.
"I know Steve it's just that I don't want to lose him." I said with a sigh
"You know if you don't talk to him before he leaves you're definitely going to lose him."
Steve's words had struck me in the heart.
I thought about it for a while and when Bucks came back with Steve I ran to give him a hug. He was shocked and wide-eyed to see me hugging him finally relaxed and gave me a hug too.
"So now you're talking to me?" Bucks had a teasing quality in his tone but in his eyes he looked at me with love and... pain?
"I'm sorry, it's just I don't want to lose you too Bucks."
"I know, and I'm sorry I did this behind your back." With that Bucky hugged me fiercely and sighed. "Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes, leaving first thing tomorrow morning for England." My eyes widened and I felt my heart broke and soon I felt the tears burning my eyes. "You're leaving so soon?" I managed to get through my crying as the tears finally slid down my cheeks. I looked towards Steve, "Did you know about this?" The look in his eyes told me everything.
"Look Izzy, I just found out about this. Bucky told me as we were going home." His face contorted into a look of pain. "I swear I would have told you if I had known any sooner." I just couldn't take it anymore and falling to the ground my quiet crying turned into full out sobbing. Barely noticing Bucks lifting me up and carrying me to my room I continued crying.
"Sleep tight Liza. Love ya." With that he started to leave but I didn't want to be alone right now.
"No! Bucks stay with me tonight. I don't want to be alone." I stared at him with pleading eyes as he slowly made his way over to me and put his arm around me.
"I swear Liza, I'll come back after the war, I promise." That was the last thing I heard before it all faded to black.
When I woke up my bed was empty and the house was deathly silent. Where was Bucks? I got out of bed and walked to Buck's room but he wasn't there. I furrowed my brows together in worry. Did he leave without telling me? No, he wouldn't do that. Still I went to the kitchen and then when I got to the living room I saw Steve.
"Steve, where's Bucks?" A look of pain and worry flashed across his features.
"Sorry Izzy, Bucks already left." It hit me. Hard. How could he leave without telling me? Surely he didn't do that. Right?
"Steve, tell me you're joking right? Bucks really didn't leave without telling me, right? Right?" When Steve didn't answer I was hysterical. Full out sobbing on the couch. Vaguely I heard Steve move over to me and wrapped me into a hug. Which he was actually capable of doing since I was shorter smaller than him. For the next hour or so I cried into Steve's arms and I was too hurt to actually register I was crying into STEVE'S arms. When I finally calmed down I saw I had stained his shirt which I immediately felt guilty for.
"Sorry for ruining your shirt Steve." Steve smiled
"It's quite alright Izzy, it wasn't your fault." They way Steve's blue eyes shined made me feel dizzy and I blushed. We continued talking and it wasn't till a few moments later that I realized I was quite sleepy and while Steve continued talking I had accidently fallen asleep on his shoulder. Oh Well.