a/n

so, hi.
it's been a while.

yes, i am still alive. and unfortunately, no, i will not be continuing with this story. i definitely owe all of you an explanation as to why i disappeared for nine months.

i started writing this story back when i was still obsessed with the divergent series. of course, i still enjoy it: i'm going to be watching the last part of alleigant when it comes out for sure, but i just don't like it as much as i used to.
also, about a week after my last update i realized how bad the story was (i've improved a lot since then) and decided i'd be taking a break to try and figure out what i'd do: whether i'd stop writing the story, or whether i'd try to salvage it. eventually the break got longer and longer and i got caught up in a lot of things, so i never really got round to telling you all what would happen.

a lot can change in nine months. i really am very sorry i've left you hanging so long only to tell you i won't be continuing a new beginning any longer. however, i do know how shitty it'd be if i just ended it like this, so this is the rough plan of what i had sketched out:

(TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF RAPE AND ALCOHOL ABUSE)

lauren wins the bet by forcing herself onto tobias. tris misinterprets this and breaks up with tobias, not allowing him a chance to explain or apologize. she severes all contact with everyone except christina and becomes more withdrawn as the weeks go by, especially as her parents begin to argue more frequently. eventually, christina gets together with will, leaving tris feeling ignored and useless.

one day tobias catches tris on her own and forces her to listen to him, explaining that he never kissed lauren, rather the other way round, and tris forgives him (although they don't get back together, instead just staying friends although tobias wants more.) christina also realizes she's been neglecting tris and makes an effort to fix their friendship.

a few months later, a new student turns up at the school: peter. it is revealed that peter is tris' ex boyfriend who raped her whilst she was drunk and unable to give consent at a party. as a result of this, tris got pregnant and was forced to give up her baby for adoption. upon seeing peter, tris falls back into the self hate that she found herself in after the attack and again runs away from everyone and everything. at the same time, her parents decide to divorce, adding another load to tris' back. tris starts skipping school in an attempt to avoid seeing peter, and doesn't respond to anyone's messages. one night she gets drunk despite vowing to herself that she'd never consume alcohol again after what happened with peter and turns up at tobias' flat. tobias takes her in and slowly tris begins to come to terms with what she's gone through.

no, i didn't plan for tris and tobias to get together at the end of this story - although who knows, maybe if i'd written a sequel, they would have. yes, i leave what happens with peter unknown. that is up for you, the reader, to decide.

in terms of what will happen next, this account will be inactive. i won't be putting my writing up on here anymore, although you can find me on wattpad at nebulahowell where i currently have a few stories in the works. you can also follow me on any of my social media accounts (which are in my bio.)

thank you to anyone who voted or commented or read this story. i know it wasn't much, but i hope you enjoyed it.

goodbye!