Sakura leaned over the edge of the bridge. Soft, dark clouds rolled silently over head. Her mind wandered softly as the river below here flowed past the bridge. Fish gathered under the bridge to hide from the pink haired kounichi who seemed threat to them. Truth was, she couldn't harm anything if she wanted to. She was too weak and too sad to even block.

The pale green eyes stared over into the misty water. She couldn't help but recall the entire death. Dazed her eyes looked downward not into the water but into her memories. She shouldn't be a hero for killing…she knew it was wrong. She rapped her arm around her embracing herself. It had been her fault Sai died too. She couldn't stop blaming herself.

As if that wasn't enough, the funeral had only made Sakura remember everything she didn't want to. Now she couldn't stop thinking about Sai. Ya, she had hated him at first but now she realized she had just lost a good friend. He mind swirled with regret and loss and her heart felt empty but so heavy.

Clutching herself from the cold breeze outside, and the horribly sad emotions inside she wanted to drop on the spot and scream out. But she knew better then anyone that would bring no good. Nothing would come of a poor girl crying in agony but villagers telling her to shut it.

No one cared. Naruto was preparing for a wedding when Hinata returned from her mission, and Sasuke wouldn't talk to anyone. Sakura didn't care…she didn't want to even see Sasuke. She would only slap it. She hated Sasuke. He left her twice…he left her heart to suffer. He underestimated her and broke her. Teased her and only disregarded every feeling she had ever had for him.

Sure they had kissed but it probably had no meaning to him. So she had simply avoided him. He wasn't completely hated in the village of the Konoha but everyone now disrespected him like Naruto. Sakura knew he would reclaim his glory in a few months and soon also be regarded as a hero. She still didn't care.

Sakura bent down and sat on the edge of the bridge. The railing had holes along the bottom just large enough for her to slip her legs threw and put them in the cool water. She swirled them around a bit whipping her tears on her kimono sleeve. She was wearing a plane white kimono meant for sleeping and her hair was tied into a small braid, which slung over her shoulder. Bandages covered both her wrists and ankles. Her hands had also been wrapped up and her head was raped in a few bandages. A few band-aids were placed on her arms and legs and in the small simply obi bow she had tied she had placed a back warmer in it so help sooth the pain in her back.

She stood up putting on her sandals and took a rock from the bridge and threw it. It didn't get to far before it sank into the cool river below to join the millions of other pebbles lying in its depths.

"Sai" she whispered to the water.

His face had appeared in the water in her reflections stead. She nodded and then saw Neji. She immediately rushed over to see if it was true. Through the past months she had almost forgotten Neji but lately his memories plagued her mind.

"NEJI!….oh…the water." She sighed leaning back again. Leaning on the rail once again she gazed at the water.

"Neji-kun…I wonder if I died if I would see you, and Sai-san. Maybe then I could be happy."

She sat in silence as if waiting for a reply she knew very well would never come. She closed her eyes then turned to smile at the water again.

"You know, some part of me just wishes I could die right now, but I know that's stupid…I know your right…I shouldn't die…or kill myself for that matter huh. But it's just so tempting sometimes. Neji if only you where here by my side. I might be happier and might be a bride or better a wife or mother by now. That would make me so happy…but you wont ever come back to me." She sighed out.

"Neither of you will…" she began to cry again the clouds growing darker and thicker.

Sakura closed buried her head in her arms. Leaning on the rail she didn't know how long she sat there staring at the water threw her arms but it seemed like an eternity. Tears only weld up in her eyes and her face was red from the tension of holding them back. She wanted only to be alone and sit there. Wasting her time.

Soon enough the rain began to feel and Sakura looked up towards the sky. She then slowly brought herself to a walking ready position and began to long walk home. She didn't bother hiding her tears. The rain did that on its own. She glared. After all this time all she could do was think of Neji, and Sai and how much she hated Sasuke. Something in her realized….that it hurt to know how much she had loved him…and then look at him and realized how much her didn't care.

Sakura growled angrily and ran the rest of the way home.

The next few days where long. Sakura oddly enough found Sasuke to almost be stalking her around. She was beginning to get annoyed at it. Every day he leered at her with glaring eyes. What was he planning? Whatever it was Sakura wished he would just come right out and say it.

Sakura spent the next three days training her butt off. Finding herself over extending herself was new hobby. Sakura would spend the day filling her head with knowledge and new medical techniques. All in desperate efforts to get Neji and Sai out of her head.

One time she had been practicing a justsu created to bring people into controlled commas. Sakura found the technique very hard to master and had been working on it for three hours straight. Her Chakra was gone and nothing had happened on the jinxed dummy. She sighed and went to try again but collapsed and found herself at the pin point of Tsuandes' scorn for trying such a hard trick.

Sasuke watched intensely. He had to know why. His questions raced through his head over and over. His curiosity was getting the better of him. He would normally just go and grab Sakura beating the answers out of her through words but something held him back. She was still recovering from battle and something had her so wound up Sasuke knew it would be wrong to do it.

He simply found himself watching her for an opportune moment to question her. Sakura always looked so determined and distant it was almost scary. They way she had attacked his brother had also gotten his attention. She had proven herself not only smart but very violent as well.

Sasuke found himself somewhat scared of Sakura. Everyone had lately. Ya sure the whole village basically worshiped her but everyone who heard the stories of what really happened were scared of her. She was very different from the Gennin he had known almost 7 years earlier.

Sasuke watched as Sakura made her way back to the bridge in her white kimono again. She had done this several times this week. Sasuke could never understand what made her go there. It was a simple bridge nothing special about it. Maybe it was just because it was isolated…or maybe it was the previous spot for team 7. He never knew.

Sakura perched her arms on the rail again. This time going straight tot h burying of the face into her arms. She felt like sobbing again. Tsuande had banded her from training for two days to regain both sense and Chakra. Sakura had whined and complained but it was no use. She knew Tsuande was doing it for the better cause but why did she have to be like "that"? Sakura growled and glared at the water.

Sasuke was watching her know. Again she found it so irritating she almost wanted to turn around and tell him to leave. Sakura sat there her thoughts soon wondering into Sasuke and how if he tried anything would feel the wrath of her ninja pepper spray. Secretly she had enhanced it to temporarily blind her opponent.

Suddenly a hand grabbed her shoulder. Sakura clutched the pepper spray and was about to spray when it was hit out of her hand into the river. She had been flung around to face Sasuke but she only looked over her shoulder at her lost protection. She glared and thrust her hands out of his grip.

Sasuke not willing to argue gladly obliged to letting go. He then stuck his hands into his pockets and glared. He leaned against the opposite rail raising his brow to her. Sakura folded her arms and glared back.

"What do you want!" She sighed.

"We need to talk, now!" Sasuke said plainly.

"And what about…"

"Why did you kill Itachi!"

"I was ordered to. It was our mission to kill him."

"I don't believe you…you had other motives besides it was a mission. You wouldn't have been that violent."

"So im not entitled to be violent when necessary!" She growled.

"You had no right to kill him! It was my revenge. He killed my family…I thought you knew that."

"I did…but my motives are personal."

"You said he raped you."

Sakura stepped back angrily and glared. She turned around furiously not willing to look at Sasuke anymore. She would hit him if she stared one more moment at his face. He only gave her a few second before asking her again flinging her back to face him. She slapped his hand away and glared.

"Don't touch me!"

"Fine…now answer me. Why"

"BECAUSE HE RAPED ME…. he took my virginity from me…isn't that enough reason alone."

"No…its not."

"Your heartless…I was violated an you think the death of your family is worse."

"Ya…your still alive." He growled

"He basically killed me…my soul is dead thanks to him…he took everything from me…and I taught that bastard a lesson."

"HE KILLED MY ENTIRE FAMILY SAKURA!"

"HE IMPREGNANTED ME!" she screamed back. Sasuke took two steps back and gave her a shocked look.

Sakura turned and began to cry. Sasuke wanted to hug her but she wouldn't let him touch her…it seemed she was in so much pain and Sasuke suddenly felt compiled to give a hand and hug her. Help take away her pain. But he was there for a reason. His only reason for living up until then had been to kill Itachi. Sakura had taken that from him. Yet he still couldn't bring himself to the fact…he knew he was still…in love with her.

"Sakura…" he whispered.

"I thought it was only a mind jutsu…something to freak me out but those hospital trips…weren't for work…. I was the patient. I had the baby killed because it would keep reminding me of what happened. I was in pain, and I didn't know what to do."

"Sakura…why didn't you tell me." He said softly but angrily.

"How could I Sasuke! You were distant and I still didn't know if you loved me...or yearned for revenge more. I didn't want you to leave me. But you did…you left me…. again. The first time I took me two years to get over your disappearance. I cried every night for two years Sasuke! Neji came and helped me. He didn't ever underestimate me or leave me. He was alwa-…"

"I don't want to hear about Neji Hyuuga!" Sasuke cute her off.

"You never do…you don't care…you never did…my heart bleed for years Sasuke...yearning for only you…and I know it was stupid. But you can't blame me for being in love."

"Sakura…"

Sasuke drew in closer trying to hug her but she backed away shaking her head. She looked both frightened and enraged. But most of all she looked so Sad. Sasuke stepped back simply looking at her.

"It was so hard to look at you and realize how much I loved you…I would do anything. But then I would look at you and realize you didn't even care. You caused me so much pain Sasuke…"

"Sakura" Sasuke said again stepping towards her. "Im sorry…"

Sakura was enraged. For the first time she had heard sorry come out of his mouth. She gridded her teeth as her heart soared to hit him. She hated him. How could he? How dare he! He thinks sorry would cut it. For all the years she had spent running after him all he could say was sorry.

"I HATE YOU SASUKE! I hate you Sasuke Uchiha…I hate you." She repeated it over and over again.

Tears rolling endlessly down her cheeks. Sasuke found himself drawing closer to her. She had stopped trying to back away now. Sasuke took his hands out of his pockets and walked closer to her. She shook her head violently and began to hit him. Her fist closed tightly, beating on his chest weakly. He rapped her arms around her softly pulling her close. One hand lifted to rub her back softly as he continued to pull her as close as possible.

Sakura had her fists resting on his chest. She continues to shudder with sobs into his chest. She realized no matter how much she wanted to…no matter how much she tried she would always be in love with him. She cried even harder her sobs becoming loud into his chest. He only kept her embraced. She shook violently but didn't try to break free of his loving embrace.

"I…hate you…I hate you…. I hate you Sasuke…I do." She choked into his chest.

"I know…" He simply whispered and he held her close.

She shuddered with more sobs. She began to calm down and looked into the river. Rain began to pat against the bridge again. Sasuke simply continued to hold her. His arms rapped tightly around her. He didn't want to let her go. Sakura had stopped speaking and it was Sasukes' turn to speak.

"I love you Sakura…When I was younger my life revolved around kill him…but know this…when I returned and saw your face for the first time in three years my only meaning was to be with you. Don't you ever forget it, im here now…and I promise…I wont leave anywhere without you. Sakura im desperately in love with you, and it makes me miserable…to see you cry."

"You said miserable?" She said softly leaning her head against his chest softly.

"Yes" he replied.

"Then…when you hold me like this…you don't feel miserable?"

"Yes"

"Then…hold me Sasuke…please…now and forever…don't let me go..." Sakura smiled.

Sasuke blushed at her words. She stared up at him rapping an arm around the back of his neck. Sakura could hardly believe he had said all that mushy crap. But Sakura had loved it. She leaned up and pressed her lips into his. Sitting there in the cold rain, two soaking wet ninjas shared a passionate kiss.

Sasuke pressed harder on her lips and Sakura could hardly take all the pressure he was pressing onto her lips. She loved it more every second. She slowly parted the kiss gazing into his coal gray eyes and smiling. She simply hugged him again and sighed.

"Don't let me go…Sasuke"

"Hm" was his only reply.

Author Note: okay so…erm I think I just screwed up his character freakin big time but you have to admit...you love the mushy crap. Sorry but from here on out im trying to stay away from battles. Im kinda happy with this chapter. I think it turned out good. I had to listen to "First Love" by Utada Hikaru a bazillion times over to get the mood right. Anyway I hope you liked it too.

Next Chapters: yes notice the plural. There will be two chapters released at the same time. The "next" one will have lemon content and will very short. But still it's a separate chapter so people who don't have any wish to read it can move right on to the next chapter after it which will pick off the morning after. Yes now they do it. . Im sooo bad. Anyway ya erm the chapter after it will be entirely about Naruto's wedding. Well almost but not without Sasuke and Sakura fluff. Woot.