A/N: I apologize for the long wait between chapters. I have no excuses except for life. And I'm still not sure when the next chapter will be as I have a funeral and a wedding coming up. I'll try and get another one up soon though.

Chapter 4

Warm water washed over Arizona's fingers as she dipped the wash cloth down into the sink. She gave it a minute to let it soak up the soapy water before gently running the soft cloth over Sofia's tummy. The baby squirmed at the unfamiliar sensation but didn't let out any cries of dislike.

Blue eyes watched the tiny human carefully. A first bath could be loved or hated, she knew that. Sofia seemed content with the sensation after a moment. It obviously wasn't the first time Sofia had been washed, but it was the first time the babe got to experience sitting in a small tub of water. It was definitely a difference from the sponge baths she was used to.

Tiny little lips opened into an 'o' shape and made a coo like sound. "Do you like that baby girl?" Arizona asked. Sofia smiled and tried her best to tell her mama what she was feeling. Arizona laughed as she ran the cloth over every inch of her daughter. "You're a stinking baby," she teased. "Played hard with grandpa today, didn't you?"

Against Arizona's wishes, her mother had dragged her out of the house, leaving Sofia with her father for a few hours. Barbara was insistent that they finish getting everything Arizona hadn't had a chance to get yet. And of course Arizona had to go with to make sure she approved of what Barbara chose.

The blonde had then proceeded to spend the next three hours with a cell phone in her hand and her eye on the screen at every available moment. She was so sure that Sofia would need her and her father would be calling, begging them to come back. But it never happened.

As soon as they were back to the apartment, Arizona had torn through the door and took Sofia out of his arms, cuddling her close. She hadn't let either of her parents take her after that. She didn't want to ever let her go. This little person had stolen her heart and she knew she never wanted it back.

She did have to grudgingly admit though that the trip had been productive. A crib would be delivered in a few days for when Arizona was ready to let Sofia sleep in her own room. Her daughter now also had a swing set up in the living room as well as a play pen and a few other toys for her to play with as she grew a little older.

One thing that had been on the needed list was the Fisher Price pink bath tub that Sofia currently laid in. It was a step up from Arizona's original plan of using the kitchen sink.

"I think you're a little fishy. Are you a little fishy?" she babbled to Sofia. She didn't doubt that in a few months when Sofia was a little older, she would be splashing in the water. It's exactly what she would expect of someone with Callie's genes flowing through her.

"We have to wash your hair now." Even though Sofia didn't understand what she was saying, she wanted to tell her what was going to happen so that it might keep her from suddenly getting upset at anything unexpected.

Filling the small cup, she gently showered Sofia's dark curls with the warm water, careful to keep it out of her little brown eyes. Once it was thoroughly soaked, she poured some baby shampoo into her palms and lathered it up. "You are such a brave little girl," she cooed as she worked her fingers through the downy fine hair.

With the hair rinsed, Arizona reached for the pink hooded towel and wrapped Sofia up in it holding her close. The baby shivered from the change in temperatures, but wiggled like she was trying to snuggle closer.

"You think we should go visit mommy tomorrow? We didn't make it over there today and I'm sure she missed us. I know we sure missed her. Didn't we?" It was the first time Arizona hadn't visited Callie since she'd slipped into the coma. She didn't like that she'd missed that time but she also knew it might get harder to visit every day now that Sofia was home.

"Yeah, you think we should do that?" she asked when she saw Sofia's little mouth moving like she was trying to talk.

Quickly changing the baby into her pajamas, she wrapped her up in her blanket before heading to the kitchen to warm up a bottle. It was only a few minutes later that she was settling them both comfortably down on the couch.

With a few wiggles of the nipple on Sofia's lips, the baby greedily latched onto the bottle. Watching the baby's eyes drift closed as she suckled from her bottle was becoming one of Arizona's favorite parts of the day. She was so young and so innocent that Arizona wished more than anything she could shield her daughter from all of life's cruelties.

Her head drifted to the back of the couch as her own eyes slipped closed. A gentle humming of lullabies whispered through her lips as her mind began to wander about what the future could hold. She imagined Sunday morning walks through the park pushing a stroller. Her and Callie would have to take turns because neither one wanted their little girl far away. They'd stop at the pond and watch Sofia's excitement as she fed the ducks.

She imagined family vacations over the years. It didn't matter where they went, so long as they did so as a family. Although she hoped they at least made one visit to Disneyworld. But she would love to show Sofia the world, and she wanted Callie by her side while she did so. She wished with all her heart that her dream would someday be a reality.

~CA~

"Look whose come to see you again, Mommy," Arizona exclaimed cheerily as she entered Callie's hospital room. The other woman was currently supported so she was laying on her right side. She knew the nurses must have been in here a little bit ago to roll her on her side and get her cleaned up some. Arizona wished she still had the time to do that for her lover, but with Sofia she would have to trust the staff to do their jobs. Which would be a lot harder to do if Callie was anywhere else but their hospital.

Arizona laid Sofia down in front of Callie and laid the other woman's hand on the girl's belly so she could feel her mommy. "Say hi to Mommy," she told the baby.

The blonde sat there in silence as she watched Sofia study Callie's face. She couldn't deny that her little girl was definitely curious about this other person in the room. Eventually though the small brown eyes closed and she joined her mother in dreamland.

Arizona couldn't pull her eyes away from her two sleeping girls. Her entire world was right there in front of her and she couldn't do anything but keep an eye on them.

"How's everything going?"

Arizona jumped in her seat, startled. She had been so lost within her mind she hadn't heard Bailey enter the room. Only once she got her heart to return to normal did she turn to face the small woman. "You scared me."

"That much was obvious," Bailey all but laughed. "But really, how is everything going?"

Arizona could admit she wasn't even surprised that Bailey didn't even bother to apologize for almost giving her a heart attack. But she also knew she wouldn't let up until she answered her. "It's ok. We're slowly figuring things out. I'm still terrified I'm going to potentially screw her up for life, but my parents have been around to help."

"That's good then," Bailey responded. She walked past Arizona and stopped in front of the slumbering pair. She ran a hand down Sofia's soft cheek with a smile on her face. "She seems to be nice and healthy. And happy," she added, spotting the slight smirk on the infant's face.

"I have to admit she's a good baby. She's up every few hours which I expected, but she really only whimpers. I haven't experienced any full out screaming yet. There was a bit the first night but we figured out what worked to calm her down."

"That's good."

"Now if only Callie would wake up so I could take her home too."

Arizona said it so quietly Bailey wasn't sure if she was meant to hear it or not. She wasn't sure what could even be said anymore. They all had hope that Callie would wake up eventually. But the longer she remained unconscious, the longer the doctor in all of them began to lose belief in that ever happening. At this point there were so many odds stacked against her. And she knew that Arizona knew that. But neither woman wanted to vocalize that idea. It would make it to real.

"You just keep having faith and the rest of us will do the best we can to make sure it happens," Bailey offered.

"I just got her back, I can't lose her again," Arizona whispered sadly. She ran a hand over her eyes, trying to wipe away the tears that had begun to fall.

"I came back from freaking Africa to be with her. I gave up my dream job to come back here. Because I knew as soon as I landed and got off the plane that I was missing something. I left my heart in Seattle and I knew I'd never get it back in Africa. Not without Callie. She's the love of my life. I'll never find anyone else. This can't be how we end. It just can't be. We've been through too much already to just have it end here. We even survived a freaking shooter in the hospital for crying out loud. I refuse to believe a stupid truck is going to take everything away from us. It can't." Her words ended on a whisper, but the tears continued to flow. She wasn't sure how to make them stop now.

Bailey pulled a chair around and took a seat beside her distraught friend. She placed a hesitant hand on Arizona's shoulder. "You'll get through this, no matter how it ends," she tried to reassure. "Have you talked to somebody about this? Like a professional?" She didn't know if asking that would be a smart thing, but it was clear Arizona had a lot of emotions she wasn't dealing with.

Arizona wiped at the tears in her eyes again and tried to compose herself. "No, I'm fine. Really." She tried argue in her defense but they both knew that she was far from fine.

"You know it's not a bad thing. Talking to a therapist, or even a counselor. It doesn't make you weak. Everybody needs a little help from time to time. Especially when they've been through a traumatic event." Bailey nodded her head towards Sofia and Callie to stress her point.

Arizona knew what her friend was saying was true. She had been through a trauma. Watching Callie's heart stop and then seeing her own daughter born without a heartbeat of her own. Being the one to actually start her heart again. It was more trauma than she wanted to experience in one life time. Knowing that she could lose both of the ones she loved in one day. Maybe talking to someone wouldn't be such a bad idea.

Although the former marine's daughter in her was trying to argue that it was in fact a sign of weakness. She was raised to be a strong and independent woman and asking for help just wasn't a part of that. But there were just some things that you couldn't handle on your own, medical school taught her that when she'd gone through her psychology classes. Everything within her mind at that moment was at war with everything else.

"We have some really good counselor's right here on the staff. But if you want a little more privacy there's a woman's health clinic I could also recommend," Bailey offered.

"I'll think about it and get back to you." She didn't know who she was kidding. Arizona would be asking her for that recommendation sooner rather than later. It was just her stubborn pride that made her hold off for just a little bit longer. If only to prove to herself that she could.

As she looked at her sleeping angels, she knew she would do anything for them. And to do that, she needed to be healthy herself, physically and mentally. She didn't know what Callie would think, but a part of her thought that her girlfriend would probably be down with the idea.

Later that night she laid Sofia down in the swing and started its rocking motion. The baby was awake for now but it wouldn't be long before she was ready for her last bottle of the night and to be tucked into bed. The blonde watch the almost smile that appeared on her daughter's face as the seat took her back and forth. She'd give that girl the world if she could.

Knowing it was now or never, Arizona unlocked her phone and found the number she was looking for. She waited several minutes for the other person to pick up. "I think I want that number for the clinic now," she asked softly.

It took Bailey a minute to figure out who her caller was, but when she did, she quickly went to find the number for her friend. She was hopeful that no matter the outcome, Arizona would be okay.