Ok guys, I start school tomorrow D: sucks I know but like that means I won't update a lot ok? So I don't think that I abandoned this story ok? Lol

Dimitri POV

I walked to the student dorms and knocked on Rose's door. I waited patiently, but after standing there knocking for about two minutes, that patience wore off.

"Rose?" I called into the door. No answer.

I began to worry, what if she was sleeping with some guy? God if that were true then she's going to be wishing that she had a different mentor.

I jiggled the handle to find that it wasn't locked. Hm, I thought, that was clumsy of Rose. I walked into her room, shutting the door behind me to find her lying on her bed. I smiled, she looked so peaceful, but then a patch of red on the white sheets caught my eyes. My smile vanished and I felt the blood drain from my face. There was a pair of scissors lying next to her.

I ran to her and brushed the hair away from her face.

"Roza, Roza please don't die on me," I cried. I turned her to face me and saw her wrist. The blade hadn't crossed any vital veins, so it was pretty minor. I let out the breathe that I didn't even notice that I was holding in. The cut was pretty deep, but it had stopped bleeding. i ran to the bathroom and founda few band-Ade's in her drawer. I went back to her and put one of them on her wrist

I gently shook her, whispering her name over and over again. I pained me so much to know that I was the cause of all this, that I had basically made her cut herself. This one was basically all on me even though i hadn't taken the blade and slid it across her wrist. I might as well have.

I felt her stir and she opened her eyes. I sighed, relieved that I wasn't too late. Her chocolate brown eyes were filled with pain and sadness, but she quickly brushed that away.

"Roza, I'm so sorry," I told her, stroking that brown hair that i adored.

"Why Dimitri, I'm not good enough for you anymore?" She asked, her voice was cracked.

How could she think that? I love her! But if I saw her with another guy I would be pretty upset too.

"You are good enough, you're more than enough. Tasha is just an old friend, she kissed me without my consent, and I didn't realize what was happening," I told her truthfully.

She shook her head, "I don't believe you. You're always so strong, if you wanted to break away then you could have. Even if you were delirious with fever you could have."

"I love you, Roza. Please believe that. She just came in to take care of me, and then she started to get out of hand, but I do love you Roza," I told her. The words I was saying to her were dangerous and I shouldn't have said them, but I needed to make the pain go away. I needed to make her better.

She nodded, her face breaking into a smile. God I love her smile, I thought. Suddenly I remembered the day when I foundher being thrown around by Natilie. She looked so fraglie, lying in a heap on the floor. I remember how much pain I had felt, and how i had prayed to god that she wouldn't die because if she did then I knew that I would have died with her.

"Now tell me what happened," I told her, brushing the memory away.

"I was upset when I saw you and Tasha like that, and well, I kinda blacked out after I cut myself." She told me.

I sighed, I expected her to say that, but nothing could have prepared me for how much those words hurt.

I just nodded, unable to express any of my feelings. That was a good thing in this case because if she saw how hurt I really was, then all my walls would break down.

"Listen, you have your Qualifier tomorrow right after class," I told her, trying to change the subject.

Her eyes got wider with each word I spoke, nd her jaw practically landed on the bed.

"Oh my god, seriously? Dammit, why didn't you tell me earlier?" She asked me.

I smiled, "Because then that would be cheating if I told you about it."

She nodded, "Ok, I guess I can't blame you," She mumbled.

I laughed, "I was going to tell you tomorrow which would have been even worse."

She nodded, biting her lower lip. Suddenly, I felt my phone vibrating and sighed. Sometimes I just wished that I could kick back and ignore my annoying phone.

"Belikov," I said crisply.

"Belikov, it's Alberta, you don't sound sick to me," Alberta's tone was angry. I didn't blame her, Rose had told her that I was sick.

"I'm better, and I can do boarder patrols if you need me," I told her.

"Good, because I need you right now to patrol the male dorms," She told me.

"I'll be right there, Alberta," I told her and hung up.

"Rose, I got to go," I told her, and her face twisted into a small grimace.

"How come, going to go sleep with Tasha again?" She asked me, her tone turned icy.

I sighed. You know when you really wish that you could turn back time and change the past so that the future would be better? This is one of those times. Tasha Ozero is not a bad woman, she just gets over excited, and her actions are misinterpreted. She was just happy to see me, and got a little excited.

"No, I have to patrol the male dormitories," I told her and walked away from her. As much as I hated to leave her there on the bed all by herself, I had to. My duties always come first, even if it meant leaving the most beautiful woman in the world.

She nodded, I knew she would understand. Rose gave me a smile and waved. I just nodded, fuck the mentor rules. Who ever wrought the stupid book anyways? Why couldn't we be all friendly with our students and give a smile once in a while? I sighed, this was the life I chose, and now I have to stick with it not matter what. I walked out the door, my head still swimming with how Roza smelled and what she looked like on the bed. Fragile, broken. I grimaced. I caused that pain. I caused her to constantly be in pain and that tore me apart...