Chapter 3: I just want to cry

Mello woke up first, he was wrapped in Matt's arms, he smiled, then cuddled into Matt's chest. 'He's so warm, he feels like a heated pillow, so comfy.' Mello thought to himself.

"Good morning Mell."

"When did you wake up?! You scared the shit out of me." Matt laughed.

"Sorry, sorry, I woke up a few seconds after you." Matt kissed Mello's forehead, making the blond blush. Matt chuckled and wrapped his arms around Mello's waist, to bring the both of them closer together. "I love you Mell."

"I love you too Mattie." Mello cuddled closer to Matt, and smiled.

"I'm surprised you haven't got up to have chocolate yet."

"That's because... Well because, right now your more important than chocolate." Matt blushed as red as his hair. He couldn't believe what Mello had just told him, he thought it was a dream. He never in a million years could ever imagine that something, someone, that he could be more important than chocolate to the blond boy. Matt smiled and let tears of happiness stream down his eyes, these days he was easily moved, with all the love, and caring that Mello has shown him. "Matt?"

"I just want to cry, cry tears of happiness, tears of joy, I love you Mello, I love you so very much." Mello whipped away Matt's tears, he didn't want to see him cry, even if they were tears of joy.

"Matt?" Matt looked at the blond, who had a strange look on his face, a look of; hurt, confusion, and a little anger. "What the fuck are those on your wrist?!" Matt's eyes widened, he thought that they were not noticeable anymore, but was wrong. And Mello saw all fifteenth cuts. "Why?...."

"It was when you threatened me, to go buy you chocolate's, I was depressed, there was nothing at that time to stop me, there was-"

"I don't want to to hurt yourself, do you understand that?! I love and care about you too much for you to do that!" Matt started crying, he put his head in his hands, and Mello pulled him close, so he could cry on his shirt.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He repeated it over and over many times, until he couldn't speak anymore, and he became tired again, and felt a little dizzy. Mello petted Matt's head, as he let the goggle wearing redhead to fall asleep on him. Mello looked at the clock, and it was still early, so he decided to go back to sleep with Matt.

That feeling of being so close like that was a great memory. 15 years later.

Matt= 20

Mello= 21

Matt was not allowed into his and Mello's new room, well not yet. Mello had told him, 'You have to wait outside for awhile k' please? I need to set something very, well you'll see, k' Mattie?' Mello then had kissed Matt deeply, and with so much passion, it swept Matt off of his feet. And now he was waiting for Mello and what every he had set up inside. Matt got bored and started playing a new game, and let himself slide down the wall next to the door.

'It's been a whole year, since I first cut myself, a year since,' Matt turned off his game and started remembering the pain Mello gave him when he was angry. 'no matter what, Mello will never, ever hurt me again, right? What if I somehow accidentally piss him off? What-' His thoughts were interrupted by the door to their new room, opening. Matt entered the room.

"Mello?" The door shut behind Matt, and he looked around the room. Candles lit, giving the room a dim light, of the dancing fire. And the smell of chocolate caught Matt's nose, and he walked over to the other half of the room, where the chocolate was coming from. "Mello are you in here?" He heard a chuckle, then felt arms wrap around his waist. He leaned into him.

"Mattie, I love you, and tonight is going to be fun." Matt turned his head to give the blond a confused look. "You'll see. I said that before now didn't I?" Matt nodded. Mello smiled. He lowered his hands until they where on the waist-line on Matt's pants, making Matt both blush and moan. "I want tonight to be out special first time." Matt blushes really red.

"Is that why you took so long?" Matt chuckled, making Mello pout a little. "K' sorry, sorry, I'm glad you put a lot of effort into our first time." Matt kissed Mello's nose, making the blond almost loose control.

"Matt I want you to come to the kitchen with me k'?" Matt looked at him curiously. They walked to the kitchen and the smell of chocolate was so powerful. "I prepared something that the both of us shall enjoy, maybe me more, but we'll see.

"What do you mean Mells?" Mello only smiled, then went closer to Matt go kiss him deeply. Matt kissed him back, wrapping his arms around Mello's neck, to deepen the kiss. When they pulled away to get breath, Matt said to his adorable blond: "I love you so much Mello." Mello slightly blushed and hid it by lying his head down on Matt's shoulder.

"Well I have something that I would really like to do, for our first time, having sex and what not. And I think that we will BOTH really enjoy it?" Mello smirked and giggled, Matt somewhat nodded and smiled at his blond boy friend.

"What did you have in mind?"

"Well since I hadn't had much chocolate in a while, because I have been saving it for this special occasion, I melted at least twenty big chocolate bars, and plan on using them for, hot and sticky sex. What do you say?" Matt was speechless, he didn't know what to say, but his lower regions where totally awake, and screaming 'YES' big time.

Matt only nodded slowly. Mello chuckled at Matt's lack for words, he then went closer again to Matt, and started slowly raising his shirt, and in his other hand which was free, grabbed the bowl of melted chocolate. "Matt I think it would be best if you got up on the edge of the counter, or would you like to be a really dirty boy?" Matt got up on the counter, making Mello giggle. 'This is going to be a very fun night.'

"Mello, are you planing to pour all of the chocolate on me? Or just some, cuz' I want to do this to you too." Both of them blushed a big deep crimson. "But you don't have to-"

"Shhh I'll save some for you, I think that it will be very fun to have, melted chocolate on me, who knows', maybe it will turn me on even more then," Mello looked at Matt's thin yet muscled body. "maybe it will turn me on more, then your body already does?" He smiled as Matt blushed and tried to hide the blush. "Oh Mattie, you don't need to hide your blush, it's really adorable!"

"You're making me blush even more Mells'." Mello chuckled.

"Good, I love it when you blush." Mello pressed his body closer to Matt's until his mouth was at his neck, he licked, and sucked, even nipped at the sensitive flesh under his lips. Matt moaned and shivered in pleasure. Mello pulled off Matt's shirt, making him shiver again, and Mello slowly started pouring some of the warm, melted chocolate onto Matt's chest.

"Ahhhah, the chocolate feels so good, sliding down my body!" Matt felt like he was in heaven, and Mello was going to take him there, at least make him feel like he is even more in heaven.

Mello eyed Matt, he looked up and down Matt's chest as he looked at the chocolate, where he wanted to start licking. He leaned closer to the red head, and lowered himself, then started licking Matt's chocolate covered stomach. He lapped at the sweet substance until he reached Matt's belly-button, he then thrusted his tongue in and out of Matt's belly-button, somewhat showing what he wanted to do to him. "Ahhah, Mello!" Matt screamed, and Mello licked all the way up Matt's chest until he got to a hard chocolate nipple. He then sucked, hard. Matt grabbed Mello's head, tangling his fingers in the long blond locks.

"Matt I want to be inside you so bad." Mello breathed into Matt's neck, Matt shivered under him, and somewhat smiled.

Mello took off his own shirt, making Matt lick his lips at the sight in front of him. Then he slowly put his fingers in the waist band of his own pants, and slowly and seductively pulled them down, then did the same thing to Matt, leaving only their boxers' on. Mello giggled, at the sight of Matt's boxers, actually he laughed his ass off. Matt looked at him confused.

"Mello what's so funny, and with that you totally ruined the mood!"

"Hahaha, sorry Mattie, it's just that," He laughed some more, then stopped himself to continue talking. "Your boxers, there cute." Matt was wearing blue boxers, with the '1-up Mushroom's' plastered all over it from 'Mario'. Matt blushed really red. Mello stopped laughing, and grabbed Matt's hips, straddling him. Matt turned his head, pouting, then making Mello sigh. Matt looked at Mello, who smiled. He was tricked.

"Mello."

"Yes Mattie?"

"You're so unfair, you tricked me somewhat."

"No I didn't I just pretended to be mad. And still your boxers are cute." He smiled down on Matt, then licked the remaining chocolate that still lay on Matt's body, Matt blushed and shivered at the feeling of Mello's wet tongue on his body. Mello chuckled and went lower until his lips were hovering over the waist band of Matt's boxers. Matt looked down at Mello, blushing and breathing somewhat fast, as he felt Mello's even breath, the heat going on his cock, making it twitch.

"Ah Mello!"

"So sensitive." His breath tickled Matt's cock, and it hardened even more under his boxers. Mello chuckled. "I think that someone needs release." He grabbed the waist-band of Matt's boxers with his teeth, and pulled them down fast, Matt's cock coming out fast and hard.

"Ahhah." Mello looked at Matt's throbbing cock, and nuzzled it, smiling as it twitched, then kissed it, and started licking it from the head, all the way to the base, then nibbling on Matt's balls a little, to tease him. "Ahhhah, Mells." Mello lightly sucked on his cock, sucking only on the head, to make it all swollen, then soon taking all of it into his mouth, deep-throating Matt. Matt grabbed Mello's golden locks of hair, somewhat forcing Mello to keep him from bobbing his head up and down, and to only suck on it all. "Mello, ahhh-....I'm cumming!" Mello smiled and thrusted his head up and down three times somewhat fast, and made Matt cum, he then swallowed all of Matt's semen.

"Hmm, Mattie you taste better then, I imagined." Matt blushed super red, somewhat panting from his hard orgasm. "But don't think that is going to be the, only time you orgasm tonight Mattie." Matt nodded, he already new that.

Mello then ran a hand down back to Matt's re-hardening cock, and then went lower, to his tight entrance, never before played with. And tonight was the night night to use it. Matt shivered and his eyes widened as he felt Mello's fingers probing his fingers into his tight entrance. Mello couldn't get more then one finger in, and he knew he had to get at least three in. He didn't want to hurt Matt. He looked at the chocolate, and smiled. 'Chocolate has so many uses these days.' He chuckled then dipped his fingers in, then going back to Matt's entrance.

Matt was tight, but the managed to slip two, then after some scissoring he was able to get the third one in. "Ahahahah!" With each and every thrust that Mello made into Matt, Matt's moans got louder and more seductive. Mello forcefully pushed his fingers really deep, then took them out. Matt cried out in pain.

"I'm sorry Matt," He finally took off his own boxers, to reveal his own hard cock. This was going to be a very long, and very steamy night, and both of them knew it.