Heey! So heres week 9! Enjoyy!!! Oh yeah, and sorry for all the typos in the last chapter,, I was mega tired when I wrote it. I went back and mixed them all now =]

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Week 9-Dec 22

I was dreading this day. I was doing everything I could to postpone this day for as long as possible. But it finally came. Tuesday. My next meeting with Laura.

I had managed to get out of Saturday's meeting by faking the flu, which is pretty easy to do with my morning sickness. But I knew that sooner or later I would have to go, and I guess that sooner is better then later.

I walked down to the kitchen to grab some breakfast, and saw Edward sitting at the island. We had decided not to tell anyone about us yet. We knew that Carlisle and Esme would most likely not approve. "Mornin." I came up behind him and kissed him on the cheek.

"Good morning my lovely." I spun around and kissed me on the lips. "Sleep well?"

"Mhmm." I smiled, "I dreamt about you."

"Oh really, and what may I ask happened in the dream?"

"Thats for me to know and for you to find out." I leaned in towards him when I heard a high pitched voice behind me.

"Whats for you to know and him to find out?" Alice asked, helping herself to a muffin.

I moved away from Edward quickly, then spun around. "Nothing." I said quickly. "Absolutely nothing."

Alice looked at me skeptically. "I'm not stupid. Something is going on here..."

"She was just telling me about a dream she had. Its nothing/" Edward assured her.

"Tell me what happened!" She insisted, "Something is going on here, and I don't like being left out. Why won't you tell me?"

"Tell her what?" Esme asked as she walked into the room. Fuck, I mean can we not catch a break here?

"Bella said that she had a dream about Edwar-" Alice started to say, but Edward cut her off.

"Alice!" He shouted, "Shut up please!"

"But I want to know!" She whined.

"Edward, don't shout. Alice they don't have to tell you if they don't want to, although I would like to hear about this dream."

"Not happening mom." Edward said, "Sorry."

Esme looked confused, but luckily dropped the subject. "Bella we are leaving in twenty minutes. Alice I'm dropping you off at the mall to meet Mackenzie, right?"

"Yes!" She squealed, and like that the dream was forgotten. "I have to go get ready!" She bounced out of the room, and Esme followed her.

"Now about that dream..." I turned and looked back at Edward.

He laughed, "I don't think that this is a very secure place to talk Bells."

"Yeah, I suppose you're right." I frowned. "It was a pretty amazing dream though."

"I bet it was. Follow me." He led me to Carlisle's empty office and shut the door behind us.

He leaned in and our lips met. Kissing Edward was like nothing else. I had been wanting to do so much more with him, but I didn't want to mess things up. We have something amazing and I would hate to ruin in.

"I have to go now," I said as I broke away from him.

"Now?" He asked, leaning towards me again. I pouted, and nodded. "I'll be thinking of you." He promised. "Me too." I smiled.

Edward went to watch TV and I went to the kitchen to actually get some food before we left. Esme stuck her head into the room and told me we had to go. I grabbed and bagel and followed her into the garage.

In the car I stared out the window, smiling to my self as I thought of Edward. It had only been five days, but I know that we have something special.

"What are you all smiley about?" Esme asked.

"Nothing." I immediately stopped smiling.

"What was Alice talking about this morning?"

"Nothing." I said very fast.

"It wasn't nothing!" Alice chirped from the back seat. "I'm thirteen Bella, I'm not stupid. You and Edward were talking about something important! Why won't you tell me?"

"It was nothing Alice." I folded my arms in front of me.

"I didn't sound like nothing." Alice protested.

I twisted around in my seat. "Please be quiet Alice! Nothing happened!"

"You awfully defensive Bella," Esme laughed, "I'm very curious what this dream was about."

"It was about nothing." I huffed.

Esme pursed her lips, but didn't push the subject. She dropped me off in front of Laura's office and told me she would be back in an hour.

"How are you Bella?" Laura asked.

"I'm great." I couldn't hide my smile.

"Well thats good. Did you have a good week?"

"Great week. We had our school dance."

"Did you go with anyone?"

"Sort of..." I didn't want to tell her about Edward. I knew she wouldn't understand. "I went with a, uh, friend."

"Thats fun." She said, and I nodded in agreement.

"Are you looking forward to Christmas?" We want on with this small talk for fifteen minutes before things got serious. "So Bella, are you still feeling the same way about the baby?"

I placed my hand on my still flat stomach. "Yes." We talked for a while more about the baby, and then she brought up the subject I had been dreading.

"When we left off two weeks ago I was asking you about any abuse in your pervious homes. I know you don't want to talk about, but its an important part of the healing process."

"Laura, I have been in more homes then I can remember. Some of them were amazing, and some...not so much. I don't see why I have to talk about it. Whenever I think about it always end up dreaming about it." My voice was full of silent pleading, begging her not to open these doors again.

"So you have been hit?" I nodded, "Bella, did anyone in the foster homes, besides Kyle, ever rape you?" I nodded again, biting my tung to keep from crying.

"Please," I begged, "Please don't make me talk about it!"

"Why did you never tell anyone that you were being abused?" She asked.

"I deserved it." I whispered. I looked at the door, and considered making a run for it. "I wasn't a very good kid. Everything that happened was my fault."

"Now Bella," Laura leaned forward and looked at me intensely, "That is a lie. Its what people tell kids to keep them quiet. It makes the abuser feel less guilty about what they are doing if they convince themselves, and their victims, that its the victims fault, that they deserved it."

"I want to believe you." I cried. "I do."

"Bella, the people who hurt you are horrible horrible people. They are the bad ones, not you."

We spent the rest of the hour talking about what happened in my past, and by the time I climbed into Esme's car I felt a little better. I was beginning to understand that I didn't deserve to be beaten. Laura said it would take a lot of work, but I would heal. I would learn to forgive and forget, and I would see that I was a hell of a lot better then those bastards who hit me.

"Good session?" Esme asked.

"Yes." I replied, "We are making progress. I'm still keeping the baby though."

Esme sighed but didn't say anything else.

***

"BELLA!" Alice screeched. "BELLA! ITS CHRISTMAS MORNING!"

I quickly jumped out of bed and followed Alice down to the living room. I know fifteen is kind of old to be getting super excited over christmas, but I'd never had a christmas like this before. The huge pine tree sat in the middle of the room, covered in lights and decorations, and piled under the tree were mounds of presents. Esme had gotten up early to make christmas breakfast, and the house smelled of warm cinnamon buns.

"Mommommom!" Alice flew into the kitchen, "Can we please open our presents?"

"Alice," Esme laughed, "Wait till everyone else is up, then we can open presents." Alice bolted up the stairs, and returned thirty seconds later followed by the rest of my sleepy eyed family.

"They're up."

"Alice!" Esme clucked, but I could see her smile fighting to spread. "Ok," She gave in, "I guess we can start."

We all gathered around the huge tree and took turns opening our gifts. I got a bunch of maternity clothes, some make up, an iPod dock, money, a winter jacket and some books, movies and DVD's.

"Thank you so much!" I went around and gave everyone a hug, thanking them over and over again for the wonderful gifts.

We sat down around the large dining room table and filled our plates high with food. "So Bells," Emmett said with a mouth full of food, "When can you find out the baby's gender?"

"I'm not sure, I have a doctors appointment in a few weeks, so I'll ask."

"What do you think it will be?" Rosalie asked.

"Not sure. I haven't really gotten to know it that well yet. It doesn't move or anything yet. I'm thinking maybe a girl, cause every time I eat it makes me throw up, and I don't know many boys who do that." I laughed.

"What do you want it to be?" Jasper asked.

"Mmm, I'm not sure. I kind of want girl, someone to dress up and stuff. Boys are lots of fun too though."

"What names do you like?" Alice chirped.

"Guys," Esme spoke up, "I don't think we should be picking out baby names quite yet..." I wanted to yell at her, but bit my tung. I'll talk to her after lunch.

The topic quickly changed to what everyone had planned for the rest of the break. I was still fuming though. I could pick out baby names if I wanted to.

After breakfast everyone cleaned up then went their own ways. I went upstairs to Esme's room.

"Esme?" I knocked on the door.

"Come in!" She called.

I opened the door and saw her lying on her bed reading a book. "Why can't I pick baby names?" I asked, cutting right to the chase.

Esme sighed then shut her book, "Look, Bella, I just don't want you getting too attached to the baby, just in case you decide to go with adoption."

Thats when I really blew up, "I'm not fucking giving my baby away! Please stop trying to force me! Its not your fucking business, its mine. If you don't want me to keep the baby thats fine, but I am. Its my choice!"

"Bella, I didn't mean to upset you. If you want to keep the baby I fully support you, but I also will support you if you want to look into adoption. You don't have to commit, all I'm asking of you is to just look into it."

"Fine!" I screamed, "Fine! I'll 'look into it'! Just leave me the fuck alone about it though, please!" Tears were rolling down my cheeks.

Esme climbed off the bed and wrapped her arms around me. Even though I was angry at her, I held her close. "Thank you for everything you do, Esme. I love you."

"I love you too Bella." She kissed the top of my head.

*****

This was the first year in a long time that I didn't have plans for new years. Jasper was going to a friends house, Edward was going to a sophomore party, Emmett was going to some Junior party and Rosalie best friend's older brother was a senior, so Rose and her friend were going to a senior party (She had told Esme that she was just going to her friends house, conveniently leaving out the party part of it) Even Carlisle and Esme were going to a party that the hospital was throwing.

So it was just Alice and I. Edward invited me to come with him, but I wanted to stay with Alice. We watched movies together, ordered pizza, talked about boys and painted nails. We thought about baby names and I helped Alice set up a Facebook account. At midnight I let her have some champagne, and I had just had seven-up.

"I had a lot of fun with you tonight." Alice told me as we were sitting together watching Shes the Man. "I'm glad I could spend new years with you."

"Me too Alice." I wrapped my arms around her and gave her a big hug.

I heard the front door open, and then checked the time. It was only twelve fifteen, who was home this early.

"Hello?" I called out.

"Its just me." Rosalie called out, and it sounded like she was crying.

"Why are you home so early? Are you alright?" I asked her.

"I'm fine, just not feeling well. Going to bed. Night." I heard her door slam, then turned back to the movie with Alice.

****

"Bella?" I heard someone hiss.

"What?" I moaned, rolling over. My digital clock read 3:37am.

"Bella, its Rosalie, I need to talk to you."

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